The scream in the Jiesdi became my lingering nightmare, in the dream Meng Meng took a knife and stabbed me into the heart, blood splashed out of the heart, that picture was very much like a bloody exaggerated picture in an action movie, my eyes were full of blood red, I woke up from the nightmare, opened my eyes suddenly, saw the blue curtains, only to realize that I was dreaming again, and my back was full of cold sweat.

When I woke up, I couldn't sleep anymore, I put on my coat and walked to the windowsill, and looked at the villa on the right, where the lights were still on, and the place where the lights were on was the study, and he hadn't slept yet, what was he doing? Is he still working? Lately, he's always been busy, and he goes to bed late, and staying up late is not a good habit.

The panic in my heart settled down when I saw the light, as if Li Yi was by his side, and he said to himself that it was okay, everything was fine. I opened the window to let the cold wind blow in, blowing away my suddenness, and then sat on a wicker chair with a cup of hot water in my hand and quietly looked at the light.

I couldn't help but wonder what that person was doing, every time he stayed up late, he would drink bitter coke coffee to refresh himself, and when he worked at the desk until two or three o'clock, he would be hungry, and he must have to eat supper, otherwise he would not be able to sleep all night. I have been woken up from my dreams by him several times, and if I refuse, he will pull my waist and pester, saying that I work so hard, and you are sleeping, and your heart is unbalanced.

Sometimes when they get in the mood, they will eat me all before carrying me down for supper. But if San'er sneaks into the bed to sleep, he will be so angry that he will pick up San'er and throw it on the ground, childishly pointing at San'er and yelling, if you climb into bed again, Lao Tzu will stew you and eat it, it doesn't matter whether San'er understands what he is saying or not.

The look of him staring at him appeared in his mind, and a smile involuntarily appeared on the corner of his mouth, it turned out that there were so many good memories between us. The light on the opposite side went out, and he finally went to sleep, and I reluctantly got up and went to bed, and soon fell into darkness again, probably remembering such good memories, and no more nightmares, and I slept until dawn.

When Lele, the nanny and companion, came up to wake me up, I reluctantly got up from the bed and went downstairs for breakfast. was in a good mood, but when I met that gentle smiling face, my mood suddenly became worse. Xu Yuwen didn't seem to see my dissatisfaction, and greeted me with a smile and said, "Good morning!"

For nearly a month, no matter what stinky face I put on, he was the same dead, affectionate and affectionate person, making me feel like I was making trouble unreasonably. I snorted coldly and sat down, with sarcasm in my tone, "Mr. Xu, are you idle?"

"Huh?" Xu Yuwen seemed surprised when I opened my mouth to talk to him, and a trace of joy flashed in his deep eyes, like a child holding a coveted toy with a happy expression, but he was vague, put down his chopsticks, and stared at me affectionately.

At first, I would get goosebumps when I saw this kind of gaze, but then I got used to it and ignored it, and I continued to ridicule, "Are you so afraid that I will run away? ”

As if he couldn't understand the sarcasm in his words, Xu Yuwen put a piece of pickled cucumber on my plate and said thoughtfully, "Your appetite in the morning is not very good, is it? Your appetite hasn't been very good lately, wait for Lele to accompany you to the hospital for a check-up!"

I looked back at Lele behind me, Lele is a famous college student from a poor family, he is very sweet, knows how to speak, and knows how to lik. I just lived in the villa, I was very gloomy, I didn't talk to everyone, and Lele tirelessly whispered in my ear, and I had a good impression of her, in fact, she took Xu Yuwen's salary to spy on me.

When Lele saw me staring at herself, she immediately lowered her head, a sneer appeared on my face, and she moved the cucumber on the plate to the other side, and then squinted at Xu Yuwen, "If I can't see you, I will definitely have a great appetite." ”

I found that Xu Yuwen was really idle, he lived in the villa every day, he didn't go on a business trip at all, he didn't have any entertainment at all, he almost came back at eleven o'clock, even if I thought of a way to avoid him, I couldn't see him when I looked down, and I saw it when I looked up.

Xu Yuwen still didn't understand my words, and then said, "Don't be bored at home all day, go out for a walk, don't you like to watch Xiyangyang and the Big Big Wolf?

"I don't want to watch such a childish movie, that stupid gray wolf will never catch a sheep, and he was taught a hard lesson, and I will come back with the same ending, I don't like it at all, it's purely to fool children." "I picked up my chopsticks and poked at the cucumber so hard that I thought the cucumber was someone.

