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After washing away the lead, unloading my prematurely tired body, enjoying 5 years of comfortable and comfortable time, the boundless blue sky and white clouds and green meadows, the place where I once ended my life, I never thought that I would be reborn here. And I never thought that after 5 years, I would return to the world that I once hated so much.

Because from the moment I picked up the chalk, I told myself in my heart that I was going to stay here and teach this rustic herdsman and their innocent children everything I had learned before I left university. I want to use the best side of my heart to teach them the scenery that cannot be seen on the grassland.

In fact, I did, and before I left, Dorjee had already received an admission letter from Kazi County Middle School, and he was the only child in the grassland who could go to the county seat to attend middle school. If it had been placed in the past, his parents who were herdsmen would not have agreed, because Dorjee's departure would have left the family sheep without the owner who took care of them.

But now his parents are full of pride, because I am a "teacher" from the grassland who they don't know about the past. With a longing for the outside world and a thirst for a future life, they actively explore.

Brother Huo stayed with me on the grassland for 2 days, and he didn't mention anything about taking me away. As always, I took the children to class and ate a hundred family meals with Brother Huo.

Early in the morning of the third day, a lot of cars and many people came to the grassland, they were reporters from major media, as well as leaders of the Kazi County Education Bureau.

They took over where I was going to class, so I had to hide and wait and see. Dorjee and the other children also came out, watching the reporter's camera as if they were watching fresh, while the other herdsmen consciously gathered around, chattering about why so many leaders came?

The leader of the Education Bureau stood in the middle of the circle, smiled at Brother Huo beside me, and said a few words concisely to the reporter's camera. I realized that Brother Huo had funded the establishment of a school on the grassland before he came, and the Education Bureau would send special teachers to teach.

That is to say, from this moment on, this grassland was also included in the scope of nine-year compulsory education.

Before the camera could focus on me, I escaped the crowd and silently returned to the tent. Soon, Brother Huo also avoided the crowd and came in, looking at me kindly, "Let's go, you are no longer needed here." ”

I looked up and was stunned for a moment, understanding all of Brother Huo's intentions. But then I shook my head, because I didn't know where I was going.

"Let's go, get out of here, you can help more people. ”

Brother Huo's sincere language, I can't refuse. His hair in front of me has turned gray, and he is older than five years ago, but he is more like the shadow of my father who has vaguely appeared in my childhood dreams.

For this man who has stood by my side since I was at my most depressed and innocent, and the man who has accompanied me through all the things but still not the slightest bit tempted, I suddenly felt a little annoyed. If he had no relationship with my mother, would I have fallen in love with him because of his care, and would I have married him because he had not given up all these years?

Obviously, even if he is much calmer than he was before after 5 years, he still can't let himself fall in love with him, and he can't let himself betray his heart. The more I have experienced injuries, the more I don't want to hurt others again, just like the current Brother Huo, I can't treat him as a future partner.

He meant so much more to me than that.

On the night of my departure, almost all the herdsmen brought out the best wine and food in the house to entertain me, and Dorjee's family even killed a cow and a sheep.

Dorjee stood in front of me with a large plate of beef and a leg of mutton, but no longer as distant as he was five years ago, and said in standard Mandarin, "Thank you, teacher." ”

I hugged Dorjee and couldn't cry.

This night, I was drunk. For the first time in 5 years, I drank too much.

Brother Huo was also drunk, took me to sit on the grassland, and said with a big tongue: "Xiaojuan, think about it, how many people can stumble back to the same place after getting lost? How many people can keep themselves after going astray? How many people can find themselves again after losing themselves? And how many people can break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly after being cocooned and bound to themselves? But I believe that you can." ”

Brother Huo can always say it in one sentence, just a few dozen words, enough to summarize all of me.

It was only at this time that I had the feeling that Brother Huo had never left, and he could understand everything I was thinking. In fact, I have been thinking a lot about it these days, why should I choose to escape now? Even if I have chosen the wrong path, why can't I start all over again?

Therefore, I chose to follow Brother Huo back without hesitation.

However, Brother Huo arranged much more things than donating to the school.

The RV stopped outside the Red Hotel next to the Potala Palace, Brother Huo took my hand and got out of the car, and a middle-aged woman of the same age as Brother Huo walked in front of her, with neat black hair and a blue and white porcelain pattern cheongsam, walking towards us. Behind her, there was Qiu Xu.

When I saw Qiu Xu, I was stunned. Qiu Xu is my classmate with Yin Zi, and I don't have a deep impression of him because he has not yet graduated and transferred to another school.

Before I could speak, Brother Huo let go of my hand and grabbed the woman's shoulder, "Xiaojuan, this is Qiu Xu's mother." ”

I immediately understood what was going on, and breathed a sigh of relief, but I was sincerely happy for Brother Huo. After so many years, he was finally willing to smile and hold other people's shoulders, and his face was filled with satisfaction and affection that he had never felt before.

