I sat in the emergency room, my hands clasped together, my body still trembling uncontrollably, and I was impulsive again. Something similar happened last time, when there was still Li Yi by his side, at this moment, I thought about Li Yi very much, and longed to hear him tell me domineeringly, what about me, I hope he can hold himself and comfort him, and everything will pass. The kind of longing that goes deep into the bone marrow is like a vine wrapped around the heart, and the pain is so painful that I can't breathe.

I even took out my phone and wanted to call Li Yi, my fingers trembled on the number, and finally I withdrew my hand and put the phone in my pocket, I sat down in the chair in a dejected way, secretly annoying that I couldn't be so selfish anymore, and I couldn't do that kind of stupid thing anymore. He and Anan are going to get married today, and that kind of thing happened to me and Xu Yuwen, and it was completely over between us, really over.

I don't know how long later, the door of the emergency room opened, and the doctor said that the wound was two centimeters away from the heart, and the wound was not very hurt, nothing serious, if the dagger really stabbed the heart, and then two centimeters, the gods could not be saved, and they could be transferred to the ordinary ward. If Xu Yuwen hadn't moved his body, the dagger would definitely have stabbed him in the heart!

After listening to what the doctor said, my whole body shuddered, and now I feel scared when I think about it, how could I do such a crazy thing? Fortunately, Xu Yuwen did not die, but I was still quite worried about Xu Yuwen's situation, so I entered the ward. It may be because the anesthetic has not been used, Xu Yuwen is still sleeping, due to excessive blood loss, his face is terribly white, his lips are thirsty and a layer of white skin, and because he has stayed up late for a long time, there are very thick dark circles in the eye sockets, so he looks a little pitiful.

When I thought of these two words, I couldn't help but sneer, Lu Shuangshuang, you are really overflowing with motherhood, have you forgotten what he did to you just now? His eyes became indifferent in vain, but after thinking about it, I am afraid that it is the so-called karma, I owe so many favors, no wonder people will despise themselves.

I can only comfort myself like that, but my heart is still uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that I want to die, why do I have to go through so many unfortunate things, I thought that leaving Li Yi, it would be the most uncomfortable thing, but I can rely on those good memories to spend a long life, but what happened tonight makes me feel distressed even when I think of Li Yi again, and I don't dare to think about it anymore. Maybe that's the best arrangement, the most cruel, the deadliest, so that we can't turn back, but this kind of injury is too painful.

"Double... Shuang, can you give me a glass of water?" I was startled by a weak call in my ears, and looked up at Xu Yuwen vigilantly, he had already opened his eyes and looked tired.

For a moment, I stood still, motionless. Xu Yuwen licked his lower lip with difficulty, and his vocal cords were hoarse and hoarsely repeated, "I....trouble, my mouth is very dry!"

I quickly poured a cup for him, stretched out my hand, and handed it to Xu Yuwen from afar. At this point I noticed that my hands were covered in dried blood and looked dirty, and I remembered what he had done to me. I was afraid that he would pounce again, even though he was already injured, I was still afraid of him, my hands trembled slightly, and the water spilled out of the cup and splashed on the quilt.

Xu Yuwen raised his hand very hard, trying to take the cup, maybe it was a wound, he snorted, his hand hung down weakly and touched the back of my hand, I was like a frightened bird, screaming loudly, the cup fell to the ground, fortunately it was a strong ceramic cup, the cup could not be broken.

I jumped back a few steps, a little farther away from Xu Yuwen, he looked at me painfully, and said apologetically, "Shuangshuang, I'm sorry, I did such a bastard thing, I originally wanted to talk to you, but after getting drunk, it became like that, I really deserve to die!"

Listening to his apology, my body trembled even more, like a sifting chaff, shaking so much that tears were about to come, I covered my ears and didn't want to listen to it anymore, and shouted loudly, "Don't say it again, I beg you to stop saying it, I don't want to hear anything, you have nothing to do now, I'm leaving." ”

I turned around and limped out, and walked straight to the door, Xu Yuwen's anxious call came from behind me, and I walked forward without looking back. Suddenly, I heard a piercing bang, the sound of my body hitting the floor, and Xu Yuwen's muffled snort in pain. I turned my head in amazement and saw that a person the size of Xu Yuwen had fallen to the ground, he looked very uncomfortable, covered the place where he was stabbed, his forehead was full of cold sweat, and it fell down his chin.

