Chapter 77: This is my life, I admit it
Yan Fei's first reaction was that the Luoshan family had already started to do it, but after thinking about it calmly, he denied this idea again.
Xiaoya is a kind-hearted girl, and it is impossible for the Luoshan family to use her to kidnap He Niannian. Although the people of the Luoshan family never showed a trace in front of Xiaoya, she was a smart girl, and she could still guess what her family was doing behind her back.
Xiaoya's encounter with He Niannian may just be an accident, but he is too careful.
"Don't be stunned, hurry up and keep up!" Yan Fei pulled Gu Nan to catch up, although he had always been reluctant to let people know about Xiaoya's existence, let alone let Xiaoya be exposed to the eyes of the police. But the current situation is a little unavoidable, and Xiaoya's face is not very good.
Gu Nan ran a few steps and suddenly looked back at Yan Fei: "Are you worried about Xiaoya, or are you worried about He Niannian?"
Yan Fei quickly swept past him: "Both are worried!"
Gu Nan said as he ran: "I think it is necessary for me to remind you again, your girlfriend is Xiaoya, and He Niannian is someone else's wife!"
Yan Fei ignored him. At the gate of the park, He Niannian was stopping the car, Yan Fei went over and shouted, "Niannian, are you going back?"
I didn't stop the car for a while, but I didn't expect Yan Fei to run into Yan Fei again so quickly: "It's not me, it's this young lady." Are you going back?"
Yan Fei nodded, and inadvertently met Xiao Ya's eyes, he didn't dare to look away: "This park is remote, and I'm afraid it's not easy to take a taxi at this point in time." I can send her back if she doesn't mind. ”
He Niannian hesitated, after all, it seemed a little inconvenient for such a beautiful little girl to follow two strange men into the car. Although she can trust Yan Fei, but it is her, this girl is soft and weak, but she can't withstand a little wind and rain.
"Still not ......"
"I'm sorry for you!"
He Niannian was stunned, she just wanted to refuse, but she didn't expect Xiaoya to agree first. This time she taught her not to speak well, and coughed lightly: "Then Brother Yan Xiaoya will ask you, she is not in good health, please be sure to send her home safely." ”
Yan Fei smiled slightly: "Don't worry, I will." ”
He Niannian didn't know if she was too careful, and asked Xiaoya again: "Can you really do it?" Xiaoya nodded, she had to explain that she was careful.
Before leaving, Xiaoya suddenly hugged her: "Sister Niannian, you are a good person." Before He Niannian could react, she let go and she had already gotten into the car. Yan Fei waved at her and walked away.
When the car drove around the corner, Yan Fei stopped. No one in the quiet carriage spoke, but Gu Nan opened his mouth first: "What are you doing now? Cold War? I told Xiaoya that we came here today, if you want to scold me, you can scold me." ”
Xiao Ya shook her head: "No, I forced Xiao Nan." Brother Fei, don't blame Xiao Nan, it's me who is not good. ”
Yan Fei sighed, stretched out his hand and stroked her hair: "I don't blame you, I'm just worried about you." What if you get sick when you come here alone? No matter what, you should have someone with you. Well, don't droop your face, it's easy to get old. I'll send you to the hospital for a check-up first, listen to your father, and go back to Luoshan's house first!"
also said that he was not angry, and that he was going to drive her away.
"Brother Fei, she is indeed a very good person, so are you really in love with her? You said before that you would never lie to me in this life, so I believe everything you say. So now, please tell me seriously, are you in love with her?" Yan Fei naturally understood this her.
Gu Nan coughed lightly in the back seat: "Stop at the intersection in front of you, I'll ...... I still have to go beforehand. "It's making room for the two of them.
The car sped on the way to the hospital: "Xiaoya, things are not what you think. ”
She said it, and she believed it as long as she said it. Yan Fei didn't know how to explain his relationship with He Niannian, he was indeed just deliberately approaching, but now he couldn't say it clearly. But what he is very sure of is that it has nothing to do with love. He Niannian did not have the throbbing of male and female affection, and some just wanted to protect her.
"So, you're not what they call empathy, are you?" she didn't say he wasn't in love with her, but he wasn't. The question itself is a pit, and if it weren't for the quick spin of the brain, you wouldn't be able to see the deep meaning of this sentence at all.
The encounter between Yan Fei and Xiaoya was actually an accident and an accident. Back then, he was just a hairy boy, without the status he has today, just a killing machine cultivated by his father-in-law. It was the first time he had been directly involved in the drug trade, but something went wrong. Someone leaked the news in advance and called the police, and he was seriously injured and finally escaped from the police encirclement.
At that time, it was the people of the Luoshan family who saved him, and it was also at that time that he met Xiaoya. Xiao Ya is delicate and noble, a canary, and is locked up in a palatial castle. This is only because she is not in good health and can only stay alone in the room all year round.
