There are grievances and shames, but more of them are the grief of not being understood by the people they like. I wasn't so hypocritical before, but I don't know why, maybe it's because of Pei Shaobei's infinite tolerance, or maybe it's the double torture of mind and body, which makes my thinking like a tight string, if you don't touch it, it will collapse.

I hate myself like this, especially in the face of Yang Lian's lack of confidence, in the face of Pei Zile's cowardly cover-up, in the face of Pei Shaobei's inferiority complex and willfulness, these negative emotions are like grass in the bottom of your heart, you think they don't exist, you think you can rely on the happiness in front of you to completely eliminate them, but only when you really face it, you will understand that those things seem to melt into your flesh and blood, you can't break free, you can't get rid of it, even if you hate it, you can't do anything about it.

I think like a child, sitting on a dark staircase crying and crying, but in fact, I know in my heart that those so-called troubles are nothing, but I can't care less.

The selfishness and pity of human nature are now understood by me clearly.

"I'm just kidding you, do you need to react so much?"

Pei Shaobei's voice sounded behind him, low and unhappy, and his breath was slightly unstable. I subconsciously looked up at him, and sure enough, I saw him holding the handrail with one hand, and his face was as white as paper. The wound on Pei Shaobei's back immediately sounded in my mind, although I didn't see it with my own eyes, but the pain that can make him undisguised, or unconcealable, must be very.

"Does it hurt?" I said noly, not knowing whether to continue my anger, or getting up and walking over to inquire about his injuries.

"Do you remember that I have an injury?" Pei Shaobei sighed helplessly, but in the end he couldn't resist me, and slowly walked over and leaned over and dragged me up, and I noticed that a thin layer of sweat was oozing on his forehead.

I was frightened, and immediately took his arm and asked urgently, "Didn't you say it's okay? Look at your appearance, let's go, let's go to the hospital!"

"No!" Pei Shaobei stretched out his hand to stop my behavior and moved me straight to face him. My face was a little panicked, and I didn't dare to look directly at him, "Why do you always have to be so strong, if you have a good one, how do you tell me to explain to your family, and then ......"

"Have you been thinking about this since you met my mother?" Pei Shaobei came out of nowhere, I was stunned, but some dead ducks retorted stiffly, "I don't know what you're talking about?

"Gu Wan, I can't choose my background, and you are the same, your past is over, and you can't change it. This is a fact, no one can do anything! What you have to do is not to escape suspicion, but to accept, do you understand?" Pei Shaobei bluntly pierced my disguise, I felt weak in my heart, but my temper came up again, this feeling of being seen through and being played with is as if you can never hide your pride and arrogance.

I have my self-esteem, even though it has been trampled on as if it didn't exist. But I have the right to keep it, this is the principle of my survival, and it is also the capital that I can face up to the love of Pei Shaobei and Pei Shaobei, if this principle is seen through by others, and it can be removed and discarded at will like a mask worn by a child, then what should I do to support the fragile soul and bravely pursue this seemingly impossible happiness.

I can't say these things, and I don't dare to say them. I only hope that person can understand that my hypocrisy and willfulness are nothing but a lack of self-confidence, a kind of fragility that wants to be brave but does not dare.

What I need is guidance and comfort, not just asking. I don't like it, it's not fair, and it's too cruel.

"Pei Shaobei, I know all this! I don't, I don't care!" I stubbornly raised my head, desperately trying to stop the tears from flowing, but my voice couldn't help but choke, with a little self-deprecation, "Pei Shaobei, my life has been a mess, in the eyes of all of you, I should have nothing to lose, what you have given me, no matter what it comes from, it is a kind of charity, I should accept it, whether I want to or not, I don't care." Isn't it?"

Pei Shaobei's brows furrowed, but he didn't speak.

I felt even more uncomfortable when I saw him like that, and finally I just smiled and didn't mention it again. In fact, with a shrewd person like Pei Shaobei, I don't have any possibility to hide any thoughts, but I just hate this kind of transparency, I can't see through him, and I can't even control the slightest, and I myself am like a fish in his net pocket, eager for him to give a little more rain, so I only have the fate of death.

"Let's go, let's go buy a mobile phone! I'm sorry, I, I may be pregnant and emotionally unstable, you, don't care! I will restrain myself in the future!" I reached out to shake Pei Shaobei's hand, but found that his hand was not as warm as usual, but cold and trembling.

I was a little worried, and I raised my head and asked, "Pei Shaobei, are you really okay?"

