Section 1: First Acquaintance

Today I remembered the unhappy thing again, I decided to go out for a walk, walked to a bridge I naturally squatted on the pier, looking at the river under the bridge I have an urge to jump, but I can't do that, I'm not good at communication, but I'm not autistic, as long as someone talks to me I will still look at him, listen to him finish speaking, occasionally respond to the other party's questions, I just don't take the initiative. Anyway, what I forgot today reminds me again, and I'm very upset!

Just as I was about to shout out loud, a guy suddenly asked me behind my back what I was doing? Do I want to kill myself? I looked back and saw that it was a man about my age, very kind-looking, wearing casual clothes, not to mention that at first glance it really looked a bit like the main character in my novel. I told him that I was just out to relax, but he said that it was okay to relax, but the piers of the river bridge were not allowed to squat! When I heard this, I thought to myself, don't I know that this pier doesn't let people squat? Who are you? Mind me? So I was angry and asked him to go away, saying that I knew I didn't need him to care! I thought he would leave, after all, we didn't know each other, and his face was so good, I have never seen him since I was a child, maybe he came from other places! He didn't go away, but sat down next to me and said that he was also out to relax, since he was like-minded, let's blow the river breeze together! I ignored him, it was really inexplicable. In this way, we squatted on the pier of the river bridge together, blowing the cold wind and watching the sun set in the sky, as if we were a pair of lovers, ah~phew! It's a brother! Solemnly declare that I am heterosexual! The cold wind is biting, he saw that I didn't react and asked me if I was cold?

I looked at him with disdain and said, "Nonsense! Of course it's cold." ”

He said, "Leng doesn't plan to go back?"

I said my heart was colder, and he praised me for my substance! I ......! Then he asked me what my name was. I ignored him and thought that this person was annoying, but he saw that I didn't mean to answer, he kept looking at me and asked again from time to time, I am not an indifferent person, since he is so enthusiastic to talk to me, he naturally has to respond to others, but I didn't say it directly to him, but asked him to let him say it first, he told me without hesitation that his name is Ye Yan, as soon as I heard God, not only did he wear the same as the protagonist in my novel, but even the name was a pronunciation, so I asked him which ya

He said that in the modern Xinhua dictionary, it is the strict of the cold, and his name is used in two mouths and one factory, including brave daring! When I heard the brave daring, I thought to myself, no wonder, although I am the same name as him, my personality is so different! He saw that I was interested and asked me what was my name?

I didn't say my real name, but after thinking about it, I said: "Non-fish, very non-fish, fish of river fish!" means that I am not a fish, I will not be controlled by conditions, I yearn for ordinary freedom!"

When he heard the name Feiyu, he asked me, "Is there a non-surname in the Baijia family?"

I replied, "I don't know!"

He was a little unhappy and said, "Then you still tell me that your name is Feiyu, aren't you lying to me?"

I saw that he was angry, and I didn't show weakness and said, "I didn't say that my surname is Fei, a famous fish!" You just asked me what my name was, of course I told you what others usually call me, blame me for not saying it exactly?"

