036 Invisible Wall
When Zhuang Yan woke up, Jiang Yang was already by the bedside.
Zhuang Yan opened his mouth and spoke to him angrily: "Yangzi, I pulled you in again, blame me." ”
He said two things, one thing was to kneel for Jiang Zufeng, he didn't want to embarrass Jiang Yang, but he didn't expect to be discovered by Jiang Yang after kneeling for half a month. He and Jiang Yang didn't know that Jiang Zufeng deliberately let Jiang Yang see that photo, after all, in their eyes, Jiang Zufeng really just wanted to humiliate Zhuang Yan.
The other thing is to ask Jiang Yang to find Shen Xi, he knows very well that Jiang Yang is deliberately keeping a distance from Shen Xi, but he only trusts Jiang Yang the most, who else can he find if he doesn't look for him? He knows that he is quite selfish in doing this, but he hopes that Jiang Yang can come out as soon as possible, and don't put his mind on the people who shouldn't be released.
Jiang Yang guessed what Zhuang Yan meant in a trance, shook his head and smiled bitterly: "You don't mind, if you are worried about Lao Tzu's woman, Lao Tzu will definitely not let you see her alone." ”
Zhuang Yan smiled and didn't speak.
He understands Jiang Yang, don't look at Jiang Yang, who usually doesn't have a good attitude, but his sense of responsibility is not weaker than that of ordinary people. Jiang Yang did make a lot of friends, but he never forced anyone, he talked about it everywhere, and broke up if he couldn't talk.
Zhuang Yan is a man, he knows the inferiority of many men, to put it irresponsibly, there is no man who does not like freshness and excitement. Although Jiang Yang has been with many women, he will never let anyone get pregnant, and for this alone, Zhuang Yan knows that he is restrained enough.
He didn't say these thoughts because he was afraid that Jiang Yang would be under pressure. He didn't want to suppress Jiang Yang morally, he knew that if Jiang Yang couldn't restrain his feelings for Shen Xi, he would definitely stay away consciously.
"This time I was selfish, Yoko, thank you. He suppressed the pain and apologized to Jiang Yang again, "Others can't believe it, and Xixi is only familiar with you." ”
Jiang Yang smiled and didn't say anything more.
Of course he was happy to be so trusted by Zhuang Yan. When he realized that he was in love with Shen Xi, he was afraid of losing Zhuang Yan as a friend all day long, he thought, if he were someone else, he would have beaten him a long time ago, but Zhuang Yan wouldn't.
Zhuang Yan is too rational and calm, Jiang Yang has been taking Zhuang Yan as an example recently, he is not young anymore, divorced at this age, and he doesn't know when he will meet the next love. He really wants to live a peaceful life now, and the former flowers and drinks have now become boring in his eyes.
Jiang Yang didn't tell him that he had revealed a lot of information to Shen Xi without authorization, Zhuang Yan's forbearance and grievances were in his eyes, he was the one who didn't want Shen Xi to be separated from Zhuang Yan, this kind of relationship was very contradictory and complicated. It is true that he likes Shen Xi, and it is not an exaggeration to say that he loves him, but he knows very well that this kind of relationship cannot see the light of day, and he has never hoped for anything.
But Zhuang Yan is different, he knows how good Zhuang Yan is to Shen Xi, and he has also witnessed Shen Xi's firmness towards Zhuang Yan, if two people who love each other so much part ways because of his father's toss, Jiang Yang feels that he will definitely not have a good time in the rest of his life.
In the first few days of hospitalization, Zhuang Yan often broke out in cold sweat because of broken ribs. His knees were also swollen and painful because he had been kneeling for so long, and his knees had also been kicked by Qin Shoucheng, so he was uncomfortable at first, so uncomfortable that he couldn't sleep well at all, and he was tormented to wake up after sleeping for a while.
He is a very patient person, and when he woke up in the middle of the night and saw Jiang Yang accompanying him to the bed, he couldn't help but smile bitterly.
He understands that Jiang Yang is embarrassed, but Jiang Zufeng's affairs have nothing to do with Jiang Yang, if he blames Jiang Yang because Jiang Zufeng has done something, then what is the difference between him and Jiang Zufeng? Zhuang Yan is unwilling to implicate hatred for no reason to the next generation, he will definitely not retaliate against anyone for their family in the future, and he will not let his children live in hatred.
He tried for a long time and didn't fall asleep, but in the end he couldn't hold back and sent two words to Shen Xi: I miss you.
It was already past one o'clock in the morning, and he didn't want to disturb Shen Xi, thinking that she was sleeping soundly, but Shen Xi replied almost in seconds: I miss you too.