Hearing me say that, Xu Yuwen burst out laughing, not that kind of gentle smile, but being laughed at, I regretted saying that kind of thing and making him laugh. He said in a doting tone, "Shuangshuang is so cute, aren't you still a child?"

I listened to him praise himself for his cuteness, his face was gloomy, and he asked in that bitter tone, "Child, Mr. Xu, do you have child abuse? If I am a child in your eyes, how can you do it?"

I personally untangled the scar again, the purpose was to make myself hurt, not to indulge in the hypocrisy of the person in front of me, but also to take the initiative to distance us.

As expected, Xu Yuwen wiped his mouth with a napkin, looked at me sadly, sighed and stood up. I tasted the pleasure of revenge, but I was not happy, so why didn't I feel pain?

He took the briefcase handed over by Lele, and before going out, he regained his tender expression, and said to me affectionately, "Shuangshuang, I have a party tonight, I may have to come back later, I can't have dinner with you tonight, I will try to rush back before eleven o'clock." ”

How thoughtful and affectionate he looked, I threw the pickled cucumber in the trash and replied in a weird way, "You'd better never come back!"

Xu Yuwen put his arm around my shoulders, forcibly bowed his head and kissed my forehead, and said politely, "I may be going to disappoint you." ”

I don't start, I want to avoid his kiss. For nearly a month, he didn't do much out of the ordinary except kiss me on the forehead before leaving, but I was still very unhappy, so I picked up a tissue and wiped my forehead in disgust.

Lele couldn't stand it anymore, she hesitated and said, "Miss Lu, I'm sorry, Mr. Xu asked me about you, and I could see that Mr. Xu cared about you, so I said, I'm sorry! ”

I raised my head and looked at Lele, she was the same age as me, in a state of ignorance, looking forward to the existence of fairy tales, believing that there would be a story of the prince and Cinderella, but she had experienced a cruel reality, and she would definitely not be the heroine of a fairy tale. I think of Du Xiaoyue, she was the me I am now, I saw everything through, and I no longer believe in any bullshit fairy tales, so I persuaded the people around me not to believe it, but didn't that girl have a Cinderella dream?

"Really, you're going to fall in love with a rapist?" I replied coldly.

Lele's face was full of astonishment, obviously not believing that Xu Yuwen would do such a thing, and stared at me in disbelief, as if to confirm whether what I said was true or false. Yes, who can tell who Xu Yuwen is? He hides so deeply and establishes the image of a good gentleman.

I became very lazy, too lazy to explain, too lazy to say, indifferently holding a piece of vermicelli and putting it in my mouth, strange, how did the usually refreshing vermicelli become so greasy? My throat became very dry, and a feeling of nausea came up, I quickly covered my mouth and rushed into the bathroom, lying on the toilet and vomiting, but I couldn't vomit anything, just retching, and my stomach was very uncomfortable.

Lele rushed over, handed me a cup of hot water, and said uncertainly, "You look like you're pregnant, my sister-in-law is pregnant, but she's very sleepy, and she likes to eat sour things, and she retchs!"

Suddenly, my heart chuckled, the word pregnancy became a magic barrier, I looked back at Lele and asked seriously, "What is the number today?"

Lele patted the back of my hand softly, thought for a moment and then said, "Is it the 29th? or the 30th? Wait a minute, I'll go and look at the calendar!"

I couldn't help frowning, my menstrual period has always been inaccurate, sometimes early, sometimes late, this time the menstrual affair was actually ten days late, and I remembered what Lele said, I couldn't keep calm anymore, I took a tissue to wipe my mouth, and walked quickly to the door.

Lele followed closely behind me and shouted anxiously, "Miss Lu, you are not wearing a coat, it is very cold outside, wait until you catch a cold, Mr. Xu will be very angry, where are you going?"

Xu Yuwen did not restrict my free activities, after all, people are capable? There are too many means to deal with me, and it is easy to find my traces, after all, the monk can run people, but he can't run the temple, and my family is under his surveillance.

I picked up the car key and went to start the car, Lele picked up the coat and followed closely behind, I got into the car, locked the window, Lele banged on the car door in a panic and shouted, "Miss Lu, do you want to go there?"

