Yuan Shao, Xu Kun didn't understand it, but didn't know it. I think Pei Shaobei will never tell anyone about this, just like Xiao Chen's matter, he is also stuffy in his stomach, if Xu Kun didn't learn about it from the side, maybe no one would know. Pei Shaobei didn't like Xiao Chen and scoffed at what he did. But he couldn't convince himself not to feel guilty.

It was his mistakes that led to someone else's endgame, and the consequences of this endgame are lifelong, which is too hard to accept. He had nowhere to vent, and he couldn't even find someone to vent, last time, I was taken to Xiao Chen by Yuan Shao, his depression, his nervousness, at this moment I realized how deep it was at that time.

This time, he took me to Xiao Chen's banquet, and all the abnormalities before this have now been explained. He was really hesitating, really worried about me, really didn't want me to touch the most difficult side of his heart, but in the end, what was the reason for his compromise, because of my persistence and confession?

I remembered what I said to Pei Shaobei in the office, and suddenly I felt so pale and powerless. But at that time, Pei Shaobei must have believed it, so he was willing to show me that kind of self, so he suppressed his anger and brought me out, but because he couldn't fight back head-on for what I encountered, he endured to punch. And what I did was just release all my unilateral pressure to him, and I never even thought that under such an embarrassing scene, Pei Shaobei still regarded me as his fiancée, and did not avoid suspicion or give up.

I should have understood, but I couldn't. Just like what Pei Shaobei said to me, if it doesn't work, then leave! It turns out that he really thinks so, and I have never understood it deeply.

Register with me, take me into the circle of life closest to him, I promised him that I was ready for full service, but in the end, I put myself in that situation. It's not that I don't know Xiao Chen's illness, nor do I know Zhang Jiajia's insidiousness, but I use my self-righteous kindness to ignore and avoid. Even when that nouveau riche bullied Zhang Jiajia, I still wanted to go over to help, I didn't understand what was wrong with me, the conflict between two different values and worldviews made my head a mess. I don't know what I did was right and what was wrong, and I don't know if I can continue to stand by Pei Shaobei's side like no one else in the future, I just feel tired, very tired.

The car stopped at the entrance of the community, and I got out of the car silently and left without saying a word to Xu Kun. I think he will definitely go back to Pei Shaobei, in the past year, it seems that this half-grown child has accompanied Pei Shaobei's loneliness with his curiosity and desire to explore, and it may be precisely because of this that Pei Shaobei has always acquiesced to his nonsense existence. Maybe people really want to grab something because of loneliness, and when I was in the capital hospital, I acquiesced to Lin Dong's company, which may also be because of this.

People should never be too lonely.

When I returned home, Gu Xiao had already slept, and my mother came out and asked me if I had eaten. I nodded, not elaborating. She didn't ask, yawned and went back to my room, and I walked into the bathroom by myself and soaked myself in warm water. The shower rains down on people and seems to wash away all grief.

This society may be a huge cancer, and everyone sees the glamorous shell, but you can't delve into the things inside, because once you dig deeper, you will find that you can't accept and agree with the truth of the facts. It's as if you think you're the princess with elaborate makeup in the mirror, but the reality tells you that you're just a clown amusing on stage. Such a huge contrast makes it impossible to look at it directly, and it seems that I want to retract into my shell.

I'm not a person who can carry things clearly, and I'm not a person who can turn a blind eye to many things. I am indignant, I am high, I am self-righteous with my self-righteous soul, looking at all my disdainful behavior, complacent, I feel that I am the green lotus living in the world, even if it is because of the stain caused by Lin Dong's failed marriage, it still can't erase the purity of my soul.

Today, however, I finally discovered the filth and childishness of my heart. Actually, what Zhang Jiajia said is not wrong. We are all liars, liars who think we are arrogant in the crowd. Tear off all the disguise, and all that is left is naked flesh.

I hate such bluntness, and I hate the cruelty of tearing those masks apart. I thought of the gentle and virtuous Mrs. Lin, of her bloodless counterattack, and of her calmness after being removed from her mask. I seem to understand that people live not because they can't know the truth, but after knowing the truth, they can still wear that mask and continue to live in your life circle with ease, which is the most certain experience that I have brought about this setback.

