After saying that, he hung up the phone angrily and stuffed me into the car, "I have helped you with everything, why do you still want to go back to the coast?"

"When I left, I didn't say hello to Bai Hehe. ”

"Who else are they?" Shi Xiaodan asked sensitively.

"My boss at work..."

"Then stay in City A, and I'll pay you. ”

"Xiaodan, I thank you very much for helping me do all this, my situation is very complicated, I don't want to pull you into this troubled water. So I'll remember how nice you were to me, but I still have to go back to the beach, and I'm going to stay there. ”

Shi Xiaodan didn't understand: "Why does it have to be Binhai?"

"That's where he asked me to stay..."

Yes, from the moment I set foot on the waterfront, I felt like I should stay. Not only for life, but also for the more important factor is that there is Ye Yiding's hometown there. Even though he did it too impulsively, even though he broke my heart 4 years ago because of his insistence on giving up, he has already paid the price for it, and I have no reason not to survive for him.

How do you know that Shi Xiaodan was angry because of this, "You said that reckless man? Where is he helping you, he thinks that brute force can solve the problem? Now it has long been past to solve the problem by relying on knives, guns and sticks, okay?"

"He's kind anyway!" I retorted.

"Good intentions, good intentions are only counted if they have done a good thing, what is it if he pushes you like that?" Shi Xiaodan insisted on his opinion.

Although I also know that Ye Yiding did not do a good job, it has happened, and it is impossible for me to blame him, let alone accept others to accuse him in front of me. Even though I had a special feeling for him, I felt his insolence and excess. The relationship between me and him is really not good enough for him to say Ye Yiding so unscrupulously in front of me.

So these words also made me angry instantly: "Yes, you have money, connections and a father who can fight, and the way you solve the problem is only to find someone to say a word, but he can't." Whether the outcome is good or bad, there is no way to change the fact that he helped me!"

"Damn!" Shi Xiaodan slapped the steering wheel fiercely, hung his head on it and stopped talking.

I suddenly wanted to cry, I don't know who can understand me from my point of view now, Shi Xiaodan and Ye Yiding's help to me makes me feel like I have been morally kidnapped. Ye Yiding once took the initiative to give up because Zhang Nan bullied me, and after his conscience was discovered, he chose to make up for it in this way.

Especially what Shi Xiaodan is doing now, he can't wait for me to stay in that suite in the Dynasty Hotel. If I don't accept it, I don't know what to do, but it's really hard for me to accept it. As long as I am in City A, people will recognize me when I walk on the street, how can my life start again?

Seeing that Shi Xiaodan was a little angry, I couldn't bear it again, so I lowered my voice and whispered: "Xiaodan, thank you very much, but I still want to wait for a while before coming back." ”

"Can you just stay in City A? I'm going to graduate soon, and when I graduate, can't I accompany you to live on the beach?" Shi Xiaodan raised his head, his eyes were a little red: "I really don't dare to let you leave my side anymore, I don't want to see you suffer again." ”

"No, I'm fine on the beach, and I'll settle down before you meet me. ”

"I—" Shi Xiaodan's voice trembled a little, "Do you think I don't blame myself for this? I would have known that this would have happened, and I would have rescued you from that abyss of pain early in the morning." And now, can't you let me repay you once? Why can you give me help and not accept my help?"

"I'm going to help you?" I couldn't figure out what Shi Xiaodan meant.

"Hehe, maybe you forgot, but I remember it all my life. Shi Xiaoshan took out his cigarette from the handbox and lit it, rolled down the window and spit out a puff of smoke, "6 years ago, I..."

Halfway through speaking, my mobile phone rang, he heard the mobile phone ringing and thought it was Bai Hehe, and was a little crazy and angry, took the mobile phone and said unceremoniously: "Bai Hehe, I..." ”

I can't guess that this number is out of him and Bai Hehe, who else will know, took the phone and asked suspiciously: "Which one?"

"Is it Ke An?" the other party was a middle-aged man, and his voice was very polite.

"You are?"

"I'm Meng Shifan... Do you remember?"

"Hello Boss Meng, what's the matter?"

"That's right, a few days ago, I had a friend bring a broken purple clay cup, I want to ask if you have time lately? If it's convenient, can you bend down to the shop?"

"What has the purple sand cup broken into?"

"It's not particularly bad, it's just that the cup has a few cracks. ”

"But I'm not on the shore for the past two days, and I'll talk about it when I come back, okay?"

"Okay, it's just that my friend is a little anxious, if I don't embarrass you, do I want to do it as soon as possible?" Meng Shifan said cautiously, "Don't worry, if this cup is repaired, I will definitely give you a good price." ”

"It's easy to talk about money, but I'm really not here right now. So, I'll contact you as soon as I get back?"

At the end of the call with Meng Shifan, I had a glimmer of hope for returning to Binhai to live. If I can take him on this job, then I won't be struggling to survive for a while, right?

