Why didn't Xu Haoyang agree, Han Lu couldn't help but think about this question.

None of them like to show up on variety shows, this time, Han Lu admitted that she was attracted by Lu Bolin's "she can skate a single again", and for a while, she didn't take Xu Haoyang's thoughts into account.

They originally had the same goal, but when he learned that his partner had an idea in his heart that had nothing to do with him, he would feel dissatisfied and refuse to participate in the show, which was right.

These days, Xu Haoyang has very few words, of course, he is not a very talkative person, but recently, it seems that he has been a little too quiet. After training and eating, I immediately went back to the dormitory alone, the kind that no one could call out. In the past, Han Lu wanted to slam the door directly to ask what was going on, but now that she felt that she was at a loss, she didn't dare to do anything casually. Just pretending as if nothing had happened, repeating the daily routine with him.

But after all, she is a human being, not a god, and if she is distracted, her movements are prone to errors, and after they have been unable to master the most difficult Lasolift, Liu Bofei called her into the office to prepare for the World Championships, and the second is to talk about the program that will be recorded after the World Championships.

Liu Bofei is not optimistic about that show, it is just hyped up, and it is convenient to pull advertising endorsements after increasing his popularity, and other effects can be said to have little effect, to put it bluntly, it is not flattering.

But he couldn't say that to Han Lu.

They sat facing each other in the office, and just when Liu Bofei didn't say a key point for a long time, Amy pushed the door and came in.

"Liu Bofei. Amy said simply, "The cat went to the back of the cafeteria fridge." ”

“…… What cat?"

"Just the cat that our canteen master fed him, ran to the back of the refrigerator. You go get it out. ”

"The cat fed by the canteen master ran behind the refrigerator to go here......

"You hurry up. Amy said unquestioningly.

After Liu Bofei left with an expression of what was going on, Amy sat down on Liu Bofei's chair by herself, adjusted the height and backrest angle a few times, and smiled at Han Lu.

"Talking?" asked Amy.

“…… Chat, chat. Han Lu said.

"It's good. Amy said, "You can relax a little bit." ”

"I know. ”

"I went straight in. Amy looked at her, "Do you still want to go back to singles?"

This question silenced Han Lu.

Do you still want to go back to solo skating?

If this question had been asked to her a year ago, a few months ago, or even two weeks ago, her answer would have been a decisive yes. But now, her heart has actually begun to gradually waver.

She's far from being a qualified, amazing pair skater who can handle all the tunes with ease.

She's not a perfect, impeccable single skater either.

This has nothing to do with what she's achieved before, it's just that she's not up to the ideal standard in terms of the overall completion of the show.

As a half-player, whether solo or double, it doesn't seem to make much sense to achieve the Grand Slam she's always wanted.

Zhou Jiayu has made it clear that her achievements in pairs skating are not something she can achieve alone.

Although she is unwilling, even if she is unwilling, she must also admit and accept.

Moreover, she was also surprised to find that accepting this matter did not seem to be as difficult as she imagined.

If she wants to complete a perfect performance, then Xu Haoyang is indispensable.

"I'm ......" Han Lu hesitated unusually rarely. Denying the idea of her past self is a challenge for her. "I don't know. ”

She said so.

"I don't know if I want to go back to singles. ”

Amy didn't speak, just looked at her, and she was waiting for her to continue. Before this, she had already told Liu Bofei, she told him: "You don't always want to guide others, you don't speak for them, and don't always want to influence their judgment and choice." ”

"Do I have it?" asked Liu Bofei.

"You have to let them speak for themselves. "It can be difficult at times, but you have to let them come through on their own." ”

"I don't know. Han Lu said, "I maybe...... I don't think so. ”

"If I had to choose between a single and a double athlete right now, I probably wouldn't have chosen a single. ”

It was also at this time that Xu Haoyang was doing a check-up in the infirmary, and after the Grand Prix, his back injury was faintly showing signs of a comeback. Since partnering with Han Lu, her weight has indeed put a heavy strain on his body.

"Don't do it anymore these days. Zhao Zhixin said to him.

"Is it serious?" Xu Haoyang asked.