At dinner, I didn't talk much, mostly Qiu Xu and Brother Huo were talking. Qiu Xu's mother asked me from time to time, and my language ability also shrank a lot, and I seemed a little at a loss. Actually, more importantly, I don't know what to call her.

But her current identity is Brother Huo's girlfriend.

Sister Qiu, even worse, her son and I are classmates.

When it was almost the end of dinner, I suddenly felt that I had called Brother Huo wrong. From the very beginning, I positioned him at the level of the eldest brother, but he was my uncle? Thinking like this, my heart was a little confused, and I felt that it was because of myself that I had disturbed a lot of relationships.

After dinner, I went to the top floor early, and Brother Huo didn't ask me much, and I heard Qiu Xu's mother explain to Zhuoma in the back, don't let other guests come upstairs.

So, I sat on the rooftop of the top floor and watched the vast night sky for a long time.

At the beginning of the night, people have fallen asleep. The silhouette of the Potala Palace on the opposite side is not as majestic as it is during the day, but it is more quiet and peaceful. The distant snow-capped mountains flickered, and the moonlight hit the top of the mountain, like a dream.

It's a scenery that I can't see on the grassland, but it's as quiet as the night on the grassland, and I still enjoy it. For 5 years, I have long been accustomed to sitting in a quiet place at night in a daze, allowing myself to reach a state of emptiness and not thinking about anything.

The chill was approaching from time to time, and I shivered occasionally, but I got used to it.

I gradually fell in love with the life of a person, adding clothes when it is cold, eating when hungry, all by myself. Because I can't be sick, when I'm sick, it's going to be uncomfortable, it's going to be vulnerable, and no one can get close to my heart.

I got up and was about to go downstairs to get dressed, and when I turned around, Qiu Xu stood behind me, as if he had been standing for a long time. I sneezed, covered my mouth in embarrassment, and was still a little rusty with him: "When did you come up?"

"Put it on, don't get cold. Qiu Xu draped the clothes he had prepared on me, "It's beautiful here, isn't it?"

I nodded, and replied, "Where did you go?"

"That's it. ”

"You went to school here?"

"Yes..."Qiu Xu sat up casually beside me, and started a family routine with me like an old friend: "After my father died, my mother brought me here." When I first came, I didn't like it, and I thought it was a poor and remote place, and I didn't feel angry at all. However, over the years, I have gradually come to understand my mother and like this quiet and comfortable city. ”

Qiu Xu said, opened a bottle of red wine, poured it into the goblet next to it and handed it to me: "Do you want to drink?"

I took the cup and nodded, "This is your house?"

"Count... Right. Qiu Xu said in a slurch, drained the wine in the cup in one gulp, and looked at the snow-capped mountain top in the distance melancholy.

The only thing that hasn't changed in the past five years is my unique insight into people. Qiu Xu's simple words, coupled with his hidden gaze, I clearly saw the sourness and secrets behind this man, but I didn't want to break him easily. Instead, they were silent with him, each cherishing the secrets in their hearts and reminiscing alone.

1010 update

I stayed in Lhasa for two months, except that I didn't give any more classes to Duoji and them, and the rest of my life was no different from my life in the grassland. still lives in a state of emptiness every day, thanks to the relief that Brother Huo has reaped happiness. Occasionally, during the day, I would go around the Potala Palace alone, buy a bottle of old yogurt at the foot of the mountain, or sit in the square and feed the white pigeons. After dinner in the evening, I still sat on the top floor in a daze, and Qiu Xu would come up with red wine, drink with me in a daze, and don't say anything.

Gradually, I got used to this tranquility.

One morning, Brother Huo suddenly knocked on the door of my room, saying that he was going to take me to a place.

Get on the bus, go, and arrive at your destination.

In a forest on the outskirts of the city, in a row of neat houses, the sound of Lang Lang reading was heard.

Brother Huo stopped the car, stood outside the house and said, "The children inside are all from remote grasslands and mountains. ”

I was stunned: "Grassland, aren't you going to school?"

"These children's hometowns are places where the Education Bureau can't approve the construction of schools, but we can't let them not go to school, right?" Brother Huo smiled and took my hand and walked into an office: "From now on, your place of work will be here." ”

After enduring more than ten days of tears, Brother Huo even arranged my future together, but what surprised me even more was what he said next.

He said: "Xiaojuan, you are also a big boss, you have also figured out everything you should understand, right?"

I nodded: "Huo..."

"You... Don't call me Brother Huo. Brother Huo interrupted me: "Remember what I once said, I am willing to take care of you in place of your mother." ”

"Then I...."

