Chapter 225: Because You're Here
In a panic, people either freeze in place and can't move, or they just pull their legs and run. Nian Nian belonged to the former, stunned in place.
The flashlight slipped from her hand, and it took her half a day to come back to her senses. In a hurry, he bent down to pick it up, but heard the sound of small footsteps. She crouched on the ground and hugged her head and screamed, but was embraced by a warm embrace. She could clearly hear him sighing, "Why do you come when you are so scared?"
The voice...... She looked up tremblingly, and then a faint moonlight finally saw him clearly. She looked at him in disbelief, and tears welled up from the corners of her eyes uncontrollably: "Xue ...... Xue Yihuai?"
Xue Yihuai caressed her back: "It's me, it's me." She was still shaking, and Xue Yihuai tried to hold her tighter.
Niannian didn't want to cry, she snorted: "Are you really Xue Yihuai?" but...... Why are you here?" Nian Nian felt that the face in front of him, under the moonlight, was so unreal.
Xue Yihuai nodded: "Because you are here, I came." ”
Tonight was Chinese New Year's Eve, he was not in Cangning or Meilong, but he appeared in the most undesirable place. From the moment she stepped into the realm of Pingle, she felt that everything in front of her was so unreal. Memories overlapped with the past, and she began to wonder if she had walked into a circular dream.
"Am I dreaming again? You tell me, am I dreaming again? I didn't come to Pingle, I didn't come to this wood, I didn't ......" She closed her eyes, trying to open them again the next time she was still lying in the warm room of Cangning.
Xue Yihuai shook his head and held her palm on his cheek: "If it's a dream, can you feel my temperature?"
Xue Yihuai picked up the flashlight on the ground and helped her stand up. The panic just now, she is still a little weak now. Xue Yihuai chuckled: "Nian Nian, the past was actually so terrible! ”
He stretched out his hand to her, his big palms as before, mixed with the faint smell of tobacco but so warm. Such a just right temperature is the most covetous.
was led by him, and his panicked heart gradually settled down. It's just that the closer she got back then, she didn't dare to open her eyes. Hesitating, Xue Yihuai looked back at her: "Don't be afraid, I'm here, it's all over." Everyone should forgive, and you should forgive yourself. Today is Chinese New Year's Eve, I have never taken you to worship your father before, so make up for it today!"
He crouched down and lit a candle. There are no traces of blood on the ground for a long time, only dead branches and rotten leaves. He brought incense, candles, and offerings, and he came prepared, not on a whim.
The air was not cold, but she was still shivering. Xue Yihuai turned his head: "Nian Nian, come here, put incense on Dad!"
She looked at the three sticks of crimson incense burning in the darkness, and suddenly, she seemed to have returned to the time when she first arrived at Morganon. As the new daughter-in-law, she has to spend the night offering to her ancestors. At that time, he said that his father could stand it no matter how long she watched.
I didn't understand this at the time, but now that I think about it, I can't help but sigh.
"I'm sorry, I hurt you. The past was like a tide, Xue Changhua's face was close at hand, and he was smiling at her. But his face was covered in blood, and the blood splattered her panicked face. She seemed to smell blood again in a trance, and the blood was so thick that it seemed that it could never be washed off.
"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, he doesn't blame you. Do you remember what he said to you at the end?" Xue Yi hugged her, and she was breathing rapidly against his chest.
Xue Changhua's blood-stained hand patted her head gently, and whispered Don't be afraid...... Don't be afraid......
Just like now, along with that tone, it's exactly the same.
He ...... He said don't be afraid ......"
Xue Yihuai nodded: "Yes, he said it, don't be afraid." He never blamed you, let alone hated you. He is only worried about you until he dies, and he comforts you until he dies. You should be afraid of him, he is protecting you with his life, he is comforting you softly......"
Xue Yihuai's voice became more and more gentle, gentle to the point of being a little ethereal. She listened more and more insincerely, and she couldn't tell whether he was talking or Xue Changhua was talking. The past and the present overlapped, too many images flashed through her mind, and she closed her eyes and hugged him tightly. Only the warmth coming from his body made her feel real.
After a long time, she finally opened her eyes: "What about you? Do you still hate me?"
