I tried my best to avoid the other thought in my heart, and only defined Pei Zile's abnormality as panic about Pei Shaobei's marriage, which made my originally somewhat guilty heart get a moment of peace.

Pei Shaobei sat quietly like that, and only after I finished cleaning up the debris on the ground did he get up and stand up. I thought he would comfort me, but I didn't expect him to turn around and walk directly to the door, and only then did he look up and say to me when he was changing his shoes in the hallway, "I'll go back there tonight to rest and think about something, don't think nonsense, sleep well!" I'll take you home next Wednesday, everything is with me, and you don't have to worry about anything else!"

After Pei Shaobei said this, he didn't leave me any time to refute and opened the door directly, I held the broom in my hand, looked at the door thrown back again, there was a kind of weak frustration, sighed deeply and gave birth to an inexplicable irritability from the bottom of my heart, I slammed the broom on the ground, and yelled at the door, "You should be a place here, come one by one, and leave if you want! Marriage is my business, is it okay to get married? One disagrees, one makes such an arbitrary decision, have you considered my feelings!"

I was so angry that my head almost burst into flames, and I snorted around the dining table, and I was even more irritated when I saw the mess on the table, so I forced myself back to the bedroom to prevent more damage.

I didn't take a shower, I didn't even change my clothes, I just lay straight on the bed, looking at the white ceiling above, and my head went blank for a while. But there are countless pictures that flash with this blank, including the embarrassment when I first met Pei Shaobei, the humiliation and hurt of Lin Dong, the way Pei Zile called me with a smile in the sun, and the old and worried eyes of my parents.

I suddenly remembered a quote from Keigo Higashino, that if something you once owned was taken away, it doesn't mean that you will go back to when you didn't have that kind of thing.

I have loved Lin Dong and had a marriage with Lin Dong, this is my experience, no matter how many years have been buried by the hourglass of time, these things cannot change. And now that I have lost these things, I can't face Pei Shaobei like a 19-year-old Gu Wan, no matter how humble I am, no matter how low I put my posture, the truth can never change.

I lay like this, reminiscing, longing, and my heart gradually calmed down in this washing, until I slowly fell asleep.

In the morning I was woken up by a mobile phone ringtone, I don't know how many times the mobile phone in the living room rang, I looked at the clock, it was just 7 o'clock, I got up a little impatiently, and walked to the living room in a daze to pick up the phone, "Hey!"

"Gu Wan, don't tell me that you haven't gotten up yet! Let me tell you, today is Monday, and the head of the department has been notified last weekend, and I will definitely not help you with today's class! You quickly wash your face and brush your teeth and roll me to school, I will be late for the first day of work, be careful that I will sue you!"

The sound of the bus stop came along with Sister Yu's loud voice, which made my confused head wake up instantly.

"Monday?class?" I was stunned for three seconds, screamed instantly, rushed into the bathroom to wash my face, brush my teeth, and comb my hair, and before I even had time to put on my makeup, I hurried out with my glasses.

The moment he locked the door, he remembered Pei Shaobei again, looked over there, and finally didn't call him, but just planned to send a text message to tell him that he was going to work, but as soon as he turned on his phone, he found that in addition to Sister Yu's, there was also Pei Shaobei's in the missed calls.

I was a little worried, I entered the elevator and there was no signal, all the way down the stairs anxiously, and when I got out of the building, I immediately dialed over, and the phone was turned off, thinking that it should be in a hurry to go in the morning, so I hurriedly called.

Is there something going on? Is it the case or Pei Zile? I thought to myself, becoming more and more uneasy, but I didn't dare to slack off in my steps, and hurried to the gate of the community.

The stomach that had not eaten breakfast was sour because of the pregnancy reaction, and there was a desire to rush outward with every step. I held my chest while looking at the car at the entrance of the street, the taxi at this point is not very easy to call, I waited for nearly ten minutes and no car passed, seeing that I was about to catch up, I was about to run towards the station, and the horn sounded behind me.

When I looked back, it turned out to be Lin Dong.

"Late, where are you waiting for the car? It's not good to take a ride at this time, I'll give you a while!" Lin Dong's car was still deserved by the senior management company after he got married, and then it was taken back by the company I don't know when it was given to him again, maybe the work scheduling, he returned to his former position.

I was a little emotional, and Lin Dong thought that I would not go up, so he persuaded again, "Didn't the two of us already make it clear? Didn't you say that you don't want us to become enemies? In this case, it is not okay to be friends with each other?"