Lele is the spy that Xu Yuwen put next to me, naturally I was very wary of her, I pulled on my seat belt and looked at Lele, "Don't worry, I won't run, even if I want to run, I can't run, I want to go out alone, don't follow me." Don't worry, if Xu Yuwen embarrasses me, I will be responsible. ”

After all, I was too soft-hearted, thinking that she was also a poor family, and it was not easy to find a good job, and I didn't want her to lose her job because of herself, so I stepped on the accelerator and drove forward.

Lele shouted loudly in the back, and I saw her running forward quickly from the rearview mirror, but how could a person outrun the car, and after a while, I left Lele far behind. I sped as fast as I could, towards the nearest hospital.

As soon as I entered the hospital, I rushed straight to the gynecology department and asked the doctor to check whether I was pregnant. I realized that I was too reckless, so I persuaded myself to calm down, register according to the prescribed steps, and take a B-ultrasound.

But in the face of this kind of thing, how could I have remained calm, I lay on the hospital bed nervously, anxiously asking the doctor, "Am I pregnant, is there something wrong?"

The doctor took the device and slowly moved it in my lower abdomen, and smiled kindly and advised, "Girl, don't be too anxious, wait a minute!"

I tightened my grip on the sheet and turned to look at the screen, but the screen was in the same direction as my head and looked very struggling. Usually the doctor refuses to let the patient look at the screen, but this doctor has a very good temperament, pointing to the screen and saying, "Do you see it? The little black dot in the middle of the uterus is the child, and you should be pregnant for nearly a month." ”

My eyes stared at the small black dots flashing on the screen, the whole person was stunned, I originally made up my mind to give Li Yi a child, even if I left Li Yi, the child can become my sustenance, and then I encountered that kind of thing, in order to avoid that I would get pregnant, I took emergency contraceptive pills, so that I could be hit, I was really speechless.

My body was hard and trembling slightly, if the child was Xu Yuwen, I would definitely not stay, I admit that I am very cruel, no matter how selfless I am, I will not fall in love with the rapist's child, but the abortion operation is too terrible, now I think about it, I will be afraid. What if it were Li Yi's child? Now that my relationship with him is so stiff, will he agree to me keeping the child? Not to mention Li Yi, even Xu Yuwen, he will not keep the child. What should I do? I couldn't make up my mind, and stared blankly at the white ceiling.

After all, the doctor was well-informed, her smile disappeared, and she repeated numbly, "If you don't want a child, I can give you a bill, the sooner you take out the child, the better it will be for you!"

What if the child is Li Yi's? Is it me and his child? I swallowed my saliva with great difficulty, and asked with difficulty, "Doctor, can you now determine whose child it is?"

As soon as my words came out, the doctor looked at me with great disdain, and that kind of gaze seemed to strip me naked, leaving me embarrassed, and the doctor knowingly asked, "What do you mean?"

"I... I..."It's really embarrassing, it's embarrassing, I can't wait to find a crack in the ground and get in, hide, don't face such an embarrassing picture alone" I... I don't know who the father of the child is!"

The doctor shook his head in disappointment and said indifferently, "Generally speaking, women of normal reproductive age only release one egg per month from their ovaries. The egg can survive for 1~2 days after discharge, the sperm can survive for 2~3 days in the female reproductive tract, the fertilization ability is mostly within 24 hours after ovulation, and the sperm loses the ability to combine with the egg after 2~3 days. Therefore, 2~3 days before ovulation and 1~2 days after ovulation**, it is possible to conceive, you can calculate who the child is!"

As she spoke, she shook her head, "Today's young people's relationship is chaotic, young people don't know how to cherish themselves, and when they get married in the future, they will suffer hardship, and many people can't have children if they want to have children? ”

I listened to the doctor's words, I didn't know what to say, of course I understood her kind reminder, and the contempt that was unintentionally revealed, but I didn't want to defend myself, and I didn't plan to tell others about that miserable experience, I clenched my fists, no matter what others thought of me, and insisted word by word, "I ask you if you can detect who the father of the child is now?"

The doctor may have been too busy and prejudiced against me, and said impatiently, "I can't do it now, if you want to do it, just wait for the 16th to 24th week of pregnancy, and then you can take amniotic fluid for paternity testing, and you need to do a fetal paternity test, a sample of the mother, amniotic fluid, and a sample of the suspected father, the standard sample has blood, blood stains, hair with hair follicles, and cells of the oral mucosa." If you have anything, just ask the doctor, there are still people waiting in line? I'm just in charge of the ultrasound. ”

I got out of bed in a panic, and with trembling hands, I took the ultrasound photos handed over by the doctor. The doctor sighed, pointed to the little sprout and sighed, "How cute you see it?"

