Jian Mu had never felt such a great pressure.

It's really overwhelming to press down on yourself.

It is not easy to confirm who released the news, but this news will undoubtedly affect the entertainment program planned by Huayu International this time.

Jian Mu was tired and couldn't find an exit.

She enlisted a friend's help in putting the matter down. A friend told her that she might have to wait for the limelight to pass, after all, she has a little fame now.

And Jian Mu became completely famous because of the outbreak of mental illness.

Jian Mu was forced to declare that he had depression, and it was not such an unsightly illness.

However, this matter seems to have been greatly exaggerated by the people concerned, and the navy army was invited to come over to preach that her spirit was different from ordinary people.

And people in the industry.

Because the DT promotion was very good at that time, and then the VR trailer of Huayu International was also very exciting. Several people in the industry knew about her existence.

Gradually, there was some respect for her, and many people bluntly said that her design might really be plagiarism. How can a neuropathy design something good?

Although Huayu International did not revoke her on the surface, it still faintly reminded her that if she is not in good health, don't hold on.

Although Jian Mu didn't say it explicitly at the time, she knew very well that if it weren't for Lu Xiufan, it was likely that she would be removed directly.

When she went to Huayu International three times to participate in the planning, several planners and even directors had some strange eyes on her, and then rejected her designs one by one.

She stayed up late to write notices, make summaries, and when she handed them over, the other party said that she might not need them.

Although it was a refusal, although it was not how to despise her, she still felt that she had been stabbed in the chest.

And the VR part, Jian Mu originally thought that he would definitely come into contact with Zhang Xian, so he didn't have to worry about it, but now he has no chance at all.

Huayu International finally confirmed that when the first episode of the program was broadcast, Jian Mu's consultant status was removed.

Maybe it's not nice to label a plan with a split nerve.

Huayu International used part of Jian Mu's design, bought this part of the copyright separately, and gave Jian Mu 50,000 yuan, which is considered a hard fee. And the other deletions and deletions do not use too many things from Jian Mu.

Finally, the first trailer came out.

When Jian Mu saw that there was no name on the trailer, he still clenched his hands unconsciously.

It was late at night.

She sat in the empty office building, looking at the lights in the distance, feeling tired from the bottom of her heart.

Because of Huayu International's planning case, it is even more difficult for Jian Mu to contact the industry later.

Life fell into a trough all of a sudden.

Even some very small companies, when they heard that Jian Mu was talking about simplicity, they all stayed away, for fear that they would be contaminated with her illness.

Jian Mu's performance slipped down all of a sudden.

Fortunately, DT's Indy didn't care, and still insisted on using Jian Mu's design.

Jian Mu had a bad reputation for a while, and instantly became a time bomb in the industry.

The reputation that had been standing for a short time fell apart.

Jian Mu also felt tired.

Tonight, the first phase of Huayu International's entertainment program was officially launched and began to premiere.

And she didn't have the opportunity to participate.

She worked late at night until more than eleven o'clock.

She felt weak and powerless that she had all the designs she felt could see the future, but no one dared to approve of them.

The word "give up" followed and came out.

At the same time, there is also Elena who has always been with her.

Elena stood beside her with her hands in her hands and said to her, "It's better to give up." ”

Jian Mu struggled and said, "I really don't want me to be sick before. ”

"But maybe you do?" said Elena laughed.

Jian Mu looked at her and grinned, "If there is, then defeat her." I've survived the lowest point in my life, why should I give up when I enter spring?"

Elena said, "Yes, Jane Mu, why give up?"

Jian Mu took the last bus back to the villa, and there was no one on the whole bus, only Elena was by her side, never leaving her.

She thought that if life was destined to give her such extraordinary, then accept her.

When he arrived at the villa, Lu Xiufan was already in the study.

He seemed to be on the phone.

With a gentle voice and a low command, Jian Mu listened to it for a while, and always felt that it might be Ran Mengxiao.

Of course, this is just an intuition, whether it is or not, Jian Mu can't say.

Jian Mu didn't bother him.

She finished washing up and came out of the bathroom, but Lu Xiufan stood in the middle of the living room, looking at the alley on the wall.

Jian Mu was stunned.

Inexplicably, I thought of the painting on Ran Mengxiao's mobile phone again.

