I just sat there like that, thinking about the bits and pieces of confinement.

Thinking about the beauty of the confinement, thinking about the optimism of the confinement, thinking about the perfection of the confinement, thinking about what the confinement has done for me.

I can only wait.

Waiting to live, waiting to die.

Waiting for the bad news that might make me despair.

I really regret that I didn't start to make Li Jinming in the first place, if I had been more ruthless at that time, there would not have been such an accident as now.

Why am I so soft-hearted?!

I cursed myself a thousand times in my heart.

I can't wait to scratch my face.

The corridor of the hospital became so quiet, although it was daytime, it was as cold and silent as night, and the fluorescent lamps were so dim that it made people feel that time had been condensed.

The hospital is the place I fear the most, but at the same time, it is also the place I come to a lot.

My father died here, Mr. Chen died here, Ma Yike's father also died here, Tang Mengyan also left me in the hospital, and I even got the bad news that Xue Qi was terminally ill here.

I myself also come to the hospital every time I am seriously injured.

The hospital is really a place that brings me sadness, grief and despair.

Every time I come here, I get nervous and have an unspeakable sense of fear.

Because I don't know what kind of bad news I'm going to get when I come to the hospital this time.

I sat on the bench like that, silently watching the battery of my phone decrease bar by bar until the battery was almost overdrawn, and I don't know how long I had been sitting.

I closed my phone, tucked it back in my pocket, and just stared back in my chair in a daze, staring at the fluorescent lamp overhead.

The dim light made me confused, and pictures of memories from the past emerged.

Slowly thinking back to the past and the bits and pieces of the confinement, I suddenly realized that I had ...... I can't remember a lot of things. When was the first time you encountered confinement?

When did you finish the bottle of wine in the hotel?...... I really once walked in a busy street market with a smile and confinement one day?...... Where did we go on the first weekend of confinement?...... I suddenly realized that I couldn't remember.

I can't remember a lot of things.

I'm really getting older, and my memory isn't as good as it used to be.

However, the consistent smile of the memory confinement has never disappeared.

I remember it so clearly, vividly.

When I think of the confinement period, I smile when I think of her.

The most attractive smile in the world.

It was the consistent smile of the confinement that made me really know what it means to be optimistic, what it means to be confident, and what it means to live.

I used to think that smile was mysterious.

Now, in retrospect, it is so simple, so real and beautiful.

Will I ever see each other again?

I sat quietly on a hard bench, the icy air running through the cold, dimly lit corridor. It's like a road connecting earth and hell.

Feel the darkness around you. In my head, I was asking myself over and over again.

Like brainstorming, I kept asking myself questions.

I asked, "Who do you love the most in your life?" Tang Mengyan, Xueqi, Yuhui, or Yuezi?"

I replied, "I don't know." ”

I asked, "I must be answered." ”

I replied, "I really don't know." Each of them has walked through my life and left memories that I will never forget. ”

I asked, "Okay, I'll do it another way." Do you like Xueqi?"

I replied, "Of course I do." I've been with her for so many years, and I've watched her grow up. All her knowledge was instilled in me. I picked her up in the first place to raise her to be my woman. ”

I asked, "Then do you like Xueqi the most?"

I replied, "Of course I like Xueqi the most." However, Xueqi is still young, and she has always treated me as a father. Also, we are too old to be together. So, between us, it's more of a father-daughter relationship now. ”

I asked, "So, your favorite is Yuhui?"

I replied, "Yuhui has helped me a lot. However, I don't know her, she doesn't know me, we just know friends because of blind dates. Although I am grateful to Yuhui, it is not the same as the relationship between men and women. I know that very well. ”

I asked, "So." In the end, Tang Mengyan and Yuezi are left, which one do you prefer? You have to answer, you can only choose one, choose 1, or 2.

I replied, "I don't know." I don't really know. ”

I asked, "Must choose!"

I replied, "I really don't know!"

I asked, "Answer anyway." Now!"

I replied, "I really don't know!! don't ask again!"

I asked, "You have to answer! This is your inner thought, and you can't escape it." You have to face it. ”

I replied, "But I really can't say." Yuezi and Tang Mengyan give me a completely different feeling. Yuezi is like a friend, but very gentle and caring, Tang Mengyan is like a little sister, which makes me feel sweet. I can't really tell. ”

I asked, "Yuezi tried every means to save you, and finally gave her own life." Tang Mengyan also paid a lot to save you. Don't you feel guilty?"

I replied, "I'm even more conflicted when you say that...... I don't know who owes more. Whom is more grateful. I'm sorry for each and every one of them. However, it is not really clear to me who I prefer. ”

I asked, "Okay, then I'll ask you in a different way." When Tang Mengyan and Yuezi had a car accident, which one made you more painful?"

“……”

I was silent.

In my mind, I remembered the scene when Tang Mengyan fell off the motorcycle, and the scene when Yuezi was hit by the car and fell in a pool of blood.

The two scenes are so similar, yet so different.

Gradually, the two images slowly merged.