Xue Yihuai shook his head: "I don't hate it for a long time." Nian Nian, I still owe you an apology. This is his duty as a police officer, I shouldn't and I can't just hate you, it's my fault. We've all let go, so what about you? It's time for you to forgive yourself, it's really not your fault. ”
Nian Nian looked up at him: "Sometimes, I would rather you hate me, but I feel better. ”
Xue Yihuai sighed lightly: "If you have such thoughts, that is, you haven't forgiven yourself yet." This is the beginning of your nightmare, and it's here to end it!"
She turned her face sideways to look at him, the moonlight flickering on and off, along with the face. Only the hand that he held in the palm of his hand felt so strongly. He led her to her knees, and this kneeling was about to say goodbye to the past. A long nightmare, and she was going to put an end to it.
Can she really forgive herself? She wasn't sure, but at least for now, her heart was at peace. No more panic, no fear, more calmness. Xue Changhua's blood-drenched face flashed in front of him, and it was no longer the smelly blood that surged to the tip of his nose, but he said softly Don't be afraid...... Don't be afraid......
The wind rustled through the branches and blew out the candles.
"Now, do you still think he's scary?" the candle went out, and he didn't turn on the flashlight. Asking her in the darkness, he deliberately let go of her hand.
Nian Nian looked at him stupidly, and was stunned before he said: "He is a good person, he is more gentle than you are to me." ”
Xue Yihuai chuckled, stretched out his hand and stroked her hair: "It's all over, you will be relieved if you put it down." Let's go, you've been out for a long time, and the family should be worried. Listen, go forward, and don't look back. ”
She listened to the previous words, but why did the latter sentence sound so mad?
The wind was still blowing gently, and he led her to her feet. The moonlight is as soft as veil, and this picture is not a dream and beautiful. She secretly turned her face to look at him, she had something to say but was afraid of breaking this rare peace.
Walking out of the woods, the lights of the world are brilliant, and the bright fireworks are in full bloom in the sky.
It's over, he said. This end, why not her and him. The hand he clenched was a little damp, and it had to be released sooner or later, so why covet that little bit of time.
She pulled out her hand: "Thank you today." ”
Xue Yihuai's empty hand smiled a little self-deprecatingly: "I'm going to cross the river and tear down the bridge so soon?" ”
Nian Nian was puzzled: "The plane? What kind of plane are you catching in this Chinese New Year's Eve?"
Xue Yihuai looked helpless: "I have no place to live in Pingle, so I had to catch a plane back to the capital overnight, and then transfer back to Cangning." "It's not all about her, Xue Yihuai's family has no one left, and the old house is deserted.
It was a pitiful thing to say, and he stared at it, and when he looked at the frowning brow, he guessed that there was a door. Sure enough, when Nian Nian raised his head to look at him again, he said, "It's so late, don't go." ”
Xue Yihuai was not polite at all, as if he was already waiting for her to say this: "Okay! Then I'm not welcome." ”
Nian Nian couldn't laugh or cry: "You haven't thought about being polite!"
When they returned to their uncle's house, a group of people looked at the two of them in amazement. Especially her uncle, I just heard his sister say that Niannian divorced her husband, so what is the situation now?
Nian Nian was a little cramped, thinking about how to introduce Xue Yihuai's arrival along the way. Compared with Niannian's nervousness, Xue Yihuai was much calmer: "Happy New Year!"
Yu Wen was the first to react, stood up and said with a smile: "Happy New Year! Didn't you say that this kid was busy, why did you come suddenly?" This really made her uncle's family confused. It was just angry that my sister said that the divorce was just a mouthful, so of course she arranged a room for the two.
It's really hard to explain, and it only gets messier the more you explain it.
Xue Yihuai adhered to the spirit of being unkind and went to the bed early. Nian Nian came back from washing and saw that he seemed to be asleep.
I really don't know what to call it, have I seen a divorced person, and still roll the sheets and share the bed? She and Xue Yihuai have gone beyond the definition of divorce.
There was only one quilt, Xue Yihuai wrapped himself very unceremoniously, and he didn't pull it at all after a few times. Standing in front of the bed with his waist crossed, I really want to kick him out of bed!
As soon as she had this idea, Xue Yihuai said, "You shouldn't be trying to kick me out of bed, right?"
Nian Nian was startled, I wiped it, how did this person know?
"You...... Why are you so polite? I was kind enough to take you in, and you can't be so domineering!"
"Am I still less domineering? Besides, I'm wandering out for you in Chinese New Year's Eve." Just for my heart, you have to be moved to tears!" he rolled over and looked sideways at her.