442 Doubt
"Cheng Shibo—"
Feng Jiwen hesitated for a moment, then suddenly stepped forward to stop him. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info
Cheng Yuan's vicissitudes of life, but his red eyes were full of eagerness.
"Shibo, please stay. Feng Jiwen persuaded: "I know that Shi Boxu has something to ask, but if the concubine has no intention of talking to you, what can you do even if you catch up? Today is late, and Jingyun Nunnery is no better than anywhere else, if you don't want to cause trouble to the concubine and you because of this matter, please stay." ”
She seems to know the reason why the palace gave the concubine poisoned wine in the first place.
If she remembers correctly, the cup of poisoned wine was just after Cheng Shibo left Beijing shortly after the concubine asked her to transfer the chess game to Cheng Shibo......
Regardless of what happened back then, the fact that she didn't want the concubine to have an accident is undoubtedly her biggest concern at the moment.
No matter how difficult Cheng Yuan was to calm down all the fierce emotions in his heart at this time, he could still hear the reminder in Feng Jiwen's tone.
It seemed that he had just withdrawn back to reality at this moment, and only then did he clearly realize what an insurmountable relationship he had between him and her now...... The identity gap.
He is the governor of Yunnan, loyal and brave Gong Cheng Yuan.
And she is the concubine of the former emperor.
The self-blame and regret for so many years have all become lies concealed by her in an instant.
That's more than 30 years!
She changed her identity and hid it from him for more than 30 years!
For more than 30 years, hasn't she thought about what kind of suffering he has been going through every day?
He knew that it had always been difficult for her to listen to other people's opinions, and she was not a person who dragged mud and water, and she was even decisively not like a woman, but he never thought that she could treat him so ruthlessly.
At this moment, the truth is in front of him, and after more than 30 years of suffering, he can't help but resent her and hate her.
But even so, after hearing what Feng Jiwen said, all he thought about was her safety.
Probably because no matter how much he blamed her, he couldn't be as ruthless as her!
He stood silent, watching her back with a pair of tear-burning eyes, and gradually disappeared into the night until it was completely gone.
All kinds of excitement and surging were gone together when her figure disappeared.
He seemed to be drained of his mental strength, and he actually had a sense of loss of soul.
The voice also became low and trance-like.
He said, "This time I will leave, but if she still refuses to see me, I will come to the door." ”
Although it is gloomy, it is full of determination to refuse to back down.
In any case, he wants to see her.
……
This night, Feng Jiwen slept with the concubine.
In the past, even if she stayed overnight, she would rest in the meditation room left for her alone in the backyard.
What's more, the concubine was disgusted in every way at first and refused to agree, but she couldn't bear the shamelessness of Feng Jiwen, who was washed clean, insisting on burrowing into the bed.
"You're so dignified even when you're asleep. ”
Feng Jiwen was lying beside Concubine Guo, looking at her lying flat and sleeping, with her hands folded above her abdomen, and couldn't help but be authentic.
"I told you a long time ago, the word etiquette should be engraved into the bones, and it must not be relaxed at any time. Concubine Guo closed her eyes and said softly.
"Then before you enter the palace...... Is it so strict at home?" Feng Jiwen asked softly.
"Ever since I was a child, I was afraid of being rude in front of people, and I had to do my best in everything, even if no one was in charge. After saying that, the concubine didn't forget to stab Feng Jiwen: "You and I are like you, do you have to have someone carrying a feather duster to learn the rules?"
Feng Jiwen couldn't help but be silent when she heard it.
She really can't compare to this.
But, "I don't want to compare myself to you." She leaned sideways and hugged one of Concubine Guo's arms, closed her eyes, and said angrily: "I would like you to carry a feather duster and teach me the rules in a cold voice." You have too many rules, I'm afraid I won't be able to learn them in my life, but I'm willing to learn, and you can't teach me halfway and don't take me. ”
When the concubine heard this, she opened her eyes slightly.
She looked at Feng Jiwen lying beside her, and she still looked like a little girl between her eyebrows.
She could clearly feel the little girl's concern and dependence on her.
But even so, this little girl didn't ask her a word about tonight, which was very considerate.
"Sleep. She whispered in a rare voice, like that of a loving mother.
Feng Jiwen seemed to feel a lot more relieved, answered in a low voice, and fell asleep with confidence.
And this night, the concubine never closed her eyes again.
The next morning, after Feng Jiwen woke up, the concubine was gone, and when she looked out the window, it was just the hour when the sky was blue and gray, and it was not completely bright.
She hurriedly summoned Xiaoxian in.
"Madame, you're awake. ”
Feng Jiwen's voice was a little hazy when she had just woken up: "What about the concubine, when did she get up?"
"The concubine got up half an hour ago. Xiaoxian replied, "I am copying the scriptures in the Buddhist hall at this time." ”
"Going to copy the scriptures again?" Feng Jiwen breathed a sigh of relief and sat up.
Xiaoxian waited for her to get dressed and washed.
When he put his hair in a bun and was about to go to the Buddha Hall to find the concubine, he saw her come back.
Moreover, the concubine is still wearing a plain color flag dress, even after last night's events, from the eyebrows that have been traced to the snail Dai, to the meticulously combed bun, they are still as delicate as ever.
Mama Yu set up breakfast with others, and Feng Jiwen and the concubine sat opposite each other and ate.
The concubine had the rule of not eating or sleeping, and waited until she rinsed her mouth after the meal, and moved to the inner room before she opened her mouth to speak.
But he gave Feng Jiwen an errand.
……
Even if she felt uneasy when she thought that the concubine was going to enter the palace tomorrow, Feng Jiwen still left Jingyun Nunnery after breakfast.
After returning to the city, she first returned to Yinglian Mansion.
Feng Yinglian has been a little inadvertently sad recently, as if she has encountered something difficult, but when she sees her granddaughter coming back, she still smiles and asks the kitchen to prepare lunch.
But I heard my granddaughter say: "I went to visit the process of Shibo a few days ago, I want to come to the uncle in Yunnan, there is no lack of his care, the two families are world friends, this time he returned to Beijing, I intend to thank him, but because of the identity is a little inconvenient, I don't know if I can borrow the grandfather's face, set up a banquet to invite him to the house?"
Feng Yinglian thought about it after hearing this, and then nodded.
She has already heard what Feng Jiwen said about Heshen's situation in Yunnan, and Cheng Yuan's care for Heshen is needless to say. And since the granddaughter has opened her mouth, it is reasonable, and he, as a father-in-law, should also express his gratitude.
Moreover, he also had some unspeakable questions that urgently needed proof, and he couldn't think of who to ask, but after being reminded by his granddaughter, he suddenly remembered Cheng Yuan.
It is rumored that Cheng Yuan and Heshen's Ama are friends who have been friends for many years.
After the idea was settled, Feng Yinglian personally wrote an invitation and ordered someone to send it.
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ps: The second shift ~ According to international practice, I asked for leave yesterday, and the second watch will not be added to the monthly pass, good night ^_^ to everyone (to be continued.) )