Chinese I did think about walking away, and even thought about it, and I just denied everything that had happened irresponsibly, and I had a very selfish, extreme to the point of darkness and pathology, ruining her and making her suffer as much as I did for the rest of my life.

Later, I still thought I was ridiculous.

I bought the materials and planned to go back to make breakfast, so I went to the mall to buy a change of clothes for her.

Seeing that Chen Xiang had just woken up and was nervously looking for me, I fell into self-blame again.

My feelings for Chen Xiang seem to have always been very entangled.

I love her, I hate her, I want to give her the best, and I want to destroy her and let her fall with me.

However, in Chen Xiang's eyes, I can only be good to her. After yesterday, her dependence on me has also refreshed to a new level.

While making breakfast, Chen Xiang suddenly hugged my waist from behind.

I was stunned for a moment, turned my head and just smelled the faint fragrance of her hair, her hand on my waist, and her soft and warm body, all of which made me unable to control myself from reminiscing about last night's contact.

Chen Xiang is already mine, and it is completely mine.

I didn't speak, just took her hand and let her hug me tighter.

I sent Chen Xiang home before going to the piano store in the afternoon, and on the way back to send her back, I did two things, one was to delete the anonymous text message in her mobile phone, if I kept it, Qi Xiang would definitely find out the person behind it, and at that time, Lin Xuan would also tell me that I knew that Chen Xiang was bullied but turned a blind eye to it.

I admit that I was really selfish because I didn't dare let her know that I had hurt her, and I would even let go of those who bullied her.

Another thing is to take her to the pharmacy to buy emergency avoidance //pregnancy//medicine.

When I handed the medicine to Chen Xiang, I could see that she was very nervous and her hands were shaking.

If it weren't for me, she wouldn't have handed herself over so hastily.

These two things were enough to drive me crazy, so that I didn't dare to face Chen Xiang for a second longer, even if she only relied on me and didn't blame me, I didn't even have the courage to continue to send her home.

I was also absent-minded and kept making mistakes, and several times I even wanted to smash the piano, or simply smash myself.

I regret it again, I shouldn't have had a relationship with Chen Xiang under the premise that I can't promise happiness, my mind is full of the pain that this incident will bring her in the future.

At this moment, I didn't want to hate Chen Xiang, and I didn't want to pull her to fall with me.

Maybe I'm like my mom too, crazy too.

Thinking of my mother, I closed my eyes and clenched my fists, and when I opened my eyes, I saw a figure reflected on the piano and a familiar sound.

I looked back and saw that my mom was chatting with the teacher at the piano shop.

It's a normal chat, when she doesn't get sick, no one really treats her as a mental patient, and it's for this reason that I have always disagreed with sending her to a mental hospital, many people tell me that even a normal person will go crazy if she lives in it, not to mention my mother's this, putting her in it is just a quiet for us people, for her, it is definitely a more terrible thing than going to prison.

I walked over and asked my mom how she found it.

My mother said that the college entrance examination was coming, and she decided to come to S City to accompany me.

Then she chatted with the teacher and asked me about my situation, and at this time she was really like all mothers who cared about their son, she no longer opened her mouth to ask when my father was coming, and she would not hit me with a ruler and force me to practice the piano.

I looked at my mom and thought of all the pitiful warm times that I remembered.

If only she had never cared about the man who didn't take her seriously at all.

It was inconvenient to stay in a hotel, so I took my mother to Qi Xiang temporarily, I thought that my mother would stay for a week at most this time, but at dinner in the evening, she took out several dozen dollars from her bag, not to mention hundreds of thousands.

In the past few years, hundreds of thousands of dollars could buy a two-bedroom apartment in L City, and it was impossible for my mother to have so much money, unless......

I didn't ask her before I took the initiative to say, before I came to S City this time, my mother sold the home of the two of us, sold the hundreds of thousands, she planned to go to S City and I to rely on each other, even the previous promise to be admitted to a university in Beijing, she also asked me if I could stay in S City.

At this moment, I realized that my mother came here in every possible way for the sake of not me at all.

But now, we really have nothing, the house is gone, and it is impossible to live in S City with hundreds of thousands.

I didn't dare to irritate her, but she asked me if I had ever gone to my dad in S City, and taught me that I should go to him often and discuss with him about going to university.

Every word my mom said was like a slap in the face, but I had to listen to it, and even say yes.

Finally settling her down, I made a bunk in another room, and as soon as I lay down, my phone started ringing.

The call came from Chen Xiang.