I can totally imagine the pain of the wound hitting the ground. He struggled to look up at me, his words were intermittent, gasping for breath, and it took him a long time to say "Double... Pair... I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to, I really didn't mean to, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. ”

He forced himself out of bed, and the needle was pulled out of the back of his hand, and the back of his hand was already bleeding, dripping with blood, and my heart was missing a beat, what did he want to do? What did he want, did he do something like that, and he still wanted me to forgive him?

After all, I couldn't help but take two steps forward, squatted in front of him, and looked at Xu Yuwen sadly, "You're right, I let you help so much and use you so many times." In fact, a long time ago, I thought about using my body to pay off the debt, you refused, the sins I suffered tonight, it was all deserved, no one is to blame, you don't need to apologize, I also stabbed you, even if we don't owe each other, just when we never met. Don't move anymore, the wound will crack open. ”

In this utilitarian world, how can someone help you many times repeatedly, not to mention that the other party is a shrewd businessman, I can understand, but I will never forgive.

Xu Yuwen crawled forward towards me, touched the wound, he bit his lip in pain, stared at me with a very sad gaze, trembling and opened his mouth to ask, "Double... Double, I love you, I don't really want to hurt you, you really won't forgive me?"

That Xu Yuwen is too terrible, too hideous, now that I think about it, my hairs stand up, my body shrinks involuntarily, I keep shaking my head, and my tone becomes very sharp: "Do you know what you have done? Is it possible that I can still pretend that nothing happened and continue to be friends? Don't you think that is too difficult for a strong person? How is it possible, I hate you, you know, I want to kill you, you don't want to say anything more, don't say anything again." ”

Xu Yuwen smiled sadly, "Shuangshuang, what if that person is Li Yi? Would you forgive him? Right? No matter what I do, you won't forgive me, will you?"

Before I fell in love with him, he beat me, I hated him, I hated him, I hated violence, let alone others beat me, but after I fell in love with him, he never beat me. Even if he beats me, it's not like Xu Yuwen is completely like a beast, he just wants to kill me, I don't want to say any more, say those hurtful words, pull the door with crutches, and want to leave, but I saw several men in suits standing in front of the door.

I was just about to walk out when a strong man stopped me and dragged me back to the ward. Xu Yuwen was not surprised to see me come back. Then the nurse who came in saw Xu Yuwen fall to the ground, wanted to say something, and saw the strong man again, just quietly walked over to help Xu Yuwen up, put him on the bed, fed Xu Yuwen water, and ran out immediately.

After drinking the water, Xu Yuwen's expression looked much better, and he said to himself, "You won't be, you will forgive Li Yi, right, but if it were me, I would be sentenced to death directly." We don't owe each other, just as if we never knew each other?hahaha!"

He sneered at himself, his pale face was terrifying, and he put his hand to his heart, "Even if I stab you, you won't forgive me, do you? Do you really want to kill me? If I don't turn sideways, you want to kill me, right?"

I didn't expect Xu Yuwen to change his face unexpectedly, and become that terrible devil again, his body took a few steps back, his eyes widened, and he looked at Xu Yuwen incredulously, "Are you awake? You deliberately turned sideways, right? Then why don't you dodge?"

He seemed to be irritated by my question, and shouted loudly, "Lu Shuangshuang, you are such a soft-hearted and kind girl, why are you so cruel to me every time? That's right, I woke up and watched you walk in with a knife, but I don't think you will kill me, you are just angry in your heart, but I didn't expect you to really stab down, Lu Shuangshuang, how can you be so ruthless? Why are you so cruel to me? I can also give you the status, reputation and money you want from Li Yi, why did you choose him again and again. ”

Is the person in front of me really Xu Yuwen? Or is the polite man wearing a mask at all, and the person in front of him is Xu Yuwen, even this kind of thing can be calculated, I can't help but laugh out loud, "Aren't you afraid that you won't be able to dodge and kill yourself?"

