Chapter 349: Debts

Evolutionary biologist Robin Dunbar defines gossip as a means of helping to maintain feelings within large groups. Without gossip, society would split into savage gangs of tattooed motorcyclists fighting to the death for the last few cans of tuna.

I'm a wedding planner who plans all kinds of weddings for each couple, and some people may think that this kind of industry is not a good industry, but there is a saying that 36 lines is the best in the industry. I believe in this, so I try to do my job to the best of my ability, this is my principle, and it is also my life pursuit. Besides, now for me, I can do whatever I need to do with my money.

I used to have the same dream as many, many young people, dreams are always beautiful, but reality inevitably squeezes dreams to smash with nowhere to escape, and after a long time, I know that in the face of reality, dreams have almost nowhere to go. I finally understood that reality was born to shatter dreams. So it's also called life.

One day I suddenly realized that I was not planning a wedding, but a life, just like every couple who asked me to plan a wedding for them, they had a life in them. The good, the bad, the lucky, and the unlucky, all intertwined into a huge web of life, performed into a grand gala.

Li Mingming is my small hair, grew up in open crotch pants together, he said that when he got married, he must let me be a wedding planner and wedding master of ceremonies for him, although I chose to do this industry are brought out by him, his experience and level are higher than mine, but everyone knows that a good barber, no matter how high the skill is, can not give himself a good haircut. Of course, another reason is that the person he wants to marry is Shen Rui.

Shen Rui is our classmate, since junior high school, Zhizhi has always had a crush on Shen Rui, but because of his ordinary appearance and thin body, he always can't raise too much courage in front of Shen Rui, no confession, let alone hint, only unrequited love buried deep in his heart and sad alone.

I know Wise's mood, but I didn't help him, because I also like Shen Rui, just like Wise said, Shen Rui has an angelic face and a kind heart, in front of her we always involuntarily beat faster, at this time we always want to stop the heartbeat, of course, we also know very well, if the heartbeat really stops completely, then we will burp.

What I'm trying to say is that time stands still so that you can enjoy the pleasure that only she can bring more devotement. Strangely, I never regarded Wisdom as my rival, and because my feelings were too deep, I secretly thought about quitting and fulfilling their good deeds. But things are always unexpected, when I was in high school, Shen Rui had my first boyfriend, which was not wise, and certainly not me. It's a very long Peugeot, in the words of a girl nymphomaniac: Wow, handsome. But I don't think he's so good-looking, doesn't he have big eyes, white skin, and a straight nose? But it seems that girls nowadays are generally starting to like this type.

When Wise found out, he called me out at night and got drunk on the rooftop of the teaching building. The wind, blowing wildly, the night, is incomparably deep. As if understanding our mood at the moment, it creates a dark atmosphere. We were already drunk when the smell of beer filled the air, and that night, Wise drank and cried, and cried, revealing to me the thoughts he had been buried, so sad, so broken, like a piece of foam dripping with inferior nail polish, and then it began to corrode, bubbling, crackling, and at last all that was left was the sky.

I seem to understand his feelings, because I have also suffered the same experience as him, but I have not relied entirely on alcohol to vent my grievances like him, I have been looking up at the stars in the sky, twinkling and twinking. It seems to be far away, but it is very close, if it is about to leave, just like me and Shen Rui. At this moment, my heart is extremely calm, and suddenly I understand a truth, maybe I don't like Shen Rui, just because of the character of not admitting defeat from childhood to adulthood, let me know that after I know that I like Shen Rui wisely, I unnaturally sprout a competitive idea in my heart, just like the battle we have been doing since childhood, everything always has to be divided into a winner, and now, we have all lost, and we lost very completely, otherwise we would not be drunk.