Tears flowed down my face, and I'm no stranger to these kinds of photos. When I was pregnant for the first time, Li Yi took my angry words seriously, thinking that he wanted to get rid of the child, he often held the B-ultrasound picture and chattered in my ear, it was amazing, it was too small, only the size of a bean sprout, you see it got bigger, it was only a month, it got so big, don't look at it so small, the doctor said, it has a heartbeat, it is already a life, you see it is sucking fingers, how cute, it is still playing with its own umbilical cord, it is too naughty......

He told me so much, it was nothing more than to make me think that the fetus was cute, so I was reluctant to take the child, he was such a fool, he took all his angry words seriously. I love him so much, how can I bear to take away the child, even if the child's arrival is an accident.

At this moment, my heart is mixed with five flavors, how much I hope it is Li Yi's child, so that I will have enough courage to continue to walk down in this cruel and real life, I will do my best to protect it, never let anyone hurt it again, I want it to grow up healthy and healthy. If it weren't for Li Yi's child, how could I have the strength to endure such a ruthless result?

I clenched the ultrasound, tears fell down one by one, and the doctor gently patted me on the back, "Girl, you don't blame me for talking too much, after all, it's a life, you have a miscarriage again, or induce labor." If you have another abortion, maybe you won't be able to talk about your mother anymore, so go back and think about it!"

I walked out of the ultrasound room in a daze, walked forward in confusion, and bumped into the oncoming crowd, I didn't apologize, causing people to scold me for being blind and not looking at the road when I walked. Along the way, I bumped into a lot of people, no matter what others said or scolded, I didn't respond, and continued to walk forward in a daze, as if I had lost my soul, and I didn't know what to do.

I went downstairs and walked forward stupidly, I didn't know what I wanted to do, I couldn't understand why I was pregnant with a child when I was taking the morning-after pill, why did God treat me like this, I became a resentful woman, complaining about God, but I really don't know what to do?

I walked forward in a daze, until I heard the horn of the car, I raised my head and looked ahead, there was a car and a big truck driving towards me, the car was braking suddenly, staggering forward, I was still a little away from the car, but in this moment of crisis, my head stuck, standing motionless, staring blankly at the car getting closer and closer.

Suddenly, someone grabbed my wrist and dragged me back to the side of the road, and a familiar reprimand sounded in my ears: "Shuangshuang, do you want to die? Don't you see a red light? What are you running a red light?"

I looked up in shock and saw Li Yi, he was very angry, the flying sword eyebrows pulled up, the already big eyes stared at me angrily at this time, it seemed that his eyes were even bigger, and his lips were pursed tightly.

Even if I was angry, I still thought he was good-looking, plus I hadn't seen him for nearly a month, I missed him very much, several times late at night, I couldn't sleep, I secretly walked under his villa, looked at the lights were still on, and walked back, but it was strange, the two people were separated by a distance of twenty meters, and I didn't see him again. I couldn't help but stare at him intently.

Li Yi's eyebrows pressed down, his whole face became very gloomy, his right lip was raised upward, revealing a classic ruffian evil smile, and sarcastically using vicious language, "What's wrong? Xu Yuwen can't satisfy you, so you think of me?"

I jerked my hand back, took two steps back, lowered my head and said politely, "Thank you, I'm leaving!"

Li Yi pinched my chin and forced me to meet my gaze, "Xu Yuwen didn't spoil you in the golden house, why are you here alone? I saw you lose your soul in the hospital, and you ran a red light, why did you go to the hospital?"

As soon as he said that, I immediately looked down at the bag vigilantly, there was a B-ultrasound there, and I pretended to be very calm and said, "No... It's nothing, I'm just doing a routine check-up!"

Li Yi is a very smart person, especially good at people's subtle expressions, he immediately realized that there was something in the bag, and he was about to grab it, how could I let him know? I don't know who the child is, if he knows that I just had sex with him in the morning and was slept with by Xu Yuwen at night, how can his self-esteem allow it? If he knew that Xu Yuwen had done something like that to me, according to his impulsive nature, he really took a knife to kill people.

I pounced on my handbag and tried to retrieve it, but he was so tall that I couldn't reach it even on tiptoe.