Pei Shaobei didn't speak, looked down at me with a burning head, and just when I couldn't bear it, he suddenly leaned over and kissed me. Kissing my lips fiercely in a violent and aggressive gesture, I felt no passion, a monstrous repressed rage, and nothing else.

I wanted to push him away, but stopped when he pried my teeth open. Arms around his neck, and if that would give him relief, it wouldn't hurt.

Pei Shaobei didn't kiss me for too long, so he pushed me away, holding my shoulders with both hands, but he didn't look at me, lowered his eyebrows, took a deep breath, and after a while, he raised his head again, and it was the calm and self-contained Pei Shaobei.

"Let's go! Go buy a mobile phone, it's always inconvenient to have a mobile phone!" Pei Shaobei's arm slid down and gently held my hand, as if the unpleasantness just now had not happened, and his smile was still gentle and calm.

I sighed softly, but I didn't say anything. When he came out of the staircase, his face was still slightly red, and because of the sudden embarrassment of the crowd around him, his face burned even more. I lowered my head and stuck to Pei Shaobei's arm, but he didn't feel uncomfortable, and directly pulled me into the franchise store.

Pei Shaobei's mobile phone is very simple, practical, atmospheric, and has no other requirements. I helped him pick a color and style, and he offered to give me a new phone, but I refused. Pei Shaobei opened his mouth, and finally didn't say anything more. Maybe it's because of my temper earlier, which made him a little unsure for a while.

The original night date also became uneventful, and I was going to watch another night movie, but I gave up because of my body and Pei Shaobei's injury. No one said anything along the way, and the car was quiet and scary. When I got home, I insisted on giving Pei Shaobei a fish soup and forced him to drink two bowls, which comforted me a lot.

Pei Shaobei was made to cry and laugh by me, I urged him to take a bath, and when I saw him enter the bathroom, I suddenly remembered something, and opened the door with a bang. Pei Shaobei just took off his shirt, and when he heard the voice, he was slightly stunned, and turned his head to look at me blankly.

Pei Shaobei and I don't actually have strict personal privacy or cohabitation rules such as the three chapters of the law, we are like two couples who have lived for many years, and we have a lot of unspeakable tacit understanding.

For example, when he goes to the toilet and takes a shower, he will never appear near the bathroom. This time my sudden intrusion made him a little baffled.

"What's wrong? Do you feel uncomfortable and want to vomit?" Pei Shaobei quickly regained his composure, which was perhaps the only reason he could figure out why I broke this balance.

I shook my head, my eyes fixed on his back. When I was in the hospital, I didn't pay attention. I saw that he looked normal, and he didn't pay much attention to it when he heard the special guard say that it was not a big deal, but now that he really saw it head-on, he realized that it was really not a light fight.

There was a long purple-black bruise on his smooth back, sliding from his left shoulder to his waist, and I couldn't imagine what it was like to be able to cross such a long distance, whether it was hunched over his back or falling to the ground.

I can't imagine Pei Shaobei's embarrassed appearance, but the circles under his eyes are a little damp, "Pei Shaobei, let's go to the hospital!"

Pei Shaobei paused for a moment, reacted after a while, smiled casually, and replied casually, "I thought it was going on, my body knows it myself, I was in the mall today because I was angry with you, and my chest was a little uncomfortable! The bruise on the back you saw was because the bruise inside was reversed, so it looked a little scary, it's okay! You can see it clearly, but even the skin is not broken!"

"You said it easily!" I was angry at his lack of self-love, and even more angry at my own ignorance. "I'm sorry, I'll try to restrain myself in the future!"

Pei Shaobei let out a long sigh, "Alas, you are Lafayette now, how dare I be angry with you." If you give birth too much, you will also torture yourself, and you will not have to restrain yourself in the future, it is a big deal that my left ear will go in and out of my right ear!

"Look at who's little girl looks like this, I'm almost thirty years old, and I'm still pretending to be ignorant!" I retorted angrily, reaching out and taking a towel from the shelf next to me, "If you have a wound on your body, you will wash it, I will help you wipe it!"

"Rub it?" Pei Shaobei suddenly leaned over, and the hot breath hit my ears, making half of my body a little numb, "Wanwan, are you inviting me to take a bath with you? Or do you want to make up for what happened in the mall today? Wipe your body? Wipe your body? Wipe where? Back, chest, thighs, or include there? If you wipe the gun, you will be responsible for fighting the fire!"

"You rascal!" I was so angry that I smashed the towel on Pei Shaobei's body, turned around and quickly walked out of the bathroom, listening to Pei Shaobei's smug laughter behind me, and slammed the door slammed.

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