Lu Xiufan should like Ran Mengxiao, right?

Jian Mu thought so.

It's just that I can't get it, so I can only hide her in my heart.

For her, she has done so much, Lu Xiufan should have been a spare tire.

"I've been chasing someone for years, and I've still been ignored and abandoned. ”

If not, how could he say such a thing to Yuan Tingting?

Jian Mu thought about it and smiled.

She went into the room and lay down, looking at the ceiling without stopping.

I'm so tired.

She thought.

If you give up, will you be able to live a more relaxed life?

I don't know when, she fell asleep.

But it seems to be sober again.

Soon, she heard Elena call her, in a delicate, caring voice, and with some ridicule.

"Jian Mu—"

She called her.

"You wake up and see what you're doing. ”

Jane Mu heard Elena call her.

Jian Mu looked around and saw Elena sitting directly across from her, "Jian Mu, don't torture yourself anymore, Jian Mu, wake up." ”

The continuous urging and eagerness made Jian Mu react quickly.

Did she do something that wasn't quite right?

But she couldn't see it.

Elena called her, hoarse: "Jian Mu, wake up!"

Jian Mu suddenly came to his senses.

She saw that she was sitting in Lu Xiufan's study, holding a sharp bread knife in her hand, while her legs were exposed, and an inch below the scar that had already healed, she was ruthlessly cut out by herself.

She screamed and stood up, pain causing her to lose her center of gravity.

Then, I heard the sound of panicked footsteps outside and pushed open the door here in the study.

The person who came, of course, was Lu Xiufan.

Lu Xiufan snatched the knife in Jian Mu's hand at that time, picked her up and ran towards the garage.

Jian Mu was stunned and hugged his neck, his hands were full of blood.

She suddenly remembered.

Thinking about why he couldn't find the knife all the time, why Lu Xiufan always covered up admitting that he was sm to her, why he always felt an inexplicable scar on his leg.

When he was sent to the hospital, Meng Ze once again sighed at Lu Xiufan, "It's really ruthless." ”

Then he pushed Jian Mu in.

When Meng Ze called the anesthesiologist to apply a topical anesthetic to her, Jian Mu took Meng Ze's hand.

"Dr. Meng, I don't need an anesthesiologist. ”

Meng Ze was stunned for a moment, "Jian Mu, you can't do it, you have cut yourself like this." ”

Jian Mu's pale face bit her lip and looked at him, "I said I don't want it." ”

Jian Mu insisted, Meng Ze couldn't fool him if he wanted to.

The anesthetic needs to be cooperated, and she undoubtedly increases the difficulty in this way, and the wound has been bleeding, if you don't pay attention, you will lose too much blood and die like playing.

Meng Ze had no choice but to agree.

But Meng Ze just agreed, and he soon injected anesthetic medicine into the dropper.

Jian Mu followed and fell asleep.

Meng Ze saw that she was asleep, and pushed her, thinking that the little girl is still playing with me, it's too tender for you.

When I woke up, it was the next day, and everything was fine.

Only this time, Lu Xiufan was by Jian Mu's side.

Jian Mu opened his eyes and looked in the direction of Lu Xiufan, feeling that it was funny.

It took a long time before she said to Lu Xiufan: "The scar on my leg, I have injured myself for so long, right?"

Lu Xiufan was looking at the tablet, and when he heard this, his expression paused.

He raised his eyes to look at Jian Mu and narrowed his eyes, "What nonsense." ”

Jian Mu said very blandly: "You don't have to hide it from me, I remember everything, it was me who got up like sleepwalking late at night and cut myself on my leg, not you." ”

Jian Mu sat up and dragged down his hospital gown pants, revealing a white thigh.

There are scars on the entire leg, and there are more than a dozen of them slashed one by one.

Jian Mu didn't remember when these scars appeared, not any of them.

It wasn't until last night, when she heard Elena's voice wake her up, that she realized that she had masochistic tendencies.

But because of mental illness, she forgot all these things, and she didn't even remember whether she had touched these scars when she was taking a shower.

Lu Xiufan's face was still calm, and his forehead was blue, but he betrayed his heart.

He had always known it.

Jian Mu looked at one of his legs amusedly.

In the past, when someone opened her eyes and said nonsense, she always felt ridiculous, where did she have the ability to reverse black and white.