I let out a long sigh, wiped my body clean, walked out of the bathroom and called Pei Shaobei in the living room. The time was half past eleven in the evening, and I don't know if Pei Shaobei was still venting his anger at this time, or if he was already calm like me.

The phone was picked up when it rang for the third time, and Pei Shaobei's voice was hoarse and tired.

"Pei Shaobei, are you okay?" I asked, my voice sad.

There was silence on the other end of the phone, and after a while, a voice faintly replied, "I'm fine, I'll always be fine!" Gu Wan, I'm sorry, really, I'm sorry!"

I smiled, but the anger I had lost was gone. "Why did you apologize to me, because you didn't believe me, or because you couldn't avenge me?"

"I've never disbelieved you!" Pei Shaobei's voice was a little sad, but it was firm, "However, I really can't take revenge in the way you want! Gu Wan, I am a lawyer, and I know the priorities of things better than you." The trap set by Yuan Shao is waiting for us all to jump into. I know you're angry, but I can't talk about such private revenge and confuse it with my own work. However, I can assure you that I will make those people pay for all the pain that is attached to you!"

"Pei Shaobei, I also apologize to you!" I listened to his promise, but I was not moved and happy in my heart, because I knew that no matter what kind of revenge it was, it was a double-edged sword, hurting others and hurting myself. Especially if the other party is still Xiao Chen, I can understand how reluctant Pei Shaobei is to make a move. Besides, that Yuan Shao is more or less related to Pei Shaobei back then, even if I don't believe his story, I still believe in Pei Shaobei's persistence. If it weren't for the obsession in his heart, how could he not be able to let go of a case for so many years!

"Why do you apologize to me?" Pei Shaobei paused for a moment before asking, I heard the sound of the sofa being squeezed over there, and felt Pei Shaobei's relaxation.

"I didn't do what I promised you, and I will disgrace you because of me. I'm sorry, though, I think I've learned how to cope, maybe next time, I'll be able to do well!"

The other end of the phone fell silent again, and Pei Shaobei did not speak for a long, long time.

For a long time, I wondered if he was asleep on the couch.

At this time, Pei Shaobei's voice came in a low voice.

"Gu Wan, do you regret it, do you regret walking into here?"

"Well, I regret it, but I don't want to look back!" I replied truthfully. The dark and distorted values in this circle make me stunned and difficult to accept, but I want to stand by Pei Shaobei's side and be the one who will accompany him for the rest of his life.

"Gu Wan, find a time to move over, I'm alone, I'm sad!" Pei Shaobei's voice was slightly hoarse. My heart moved, but my nose was sour. After the reunion after leaving, I really felt the pressure of Pei Shaobei. I was suddenly extremely glad that he didn't change his temperament like Xiao Chen and Tang Ming because of different pressures.

The appearance of Pei Shaobei waving his fists frantically slipped through his mind, and the sweat slid down like that, soaking his body, and the tiredness made people fall asleep, did he spend many nights like this.

"Good!" I replied.

There was no more sound, I didn't hang up, just leaned back on the couch, listening to the sound of small breathing on the other end of the phone, so peaceful, so precious in this crazy night.

I didn't go into the bedroom to sleep, I slept on the couch for the night. When I woke up the next day, my body was covered with a quilt, and my mother was busy in the kitchen, and the smell of food wafted in, and the warmth was still there. It was as if I had crawled out of hell as if I had lived again, and it turned out that my life had not changed, only the state of mind of the person had changed.

I got up to say hello to my mother and went to the bathroom to wash up. When I came out, my mother was already making vegetables, and I hurried over to help, and when I was serving the side dishes, I told Pei Shaobei what he wanted us to move over.

The mother was stunned, and couldn't help complaining distressedly, "Tell me about the two of you, one buys a house and the other sells a house, how much difference is between the inside and the outside, don't you all let the agent earn it? When Gu Xiao grows up, you have something to worry about!"

I couldn't help laughing, and replied jokingly, "Mom, even if I can't afford to raise it, isn't there still Pei Shaobei? The child also has half of him, is it difficult for me to raise it myself, he is idle!"

"Alas, you still say that, the child's surname is Gu, what does it have to do with others! With your inkblot temper, I don't know if Ma Yue can win it in the Year of the Monkey!" the mother rolled her eyes and complained again.

I remembered that I seemed to have forgotten to tell my mother an important matter, and then said, "Mom, Pei Shaobei and I have already registered!"

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