Shi Xiaodan was a little disappointed after listening to what I said to Meng Shifan, "I'll send you back to the hotel." ”

After that, he was speechless again and again, and when he arrived at the hotel, he coldly asked me to rest early, and did not mention the matter of not returning to Binhai. But in the middle of the night, he drunkenly knocked on my door, holding a birthday cake in his hand: "You should wish me a happy birthday." ”

I looked at him sleepily, "It's your birthday today?"

"Yes..."Shi Xiaoshan held the birthday cake in his hand and propped up the door with one hand: "Say quickly, I wish me a happy 22nd birthday." ”

At the age of 22, I knew Shi Xiaodan's age for the first time, and I was envious of my youth.

"Hurry up and say happy birthday to me. Shi Xiaodan continued to ask.

I helped him in, settled down on the couch, took out a bottle of energy drink from the fridge and handed it to him: "Happy birthday." ”

Shi Xiaodan suddenly cried emotionally, threw away the cake and got up and hugged me tightly into his arms: "Sister Ke An, it's hard for me to meet you again, don't you leave me, okay?"

Tears that can make a woman's heart ache, I think except for children, they are just men, right? Seeing Shi Xiaodan crying in my arms, the hidden heart was faintly troubled, and I felt as if I wanted to stay as he wished. But I'm sober and know that I can't be so casual anymore, I've already killed two people, and I can't harm Shi Xiaodan anymore.

"Don't cry, don't cry," I patted him on the back, not knowing how to comfort him.

"Sister Ke An, I have never forgotten your help for so many years, but I have never been able to find you..."Shi Xiaodan's tears moistened my shoulders, "At that time, I thought that if I could find you one day, I would definitely repay you double." ”

Although what Shi Xiaodan said was emotional, I didn't know what he was talking about. Seeing his confused state, I didn't feel good about asking questions, so I had to follow his words: "I'm fine." ”

"No, you're not good. Shi Xiaodan said stubbornly and stubbornly: "One day I came home and saw you standing on the opposite windowsill, I wanted to come over and say hello to you, but you seemed to be thinking about something." I regret it now, I should have come to greet you, I should have let you know and believe me, tell me what grievances you have suffered, then you will not be so uncomfortable now, you will not..."

It turned out that when I was standing by the windowsill at that time, Shi Xiaodan had already noticed me.

"You know what? I was hungry for days when you put the food in front of me. Growing up, I never felt that embarrassed, and I didn't think that food would be so precious. I wanted to stop you, but you were walking so fast that I didn't slow down and say thank you. But I remembered what you looked like, I remembered your name..."

Shi Xiaodan's speech became more and more blurred, and he fell on my shoulder as if he was about to fall asleep, I gently pushed him away and sat on the edge of the bed, he was still muttering: "That feeling of sending charcoal in the snow to help the poor and relieve the crisis, no one can understand it if it has not reached that situation... I was lucky to have your help, and I had a friend who went with me, and I was taken away when I was dying of hunger..."

I seem to remember who he is, so it's no wonder I felt a sense of déjà vu when I first saw him on TV.

Six years ago, during the summer vacation, my mother and I went back to my grandmother's house in the countryside. I heard that some people went to the mountains in the village to conduct practical training in wilderness survival. The mountain is covered with primeval forest for several kilometres, and there are occasional hikers who venture out, but few of them make it out on their own. At that time, when my grandmother and my mother talked about it, they were still glad that I was more perverse, saying that these teenagers who came this time were all rebellious to the family and had no way to take them, so they were sent to this activity camp for them to challenge the limit of survival.

During the few days I spent at my grandmother's house, I could hear every day the "latest news" brought back by people who went into the mountains to pick mushrooms and herbs. It is said that a certain teenager threatened suicide because he couldn't stand the harsh environment inside, and said that a certain teenager got lost and was trapped for a night because he wanted to escape from the mountain.

That day, my brother-in-law took me in to collect mushrooms, and unexpectedly on the way, I met a young man who was already dying of hunger lying in front of the tent, and my brother-in-law was about to walk forward with a basket, and I stopped and asked my brother-in-law to give him our food. The uncle did not agree, saying that the event party had greeted the village in advance, and all the villagers who entered the mountain should not help these people. I just stood and didn't go forward, and in the end my brother-in-law had no choice, so he handed me the things and asked me to give them myself, and when the time came, I was not a member of the village.

In fact, my idea at the time was very simple, because I didn't know any training to challenge the limit of survival, I only knew that the boy in front of me was hungry and fainted, if I didn't give him food, what if I starved to death? Maybe I wasn't in his situation, and I couldn't understand how precious the little food I gave him was.

At night, I let Shi Xiaoshan sleep on the bed, and I curled up on the sofa for the night. When I woke up in the morning, he was still asleep, so I gently packed myself up and prepared to go to the prison to find a way to see Ye Yiding.

It's just that as soon as I left the door of the hotel, a large number of reporters flocked to me again: "Ms. Ke An, why didn't you attend Ye Yiding's trial?"

"May I ask what do you think of Ye Yiding's death sentence?"

"Do you ever feel like you're a scourge, killing two men at the same time?"

I had to hide back, and subconsciously wondered why I had only been staying for two nights when all the reporters knew I was staying here.