I always knew what Gu Yixiao was doing, and I knew why he did it. However, a lot of things have happened, and no amount of measures seem to be able to make up for it.

The more attentive he is to the bean bag, the more awkward and entangled I feel in my heart.

I don't know if I can convince myself to accept him or not, and his actions put me in another dilemma.

Doubao was sitting on the stone next to me, and when I saw Gu Yixiao and his party walking away, he looked up and said to me, "Mom, Uncle Gu won't be in danger, right?"

He had personally experienced the events in Dunhuang and knew what danger was.

"No, there are a lot of them, and the team leader is a very experienced person, and when there is a flash flood, you can go up the mountain, the higher the safer, of course, pay attention to lightning strikes. I said with a smile on the bean bun.

Doubao turned his head to stare at the rain, and was silent for a long time before he suddenly said, "Mom, Uncle Gu is fine." ”

Now the child's precociousness is unexpected. I know that he heard these ideas from a recent conversation with children.

There are now three children from divorced families in their class, and they all feel quite sunny.

"yes, that's good. I said.

Doubao hesitated for a moment and said, "Then can you and Uncle Gu reconcile?"

I was once again shocked by his words, and turned back to him and asked, "Don't you want me to reconcile with my father?"

"In my opinion, it seems impossible for you and Dad, but it seems that you and Uncle Gu are still possible. Doubao stared at me with round eyes and said, "Isn't that right, Mom?"

"No, stay there. We've all discussed this once, so don't mention it again in the future. I spoke in a harsh tone.

Doubao was immediately unhappy, he got up from the stone, and said to me, "Mom, you just said some time ago that you want to be friends with me." Since we are friends, there is nothing that cannot be discussed. ”

This kid blocked me to death with one sentence.

I said this at the time, because he was like having autism during that time, he didn't like to talk, he didn't like to eat, and even he looked wilted when he did things. Unexpectedly, he was relieved to say this.

When he asked, I reflected on myself, and it seemed that we are all good at improvising children on the fly, and what we say will soon be retracted when things get better.

Thinking of this, I was a little soft-hearted when I saw his expectant little eyes. sighed and said to him: "Then mom is honest, I know that Gu Yixiao is good to you, and I also know that he is good to me." However, he used to deceive his mother and take advantage of his mother, how do you think this is calculated?"

Doubao didn't understand what had happened between me and Gu Yixiao, so he was obviously stunned when he heard my words, and slowly lowered his head and stopped talking. I thought I had convinced him, and I didn't continue the conversation.

At this time, other parents next to me took out snacks for the children to share, and when they were handed to me, I stood up and said thank you.

"Doubao, are you hungry?" I handed him the snack.

He looked at me, took the energy bar and said, "Mom, can't you change your mistakes?"

He asked me the same question three times. I had already explained, but I couldn't continue to explain, so I smiled and said something extremely perfunctory to him: "You'll understand when you grow up." ”

The rain outside was getting heavier and the sky was getting darker.

Most of the people waiting in this cave are mothers and children, and it is completely dark, which is a little scary.

One mom suggested that we take turns turning on a mobile phone screen lighting, and we all agreed, and then one phone lit up.

At this time, I looked at the time and realized that there was no signal here. The staff was talking to the outside just now, and it was also a satellite phone used to run outside the cave.

The children were quiet, and the mothers began to feel agitated, and someone asked, "Can you find a way to reach them now, at least to know how long we have to wait?" ”

There was a dad who said he went out to make a call, and as soon as the voice fell, the dad went out with his phone.

In this dark cave, the mobile phone is the only source of light, but the light is too faint, like a firefly.

There were children who wanted to go to the toilet and some who wanted to drink water, and slowly, the cave was filled with anxiety.

The dad who had gone out to make the phone came back in the rain and said that he had contacted the person who had gone to get the supplies, but now they had just picked up and were about to go back. Now that it's not raining on the other side of the mountain, I guess it may stop here soon.

We had been in the cave for two hours and the children's patience had run out.

The bean bun is quiet, nestled in my arms for a while, chatting for a while.

Then, after I had completely forgotten what I had just discussed, he suddenly said to me, "Mom, I think it's okay to be forgiven for making mistakes and knowing how to correct them." ”

He said it so solemnly that I couldn't help but look at him seriously.

"Why are you still thinking about this?" I asked.

