I'm a bastard

Love begins with ambiguity, but ends at the beginning of another ambiguity, in this dissolute city, ambiguity is rampant, but true love is always difficult to keep. In Shu Jing's story, it also starts from an ambiguous beginning to another ambiguous beginning.

Shu Jing, who has just graduated from college and has always maintained her cute and optimistic college days, came to Shenzhen with her boyfriend Liu Qian, and they rented a small single room in Longhua Dalang. Their love continues here, and their dreams begin here. When they first settled, they always believed that as long as they had each other's hearts, no matter what kind of environment and temptation, they would not waver. Shu Jing even believed that after a short ambiguous conversation at the sophomore party, she had determined that Liu Qian was the Prince Charming she wanted in this life. However, she doesn't know, he doesn't know, in Shenzhen, a materialistic city, is full of ambiguity that seems to be true and false, if you take it seriously, it's time to end the previous ambiguity and start a new ambiguous, if you are fake, then you can temporarily maintain the existing ambiguous relationship. But what the future holds, no one can predict.

Shu Jing and Liu Qian struggled in this city for a year, but when they looked back, they found that they were still living in that small single room, with many things only rice cookers, pots and pans, and more just mental and physical exhaustion, the bank deposit was pitiful, and the ticket of the leather bag was still the pitiful 500 yuan from beginning to end, the difference was that the 500 yuan before coming came from their parents, and the current 500 yuan came from the struggle all year round.

After the Spring Festival, when the two met again, Shu Jing suddenly found that Liu Qian was a little strange, her eyes were erratic, her words flickered, and she wanted to ask if there was something at home several times, but she knew that Liu Qian never let herself ask about her family's affairs, saying that she didn't want the other party to worry. When he went to work again, Liu Qian no longer got off work and went home early as before, sometimes he didn't come back until ninety o'clock, and asked him several times, Liu Qian always replied in dodge that he had increased his salary, and he had more work, and he was a little busy. At first, Shu Jing didn't dig deeper, but after a long time, Yi Jing couldn't help but be a little worried, so she went to the downstairs hall of Liu Qian's company every day after work to wait for him to go home together, but she didn't seem to find anything, because every time Liu Qian always walked out of the elevator with a few colleagues, men and women couldn't see any ambiguity between Liu Qian and a few girls when they talked and laughed.

Liu Qian was very happy at first that Shu Jing was waiting for him downstairs to go home, but something would always get bored after a long time, Liu Qian began to become impatient, and Shu Jing also realized that she was too sensitive, so she didn't go downstairs to his company to wait for Liu Qian. Liu Qian still went home late as always, Shu Jing still believed in Liu Qian as always, loved Liu Qian, and after several ambushes and did not find abnormal actions, she was even more convinced that Liu Qian would not leave her, and their relationship would definitely withstand the test of time and temptation. Until, that day comes......

Later, one day, Shu Jing's company organized to go to the window of the world to play, just when she was playing with her colleagues, she found a familiar figure in the crowd, Liu Qian, holding a fashionably dressed blonde girl talking and laughing and walking past them, at that moment, Shu Jing's mind suddenly emptied, and her heart was hollowed out, she wanted to rush forward to slap Liu Qian, and then left angrily, let Liu Qian explain loudly how to chase behind...... However, this was just wishful thinking on her part, Shu Jing controlled her impulse and walked up to catch up with them, but she didn't bother, just suddenly quickened her pace and walked in front of them at the moment she caught up, pretending not to see them. But Shu Jing obviously felt Liu Qian's panic when she found her and hurriedly dodged, but she didn't look back from beginning to end, but strode forward, and it wasn't until she reached the gate that she hid under the cone building and cried secretly. That morning, the sun was warm, but the calm heart was like frozen ice. The belief that was once as strong as a city wall was instantly washed down and shattered.

Later, Liu Qian went home and took the initiative to explain everything, they met in a bar, that day several colleagues of the company went to drink and socialize, the girl was a sales executive of a cosmetics company, with a generous and cheerful personality, they were improvised together in the jokes of colleagues and danced an ambiguous dance, and then it may be because of alcohol, the two had an ambiguous conversation on the way out of the bar to send each other home, and then everything went naturally. It turned out that an ambiguity after alcohol effortlessly knocked down a relationship that had lasted for several years, and it turned out that time was not a catalyst for feelings, but a corrosive agent. Damn ambiguity, damn faith.

Later, Shu Jing stubbornly ran away, sometimes, once the strong city wall is destroyed, it is difficult to rebuild as it was at the beginning, just like the Great Wall;

After being covered with water, Shu Jing came out of the haze again with the help of her sister-in-law and started a new life after being in the doldrums for a while.

