Of course, if I leave Jiaqi at home and go to my uncle's house alone for the New Year, I don't want to go, and with the kidnapping incident last year, what Jiaqi is most afraid of now is that I leave her and leave her at home alone, so to speak, except for school, Jiaqi is usually almost inseparable from me.

Thinking about it, I had to stay at home and take care of Jiaqi.

"Auntie, that's the case, I've had a little fever these days, and now I've just come back from the hospital, and I'm still not feeling well, and I may not be able to get over today......" I made up this temporarily, and I said it myself with a little lack of confidence, but I can't help it, I have to find an excuse to stay.

"Ah, Xiaodong, you have a fever, why don't you tell us, does it matter, or your aunt will come to see you. ”

"Actually, it's nothing...... It's almost good, but I'm a little dizzy, my body is a little sore, and I can get better after a day of rest...... Auntie, I may not be able to come today, I'm really embarrassed...... I'll come to your house myself in a few days. Hehe. ”

I tried to speak as sincerely as I could, but my aunt still seemed a little unconvinced.

"Xiaodong, is something wrong with you? I seem to be quite energetic when I hear your tone. Or do you not want to come to see us, Xiaodong?"

"Auntie, what are you talking about, I really have a cold, if I could come, I would have come a long time ago. I'd love to come and see you guys too...... But today I don't know how, the body just doesn't fight. ”

"Okay, okay, you've said so, then you better rest first, the body is the most important, if it's really uncomfortable, it's better to be at home. But if it's better, you still have to come quickly, your brother Xia Bin misses you very much. Tomorrow, if no one comes at home, I will come to you to take a look, bring some medicine, living alone is a problem, and there is no one to take care of you when you are sick. ”

After listening to my words, my aunt didn't think much about it, because usually my aunt and I are very good, so my aunt's words that I don't want to see them are just a joke, of course not true.

"Auntie, it's really fine, I'll be fine tomorrow...... You don't have to come and see me. It's true. I haven't all been like this all these years. It's okay. "I didn't want my lie to be exposed, so I hurriedly nippled my aunt's thoughts in the bud.

“…… Hey, then you better take care of it yourself. You're a really worrying person. Otherwise, I said Xiaodong, you might as well move to live with us, and we can take care of you......"

"Okay, auntie, don't say that again. It's fine that I'm alone. Okay, that's it, aunt, I just took my medicine and need to sleep for a while, so you guys should be busy. ”

Hearing more and more of my aunt's words of concern, I didn't know when it would be over, so I ended the call early and hung up the phone.

After hanging up the phone, the hall suddenly became silent again.

I couldn't help but shake my head.

Another year has passed.

For Jiaqi, I missed another Chinese New Year's Eve.

When I think about it, I feel a little lost. Actually, I still wanted to meet my aunt and uncle and my cousin, but for the sake of Jiaqi, I had to give up.

Come to think of it, I hadn't seen them for more than half a year. Several times they asked me to come to their house, but I turned it down on the grounds that I was busy with work.

And the real reason is still Jiaqi.

I really miss them.

Now the best for me is my relatives, and the only ones are my aunt and uncle.

I can't even go to see them on Chinese New Year's Eve, and I don't know when I will see them again in the future.

Sometimes, I wonder if my life would have been better without Jiaqi.

I guess the answer is yes.

At least if it weren't for Jiaqi, my dad would definitely be by my side now, and I would definitely be able to meet my aunts and uncles, and I would have seen a lot of my relatives and have a lively New Year.

Instead of guarding an empty villa like now, lonely at home, with no laughter in your ears, no slapsticks, no TV and mahjong and music.

I can't help but sigh a little when I think of this.

But at this moment, there was a sudden stinging pain on the back of my hand, I was startled, and when I lowered my head, I just saw Jiaqi grabbing my hand and biting the back of my hand with a mouthful of white tiger teeth, and then raised her head and looked at me slyly, her big eyes shining.

"Okay, Kiki, do you dare to bite Papa, disobedient again?" Seeing Jiaqi's cute appearance, I forgot the unhappiness in my heart for a while, and twisted the tender flesh on Jiaqi's little face with one hand.

"Hee-hee...... Ahh Jiaqi just grinned.

Seeing Jiaqi's expression, my heart itched, and I picked her up from the ground.