How did he know that Shen Xi was worried about insomnia, she wanted to come back to take care of Zhuang Yan, and she pretended not to know anything about Zhuang Yan's face, so she had to worry about it alone. Although Jiang Yang told her about the general situation, and also said that Zhuang Yan would not be crippled or lame, she was just uncomfortable because she couldn't take care of him by Zhuang Yan's side in person.
Zhuang Yan felt that his ribs would hurt when he breathed, and it took him a while before he uttered three words: Still not sleeping?
Since the accident at home, he has blamed himself more than once, why didn't he break up with Shen Xi ruthlessly? At her flower-like age, she should have been very happy, and the youthful girl should be gently cared for.
But Shen Xi has suffered too much after being with him, he has made her suffer so much criticism without a good marriage, and now he has to beware of being calculated everywhere.
Shen Xi's growth made his heart ache, he wanted to spoil this little girl as she should be at that age, but she was already precocious, but now she is becoming more and more mature.
Zhuang Yan doesn't like Shen Xi, who is so sensible, what he likes is her sensibility, and he likes her to be able to compare her heart to her heart. But he felt sorry for her, he wanted to give her the best, but he couldn't do it.
In the past, some people often said that Shen Xi was not worthy of him, and sometimes when he was annoyed, he would lightly retort: "It's me who is not worthy of her." ”
She is a little girl, she has to look good, she is so young, she has a good temperament, she is strong, not like many girls, and she knows how to make money with her own hands...... Such a good little girl, who is not worthy of?
Zhuang Yan felt that he was old and had a dull temperament, so what else was good besides a little money?
So he will find time to exercise after work, and he has to exercise his body well, so that he can take care of Shen Xi for a few more years. He didn't want to drag Shen Xi to take care of him in more than ten years, he couldn't bear it.
He thought that Shen Xi had suffered with him, and he would definitely not be sorry for her in the future.
Shen Xi was very sensitive, she knew that Zhuang Yan must be in pain, so she was so slow to reply to the message.
She posted two photos of her and her two children, and then pretended to type a few words lightly: just sleep, husband, good night.
At the end of the day, she added a photo of red lips, in fact, she really wanted to appear next to Zhuang Yan immediately and kiss him gently.
When Zhuang Yan saw the words she sent, he imagined that she was blushing in her ear and whispering softly, and the discomfort on her body seemed to be suddenly alleviated. He looked at the person in the photo like that, and slowly finally fell asleep.
During that time, the skin on his back ached, and it felt like it was more painful than kneeling. His knee gradually recovered when he was recuperating in the hospital, but as soon as he was discharged from the hospital, he stubbornly ran to Jiang Yang's house to continue kneeling.
He had to take the opportunity to ask Jiang Zufeng to make a promise to him, otherwise his previous efforts would be in vain.
Jiang Zufeng had a headache when he saw him and Jiang Yang, and after persisting for a few days, he felt that he had earned enough face, so he said to Zhuang Yan in front of Jiang Yang: "Come on, go back, I won't force Shen Xi's girl to divorce you in the future, and I won't toss you." ”
Jiang Yang's expression was more distinct than Zhuang Yan's......, he grinned and helped Zhuang Yan up, and took the opportunity to ask his father: "What about the two children? and Uncle Zhuang, who has already gone in, and he is not allowed to toss him in the future. ”
He took out all the people he could think of and told him, Jiang Zufeng glared at him impatiently and took a sip: "Really when you are a beast, don't toss, the grievances between our two families will be written off." In the future, you can toss as much as you like, just don't mess with me. ”
As he spoke, he entered the study angrily, and the door slammed.
Zhuang Yan laughed out loud at this time: "Yangzi, thank you." ”
All the efforts are not in vain, as long as no one tosses them anymore, he will try to take care of his family in the future.
It's just that the subsidiary has parachuted in a new leader to take over, and Zhuang Yan is completely unemployed.
Shen Xi seemed to have a heart with him, and called at this time. Zhuang Yan grinned, Jiang Yang shook his head, and punched him in the chest casually as before, forgetting Zhuang Yan's injuries at that time, so he gasped in pain when he answered the phone.
"You go home, the property said that the woman had not come to the community for a long time. ”
Shen Xi's tone was full of longing, and Zhuang Yan listened to it so much that his heart melted. He feels very relaxed now, with Jiang Zufeng's promise, he only needs to make money to support his family in the future, this is a normal little life.
He told Shen Xi that he was unemployed, and asked Shen Xi if he was willing to support him, and Shen Xi answered without thinking about it: "Of course I raise you, who do I not support you?"