Tang Mengyan's long flowing hair and Yuezi's scattered long hair slowly superimposed together.

The only difference is that Tang Mengyan is wearing Zhang Yang's helmet on her head, while Yuezi is smiling at me.

It dawned on me.

A gust of wind blew.

I slowly clenched my fists.

At that moment, I felt like I had found that faint answer.

I know my options.

Meng Yan is her first love.

Confinement is my last love.

I slowly got up from the bench, the light at the end of the corridor was still so dim, it was still a cloudy day.

Time slipped away minute by minute. Only me and the benches in the corridor remained still, just like that, quietly.

And then, suddenly.

It's dawn.

The cloudy sky was bright, and the light of the sunny day shone sporadically through the window at the end of the corridor, and spread rapidly to my feet.

All the way to my face.

I watched in disbelief at the sunlight filtering through the window, and the sudden warm feeling that permeated my whole body made my blood boil strangely.

"It's got to be a sunny day. "I suddenly remembered what Yuezi had said.

That's when ...... With a bang, the door of the operating room opened, and the doctor in blue overalls walked out with the confinement in his arms.

"She's fine. It's stabilized. "The first time I saw it, the doctor gently told me.

I was relieved.

Turning my head, I blinked and looked out the window at the bright sky.

Only then did I know that what Yuezi said was not wrong at all.

It's really a sunny day.

Just like the doctor said, the confinement has stabilized and there is no danger of getting sick.

Because of this car accident, the confinement suffered a mild concussion plus brain blood loss, as well as lumbar artery blood vessel breakage and bleeding, plus a waist sprain.

However, fortunately, the internal organs were not too damaged, and after the doctor's rescue, the confinement child's life was finally saved.

When I walked into the ward to see the confinement child, she was still asleep because of the effect of the anesthetic.

The doctor told me not to bother her because she had a concussion in her brain and had lost blood and needed to recover, and it was better to wait for her to wake up naturally.

I listened to the doctor's words, so I sat at the head of the confinement bed, quietly watching the confinement sleeping position, and did not disturb her.

This was the first time I had seen the confinement sleeping position.

After living together for almost three months, I have never entered the confinement room, let alone seen her sleeping position, this time, it is really the first time.

Yuezi slept peacefully, without a trace of pain, her long black fine eyelashes covered her eyes, and her snort slowly spit out, her quiet appearance was like a little girl.

Although his face was a little pale because of blood loss, it seemed that the confinement was still so beautiful and quiet.

I gently flicked the somewhat disheveled bangs of the confinement and straightened her hair, which had not been properly taken care of since the accident.

There was a lot of blood on her hair, so I wiped it off with a damp towel.

When I was done, I sat back on the edge of her bed and watched her quietly.

Strange to say, for a long time, it seems that I have been hospitalized more times, and it seems that it has not happened for a long time to silently guard a person by the bedside like this.

I stayed by the bedside of the confinement all the time, called Xue Qi at noon to let Xue Qi solve the dinner by herself, and then it was not until more than three o'clock in the afternoon that the confinement finally sounded, and her confused eyes slowly opened.

At that time, I was groggy and almost asleep, and I was woken up by the confinement period.

"Hey...... When?"

That was the first thing Yuezi asked me, and when I heard Yuezi's voice, the whole person immediately woke up.

"Ah, Yuezi, are you awake, how do you feel, are you feeling well?" I immediately stepped forward to ask her how she felt when I saw the confinement who had woken up.

Yuezi looked at me dimly with her eyes open, and wanted to stretch out her left hand to rub her eyes a little weakly, but after finding that she had a needle in her hand, she changed to her right hand, she rubbed her eyes weakly and said, "Head...... めまい(halo)...... Low back pain......"

"You've just had surgery and haven't recovered yet. The doctor said that your lumbar artery was broken and now it is knotted. It will recover after a while, it doesn't matter. ”

I told her about her confinement injuries so she didn't have to worry.

“…… That's right. Beads of sweat oozed from her forehead, she wiped the sweat on her forehead with her hands, squeezed out a smile with difficulty, and said to me, "When is it?"

"August 26 at 3:12 p.m. Accurate enough, right?" I pulled the confinement quilt to wrap her tighter.

"Hehe, I didn't sleep for long......" Yuezi smiled and showed her white teeth.

"I don't know what to do if you go back to sleep. I said to the confinement child, "You almost scared me to death, you know. You could have dodged yourself back then, so why did you push me?"

Yuezi looked at me innocently and smiled palely: "It's just a reflex." Didn't think about it that much. ”

Yuezi said very easily, but I knew that she must have other thoughts, I looked into Yuezi's eyes, but found that her eyes were also a little evasive.

Yuezi didn't dare to look at me, this was the first time.

In the dark, I suddenly felt that I knew a little bit about the mind of the confinement.

Looking at the confinement, I took a deep breath and said, "Yuezi, I really don't know what to say to you. You help me every time, give me such a helping hand, every time I am shocked and frightened, and I can't get over it...... I think our relationship may ...... It's not just friends. ”