"Call me godfather. Brother Huo lit a cigarette, just like the first time we met, and didn't hand me another cigarette.

I was a little unaccustomed to the sudden change of title, and I was still embarrassed to scream.

Brother Huo smiled: "Tomorrow, Qiu Xu and his mother and I will go abroad, if it weren't for you, we would have left a long time ago." ”

"I wish you and your aunt happiness. ”

"But really?" Brother Huo stared at me playfully like an old child, spitting out a thick circle of smoke.

"Sincerely. ”

"But before I leave, I want to arrange something. Brother Huo showed a firmness that he had never felt before: "You have been with Qiu Xu for a month, and I have been in contact with him for several years, and I think he is a reliable young man." I used to want to let you do whatever you wanted, and I could carry it for you if something happened. Later, I found out that I was too old to hold back. So this time you're going to listen to me anyway. ”

I have never seen Brother Huo talk to me so resolutely, that kind of firm gaze and tone made me dare not say a word at all. But he was still a little timid and asked, "What do you mean..."

"There are still some things that Qiu Xu has not yet dealt with, what your aunt means is that the Red Hotel will be handed over to you to take care of. And after that... It's up to you. ”

Brother Huo always followed my inner feelings, and did not force me to tell me his and Qiu Xu's mother's thoughts in a commanding tone. It's just that this arrangement is obvious, they want me and Qiu Xu to walk together. The Red Hotel was founded by Qiu Xu's mother, and since she is willing to hand it over to me to take care of, her thoughts are self-evident.

"Xiaojuan, think about it. Brother Huo squeezed me heavily on the shoulder: "I also believe that Qiu Xu will not let you down." ”

Later, Brother Huo left, and he finally felt relieved to pursue his own happiness, I was relieved, but my heart was a lot empty. Brother Huo's departure, that is, from now on, I really have no relatives by my side.

left with Brother Huo, as well as Qiu Xu. It's just that Brother Huo is going abroad, and Qiu Xu is going back to City A.

But Qiu Xu didn't tell me what he was going to do, and I didn't ask.

I have returned to living alone, and I have become accustomed to and began to enjoy this state, and my daily life is as usual, and I have more attachment to school. The Red Hotel said that it was handed over to me to take care of, in fact, everything has a complete set of management system, and I only need to hand over some daily routines with Dolma every day.

Qiu Xu's sudden return was something I didn't expect, and the news he brought back surprised me even more. Still on the rooftop of the top floor, still holding a red wine glass, Qiu Xu, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly said, "Juan, I have already done all the things that Uncle Huo gave me." ”

"Huo Da... Oh no, what did your godfather give you?"

"Hmm. Qiu Xu took the wine glass and touched it lightly with me: "The legal person of the Dynasty Group has been changed from Zuo Moran to you." ”

The wine glass in my hand shattered, and I was shocked into a cold sweat: "What did you say?"

"Uncle Huo has been running this matter for the past few years, and the court has officially pronounced the verdict, as well as the Thousand Fiber Department Store. It originally belonged to you, and this is what the Pan family owes you. ”

I probably understand what Brother Huo has been doing all these years, and while he hasn't given up looking for me, he should still be fighting a lawsuit with Zuo Chongli. The agreements signed when he divorced Zuo Moran should be regarded as unequal treaties, after all, according to the truth, the assets of the Pan family are far more than the villa in Qishan.

I posed with a wine glass, but there was nothing in my hand, and I said expressionlessly: "Qiu Xu, let's get married." ”

"Okay, get married. Qiu Xu answered neatly, but he didn't seem to have the slightest emotion.

So we got married, registered our marriage at the Civil Affairs Bureau, and flew to California together, where we had a meal with Brother Huo and Qiu Xu's mother, and the wedding was completed. In California, the two of them are even happier and more excited than we are.

Qiu Xu's mother said, "Kennan, this is the best, right?"

Brother Huo blushed and drank with Qiu Xu constantly, shouting for us to change our words to call them parents.

Qiu Xu and I were still a little restrained, but we also held wine glasses together and called out to their parents respectfully.

I don't understand why Qiu Xu agreed to marry me, after all, in the past few days after marriage, Qiu Xu and I have always respected each other, and we have never said a few words.

And I took the initiative to say that I got married, but it was actually because I was moved by Brother Huo. Over the years, he has been arranging, connecting me to Lhasa and getting along with me, and also arranging my future. He's old, I should let him worry, the people and things he has seen will not be wrong, since he said that Qiu Xu is good, why can't I marry?

There is no love and family affection in my life, only what remains, that is, Brother Huo's unspeakable emotion that transcends love and family affection. I got married, settled down, and Brother Huo was also at ease. He has been tied by our mother and daughter for most of his life, and it is time to spend his happy old age in peace.

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