The bean bag broke out of my arms, sat up straight and said to me, "When Uncle Gu was in the desert, he rescued me and took me to play in Beijing, and I went to places I had never been to. He was willing to brave the rain to get me something for the night tonight, and I thought he was fine. ”

The summary of the bean bag is very general, but it is all about the facts that he has experienced.

When he saw that I still didn't speak, he pouted a little angrily and said, "Dad hasn't done any of this." ”

He said this in a complaining tone.

I heard it in my ears, but it was like thunder. Suddenly, I realized that I was asking too much of Gu Yixiao, what I wanted was a simple lover, a simple relationship...... However, in this society, can these two things be simple?

If I were nothing, he wouldn't show me favor. If he was nothing, I couldn't have been that close to him.

It wasn't until this time, because of the bean bag, that I suddenly realized that in the adult world, we all knew each other with a utilitarian heart from the beginning.

I don't speak, because I can't speak, and my heart is like a pot of boiling water.

Doubao probably finished what was in his heart, stopped talking to me, and lowered his head to eat potato chips one by one.

At this moment, another dad went out to make a phone call to find out about the situation on the mountain. When he came in, he said that the rain had become lighter, and that they should be there soon.

But just as he was standing at the entrance of the cave and talking to us, his mobile phone suddenly lit up, and he immediately looked over and saw that a call had come in.

"The phone number of the leader. He said and connected.

In less than a minute, he hung up the phone and asked our group of humans, "Who is Tao Ran?"

I heard someone call my name at this time, and it was like a thunderbolt out of thin air, and I immediately stood up and said, "It's me."

He said to me, "Gu Yixiao was hit by a falling rock and is now unconscious. They have sent another man down the mountain from another mountain road, let me tell you about it. ”

Doubao's worries became a reality, and he ran to the door of the cave with red eyes to get out.

I was stunned for a moment and didn't react, and when the man stopped the bean bag, I came to my senses and walked a few steps quickly to hold the bean bag in my arms.

"Mom, I want to see my uncle. Doubao said to me with a cry.

He wanted to cry, but he didn't dare to cry, and he hiccuped vigorously.

I held him in my arms, and my body trembled slightly. A few hours ago, when he left the cave, I always felt that something was wrong, and now that this has happened, I understand why I felt the urge to rush over and stop him while he was gone.

But, in the end, I didn't do anything.

I didn't dare to think that something would happen to Gu Yixiao, but if I was hit by a falling rock, I guess the injury would not be light.

Doubao is still silently shedding tears.

This time he didn't make a fuss, because he also knew that it was impossible for me to take him down the mountain on such a night.

By the time the team that had gone to fetch supplies returned, it was already 9:40 p.m. The team leader talked to me, and the others were busy setting up tents for the children, making hot water, and getting food.

The bean bag took my hand and didn't let go for a moment. I glanced at the team leader and said, "It's okay, just say it, they have a good relationship." ”

"Don't get excited. He didn't say that, and my heart hung higher.

"Hurts badly, isn't it?" I said to him.

I don't know how to say it, but in his opinion, I'm calm.

"Yes, if something like this happens, we will take care of the aftermath, and he will be treated at eleven o'clock tonight at the latest. Now the rain has stopped, but the way down the mountain is not easy. We could have mobilized the helicopter, but there was no landing point until he descended to the bottom of the mountain. However, the medical team will wait at the bottom of the mountain, and as soon as he descends the mountain, he will be treated immediately. The team leader said.

"How heavy?" I asked.

"Hit the head, there was bruising, and the eye was probably injured as well. He looked at me worriedly.

"No way. I said.

He pressed my shoulder hard and said, "The specific situation depends on the doctor's diagnosis, and the team members over there have tried to speed up as much as possible." Because when a person's life is involved, we will never delay a second. He paused at this point, "Besides, we all know who our members are, so don't worry." ”

The more he said that, the more I couldn't put my mind at ease.

At this moment, I felt deep regret.

Why do I still have contact with Gu Yixiao, and why do I agree to his request...... However, there is no regret pill.

"Mom, do you regret not accepting Uncle Gu's apology. Doubao, who had not spoken, suddenly spoke, and the anger in his tone was obvious.

"Doubao, go down the mountain early tomorrow morning, and then go see him. I said.

As if he hadn't heard, he stopped talking to me, picked up a bowl of freshly cooked instant noodles from the leader, squatted on the ground himself, put the bowl on the stone and ate it. When he had finished eating, he went and asked which one was his tent, and then he went inside, and went to sleep.