Yan Fei was her first friend and the first person she fell in love with.
Yan Fei has always been cultivated as a cold-blooded killer in the organization, and he also had a cold face towards Xiao Ya at the beginning. But Xiaoya regarded him as the object of pouring bitter water, and she didn't know when it started, Yan Fei felt a little pity for this girl.
It was his pity that made Xiaoya fall into it from then on. Yan Fei no longer spoke coldly to her, because when he looked at her into the distance, he would feel very similar to himself. They are all people imprisoned by fate, the difference is that she is congenital, he is acquired, and there is no one who is more pitiful.
He wasn't sure if he really loved Xiaoya, or if this love was another kind of love. He didn't love, so he didn't know how to love. The initial sympathy, the later sympathy, and finally the sympathy of reciprocating the kindness. He thought that he was a person with no tomorrow, so when Luo Shanyi found him and asked her to cooperate with Xiaoya and fulfill her wish, he agreed.
Xiaoya, like her mother, has congenital heart disease. She was admitted to the intensive care unit as soon as she was born, and finally picked up a life and came back, but her body has always been good and bad. Only when she is with Yan Fei will Xiaoya have joys, sorrows and sorrows like a normal person.
At first, Yan Fei thought that he was just cooperating with Luo Shanyi, but later he found that when he was with Xiaoya, he felt like a person. When she held her hand, she knew that a girl's hand could be so warm and soft.
He thought it was the natural feeling of two identical lonely objects approaching, but he didn't know if it was love.
She said, 'Empathy, don't fall in love', so you have to have love first.
He said that he would never deceive her, but no one knows how long Xiaoya's life will be. And he is still the shadow of the city, the unknown tomorrow. Gu Nan said that well-intentioned deception is not called deception. Luo Shanyi also said that even if he did his best, he would not hesitate, as long as Xiaoya could be happy, it was nothing to lie.
He still couldn't give Xiao Ya an accurate answer, just like he couldn't say those three words to Xiao Ya all the time.
"Silly girl, don't think about it. She, I don't know why seeing her is like seeing an old friend who has been absent for a long time. Like friends, more like family, I can't tell. An inexplicable sense of intimacy, when it is definitely not the love of men and women. "Ignore the point, and you're left with a straightforward explanation.
For Xiaoya, he didn't fall in love with someone else, and this is the best answer.
"So, you won't hurt her in exchange for my life. ”
Yan Fei suddenly braked suddenly, looking straight ahead and not knowing how to answer. Unexpectedly, not only did Luo Shanyi know He Niannian, but Xiaoya also knew. It seems that her encounter with He Niannian was unexpected and deliberate.
How would he answer this?
Judging from his big reaction, Xiaoya has understood everything, and his silence has answered everything. Women's hearts are like this, even if she knows that this is not good, and knowing that this answer may make her sad, she still can't help but say it.
After all, everyone wants to be put first by the people they love, and who wants to hear him say that other women are more important than she is in his eyes?
Yan Fei was silent for a long time, then turned his head to look at her: "You know everything." Niannian's heart is indeed the only heart I have found that matches yours. Xiaoya, do you want to exchange her heart for yours?"
Xiao Ya paused and shook her head: "This is my life, I admit it." ”
When he was extremely depressed, he couldn't help but want to smoke, and as soon as he took out a cigarette, he thought of Xiaoya's body again, so he had to put it back again.
"Xiaoya, I won't let you die. Wait for me, I'll be able to find another matching heart. Xiaoya smiled lightly, they all understood that this kind of thing could be encountered but not sought. It's already a miracle to be able to find one, but how can you force a second one.
sent Xiaoya to the hospital, and then he sent her back. He couldn't just send her home, after all, he knew that the police hadn't relaxed their surveillance of him.
"Xiaoya, promise me, go home first. "When I go back to Luoshan's house, at least there won't be any accidents, but Cangning can't stay by her side all the time, which is always uneasy.
Xiaoya smiled slightly: "Okay." However, I have one more request. On my birthday, you must come and see me. Yan Fei agreed, but Xiao Ya said, "When the time comes, you are not allowed to miss the appointment, I am now a year and a year less, and I only have one wish left." ”
Yan Fei smiled and leaned over his face: "What wish?" I will definitely help you realize it if you say it." ”
Xiaoya hooked his little finger: "You have to remember your words, you must help me fulfill my wish on my birthday." Yan Fei rubbed her hair with a smile, Xiao Ya stood on tiptoe and quickly kissed him on the mouth, turned around and ran away.
He didn't know what she wanted, but he knew it must not be a bad thing, because Xiaoya had a heart as pure as crystal.
He could finally pull out his cigarette and lean against the door, smoking one cigarette after another. He couldn't help but think, if the person Xiaoya met at the beginning was not him, would he be happier now?