Jiang Yang heard this sentence next to him, and snorted sourly: "You can still bear it, you can still rely on men to eat soft rice at this age, Lao Tzu will be miserable, and he will be alone." ”
Zhuang Yan was amused by him, and said in his heart, isn't it? His Xixi is becoming more and more capable, and his character is getting stronger and stronger, not only can he take his children out to travel, but also make money to support his family. Having such an all-powerful little girl is a blessing he cultivated in his previous life, right?
However, despite the plump ideal, the reality is always so skinny.
Zhuang Yan noticed the problem between him and Shen Xi on the day he returned home, and the two of them would kiss very affectionately in the past, and they were not shy away in front of the children. They all felt that it was good to show their affection in front of the children.
But this time, Shen Xi looked at him but froze in place for a long time, without hugging him, and he didn't know what to say when he opened his mouth a few times. Zhuang Yan saw all this in his eyes, and the joy in his heart suddenly cooled down.
The problem is still there, the external worries have been solved, and there are also internal troubles.
Before Shen Xi went to buy vegetables, Zhuang Yan hugged her waist very strongly, and pressed down and kissed her without saying anything.
He was especially afraid that she would really alienate him, and he couldn't stand this kind of snubbing.
Shen Xi's body instinctively resisted him at first, and her hand subconsciously pushed down Zhuang Yan's chest, but remembering that he was injured, she quickly stopped refusing.
Zhuang Yan originally wanted to go deep into this kiss, but Shen Xi didn't cooperate.
He was very disappointed, their love was still there, but the relationship was destroyed by Xiao Ai after all. He was thinking about how to mend this crack, he didn't want this crack to get bigger and bigger, he wanted to hold on to Shen Xi firmly and not let her escape from his side.
After the male secretary sent the things over, Zhuang Yan didn't see Yao Lan's information when he counted his things. Shen Xi happened to go home and saw that he was cleaning up things, and generously handed over a paper bag: "I fell out just now, so I took it out and took it out on my own initiative." ”
Zhuang Yan was stunned, nodded and said the word "good". There is nothing to hide from this kind of thing, after all, Shen Xi already knows that Yao Lan is her mother.
When following Shen Xi into the kitchen to choose vegetables, Shen Xi took the initiative to find something to chat with him: "Your male secretary is like a loyal dog, praising you vigorously." ”
Zhuang Yan frowned, thinking that Xiao Ai had made a fuss in the company before, and everyone was discussing his affairs, and subconsciously stared at Shen Xi's face and looked at it. Maybe Shen Xi's refusal to kiss him made him sensitive before, and he couldn't help but explain: "Xixi, I didn't mean to let him come. He'd come many times before to deliver ......"
Shen Xi's mind is too delicate, he is afraid that this little girl will think that he is playing tricks to win her heart.
"What are you worried about, I didn't say you were eyeing me. Shen Xi interrupted him and became lonely.
Zhuang Yan was secretly annoyed, there was nothing wrong, but she made her so uncomfortable.
A strange embarrassment floated between them, Zhuang Yan felt uncomfortable, but suddenly didn't know how to deal with the current situation.
There was an invisible wall between them, and Zhuang Yan felt depressed. When there were only the two of them that night, he decided that he couldn't let this situation continue, and pretended to hug Shen Xi as if nothing happened. He used to like to sleep with her in his arms, and she was used to it.
But this time, she subconsciously pushed him away.
He was hurt, and his arm froze in mid-air for a long time before silently retracting it.
Shen Xi quickly realized that her behavior was inappropriate, and she even looked at the hand that pushed Zhuang Yan away in surprise: "I'm just afraid of touching the injuries on your body, don't think about it, go to bed early." ”
Zhuang Yan nodded, but where could he sleep?
He knew that Shen Xi didn't really dislike him, but people's physiological reactions and psychological reactions were sometimes out of sync, and her instinctive reaction still betrayed her heart.
After Shen Xi fell asleep, he quietly walked out of the room, and without turning on the lights, he sat on the sofa for a while with the little street lights coming in from the outside. The more he thought about it, the more irritable he became, and his heart, which wasn't hurting much, suddenly hurt uncomfortably.
He didn't sit or stand, and when he walked to the balcony and sighed looking at the night sky, Shen Xi, who woke up, quietly walked over and hugged him: "Why don't you sleep yet?"
Zhuang Yan's body trembled slightly: "Xixi, can we still go back to the past?"
Shen Xi looked at him left and right, avoiding the question and not answering.
Zhuang Yan was very disappointed, and when she turned around and wanted to kiss her, she actually subconsciously turned her head away. While he was stunned, she was also stunned.
He didn't fall asleep at all that night, although Shen Xi took the initiative to hug him when he pulled him back to sleep, he was still panicked. He didn't blame Shen Xi, it was normal for her to mind.
But he is not a person who sits still, he has to find a way to solve the current predicament.