I watched him do all this, and patiently walked up to him and spoke to him, but he didn't hear it.

In the end, I didn't eat a bite and went straight into the tent.

Doubao blames me in his heart, but I don't care about myself. But he's a kid, and I don't know how to talk to him. Emotional matters are not enough to compensate.

This night was really difficult, the next day at dawn, more than a dozen professional rescuers came, they packed up our things, took us back to the top of the mountain, and walked down the mountain on the same road that Gu Yixiao went down the mountain yesterday.

When I arrived at the bottom of the mountain, there was already a car waiting, so I pulled the bean buns into the car and drove all the way into the city.

They sent Gu Yixiao to Tiantan Hospital, the best brain surgery hospital in the country, and was admitted to the intensive care ward. The person who brought us here gave us a brief introduction. As soon as he entered the hospital last night, he was rescued, and when he was out of danger, the expert team consulted.

Judging from the film of his brain, Gu Yixiao's head was once seriously injured, and this time he hurt his head again, so it was extremely serious, and as of now, he has not woken up.

"What's the diagnosis now?" I asked.

The man didn't know how to answer, hesitated for a moment and said, "You may not wake up." ”

I stopped abruptly: "What do you mean you can't wake up? Is it for a short time, or for a long time?"

"Doctors say that if you are in a coma for too long, you can become a vegetative person. His voice was so low that he didn't even dare to make eye contact with me.

"No way, how could someone like him become a vegetative person?" I immediately retorted.

"Now it's just possible, if you wake up, it's fine. He hurriedly explained.

My whole body was shaking, and I was desperately trying to control my hand or my small hand that was still unsteady in my bean bag. I strode forward so much that I pulled the bean bag on my head.

Bean Bao glared at me, shook off my hand, and ran forward.

I hurriedly chased after it, and when I arrived at the door of the intensive care ward, I saw Gu Yixiao's mother. She had just come out of the ward and her eyes turned red when she saw me coming towards her.

I knew she might do something to me, so I stood still.

She took a few steps in front of me and raised her hand to see the bean bag. Her hand hung in mid-air for more than a dozen seconds before finally falling.

"Tao Ran, I'd rather smile that I've never known you. That way, he won't do stupid things for you over and over again. He is a twenty-eight-year-old adult man, so for you, you are unmoved, I am really curious, what kind of thing can make you forgive him. She looked at the bean bag, "You are also a mother, in front of the child, I will give you face." Now, can you talk about it separately? ”

I nodded and said to her, "Can I see him first?"

She glanced at the door of the hospital room and finally agreed.

When I walked into the intensive care unit, the nurse was changing the potion in the hanging bottle for Gu Yixiao, and he was lying on the bed very quietly, as if he was asleep. But his head was tightly bandaged, and even his left eye was covered. From a distance, he looks like a zongzi.

My eyes welled up. Approaching him step by step, looking at him who was wrapped beyond recognition.

The nurse went out, and I finally couldn't hold back the crying I had been holding back for a long time.

Tears fell one by one onto the snow-white sheets of his hospital bed, and in a moment they were wet.

He was quieter than ever, without any expression.

In this moment, I regret it. Regret that I intervened in his life, regretted that I was angry with him, regretted that I was firm and rational...... If I had a chance to do it again, either I wouldn't know him, or I'd accept him.

I faced him, and even though I was in an empty room, I didn't know what to say.

In this way, I sat beside him and silently shed tears for a while, wiped them dry and walked out.

Gu Yixiao's mother was waiting for me outside, still holding my son in her hand. She is much more rational than me at this time, and if it were me, I would never be able to do this.

The organizers were still there, so I asked him to help look at the bean bags for a while, and went to the safe passage with Gu Yixiao's mother.

It smelled of disinfectant water, and the two of us women, who were also mothers, looked at each other.

She looked at me for a long time, and then suddenly asked, "Yes, what kind of feelings do you have?"

I was stunned by her question.

Seeing my appearance, she gracefully took out a pack of cigarettes from her bag, lit one herself, and then handed me one and continued: "Just the two of us, you tell the truth, if you want to be with him, as long as he wakes up, I agree." If you don't want to be with him, I'll take care of him when he wakes up. ”

She looked at me through the smoke and said, "Now, I just want my son to wake up." As for who he loves and who he wants to spend his life with, I don't mind. ”

We are always like this, and it is only when we experience life and death that we discover what is most important.