Xu Yuwen showed a gentle smile, "Thank you for your concern, I said it, I won't do things that I am not sure of, and I don't want to die." Why, now that I'm annoyed, then you should have aimed the knife yesterday a little bit and stabbed a little deeper. With that, he pursed his lips and smiled, revealing his neat and bright teeth.

I looked at his gentle smile, and I wanted to pounce on him excitedly, and I wanted to slap him twice, how could he laugh? The man in the back easily clasped my hand. The man is at least two meters tall, in front of him, I am just doing indifferent struggling chicks, it is ridiculous, I can't beat Xu Yuwen, I can only stare at Xu Yuwen with my eyes, if my eyes can kill people, I estimate that I will kill him thousands of times "What do you want to do? Why are you telling me this?"

Xu Yuwen shrugged his shoulders indifferently and said, "Because I don't want to pretend in front of you, even if I pretend to be gentle, kind, and excellent, you won't choose me, let alone fall in love with me, so there's no need for me to pretend anymore." Aren't you women all so cheap? Men who are good to you, you don't want to, you have to find a man who tosses you, what do you say I want? Don't you know? I said it a long time ago. I want you to come to my side and be with me, to come to me willingly, after all, I have never been good at forcing people. ”

Let me take the initiative to go to his side, he is a rapist, and he wants me to live with a rapist, I can't help but blurt out "Don't think about it, you are a pervert, you are a psychopath, you are a rapist, I am dead, I will not follow you!"

Xu Yuwen still maintained a gentle smile, and didn't care about my rude behavior at all, "Don't talk too much, there were Li Yi and Xia Nan to support you in the past, but now Xia Nan and you are enemies, I can't wait for you to die, and Li Yi, he is a mud bodhisattva crossing the river, and it is difficult to protect himself, besides, are you willing to make trouble for him at this time?"

Xu Yuwen put his right hand on the back of his head and looked at me unscrupulously, his eyes frivolous, "Lu Shuangshuang, I have many ways to deal with you? Aren't you a filial girl? You are still a good sister, for the sake of your family, I am in the toilet, and you can also compromise yourself like that." I don't need anything else, what Li Yi does to you, I will deal with you. You know, I don't want to embarrass you, but that's also what you forced, who told you not to eat and drink, who told you not to learn to be obedient!"

Obviously with a gentle smile like a willow on his face, how can he say such cruel words, such vicious words? I think of a person, Meng Meng, they are all the same kind of people, on the surface they are all harmless to humans and animals, but they are so terrible. I regret why I didn't listen to Li Yi, he warned me more than once that Xu Yuwen was not a good person, but I was blindfolded by Xu Yuwen's kind smile and gentlemanly demeanor.

"Xu Yuwen, why are you so despicable, are you crazy?" I was about to be forced by Xu Yuwen to want to take a knife and stab it again, damn it, I was picked up by a man, and I couldn't move at all, let alone hold a knife" You're right, I really regret it, why didn't I stab you to death, Xu Yuwen, if you dare to touch my relatives, you and you are not finished! Even if I have to go to jail and sit through the prison, I will kill you. ”

My threat sounded so weak, Xu Yuwen smiled disappreciatively, as if listening to a child say those things that don't know the sky. For my annoyance, he instead used a child's tone to coax me: "Don't talk angry, your hand is trembling even with a knife, can you really kill someone? I don't force you, I'll give you three days, you pack up your things, and move me to Huayu No. 5 apartment!"

Li Yi and I have lived in Huayu No. 7 apartment for nearly 1 year, Huayu No. 5 apartment is next to it, Xu Yuwen clearly wants to take revenge on Li Yi.

What is this? I opened my mouth and closed my mouth and said not to be a mistress, Li Yi has done so many things for me, so hard to change, only a few days later, I moved in with someone else. Still under his nose, I shook my head resolutely, "Impossible! You don't want to! You dream, you might as well kill me." ”

Xu Yuwen didn't seem to understand what I said, and said something that didn't matter, "You better clean yourself up first, your leg should be broken." He turned his head to the strong man and said, "Ah Zhang, you take her to the doctor to bandage her first!"