After talking about the past, Shu Jing still couldn't help but start sobbing, women, it is really like water, gentle and emotional, Lin Kaiwen sat down and hugged her in his arms, she buried her head in my shoulder, after a while, I felt that my shoulder was wet, Lin Kaiwen took out a tissue and handed it to her, and said:

"Don't cry, I'll take you home!"

"I'm sorry to be such a gaffe when we first met. ”

"It's okay, I understand. Looks like you still haven't completely let him go, right?" Kevin Lin's mouthful undoubtedly hit her own foot, she hesitated for a moment, and said:

"Actually, how can it be possible to let go completely, after all, we have been together for so long. Didn't you forget your Sakurako too?"

"Hehe---- don't think about it, I'll send you. "Kevin Lin had to hurry up and change the topic, otherwise with her current state, I don't know what will happen.

"Why, why are you in a hurry to drive me away, are there any other beauties on date?" The woman's fickleness came too quickly, and she had a handful of snot and tears just now, which would make fun of Kevin Lin again, Kevin Lin thought to himself: Okay, Kevin Lin will tease you down with you, so he said:

"Where do you want to go, you are such a beautiful beauty, how can I find other beautiful women here?"

"Oh, yes? So, you're going to soak me tonight?"

"Yes, I don't soak such a beautiful woman unless I take the wrong medicine. Let's go, do you want to go over there and have another drink?" I don't know if it's because of the previous alcohol or what, Kevin Lin is starting to be a little bohemian.

"Go and go, don't get drunk tonight. ”

Mornings in Shenzhen are always very noisy, even in the soundproof hotel room, you can still hear the traffic outside, the dazzling light through the curtains woke up Lin Kaiwen, I feel a little dizzy, I went to the pillow behind to get the mobile phone, and the hand just stretched out and reflexively retracted, what is it, fleshy? Suddenly looking back, Kevin Lin himself was stunned, a somewhat familiar and unfamiliar face was lying next to him, messy hair covering most of his face, reaching out to sweep away his hair, his heart trembled involuntarily, it was Shu Jing, she was asleep and didn't know that the quilt had betrayed her upper body.

Kevin Lin sat up in a panic, grabbed his hair vigorously, and vigorously recalled what happened last night. Yes, I talked to her for a long time last night, listened to her past, drank a lot of wine with her, and then helped each other into the room, and then later, whether they did something deviant in their half-asleep, Kevin Lin himself was not sure, he couldn't believe that he would be like this, and couldn't help laughing at himself.

"Hey, wake up!" Lin Kaiwen pushed Shu Jing next to him, Shu Jing gradually woke up in a haze, wiped her eyes, and suddenly she let out a scream: "Ah! What happened? Where am I?" Shu Jing stood up violently, and at this moment, her quilt completely betrayed her entire body. Kevin Lin hurriedly shouted:

"Go back to sleep, I'll go to the bathroom first, and you can get dressed before calling me. ”

"Oh. Shu Jing calmed down for a few seconds, and retracted the quilt very obediently, Lin Kaiwen had to go to the bathroom to wash up, looking at himself in the mirror, his hair was disordered, his face was haggard, and his stubble was all over his chin, he had never seen such vicissitudes of life, and he felt like he was looking at another person. Reached out and slapped a few times in the face, and suddenly was grabbed by another hand.

"Don't smoke yourself, it's not your fault, you were drunk last night, I helped you into the room, I heard Sister Meiling say that you don't know how to drink, I got you drunk, everything is voluntary to me, don't blame yourself." ”

"No, Shu Jing, we were all drunk last night, nothing should have happened, don't ......" Before she could say anything, Shu Jing put a lid on Kevin Lin's mouth, and then walked out of the bathroom with a smile. Looking at Shu Jing's back, the guilt in Lin Kaiwen's heart spontaneously arose, and he felt that he was cheap and behaved, so he kept scolding himself in his heart for being a hypocrite and a bastard. He seemed to be able to see Sakura standing in front of him, his eyes were full of tears, and he scolded resentfully: "Kevin Lin, Kevin Lin, you usually keep saying that you love me and I can't let go of me, but now you sleep shamelessly with other girls when you meet for the first time." You're a bastard, you liar.

Yes, I'm a bastard, a liar, I show an affectionate look in front of others every day, and now it's only the first day I go back to Shenzhen There is such an ambiguous story, if I meet Sakura in Shenzhen one day in the future, how should I face her?

Such a night in Shenzhen, ambiguity is everywhere, desire drifts in every corner, once people do not grasp well, they may push themselves and others into a kind of fear and stimulation that you can not predict because of hormones; such an early morning, there is no time to think about what people you will meet today, what things, some things have already happened, some people, you have already met, what you have to do is, how to face it, how to solve it.