I didn't know how to answer her question, and I couldn't take a sip of the cigarette she handed me and lit it.

Gu Yixiao's mother is not an ordinary woman, and her experience is also colorful enough to write a book. Now, even though she has retired, the strength and determination in her bones are still there.

"Is it hard to say, or are you hesitating?" she asked me, extinguishing the end of her cigarette.

I looked at it and said solemnly: "I once loved Gu Yixiao, and I didn't know that he was using me at that time, so I was sincere to him." At that time, the only thing we were worried about was your blocking. ”

At this point, I couldn't help but laugh.

Those days are still beautiful when I look back on them.

"When that's the case, it's good for you and me, for a smile. She said.

Yes, it does.

I thought for a while and continued: "Later, I knew that he was the alternate heir of the Gu Consortium, that he manipulated everything to acquire KB, that he had conspired with Sheng Qingjin, and that he had used and deceived me, so I hated him to death in my heart, and I wanted to never meet him again. ”

Gu Yixiao's mother laughed when she heard this: "Your character will indeed attract him, because there are not many women who can afford to let go of their feelings." ”

I glanced at her: "I don't want to say much about what happened later, but as of yesterday, I still don't want to have any further development with him, I just want to be a pair of ordinary friends." ”

"Do you think it's possible?" she asked.

I looked at her, a little confused about what she meant. It is a matter of two people that all feelings can come together, but separation is a matter of one person, as long as one of them resolutely does not want to be together, then the relationship is dead.

She looked at me and said, "So you don't think about a smile as much as he does for you." You don't understand him. What this kid believed, even if he broke through ten southern walls, he wouldn't look back. How much he likes you, I can see it in the last Dunhuang. So since then, I haven't commented a word on your relationship. I don't want to ruin the relationship between our mother and son by interfering with who he is with. ”

Her words made me think deeply. Like, she's right. In my relationship with Gu Yixiao, I will always be the one who passively accepts. I haven't taken the initiative, and my understanding of Gu Yixiao is really pitiful. Until now, I don't know his tastes. However, he knew everything about me. He knows my hobbies, knows my weaknesses, knows my strength and independence, knows all my hobbies......

Does he need to know so much if it's just exploitation?

Gu Yixiao's mother saw that I was pondering, and stopped talking. When I looked up, she continued, "Actually, you have been misunderstanding him. As for the acquisition of KB, I was doing it. He didn't know it at all, and then he knew that after that, everything was a foregone conclusion. Sheng Qingjin didn't have much to do with him, and it wasn't until the final acquisition was successful that Sheng Qingjin didn't need to hide his identity anymore, and he knew all this. At that time, you had already hated him completely, so you wouldn't listen to any explanation from him at all. I feel like my son is safe. Of course, I was very happy with your performance at the time. ”

Her words made me fall into an ice cellar.

"At that time, even he said that you didn't believe it, because in your eyes, what I did was what he did. Gu Kun hid Gu Tianbao's identity very well, so we really used all our strength to design all this. Consortium A was run by the Gu family for four generations, so naturally it could not fall into the hands of Gu Kun alone. Since we are in politics for the Gu family, then my son always has the qualifications to inherit, and he can't be the one who will always be the foil for no reason. Gu Yixiao's mother continued, "I knew that Gu Tianbao would not inherit Consortium A, why did I put so much effort into calculating all this for more than ten years." ”

I was stunned.

In fact, I had long thought that it would be impossible for Gu Kun to have today, but I didn't expect it to be so long. I didn't expect that the misunderstanding between me and Gu Yixiao involved two generations. Listening to Gu Yixiao's mother's tone, she has been helping her son plan all this.

She gave me time to digest it all, and when I was breathing steadily, she continued: "Now, I suddenly realize that it all has to be based on a smile and a healthy health, otherwise it will all be meaningless." What am I going to do with this consortium? If I don't smile, what am I going to do with so much money? Do I do charity?"

I took a deep breath and asked, "Gu Kun's body?"

"He ran out of oil, he did too many bad things when he was young, and retribution came. Gu Yixiao's mother said.

These should be Gu secrets, but she told me unconcernedly, I knew that she must have conditions next.

"What do you need me to do now?" I asked.

Gu Yixiao's mother was surprised that I was so calm, but after a little stunned, she returned to normal: "Do you still have feelings for Yixiao?"

"Yes. "I'll honestly admit it.

"Do you still want to be with him?" she asked again.