"Why do I bother me that you're by my side. There was a smile in Duan Jingchen's voice, "You think too much, no matter who encounters such a thing, they will be depressed for a while." Even I am no exception. Besides, what we have in the future is time, take your time. ”

"What if," I paused, "what ......if I could never let go of this?"

He looked at me seriously and said slowly, "Then it's good for us to go on like this." ”

I stopped talking.

Duan Jingchen is the kind of person who can do what he says, and his commitment is extraordinarily heartfelt and extraordinarily heavy.

On the morning of the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, Duan Jingchen took me out to sea.

I was afraid that I would be in danger again, so I didn't bring a bean bag, so I said that he stayed at Duan Jingchen's house to play with those children.

I can't drive a boat, and Duan Jingchen can't either, so when we rent a boat, we also rent a boat.

The captain was very young, twenty-five or sixteen years old, he looked very sunny, smiled when he saw people, probably because he often went to sea, and his skin was darker.

He checked with us and sailed the boat away from the dock.

The journey was smooth, and when the sun was about to set at sea level, the captain's voice came over the intercom, and he said, "Mr. Duan, we have arrived at the coordinates you specified." ”

"Then let's stop here for a moment. Duan Jingchen said.

I stood on the deck and watched the sun sink into the sea with a whizz, silent for a moment.

The sea here is unusually calm, with some fish-scale ripples on the surface of the sea due to the breeze. Other than that, nothing. The sound is the same, the sound of the wind, the sound of the waves, the sound of seabirds coming from afar......

As long as I stood in the sea in the dark night, Duan Jingchen stood as long as I wanted.

I don't know if my heart hurts to a certain extent and I become numb, I didn't shed tears, I didn't speak, I didn't feel anything, I just knew that I was in this sea, and there was no one in this sea anymore.

At sea, the darker the sky, the whiter the moon.

I looked at the sea in the moonlight, suddenly took off my sun-protective clothing, threw it on the ground, climbed over the fence and jumped directly into the sea.

The water was cold, and I jumped a few meters high, so I sank to the bottom of the water in one fell swoop. However, after such a jump, I came to my senses.

I stayed in the water for a while, waited for the air in my lungs to run out, and struggled to tread the water and floated to the surface. I didn't have a lot of lung capacity, and it took me five or six seconds.

As soon as my head came out of the water, I heard a thud and another person jumped down.

I don't need to look at it, I also know it's Duan Jingchen.

He swam up to me and grabbed my waist and lifted me to the surface.

"I'm fine, I float. I said calmly.

By the light of the moon, he saw clearly that I was indeed not panicking, and said with a sigh of relief: "What are you doing when you suddenly jump down? What if I don't know how to water?

"In the water, it's really close to death. What if a shark happened to swim under our feet?" I said.

"Don't talk nonsense, get up there. He said as he swam me up the ladder that I had lowered.

This kind of sea surface without wind and waves is really suitable for soaking.

The sea is really unpredictable, and the calm at the moment reminds me of that big storm, and I feel like it's a special effect made by a computer.

As soon as I swam to the ladder, the captain stretched out his hand from above and pulled me up, and then Duan Jingchen also climbed up.

He picked up a bath towel from the ground, threw it directly at me, and said, "Wipe it, don't get cold." ”

I stood there wrapped in a bath towel and smiled at him.

Duan Jingchen first smiled back at me, and then realized that something was wrong, so he stepped forward and circled me and said, "Let's go, go to the room and rush it." ”

I was almost carried into the cabin by him.

He pushed me into the bathroom, looked at me still in a daze, and said, "If you don't take a shower, I'll do it for you." ”

I smiled dumbly, Duan Jingchen has also learned badly now, will he use this kind of words to block people?

"I'll do it myself. I waved at him.

Seeing that I was back to normal, he breathed a sigh of relief, softened his tone a little, and said to me, "I'm just outside, wait for you to come out, I'll talk to you." ”

I closed the door and briefly rushed to my body, picked up the pajamas that had been in the bathroom, put them on my body, and walked out.

Duan Jingchen was still outside, and when he saw me coming out, he smiled, pointed to the chair opposite him and said, "Sit down and talk." ”

"If you talk about something, you don't have to talk about it. I looked him in the eye, "Actually, you know, I'm here to give myself an explanation." ”

He stared into my eyes, ignored my words, and asked directly, "Do you think Gu Yixiao is dead?"

"Nope. "I'll say it right away.

He smiled: "Honestly. ”

"Nope. "I'm still determined.

He smiled, looked at me with serious eyes, slowed down his voice and said, "Tao Ran, tell the truth." ”

"Nope. "I'm a little weak-hearted, and my tone is not as resolute as I was just now.

