Chinese I don't know how Jiang Hao would feel when he heard me say that.

When I say it, I feel the urge to keep talking, and I think I really need someone to talk to, but I didn't dare to tell anyone before.

Jiang Hao is different, he is no one else. He has witnessed almost all of my depravity, and most of the things that I dare not be known to others have been intervened by him, or even caused by him.

But I don't know how to say it, I don't know where to say it, I can only cry, and I look very aggrieved in a low voice.

Jiang Hao actually feels most sorry for me like this, because I rarely feel wronged by him.

He finally couldn't help but take my shoulders and wipe my tears with his fingers, "What's the matter? Who bullied you, tell me, I definitely can't spare him, don't cry, huh?"

I raised my head and looked at Jiang Hao, and suddenly I felt a sense of heartbreak.

Jiang Hao nodded gloomily, with a hurt expression on his face, "Then I won't bully you, tell me what's going on?"

I said I didn't, anyway, I just didn't, and I couldn't explain it to him, whether he believed it or not.

He nodded to me very firmly, and said that he believed it, and he said, "I believe everything you say." ”

Then Jiang Hao hugged me, the two of us lay on the bed together, I had no strength, the whole person was swung by him and hung on him, he touched my face with his hand, and suddenly sighed, "I miss you." ”

As soon as I closed my eyes, two more tears fell.

Jiang Hao asked me in a consultative tone, "Then will you come back?"

I shook my head, "You're the one who walks away first." ”

He didn't speak, his mouth was close to me and he kissed me carefully, he kissed me very lightly, I didn't refuse, I didn't cooperate, I just felt numb.

"I'll break up with her, and I'll promise not to do it in the future, okay?"

I shook my head, "I don't want to. ”

He was silent and asked me again, "Do you dislike me anymore?"

I always felt that he was a little pitiful and abandoned like that. So this time, I'm silent.

After the silence, I told him, "I like you, but it's not the same as your like, you know? I can't play with you, I tried, I really can't afford it." I'm with you, and I'm only going to become more dependent day by day, and I won't be able to let go. I'll be crazy when you don't want me. ”

The more I talked, the more I remembered those things in the past, in fact, Jiang Hao was good to me, but he didn't give me what I wanted the most.

Then I was tired, my body was tired, this half-baked love had already exhausted me physically and mentally, and if I tossed with him again, I felt like I was really done playing.

"When I was with you, every day I was afraid that you would suddenly have to leave, and suddenly change your mind. Later I found out that you don't have a heart at all, or maybe you just don't want to put your heart on me. I don't want to quarrel with you, but it seems that only then can I pretend to be stronger, and I can have a different appearance in your eyes, and I am dying with you just to make you pay more attention to me. ”

"I'm paying attention. You're different. ”

"But those aren't the right way, so you're annoyed. Next time, you'll be annoyed. Actually, I've thought about it these days, I probably don't like you very much, for me, you're probably only because it's the first time I've been so dedicated, but in the future, I'll still like other people, and I'll fall in love with other people, and I'll be dedicated, and I'll be serious. When the time comes, you will be no different from others, I will think of you, that kind of special and light, not happy and not sad......"

"Don't talk about it. ”

Jiang Hao suddenly interrupted me, I raised my eyelids to look at him, seeing the anger in his eyes, he also tried to restrain himself, and said, "I won't let you fall in love with someone else." ”

I smiled at him and choked up, "You're not qualified to care about me." ”

I may have really figured it out, I really don't like Jiang Hao that much, he went to Beijing, took away part of my enthusiasm, he fell in love, made me start to be disheartened, and the things he did today made me completely scared.

Jiang Hao guessed what I was thinking, and he said, "I didn't know there was a problem with the water. ”

My strength has recovered a little at this time, and I can wink at him and pretend to be innocent, "So, it's dangerous to follow you, what fox friends and dog friends you have around you are really not suitable for me." ”

I said, "I don't want to live my life anymore." ”

Jiang Hao also figured it out, he might have been impulsive, and after listening to me talk about this, he would also analyze the pros and cons for himself in his heart.

