When I listened to this story, I fell into deep thought, and the unforgettable pain began to haunt me again, because I thought of Zhang Qian, a woman who made me difficult to let go of for two years.

I don't know if she remembers me, the man who used to be very important to her. Thinking of her made me want to smoke a cigarette, so I pulled it out of my pocket and lit it for myself. Then he handed it to the old man who was telling the story at the table. The old man took the cigarette, looked at it, lit it for himself, and then thanked me, and began to smoke.

I said a word of goodness, and began my own contemplation again. Because my heart seems to be taken back to two years ago by this story. I remembered what Zhang Qian once said to me, the sea is dry and the stones are rotten, the hand of the son and the son grow old together, never change the heart, and the promise of unswerving to death. How ridiculous and sad it is to think about it now. I've spent two years in vain like a fool, just waiting for someone who will never come back to me.

I don't know why I think of her at this time, maybe it's because she was my first love, or maybe it's because she hit me so the breakup that I won't forget it for a long time. But this ridiculous love trapped me like a rope, so that I couldn't escape from it and then release my heart. Let your heart fly again, swim in the sky, swim in the bustling city, and let yourself live freely. But it seemed to me as a luxury that I could not express in words, like the unattainable aristocratic life, for I was only a miserable child born to an ordinary peasant, and I did not come out of the golden irrigation like the children of the nobles of the royal palace, and when they came out, they also carried the splendor of gold and radiated infinite light.

When I think of this, I suddenly feel very miserable, struggling with my background here, finding reasons for my lack of accomplishment here, and complaining about my poor background.

But he/damn it, I really, often think, often envy those who are born without worrying about food and clothing, and have a full slam in their waists. Why are they so lucky, born in a rich family, they don't have to struggle, they can sit back and enjoy their success. And I came out of irrigation, so worthless, I had to go through a lot of hardships to break out of the cocoon and turn into a butterfly.

Or maybe it was destined for my life from the moment I was born, even if I broke out of the cocoon, I was in which irrigation, turned into a disgusting fly, and then flew around the irrigation, always inseparable from the foul smelling environment. Because I'm a foul-smelling fly. Even in an effort, it's another annoying fly.

I don't know why I compare myself to a disgusting fly, maybe people's minds are ridiculous, and when they are sad, they always think of things that people can't understand.

Am I resentful of my parents? When I think about it, I feel that I am shameless. I don't have the ability, but I complain here, I resent my parents, and I didn't work hard at the beginning, which caused me to have no money and no power today.

So in a few years, whether my children will resent me like this, I feel very scared and worried when I think about this.

I took another drag on my cigarette in fear and worry, and then looked vacantly at Millet, who was sitting next to me. At this time, Miller was looking at me, her beautiful face was like a blooming jasmine flower, so fresh and beautiful, I couldn't help but cross back from that self-pity and inferiority to appreciate her unique charm.

I was a little distracted, and I didn't know why she didn't eat the stuff on the table and came to look at me. It seemed to be watching for a while.

Suddenly, she asked, "What's wrong with you, how ugly is your face, are you sick?"

Her pleasant voice reached my eardrums like electromagnetic waves and into my psyche. I felt a lot lighter, and then I said to her, "Thanks, I'm fine, just a few things that didn't matter now." ”

Miller thoughtfully understood and said, oh. Then he said, "Eat it!"

I dropped my unfinished cigarette under the table and stomped it out with my foot. Then he said to Miller, "Eat it too." ”

I didn't say a word to Miller until the table was gone.

In the end, when only the two of us were left, Miller then broke the sucking silence and said, "Now is it time to think about how to get back?" ”

Her abrupt words interrupted my repeated silence. Then he looked at her and said, "Now?"

Miller nodded and said, "Yes." ”

I said, "As long as you have money, I'm afraid you won't be able to go back." ”

"But there don't seem to be bus stops or taxis. ”

I said, "What are you afraid of, I'm here to make sure you can go back smoothly and safely." ”

After I finished speaking, I remembered that Miller said that she was moving away in the morning, and then looked into her gaze at this time, and said, "Where are you going back, and do you want to move away?"

Miller fell into deep thought, but quickly added, "Do you really want me to move out?"

Her words were very intriguing, and I didn't understand what she meant for a while. And said, "Didn't you say you moved out in the morning? I didn't ask you to move out, and I forced you to stay in the morning, but you just didn't listen to me, and kept saying to move out." ”

Miller grinned, and then said, "Isn't that angry with you?"

I said, "Then don't be angry now!"

Miller said, "Besides, you haven't answered my question yet." ”

I said, "What's the problem." ”

Miller said, "Stupid, do you want me to move out?"

I said, "I don't know." ”

Miller said in frustration, oh. Then he said, "Then think about it now." ”

Mi Le said this, in fact, I already understood that she wanted me to keep her at this time, and she didn't want to move away, but she was embarrassed to say it directly at this time.

And I really didn't have the urge to go in the morning at this time, so I had to stop her from leaving and let her stay, to relieve the emptiness and loneliness in my heart.

But then I thought about what she meant by this at this time, that is, she wanted me to say a soft word, so that she could continue to stay where I was and continue to share a house with me. I said, "I want you to stay, not to move." ”

Millet was overjoyed to hear this, but pretended not to care, and then said to me, "You asked me to stay." ”

I said, "Yes, I told you to stay." ”

After saying that, I don't know how to YY up. Just because of one word, 'stay' and 'flow'. After savoring it, I laughed unconsciously.

Miller said inexplicably, "What are you smirking at suddenly?" ”

Of course, I didn't dare to tell her what I meant, so I casually perfunctory: "Don't care what I laughed at, now you stay." It's time to think about the following things as well. ”

When I finished speaking, I suddenly felt embarrassed, and I came up to a woman and said that she had 'stayed'. How undeserved it should be. Hey, you can only blame it.,The devil's film.,Let me have this kind of YY reverie.。

Fortunately, Miller didn't know what I was thinking, so when she heard these words, she didn't do anything that scared me, and smiled at me slightly: "You are a man, this problem needs you to solve." ”