After saying that, the two of us looked at me and I looked at him, and I couldn't help laughing. He smiled and shook his head and said, "Friendship is sincere, and names are just a title!" I nodded my head in agreement. However, he asked why he was here, and when I heard it, he still thought I was going to jump into the river, and he sat here and didn't leave, did he want to enlighten me? If I thought I would still say no! But now we don't know each other, and we meet in the water and we are so speculative, so I told him everything I want to say to others, and finally I told him that I have grown up to be the kind of person I hate the most! He didn't speak immediately after hearing this, but frowned thoughtfully and asked me if I regretted it, and I said regret, but what is the use of regret? What I regret is not that I didn't finish my studies, but that I went to study in order to finish my studies. I thought I was very sensible, but later I found out that I was not sensible, I was just used to obedience, because if you are obedient, you will be praised, and your parents and teachers will be good to you when you study well, and you will save a lot of trouble! When I got to college, I found that this is not the case, there are many things to learn in life in addition to reading, but I have no opinions, the learning mode from elementary school to high school, I can't adapt to college life at all, plus my personality problems, I have become a bad student, skipping classes and playing games all day long! I don't have contact with people! Although I encourage my juniors to dare to communicate, the main truth is the Tao, but what about myself? I lost confidence after a year of hard work, not because the society really couldn't tolerate me, but because I really couldn't adapt to the society! Now that I've finished my studies, I just want to work hard, and although there are a lot of gossips and I'm sorry for my parents, I've given up what to do, to what extent? I hate school. Now most of the so-called schools are just in the name of education, and educators are also teaching and educating people! What about now? They are only teaching, and they buy you all kinds of learning materials, and try to educate people? Before they finish their studies, many people have told me that they should take a teacher's qualification certificate, and that it is okay to come out and mix with teachers to do it! I asked myself that as a teacher, I should teach by example, and I am sorry that I can't do it! (The above content does not include the teaching philosophy of the university, after all, it is the teaching stage of adults, independent learning is the mainstay, but the attendance is all maintained by the roll call of teachers, should I reflect on myself?) I just want to work hard, make up the exam or something! I finally have an opinion and let me stick to it, even if it is wrong, I will carry out my will, until death! I see that he has been listening to me carefully, and I went on to say that maybe some people will say that you will regret it in the future, and you will understand when you become a family, to be honest, I understand very well, but they don't understand, I have given up my whole future, where is the home? It's good to be alone, although a little lonely, but at least you won't betray yourself!

Seeing that he was fascinated by what he listened to, I said, "I'm done, what do you want to say!

He shook his head and said, "I don't know what you humans think, but learning to stick to your will is a breakthrough!"

I didn't speak just looked at him and smiled, I'm not good at communicating, but I feel better after saying so much today, I told him it's time to say it, he said let him say something, he didn't have the idea of jumping into the river to commit suicide, I looked at him helplessly, he saw that my eyes were not right and reluctantly finished his story, I listened to it and smiled and told him that he could really make it up, he said that it was normal for me not to believe it, how could mortals understand his affairs! I disdainfully said I believe it, I believe you make up a story and bring a dog abuse, he listened to it and looked around and said that he didn't, and said that there were no dogs around here, and said that there was no such kind of inclination, I ......! Why did he say that he could make up and abuse dogs, because he told me that there was a woman who had waited for her for 5,000 years, and now she was injured and cultivating in the mortal world, and he only came out for a walk while she was asleep, because there were many women around him, peacocks, rabbits, and so on, so he walked so far to take a walk! After listening to this, I naturally asked him curiously where his house was, and he was also blunt! As soon as I heard it, I thought to myself, rich people come here for a walk, according to what he said, it is a day's drive from here!

I didn't know if what he said was true or if it was false, but he didn't mean anything wrong, and just as I was thinking this, someone shouted, "Hey, you're not allowed to sit there!" I heard the sound and turned my head to see a traffic policeman, the motorcycle stopped aside, while talking and slowly approached my side, I saw that the traffic police were a little hairy, after all, this river bridge is very dangerous, the bridge pier is clearly not allowed to squat, so I quickly explained that we just picked up something, did not sit back immediately, turned his head to shout Ye Yan only to find that he was gone, just when I was strange, the traffic police rushed over and dragged me into the bridge and said: "Hu!! young man is young don't think about it!" Although life is a little harder, it is still very beautiful!" I wanted to explain that it was not, but I thought that it would be better to follow him, so as to avoid the responsibility of squatting on the piers of the river bridge, so I 'woke up' under his long persuasion, and repeatedly thanked him for saving his life and rebuilding the grace, and I ran back in disgrace!

When I came back, I lay in bed and couldn't figure out when he left, and I didn't feel the slightest feeling, and I wondered if what he said was true? It is impossible that I am a modern intellectual, how can I believe in the existence of those gods? Besides, if there really is a god, why are the bad people so rampant? So I fell asleep after several ideological struggles.