"It's better to pay a little more attention. Zhao Zhixin said, "Your last show was very good, really good." Or now you can be less nervous and relax. ”

"Thank you. Xu Haoyang smiled.

"Coach Wang said...... "Zhao Zhixin put the tray in his hand to hold the ice pack back in place, "If Han Lu wants to, she can compete as a single and double player at the same time." ”

"What did Coach Wang say?" asked Xu Haoyang suspiciously.

Zhao Zhixin nodded.

"If Han Lu intends to go back to being a single person...... Zhao Zhixin finally asked tentatively, "What do you think?"

"Is it both a single and a doubles?" said Hsu, "and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. If only she wanted to. ”

"Yes......" Zhao Zhixin responded.

"What's wrong?" Xu Haoyang asked, "Do you want to say anything?"

"I think," Zhao Zhizhi smiled, "I think you athletes are really good." ”

"What. Xu Haoyang was stunned for a moment, "What's wrong?"

"When Han Lu was injured, I thought she was going to retire. Zhao Zhixin lowered her head and took a breath, and said slowly: "Her previous skating method, the coach has always had great opinions, and I also think that her skating method is gambling with herself, and she is skating with the will and belief to win." ”

His eyes were on his fingertips.

"All athletes are going to win. He said, "But I'm looking at you...... I often feel that there may be some people who regard winning as a belief that supports them to get up every day. They repeat the day before every day, and if you ask them whether they like their career or not, whether they are happy or not, it may be difficult for them to give an answer. ”

Xu Haoyang looked at him.

"It's just that if you don't keep doing it, if you don't keep skating, you'll lose all your foothold in life. That's how I felt for a long time. ”

"You mean Han Lu ......"

Zhao Zhixin smiled.

"yes. "It's not just her, but I've felt the same way with her." So when she was injured, I didn't know what to do for a long time. When she was doing rehab training, she might not be able to show anything because she was busy every day, but I knew that once the rehab was over, she would definitely have to face a ...... A situation where there is no way out. ”

Xu Haoyang was silent.

"So, when I was doing rehabilitation with her in the U.S., I actually wanted her to retire like that. Zhao Zhixin said frankly. Coach Liu also thought so, because at that time, she could not achieve the same results as in the past. ”

Zhao Zhixin had not said these words to anyone before.

"But in the end, I didn't say anything. "I can't convince her to retire because I know I can't do it myself." I can't build a world for her that will keep her firmly on her feet and not worry about anything collapsing. However, after seeing her back on the rink, I felt a little lost. ”

He stood up and checked the post-it notes that had been placed around the computer screen.

"Because I don't have a chance. ”

Xu Haoyang listened and did not answer, he was not a person who was good at dealing with this kind of topic, and he did not expect that Zhao Zhixin would say these words to him at this time. However, he understood what he meant.

After their hugely successful Grand Prix, when everything seemed to be on track and everything was going well, he looked at Han Lu, who was in high spirits and didn't seem to need him so much, and he also thought for a moment to let things go back to before the Grand Prix.

He wants her to be weak, he wants her to be incompetent, he wants her to confess to herself, he wants her to need herself.

He was quickly taken aback by his thoughts.

It was only for a moment, although it was only for a moment, and he had never thought of it that way.

His heart seemed to have an extra part, which he used to hold on to feelings that he had never had before.

During this time, he sorted out every day, confirming what these feelings looked like and what it was.

"If it's me," Zhao Zhixin said, "if she's partnered with me...... I'll probably want to stop her from skating solo. ”

"I understand. Xu Haoyang said, "If she goes out of my reach...... I also feel upset, lost, and maybe angry. But if she does get it, you can't stop her. ”

He looked up and stretched his arms.

"It's not just that she wants to go back to being single. "Even if there is a partner she thinks is a better fit for her than I am...... I'll take her idea first, too. ”

“……”

"But......" he smiled, "not now." If there were, I'd probably go one-on-one with him. ”

Their previous one-on-one, Zhao Zhixin has heard of it. But Xu Haoyang said this today, which made Zhao Zhixin puzzled.

"Then ......" Zhao Zhixin couldn't help but ask, "Then why didn't you participate in that show with her?"

"Program?" Xu Haoyang was stunned, "What program?"