"I don't want you to care, you let go of me, I can walk by myself!" I struggled hard to break free from the man named Ah Zhang, and he firmly grasped my hands like a chicken, and lifted me up.

I don't want Xu Yuwen's sympathy, why should I obey his command, I can't do it, so I bent down and bit down at Ah Zhang, I tried my best, even if he was a big man, he howled in pain and threw my whole person out.

The back of my head hit the cabinet, and my whole head was numb, but my mouth was very hard, and I pointed at Ah Zhang and said strongly, "Don't come, don't come!"

Xu Yuwen sighed and stopped Ah Zhang, who was about to move forward, "You let her go!"

I stroking the cabinet and standing up with difficulty, staring at Xu Yuwen with my eyes, "Why are you all like that? Relying on the money and power in your hands, you can get what you want, Xu Yuwen, I am a person, not a thing." ”

I pressed my hand to my chest, "I'm a human being, and I have a heart, and if I'm hurt here, it hurts, you know? Why do you do this to me? Just because you are more capable than me, can you do whatever you want to me? Do you come and go when you are called? I think you are different, you are different from those people. Hahaha, what's the difference between you and them?"

I don't know if it's painful or sad, tears fell from my eyes, I didn't want to cry, so I didn't cry, I raised my hand to wipe away my tears, whether he would call someone to come up and stop me, I walked forward quickly on crutches, and accidentally fell down and fell heavily to the ground.

Xu Yuwen shouted at me, and panicked to call for Ah Zhang's man to hold me, I shook off Ah Zhang's hand suddenly, and stood up with difficulty, my knee seemed to be broken, and it would hurt terribly if I touched the ground. I walked forward against the wall, dejected, out of the hospital and back to the rental house.

When I saw the bed, saw the blood-stained quilt, those unbearable pictures came out again, I pounced on the sheets and the quilt cover, took the scissors and cut the sheets like crazy, cut and cut, the tears fell uncontrollably, and I fell to the ground in despair, I saw the knife on the head of the bed, and I felt how good it would be to die, and I was a hundred. I won't be Xu Yuwen's mistress, and I won't be killed, but I can't fight him at all, and I don't want anything to happen to my family.

Didn't he just want to threaten me? Then I'd die, he thought I was going to throw in the towel, but he didn't want him to be satisfied.

I picked up the fruit knife, there was still Xu Yuwen's blood on it, the blood had dried up, I clenched my fists, staring intently at the raised pulse on it, if I cut it heavily on it, then everything would be over, and everything would be fine.

At this moment, I really wanted to die, use death to solve everything, I picked up the knife and slashed at the wrist, and with a light stroke, the blood fell down drop by drop, this knife is really sharp! It seems that I don't need to use too much effort.

Just when I wanted to increase my strength, the phone rang, and my mind suddenly calmed down, what was I doing? I let go of my hand, the knife fell with a clang, and I shifted my gaze to the phone on the bedside, and the phone kept ringing, stopping and ringing.

I trembled and stretched out my hand, picked up the phone, it showed an unfamiliar number, hesitated, I finally answered the phone, if it wasn't for this call, I'm afraid I would really commit suicide, even if it was a harassing call, or a sales call, I was glad that the other party called me.

"Shuangshuang, it's me, can you not hang up the phone?" came a familiar low voice on the other end of the phone, a pleading tone that was low to the dust, and it was heartbreaking to listen to.

When I heard this voice, my body shook in vain, I didn't know what to do, that kind of thing happened, how could I have the face to face Li Yi again, if I really followed Xu Yuwen, what would happen to him? According to Li Yi's temperament, he would go crazy!

I should have hung up the phone and blacklisted the phone again, but I couldn't, I wanted to hear his voice, even if it was just breathing. What have I done? Why didn't I believe him, so I got so wrong?