Now, Jian Mu understands that he can really be blind like this and can't see anything.

She had no idea that she would have so many scars on her body.

"You took great pains to hide it from me, but I myself will always only know about the existence of the scar a few days before I hurt myself. Jian Mu smiled as she spoke.

"Now, I'm afraid even I know very well that I am sick. ”

Jian Mu said this, and the hospital TV began to replay the entertainment program of Huayu International that was broadcast last night.

Jian Mu asked Lu Xiufan, "How are the ratings?"

Lu Xiufan said that it was not bad, but it was not the best.

Jian Mu sighed.

Lu Xiufan didn't say too much, but Jian Mu understood what it meant.

This episode of the show is to put it bluntly.

Lu Xiufan said: "Jian Mu, this matter, I thought it was time to pass. Your performance is still declining. You are now the manager of the company, and you are no longer the same small employee as before, you can be willful. ”

Jian Mu said yes.

grinning and said to Lu Xiufan, "Take me to the Sunshine Building." ”

Lu Xiufan didn't seem to hear clearly, "What?"

Jian Mu knew very well that he didn't hear clearly, he didn't believe her words.

"You may not know that I've been hallucinating all this time. ”

Lu Xiufan's eyes narrowed.

It took a week for Jian Mu's leg to get better.

There are fewer and fewer comments about her on the Internet, but more and more attention is paid to the new entertainment program of Huayu International.

The ratings are not high.

What the reason is, no one knows, Ran Mengxiao is in charge, and it is already a big deal.

The overwhelming comments are not very good, after all, there are too many types of programs in the same period.

What the public didn't expect was that this VR game that was used was chased by the majority of netizens, scrambling to ask where to buy.

The design of this VR was modified using Jian Mu's prototype.

Although Jian Mu was somewhat surprised that his design could be effective, he couldn't take the credit.

After all, VR is rarely used, and when it suddenly appears, there is a freshness.

The low ratings of the entire program illustrate the failure of the entire program.

It is likely that the twelve episodes will only shoot at the end of the three phases.

And after the wound on Jian Mu's leg healed, the first thing he did was to ask for leave.

She took another week off.

Lu Xiufan didn't stop her.

On the afternoon of the day she was discharged from the hospital, Lu Xiufan didn't go, and asked Wang Ting to pick her up and take her to Yangguan Building.

Sunshine Therapy Center.

There was sun throughout the room, and on this afternoon, it was warm and comfortable.

Jian Mu saw Elena standing at the door and felt such kindness.

The feeling that she accompanied her around the city on the bus came out all of a sudden.

Jian Mu said straight to the point, "I'm Jian Mu, I have an appointment." ”

Elena smiled, "I know, you don't have to rush. ”

Jian Mu said that there was no hurry, she was ready.

Where to use how to hurry.

Lie down in a chair reserved for the patient.

The body soon relaxed.

Jian Mu looked at the pattern of the sleeping effect of the ceiling, and all his body and nerves relaxed.

She didn't remember what Elena had said, but suddenly she saw herself at the age of sixteen.

That summer evening.

She waited at the door for her mother and brother, who had not yet returned.

That day, my mother and younger brother had a dispute because of selling vegetables and came back late.

Jian Mu saw a tall black figure standing in the doorway.

He seemed to be uncomfortable somewhere, and his whole body was shaking.

Jian Mu asked him, "What's wrong with you, do you want me to call a doctor?"

But he didn't speak.

Seeing that he was uncomfortable, Jian Mu couldn't help but touch his forehead, which was hot and scary.

She didn't know that her cool touch made the dark shadow tremble.

"Do you have a fever?" Jian Mu said, turning around and trying to get the fever reducer.

The dark shadow suddenly hugged her from behind, "Don't move. ”

He said so.

Jian Mu suddenly became scared, and all the pictures on the TV were imprinted in her mind at once, and she began to struggle desperately.

He said, "Don't move, please, don't—move—"

Jian Mu turned around like crazy, her writhing had turned into a fatal temptation in the eyes of this man.

Then, he tried to press her to the bed and make her not make a sound, but her writhing was all seduction—

There is no way to be sober, and there is no way to be sober more and more.

His hand, finally no longer holding it down, grabbed her arm tightly and pinned her to the bed.