Lin Dong's expression was a little pleading, but he didn't mean any other obscene calculations. I looked up at my watch, thanked me and sat down in the back seat.

As soon as Lin Dong heard that I was going back to school, his movements stopped for a moment, and then he said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I'm late, I shouldn't have brought our personal affairs to school, and hurt your ......."

"Forget it! It's all over, so don't mention it again. I hurriedly interrupted Lin Dong's words, if he really figured it out and stopped pestering me in the future, I wouldn't really be obsessed with these things and would retaliate back.

"Yes, let's pass the past! I hope that from today onwards, I can face you with a new look, hello Gu Wan, my name is Lin Dong!"

Lin Dong glanced at me sideways, looking sly and a little naughty.

"Hello Gu Wan, my name is Lin Dong!"

Once upon a time, this was the first sentence Lin Dong said to me, but now when I listen to it, I don't have the excitement of my heartbeat like thunder, but I feel a kind of relief that has passed without a trace.

"Hello Lin Dong, I'm Gu Wan!" I replied to him with a smile. It hasn't been a long time since the divorce, but it's been a few months, and I never thought that one day Lin Dong and I would be able to chat calmly like we are now.

Lin Dong was very familiar with the route to school, he had just gotten this car at that time, and he often picked me up from school in order to show off. Avoiding the rush hour, the car shuttles steadily through the streets and alleys, occasionally passing by familiar areas, he will also recall the past in a mocking tone, I was still vigilant at first, and then found that the other party seemed to really let go, and then relaxed.

After a twenty-minute drive, I arrived at the school gate at 7:50. After thanking him, he hurried into the school without being verbose, and when he turned the corner, he found that Lin Dong had been walking, and he was looking in my direction with the car window open, just like a few years ago, when he was driving and waiting at the door.

I felt a little uncomfortable, but I was quickly pulled back to reality by the familiar environment and sounds around me.

Sister Yu gave me a big hug when she saw me, and I smiled and hugged her back. The people around me greeted me, and I smiled faintly and replied one by one. This is the way people communicate with each other, there may be a certain period of naked hostility, but when this period passes, in the face of various possibilities that cannot be foreseen in the future, people will still choose to avoid its edge, and treat the partners around them with a seemingly peaceful attitude, whether this partner has cursed you viciously in the previous second.

You can't get rid of it, or if there is another rule that keeps you under the same roof, then the best way is not to erect thorns, but to turn into water that can change shape at will, and only then will the surface of peace be maintained.

There is no shortage of struggles in life, no matter what position you are in, no matter what the purpose of your struggle is, in the end it is only a balance between the left and right, and no one can break this and stand on its own.

Society is a group, there are countless helpless things, we can't change, we can only accept. This is not a pessimistic style, but wisdom after the baptism of time.

I don't think I'm a person who can be separated from society, and even if it's unbearable, I'm still willing to accept and follow such group rules.

"Wanwan, you don't know how wonderful our office is these days!" Sister Yu came over and whispered in my ear when no one was around, "This group of people gossip about everything and talk about you over and over again for days." Teacher Xiao Yang, you know, he has a younger sister who is also a normal student of your major, and she went to the head of the department two days ago to give a gift, wanting to replace you. Hmph, it's really going to fall into the ground!"

I was stunned, but I didn't expect this one to happen. Originally, I thought that the school leaders decided to let me return to school after a comprehensive consideration of the entire teaching progress, or maybe Pei Shaobei found someone to dredge up the relationship. Now it seems that it is the latter, after all. The competitors are all here, and I can return to school as a discredited person, Pei Shaobei must have made a lot of efforts.

"Really?" I replied lightly, "I didn't think I would be able to come back!"

Sister Yu patted me, and suddenly said a little mysteriously, "That little boy in your class is really interested in you!"

"Little boy?" I guessed after a moment that Sister Yu should be talking about Pei Zile, I was a little nervous, and hurriedly asked, "Pei Zile? What's wrong with him?"

"He, he united some classmates in the class, and wrote letters to the principal and the dean of the department for a whole week, and the momentum of this joint petition is very effective! You also know that the current students are rebellious, and the leader wishes that a teacher could deter him! You can come back, that little boy has contributed a lot!" Sister Yu winked at me with a gossipy face.

"How much of a role can he play as a student!" I felt a little empty in my heart, but I retorted on my lips, and I didn't want to admit it!

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