"Shuangshuang, did you hear what I said again? Shuangshuang, I didn't marry Xia Nan. My father and I went to Beijing, and we don't know when we'll be back. Li Yi's vocal cords were hoarse, and his speech was intermittent: "Shuangshuang, let me ask you a question, if I can't drive a famous car for the time being, and I can't let you live in a mansion, will you love me? Will you still stay by my side? Don't worry, I won't let you live a hard life all the time, and I will try my best to let you live a good life." ”

Tears are like an open faucet, which can no longer be turned off, if he has no power and no money, will he still be Li Yi? My man in the sun, that lawless and chic man. His willful and reckless nature has offended so many people, once he loses power, I don't know how many people are waiting to step on him, how can I want to see him become like that.

I cried and yelled at the phone, "Stupid, are you stupid? I won't love you, I won't stay by your side, you know, I have a fancy for your money, your father and sister are right, I'm a money worshipper, just a fishing girl, I want to drive a famous car, I want to live in a mansion, you can't give it to me, I will never follow you." I'm hiding now because I'm afraid that something will happen to your family, and I don't love you at all, do you understand?"

"No, Shuangshuang, you're not that kind of person, you're right, if you have people, there will always be cars and houses, and without that person, what's the use of having cars and houses? No matter how big a house is, there is no one who wants to stay at home, it's not empty......."

I never thought that one day, Li Yi would say such a thing, but what kind of face do I have to meet him? How can I harm his decline? I closed my eyes, and my breath was exerting and painful. I can't delay Li Yi any longer, and give him hope again" You are wrong, no matter what you say or what you do, I will not return to you, you don't have any more delusions. ”

Li Yi is a very smart person, he heard that my tone was wrong, and asked worriedly, "Shuangshuang, what's wrong with you......?"

Xu Wenyu was right, at this moment, how could I be willing to bother Li Yi again, I didn't want him to notice that something was wrong, I said ruthlessly, "Nothing, I don't love you anymore, don't bother me anymore." ”

I quickly hung up the phone, afraid that Li Yi would call me again, so I couldn't restrain my churning affection, said something I shouldn't have said, and simply turned off the phone.

I hugged my knees with both hands, buried them in my knees and cried loudly, what should I do? What should I do? Who can tell me what is right? What should I do, do I really use death to stop everything? Why is everyone pushing me, forcing me to have no way out?△≧ △≧ ≧ △ ≧

I looked up and saw the knife on the ground, it was stained with fresh blood, bright red and bright red mixed together, the blade shone in the light, like death was calling me, as long as I died, everything was fine, I despised people who committed suicide, that was too cowardly, since I had the courage to die, why didn't I dare to face anything else.

When it really happens, it happens to you, you realize how powerless you are, I admit that I am cowardly, so cowardly that I want to kill myself to avoid everything, I live a really tired life, too tired. I trembled and picked up the knife and closed my eyes, trying to cut it off.

There was a banging knock on the door, and Ma Qiaoyan's loud voice came in from outside the door, "Lu Shuangshuang, I know you're back, you open the door for me immediately, I told you to open the door for me?"

Why is she here, I don't have a good impression of her, so I don't want to pay attention to her, but the thought of wanting to die, when she mixes it like that, I don't have the courage to cut it off again. I sat limply on the floor, staring at the ceiling with wide eyes and lost in thought.

Ma Qiaoyan's neurotic actually called someone to open the door, rushed in, she hurriedly snatched the knife in my hand, raised it and slapped me, "Lu Shuangshuang, what the hell are you nervous, you actually want to commit suicide, are you worthy of Li Yi? He has done so many things for you." He, who is usually lame to death, actually called me and asked me to come and see you. ”

She hit people so hard that her cheeks hurt so badly that I was already immune to this pain, and I looked at the ceiling indifferently.

Ma Qiaoyang picked up my hand, I cut it just now, the wound was not very big, but the wound was still bleeding, Ma Qiaoyan looked at my wrist and sneered, "If you want to die, cut the wound deeper next time, half-dead, what's the matter." The old lady thought that something was wrong with you, and the child didn't have time to breastfeed, so she ran over, so I called Li Yi first to don't let him think nonsense. ”