The next day, we didn't go to class, not because we didn't want to go, but because we drank too much wine the night before, we slept on the rooftop until the next afternoon. My clothes were soaked, look at Ming, he was worse than me, not only his clothes were soaked, because he drank more than me, he didn't wake up, and his whole body was soaked in the dirty rain, like a beggar. I called him, but I couldn't wake him up, so I dragged him down the rooftop and back to the dormitory. Since then, Wise has become decadent, borrowing alcohol to kill his sorrows every day, borrowing cigarettes to be depressed, he has no energy in class, he always crawls on the desk to sleep, and he has no energy after class, he still crawls on the desk to sleep, and it seems that the whole world suddenly has nothing to do with him. He had little else to do every day except run out from school to drink and hide in the toilet to smoke.

And I am different from him, I quickly crawled out of my own imagination of broken love, without the help of wine, nor with the help of cigarettes, but suddenly understood that Shen Rui is not my whole world or my life to me, whether she is my lover or friend or classmate, my earth will still turn down. So I will soon be able to socialize with Shen Rui normally, as a classmate.

But wisdom can't do it, he loves too deeply, or his secret love and unrequited love are too persistent, so that he doesn't know where the exit is, and can only keep hitting the wall in that dim room, like an angel who has lost his wings, no matter how hard he tries, he can't fly. For the wise situation, I can only watch, in addition to watching, or watching.

Persuasion is definitely persuasion, but it doesn't work, for him, the only one who can treat him is Shen Rui, what I'm talking about is Shen Rui's attitude towards him. This is difficult to do, because Shen Rui's boyfriend treats her very well, and Shen Rui herself is like a little girl who is in love for the first time, immersed in the so-called relationship and unable to extricate herself, just like Wise can't extricate herself in a broken love, but the two are not in the same world.

Not in the same world, what a ridiculous sentence, now the popular trend of society has gradually evolved into the same world, the same dream, but the distance between Zhizhi and Shen Rui is getting farther and farther away. Although the two of them are still in the same high school class, the distance between their hearts has been stretched infinitely.

Decadence, the decadence of youth, the decadence of youth, makes wisdom look premature, when it should be young and frivolous, it seems so vicissitudes, it turns out that love can change a person, and bitter love can change a person's temperament. The wisdom of the sophomore in high school finally couldn't stand the person he missed every day, but he was sweet with other boys in front of his eyes, which was a wordless torture for him, constantly hitting his increasingly fragile heart, and he decided to drop out of school.

When he told me about this idea, I didn't react for a while, I always thought that he was a strong person, at least a sane person, who would not easily do something unthinkable, but now I have to re-examine my understanding of him, or should I say I have to re-examine the super-magic of the so-called love, whether it is the good side or the bad side. The wise decision made me suddenly begin to doubt the purity of love, and even the beautiful love that I had been fantasizing about before became so pale and powerless at this time.

At that time, I didn't really know what bullshit love was, in my only thoughts, friendship was the first place, family and love always followed friendship, some people may ask, why? Because in me, only friendship can accompany me, and the other two are completely a luxury for me. I am an orphan, and from the beginning of my memory, I only remember the teacher in the orphanage and the lonely children around me, and we relied on each other and depended on each other. Although we are still children, we all know in our hearts that we are a group of outcasts.

No one can understand the feeling of loneliness and longing for a hug, we will only be buried in our hearts waiting to be discovered, we can only be buried in our hearts, who can see the loneliness in our eyes, the desire to give everything for a hug, has taken root in our little hearts, deeply rooted in our weak hearts.

The three years of life in the orphanage have allowed me to develop an independent character, no matter what I do, I have to do it myself, and I finally understand a truth thoroughly, self-reliance, and abundant food and clothing. These eight words were told to me by Bingbing, and when Bingbing said this to me, his eyes flashed with a strange brilliance, as if he saw a favorite cloud floating in the sky, and then longed for it, and then reveled in it. At that time, I only knew that Bingbing's heart must be buried with the sadness she didn't want to say, although I knew that every orphan in the orphanage had a kind of sadness in her heart, but what I wanted to know most was Bingbing's sadness.

Everyone will have a kind of sadness, whether it is light, or difficult, or beautiful, or unforgettable, but always with a little sadness. Bingbing's difference makes me feel very familiar, because I was regarded as an alternative in the orphanage, and everyone said that it was a child with personality, and if it was ugly, it was ignorant.