I was suddenly picked up, and Jiaqi immediately exclaimed.

But before Jiaqi's exclamation was over, I strode towards the door with Jiaqi in my arms.

"Papa, I—Where are we going?" said Jiaqi in surprise as I walked out of the house with her in her arms.

"Papa took Kiki to eat grilled chicken wings today, okay?"

"Really? yes, yes. Grilled Chicken WingsGrilled Chicken Wings...... "Hearing me say this, Jiaqi immediately cheered excitedly and stopped resisting in my arms.

Looking at Jiaqi who was so happy that I couldn't stop talking, I smiled slightly, and then walked out of the door of the house and walked towards the night market with thousands of lights outside.

"Kiki, do you think Papa is good?" I asked Jiaqi with a smile.

"Papa is so good~!" replied sweetly.

"Say it again. ”

"Papa, it's so good~~!"

"Say it ten times again!"

"Papa is good, papa is good, papa is good...... Woowoo woo ......"

Listening to Jiaqi's cute words, I laughed as I walked.

Bursts of laughter echoed in the darkness around them.

In the darkness of nothingness, my laughter echoed.

I don't know why, while laughing, looking at the lights in the dark night in the distance, at dusk, I have an indescribable desolation.

My laughter came to an abrupt end.

I suddenly thought of a sad thing, a sad reality.

Jiaqi and I are really becoming more and more like father and daughter.

I'm becoming more and more like her father, and she is becoming more and more like my daughter.

Too often, I've even completely treated her as my daughter.

But ask yourself, is that what I was trying to do?

I don't know the answer either.

When I first picked up Jiaqi, I admit that I didn't really want to adopt Jiaqi. It's just that now that time has passed, I am no longer the simple-minded middle school student I was at the beginning, and now Jiaqi's position in my heart can be said to be my only and closest relative.

If I were to attack her, it would be very difficult for me to pass this hurdle in my own heart.

It's just that I keep asking myself what the hell will be the outcome of me and Jiaqi. When Jiaqi was young, I could still deceive her while she was ignorant and hide her from the public eye.

But as Jiaqi grows up, becomes more sensible, smarter, and more knowledgeable, one day she will understand my relationship with her, and then I can still call her as freely as I do now? One day she will ask me who her mother is, who am I to her, she will ask me about my background, how should I answer her at that time?

As far as the current relationship is concerned, Jiaqi and I can be said to be both an adoptive father and an adoptive daughter and a bit like a brother and sister, and I can barely hide the past, but if I really want to dig deeper, I am full of difficulties.

First of all, on the household registration, Jiaqi's name is Chen Xueqi arranged by Mr. Chen, surnamed Chen, and my surname is Yang, which is difficult for me to fool with the excuse of my brother and sister. Secondly, the 16-year age gap between me and Jiaqi, as an adoptive father, I am too young, and as a brother and sister, I am too big. On many occasions, when I take Jiaqi out, we always become the object of attention, although I have become a little accustomed to it over the years, but it is based on the fact that not many acquaintances have met me and Jiaqi going out, if once acquaintances see me and Jiaqi going out together, I am afraid I will be very difficult. Thirdly, that's what Jiaqi called me, she kept calling me "papa", and maybe from her point of view, I was her father. I guess Jiaqi has always treated me like her father.

But what do I think of her?

What kind of existence is Jiaqi for me?

I don't know.

For 8 years, I never understood this question.

And as Jiaqi grew up and went to elementary school, I became even more conflicted and struggling.

The story of Jiaqi when she was 8 years old began in my conflicts and struggles.

In the blink of an eye, the Spring Festival has passed, and a new year has begun. '08 was a special year for me and for the whole country. For me, the company is developing rapidly, and the pace of international integration has accelerated, and Jiaqi has been in the first grade for a semester, and she will start the second half of the first year in the spring of 08, which also means that she will spend a year of study. For the country, 08 is also a special year, because that year Beijing will host the Olympic Games, which represents the improvement of China's international influence, and the launch of Shenzhou-7 also represents the rapid development of China's technology.

Regardless, '08 was a year to remember.

Of course, the beginning of that year was not auspicious, and the blizzard at the beginning of the year, which was rare in a century, gave the beginning of the new year a gloomy atmosphere.

It seems to imply that this year is destined not to be spent in the ordinary.