When Jian Mu opened her eyes, she was still in the Sunshine Physiotherapy Center.

The ceiling is still the same pattern.

But her eyes were full of tears.

The memories were finally hers.

She said it word by word, and the rape of her youth was her nightmare for many years.

Except for a simple mention of Cheng Ao, she didn't dare to talk about it to anyone.

At that time, she was only sixteen years old, young and ignorant, and she didn't even know that such a thing would get pregnant, but she was afraid that one day she would meet that man again, and she was afraid that she would be stuck in that room and pressed to the bed.

Now, she has gone on the road to the third place, but she is still afraid of being held by her arm.

Elena stood up with the notebook and said to her, "Jian Mu, I feel hard, so come back again." With all the pressure on a person, it will definitely be unbearable. ”

Jian Mu said yes, she would come this week.

She stood in front of Elena and tried to tell her several times that she was hallucinating, but she still didn't speak.

Coming out of the Sunshine Building, Wang Ting was still waiting downstairs.

The sun was already setting in the west, and it was getting late.

Wang Ting saw that Jian Mu's eyes were red and swollen, and knew that he had definitely cried just now, so he didn't make a sound, and opened the car door to call her in.

On the way, when it was almost in front of the villa.

Because Jian Mu felt dull, she left the window open and did not close it.

Unexpectedly, he bumped into Ran Mengxiao, who was also with the car window open.

Ran Mengxiao was on the same road with them, but in the opposite direction.

Jian Mu looked at Ran Mengxiao's car opposite in a daze, and couldn't help but think, she wouldn't go back from the villa, right?

The thought only flashed through my mind, and it passed quickly.

When he got home, Lu Xiufan stood in front of the door, as if he had just sent someone away.

Jian Mu thought habitually, and naturally thought about whether it would be to see Ran Mengxiao, but he didn't think that Lu Xiufan might also be waiting for someone to come back.

Despair erupted from my heart.

Jian Mu suppressed his inner thoughts, called Lu Shao, and then pushed the door and walked in.

She seems to have been much more sensitive lately, and she is starting to get tired of her mental state, disgusted that she is now at a low point where it is difficult to turn over. I am disgusted that I have never been able to compare with Ran Mengxiao.

Lu Xiufan didn't understand why Jian Mu looked a little unhappy after returning from the physiotherapy center.

And Ran Mengxiao did come just now.

She bought the girl wearing pearl earrings from Lu Xiufan's hand at a high price, and she came over to send money today to say thank you.

Lu Xiufan naturally didn't give Ran Mengxiao a reason in vain, and took the money with peace of mind.

When Ran Mengxiao left, he said to Lu Xiufan as if reminding: "My assistant often says that Jian Mu is very similar to me. Lu Shao, what do you think?"

Lu Xiufan thought for a while, tilted his mouth and said, "Oh?

Ran Mengxiao didn't speak, got into the car and walked away.

Ran Mengxiao called a friend in the media on the road, "Jian Mu's mental illness, I don't know if Lu Shao's mother knows?" I think it is necessary to ask Lu Shao's mother to understand the situation, after all, mental illness is not other diseases. ”

When Jian Mu was taking a bath, he carefully counted the scars on his legs, and touched them up and down, a full seventeen.

Jian Mu couldn't help but laugh while touching it, she couldn't remember a single one.

It's ridiculous that she, a woman who is a woman in the design world, suffers from mental illness.

When he came out of the shower, Lu Xiufan sat on the sofa and pinched his cigarette, but he didn't light it.

He just sat on the sofa with the cigarette butt pinched, as if waiting for someone to light it for him, but he never waited for the person who lit it.

When he saw Jian Mu coming out, he immediately moved, "Jian Mu." ”

He called her.

Jian Mu turned his face to look at him sideways, and rejected him very directly, "Lu Shao, it's late, I want to go to sleep." ”

What Lu Xiufan wanted to say was choked into her stomach alive.

When Jian Mu got into bed, he closed his eyes and forced himself to sleep.

But all in my mind are the pictures of Lu Xiufan sending Ran Mengxiao away: lingering affection, lingering and compassionate.

Ran Mengxiao should be proud, and he should expose his extraordinary relationship with Lu Xiufan with Jian Mu again and again.

For her, Lu Xiufan bid to buy the sky-high coated version of the girl wearing pearl earrings.