"Tao Ran, if you really believe that he is still alive, you will definitely not come to see him again, and it will not be in the current state. You are a mother, a listed president, you can't be like a teenage girl, trapped in a relationship and can't get out. You have more responsibilities on you, and love is just a part of your life, not the whole thing. What's more, how the KB got back into your hands, you won't be unaware. So, now your posture will really make Gu Yixiao look down on him, he is watching from above. Duan Jingchen spoke quickly, stood up after speaking, walked to the wine cabinet in a few steps, took out a few bottles of wine, put them on the small table in front of me and said, "You haven't vented, drink well, vent, and shout out everything you want to say in your heart." Don't worry, captain, I just gave him a bottle of water with sleeping pills, and he'll sleep so hard that he won't hear what you're yelling about. ”

Duan Jingchen opened the cap of the wine bottle as he spoke, took out the glass and poured it in front of me, and asked like a bartender, "Do you add ice?"

"Plus. I said.

Without saying a word, he went and fetched a large bucket of ice.

We ate a little convenience food at noon, and I stood on it at night and refused to come down, so I didn't eat dinner. However, I didn't want to eat anymore, so I picked up my glass and poured a glass of wine.

On the shore, I didn't dare to drink, I didn't dare to speak, I didn't dare to roar.

Because on the shore, I have too many identities on my body, and I have to be tense, carried, and carried by me. Now, no, I'm drinking so fast and recklessly.

Duan Jingchen is a gentleman, and I know that no matter what I am, I am safe in front of him.

He saw me start drinking, turned around and went into the kitchen, and I heard the sound of water, the sound of chopping vegetables, and then the sound of the hood turning.

By the time I had my third drink, he had already come over with a few plates of stir-fried seafood.

"In the afternoon, I fished it up with a net, and if I drank wine, it was not suitable for steaming, so I fried it with yellow pepper for you, and it served with alcohol. He said.

"I can't eat it. I said.

"If you can drink it, you can eat it, and I'll accompany you. With that, he sat down across from me, and brought himself a cup, and bumped into me cup after cup.

I let go completely, drank to my heart's content, and couldn't eat less seafood, and vaguely remember that I praised him for his good craftsmanship or something.

In the end, I got high, cried, laughed, and said a lot of things, what I said, I don't remember. However, I remember the feeling when I said these words, and it was hearty. Really, I haven't had this kind of fun in decades.

Duan Jingchen didn't hold back with me, and he got back everything I said. Some of them, I think are crooked, but I think they make sense. Because no one has ever said the same thing in front of me.

Later, I still remember Duan Jingchen's red eyes and saying something that I will never forget in my life. He said: "Tao Ran, you are a white-eyed wolf who can't cover it with a hot stone and can't feed it. You can't think that just because Gu Yixiao took out a life, you think he is innocent. Besides, he didn't die because of you. You're just a small part of that. ”

I seemed to curse a few words about him, and then I didn't remember anything.

When I woke up the next day, the sun was already rising, and before I could open my eyes, I felt like my avatar had been smashed by dozens of hammers at the same time.

I opened my eyes hard and saw myself lying on the bed.

The boat shook violently, and I walked out holding on to the wall.

When I got to the deck, I saw a man sitting under a sun umbrella fishing, and at this moment, I thought it was Gu Yixiao. He strode over, and before he could speak, the man turned to me and said, "Now the navigation on the ship is broken, and the captain is repairing it, and if it can't be repaired, we will be slow to go back." ”

I swallowed the name back as it came to my lips.

Actually, I wish I had woken up from a sleep, and everything I had experienced in the past few months was a dream.

Unfortunately, there is only cruelty in the adult world.

The navigation was fixed in the evening, and we drifted at sea for most of the day. When the sun went down again, something strange appeared on the sea level.

When it got closer, Duan Jingchen and I glanced at each other, and shouted at the same time: "Xiaodao." ”

"Captain. I shouted, and I quickly ran to the cockpit and said, "There's a little island ahead, we can go up and have a look." ”

"It's better to avoid going up to this kind of desert island, because the situation above is unknown. Normally, we stay on the boat, and if it's daytime, we can go up and take a walk. But at night, I recommend staying overnight on the boat, it is safer. He wasn't surprised at all.

Duan Jingchen also chased after him, and when he heard the captain's words, he nodded and said, "I agree with the captain's suggestion." ”

Two to one, the two of them won. The three of us gave a high-five, and decided to just stop the boat next to the island and spend the night on the boat. The captain is very experienced and keeps an eye on the weather. When he had made this decision, he looked at the sky and said, "There will be no strong winds and waves tonight, and the ship is safe." ”