I was annoyed to hear her talk about the phone call between her mom and her mom's boyfriend.

Soon she called again, and I pretended not to hear until my mom knocked on the door and asked me, and I took my phone to the balcony to pick it up.

This time, Chen Xiang told me that her mother was going to send her abroad, to the UK, to be with Qi Xiang.

I may be really crazy, at this time Chen Xiang told me that she was going to accompany Qi Xiang to study, and I released all the anger I suppressed in front of my mother on Chen Xiang, and let her go if she wanted.

I turned it off directly after hanging up.

I knew that Chen Xiang didn't mean that, but I just couldn't control myself from shouting at her and getting angry at her, knowing that I was wrong, but I wanted to control her.

The next day at the school gate, I saw Chen Xiang and Jiang Hao pulling and pulling together.

I didn't say anything, I turned around and walked to the classroom by myself, Chen Xiang caught up with me and kept explaining behind me, but I didn't even think I heard it, and deliberately said something to make her sad.

When she was so sad and asked me if I wanted to break up with her, I panicked again, afraid that I would really push her away and be abandoned by her.

Chen Xiang is already the only one I have, and I naively chose the worst way, forcing her to care about me by pretending not to care, hurting her by leaving immediately, so that she never had the courage to leave again.

I didn't go to practice for a few days, my mother and teacher knew that my current level no longer needed such high-intensity training, so I spent my daily practice time to go outside to find a house, and the rest of the time I pretended not to be with Chen Xiang for anything.

During those days, I felt that Chen Xiang was really easy to deceive, and she nodded whatever I said.

But then I realized that she wasn't stupid, she wasn't stupid, she just believed in me too much.

What I can deceive is actually this girl who treats me sincerely.

Compared to my struggles, the only thing my mom does these days is to look for my dad everywhere, but fortunately, it's not that easy to find someone, and I have already called my dad to get him ready.

My dad asked me to appease my mom first and find a way to get her back.

How can it be so simple, in the end, he personally went out and promised to go back to L City today to accompany my mother for the New Year, and only he can move my mother in a few words.

And I, listening to the two words of the New Year, smiled bitterly, it turned out that time passed so quickly, Qi Xiang had been gone for half a year, and my mother had been crazy for a year.

It's best to hurry up in the next six months, so that Chen Xiang and I can go to Beijing to go to university together and start a new life for me and her.

My dad was afraid that something would go wrong, so he took my mom back to S City in advance, and I had to wait until the end of the period.

On this last day, another accident happened.

I was playing the guitar and writing tunes, Chen Xiang was reading a book, her mobile phone rang suddenly, and then she heard the sound of the book hitting the ground, but she seemed to be indifferent, she kept staring at the phone, her fingers clenched very tightly.

I also suddenly nervous Qi Xiang and asked her what was going on, she reacted very much, and when I went to grab her phone, she even avoided me and ran to the other room and locked the door.

But I still saw a few words, warehouse, who, and a string of unfamiliar mobile phone numbers.

I pieced together possible combinations in my head, and combined with Chen Xiang's reaction just now, I began to be afraid that she would doubt me.

When this moment actually came, I was much more timid than I had imagined.

I stood guard outside the door for a long time, until Chen Xiang opened the door and came out, and she showed me her phone.

The person who sent the text message was really inducing Chen Xiang to suspect me, saying that Chen Xiang's number was what I told her, and that this matter was all planned by me.

Although I didn't do that, I did lie to Chen Xiang, and it is true that I have a weak heart.

And Chen Xiang once again chose to trust me.

Not because she's a liar, but because she loves me.

I don't think I can bear the pain of losing her anymore, I talked to my dad once after I went back to L City, and I thought he would pay for me to take my mom abroad, and the medical conditions abroad are much better, maybe it can cure my mom's illness, at least it won't make her worse.

My dad was very happy to agree, and probably he also thought it would be better to send me and my mother as far away as possible.

But it doesn't matter, I've long been used to not expecting the legendary father's love in the past ten years, all I want now is to cure my mother's illness and then take her to live with Chen Xiang.

I still remember Chen Xiang told me that her relationship with her mother was not good, so I asked Chen Xiang if he wanted to go abroad with me.

Chen Xiang refused without thinking about it.

Chen Xiang didn't want to go abroad, and even I couldn't change her mind, which made me understand that I shouldn't and didn't have the ability to influence her decision.

To be honest, I'm pretty depressed.

Before I could hang up the phone, there was a sound of smashing things outside the door, and I called out to my parents, and suddenly heard my mother's crying.

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