Because Jian Mu covered the painting, Lu Xiufan gave it directly to Ran Mengxiao.

Does this need to be said in particular?

What happened before, didn't it show that Jian Mu was redundant again and again?

Jian Mu couldn't help but grin as she thought about it, and she was redundant.

What is she doing here?

A pitiful psychopath, right?

Jian Muzheng felt sorry for herself, and suddenly the door opened.

Lu Xiufan walked in from outside the door, lifted the quilt and hugged Jian Mu from behind.

"What's wrong?"

He asked her in a whisper.

Jian Mu didn't speak.

Lu Xiufan said: "Jian Mu, I know you haven't slept, you don't have to pretend to be asleep like this." ”

Jian Mu didn't speak either.

Lu Xiufan continued: "Good, I like you to turn around and sleep with me in your arms." ”

Jian Mu thought to herself, why do you want to like it.

He didn't give Jian Mu a chance to resist, he easily turned her around, like a toy, turned over to face him, and then held her in his arms.

Jian Mu moved uncomfortably.

Lu Xiufan pressed her head, "Okay, it's much more comfortable." Sleep, wife. ”

After he finished speaking, he seemed to really feel sleepy, and soon the sound of even breathing came over Jian Mu's head.

Jian Mu was obviously tired, so he lay down in his arms and fell asleep.

She remembered that before she went to bed, she was still thinking, she must go to Elena, she must be cured.

Sunlight shines through the cracks in the curtains to the corners of the house.

A new day is always filled with hope.

When he opened his eyes, it seemed that hope had penetrated into Jian Mu's good mood little by little.

Lu Xiufan woke up after that.

I woke up, but I refused to open my eyes.

When Jian Mu looked up, he could see the long eyelashes, trembling slightly, like the wings of a dragonfly, which looked particularly good in the early morning sun.

Lu Xiufan should have known that Jian Mu was looking at him like this, and he slanted his mouth, obviously trying to laugh.

"Why can't you get out of bed?" he asked.

Jian Mu said funny: "Being tightly held like this, you and I still have room to move?"

Only then did Lu Xiufan realize that he was holding Jian Mu like this and refused to let go.

He found out and refused to let go, still holding her, and said, "Since this is the case, then sleep for a while." ”

Jian Mu hurriedly said, "I'm afraid of you, it's okay to let go of you, right?"

Lu Xiufan seemed to be reluctant to let go of her.

Jian Mu sat up, spread her five fingers, and greeted the sun.

She will be going to the Sunshine Therapy Center for the next seven days.

Cleaned up, put on makeup, and stepped on high heels.

I confirmed in the mirror that this was my best-looking self, and went out in high heels.

Today, she has only one purpose.

She had to ask Elena what kind of mental illness she was suffering from.

Elena also seemed to have been waiting for Jian Mu.

When Jian Mu arrived, she put her information on the top, and then very gently asked Jian Mu to lie down on the chair she had yesterday and make the same start.

Jian Mu didn't lie down, nor did he be as obedient as yesterday and didn't say anything.

She sat down on a stool next to Elena and faced her directly.

"I know I must have been here to recuperate. ”

Elena looked at her, clearly not knowing what she was going to do.

"I've always told myself not to believe it, but now I can only believe that I must have some kind of disease, and I don't know it. ”

Elena looked at her appreciatively, but also defensively.

After all, many patients with mental illness have extremely high IQs, and it is good to use such words to deceive the doctors.

"You're all right, but that doesn't stop you from relaxing in your chair," Elena said. ”

Jian Mu said: "Elena, I want to know clearly what type of mental illness I have. ”

Elena was a little stunned.

Because they are absolutely not allowed to disclose this information to their customers.

Elena shook her head.

Jian Mu insisted.

Jian Mu is not a person who is good at words, she knows that she and Elena are soft and hard, and there will be absolutely no benefits. After all, people are psychiatrists.

And such as Jian Mu, who is absolutely right, must know what kind of disease is born, and there are definitely a few.

Elena tried it, knowing that she might not be able to convince Jian Mu.

She hesitated for a moment, and finally said to Jian Mu, "It's okay to tell you. ”

Jian Mu looked at her with wide eyes.

Elena said, "You-"

"Paranoid mental disorder. ”

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