As a result, he was more afraid than I was, and he didn't dare to provoke my trouble, otherwise how would he be in the women's pile in the future.

I am a small tree, even though he has taken care of it sincerely, even though he thinks he likes it a little more than the others, but it really can't compare to the forest behind him.

But Jiang Hao didn't let me go, he said that it was so late, no wonder he was not at ease.

I understood what he meant.

Then lie down with him for a while, and the two of us hugged each other, although we didn't have sex, but I felt even more ashamed of it.

Anyway, it's the last time, so I'll go out with him.

Jiang Hao pinched my hand in the palm of his hand to play, this is Jiang Hao's favorite thing to do in the past, he said that my fingers are very beautiful, and they are soft to pinch.

He said, "I felt like it was you that day, why didn't you tell me? If you did, I'd have taken you away." Isn't that too late?"

"Probably. ”

I closed my eyes and quietly experienced the feeling brought by every physical contact, and his ** there was gradually fading, returning to a soft and cute state, sticking to my legs, which made people disgusted.

"Every time is different, I haven't figured it out that day. ”

I figured it out today, probably because I finally poured out the words that I had hidden in my heart at all.

The moment I bravely admitted that I just liked Jiang Hao, I also had the courage to give up on him.

It's as if someone makes a mistake, and in the end they can't stand the condemnation of their conscience and turn themselves in, and they also feel that if they admit their mistakes, they can be a new person.

Now I'm Chen Xiang, after being Huo Huo by Jiang Hao, I'm going to be a new person.

It's not that he pretends to be strong on the surface, but he can really smile and treat him as an unbearable past, and in the future, he can happily take it out as a negative teaching material, and warn himself that he can't jump into the pit anymore.

I like Jiang Hao, what a special like, I finally dare to treat him as my first love now.

Before Jiang Hao, I really didn't have a serious relationship, maybe it won't hurt, so he is the first, not physically, but heart.

I hugged Jiang Hao and said something very hypocritical.

"Do you know that every second that passes now, I like you a little less than the last. ”

Jiang Hao pinched my waist with his fingers, unable to say anything.

On this day, it is actually Jiang Hao's birthday, his twenty-fifth birthday. What is the concept of twenty-five, he is thirty years old if rounded.

The adults among the adults should really think about the issue of starting a family and maturation, he told me that it would not be the girl in Beijing, and he had a showdown with others last night and broke up.

I understand that who he is with or who he breaks up with is not because of me. Jiang Hao told me that it just made me feel less guilty, at least I was holding someone else's boyfriend.

But until just now, he didn't say anything about the breakup, and he was leaving a way out for himself.

Forget it, I don't bother with him.

Jiang Hao's twenty-five years old has another meaning.

On this day a year ago, the two of us met for the first time, and it was the first time he changed the trajectory of my ordinary life.

If it weren't for him at the beginning, I would definitely be as innocent as Lin Xia and Lu Xiaoqi now, and I can definitely say with confidence that I will not be easily tempted.

I don't have a virgin complex, but something has happened, it's just different.

Jiang Hao asked me about my future plans.

I said, "Let's film, finish filming this first, I don't want to go any way in the future, I can come how I want, it's a big deal to go to the running group when I graduate, it's a big deal to be a little dragon." ”

I held back my tears, "I don't want to be sorry for the person I'm going to live with for the rest of my life." ”

I slept until the next morning, and when I woke up, Jiang Hao still maintained the posture of holding me, and it was estimated that my arm was already numb.

I changed my clothes and covered him with a quilt, and found my mobile phone on the table, Jiang Hao turned off my phone again last night.

turned on, there were a lot of missed calls, and they were called by Lu Xiaoqi's boyfriend.

I dialed back with a question, "What's wrong?"

"Are you with Xiaoqi, why did she turn off the phone?"

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