Out of the office, my ears still echoed with Gu Jiaojiao's last words to me, with a man's intuition, she seems to be really interested in me, otherwise she wouldn't have made such a large-scale guarantee, isn't this the prey that came to the door?

Of course, I know my current state very well, and although some things can be cool for a while, I still keep a normal mind and don't provoke them.

When I returned to the office area, Wu Yifan had already returned, and as soon as I sat down, he leaned over and said, "I just heard from my colleague that the exterminator asked you to go to the office, how do you feel, did she embarrass you?"

Looking at his worried face, I couldn't help but smile bitterly, if I told him everything that happened before, would he be beaten up and jumped three feet high?

After thinking about it, I put an end to this stupid behavior and said, "She asked me a few things about work, and it wasn't a big deal." ”

After speaking, I got up and went to the pantry to light a cigarette, stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, and looked at the rows of high-rise buildings under my feet, and couldn't help but feel a little confused.

Qin Hao is right, Donghai City has developed rapidly in recent years, and various basic settings are layered like a house of cards, but behind this seemingly beautiful prosperity, there are still many people wandering on the edge of the city, although it looks glamorous on the surface, it is actually just a drop in the ocean.

Perhaps, one day, they left, that is, they left, no one knew, or rather, they lived in this city, but they never left their footprints, and it just so happened that I seem to be living this kind of life now, even worse than them.

From an outsider's point of view, I am just a salesman at the bottom, and the rest of the money after paying the rent is only enough for food and clothing.

I have to say that Qin Hao's conditions are too tempting, and it is not a safe path, as long as I nod and agree, not to mention anything else, at least life can be a hundred times stronger than now.

But when I think of leaving the starry sky, leaving Su Wan, leaving this familiar place, and even leaving all the people I want to protect, my heart will sting, and that feeling is like a drowning and struggling person, obviously there is an infinitely close bamboo pole in front of me, but no matter how I stretch out my hand, I can't reach it.

Outside the window, the dark clouds are gradually rising, not far under the Donghai Bridge, ships with white sails, staggered back and forth, have to dock at the port, the weather in September, is so changeable, before the sun was scattered, but now it is gloomy and thick, people are confused.

But one thing is worth affirming, God, it is rare to cooperate with me once, just when my thoughts were gradually sinking, Wu Yifan suddenly walked in, also lit a cigarette, he walked to the floor-to-ceiling window and said: "What do you think, I see that your cigarette butts are about to burn your fingers..."

Hearing his words, I suddenly said thoughtfully: "Old Wu, you just came, I have a question I want to ask you, if one day, I leave the starry sky, what will you think of me?"

After I finished speaking, he smiled and said very easily: "I don't think much of it, if you go to a higher platform, I applaud you, but if you are expelled, I can only mourn for you..."

Speaking of this, he seemed to realize something, turned his head to look at me and said, "What's the matter, I can't stay in the starry sky anymore, are you going to change the battlefield?"

"Not really. Shaking my head, I pretended to joke, "Then let me ask you, if one day, a large company with good prospects throws an olive branch to you, and offers you dozens of times better treatment than the original company to ask you to become an executive, how will you choose?"

"Of course I agreed. Taking a puff of cigarette, Wu Yifan said without hesitation, "You also know, this society is more difficult to mix now, how fierce the competition is, I think I squeezed in when I entered the starry sky, if it wasn't for the buddy in front of me who happened to have something to do and couldn't apply, it is estimated that I would be running to the construction site to move bricks under the sun now, and we wouldn't have time to ink here..."

Saying that, he smiled bitterly and sighed faintly: "But I know, this kind of opportunity is very rare, or even impossible, we are little dicks from the countryside, or we still do our job well, and we can keep this job, thank God, as for other bird things, let's leave it to fate for the time being..."

After speaking, he looked up into the distance, and gradually fell into deep thought, I did not answer again, but my heart was extremely sad, yes, although each of us is a part of society, but most of us, just like the brother standing in front of me, have to get by, or rather, paralyzed by life, desperate, no longer want to climb up, and finally say a panacea-like answer: It's good to be bland.

But how many people can really reach that kind of state?

When I got home from work, I continued to smoke on the sofa, and it was getting dark, but the phone on my desk didn't move.

In fact, I was waiting, waiting for Su Wan's call, hoping that she would take the initiative to call me and ask about today's situation.

But on the other hand, I was afraid, afraid of concealment, afraid of doubt, afraid of hasty decisions, all kinds of tangled together, indescribable feelings, and my mind was even more chaotic, like a swarm of bees dancing and buzzing.

After all, I turned on the airplane mode on my phone, my heart was very empty and tangled, I simply rummaged through the old photos of the past few years, from my high school graduation, all the way to college, and then to work...

Time passed unconsciously, and it was completely dark outside the window, but in my mind, there was a shadow of youth, which seemed to return to three years ago, when Xu Ya and I stood at the school gate, wearing a doctor's high hat and a wide university robe, taking graduation photos.

At that time, our smiles were so innocent and so green, but the eyes that looked at each other were full of love.

I still remember clearly that after taking the photo, Xu Ya also told me that when we got married, she must wear a wedding dress, hold a rose, dress beautifully, and then come to the school gate to close a photo.

However, time tea, no matter how beautiful the oath is, it can't withstand the wear and tear of the years, and now it seems that it is just a joke that has not grown up.

I don't understand why I keep thinking of her at this time, but there is no doubt that she left because I was unproductive, I couldn't give her what she wanted, or in other words, I couldn't support her tomorrow and hope for the future.

I've already had a hard time on this issue, and I really don't want it to happen a second time, or when I meet the girl I really want to protect again, I can have this ability, at least, I don't have to worry about the little things in life, which will only add to the annoyance.

Now, a good opportunity is in front of me, even within reach, but I hesitate "uncompromisingly", and the image of another woman comes to my mind from time to time.

A cold, unsmiling woman is like a snowlotus in the sky, which can only be viewed from a distance, but not desecrated....

I thought about this question all night, and even later I wondered if I was in love with this woman, but soon, I shook my head, and I couldn't help but smile bitterly.

In fact, when I woke up the next morning, I turned on my phone as soon as I saw the empty communication records on it, and I was inexplicably a little hesitant, and my heart was also empty, and I felt that my whole soul had nowhere to put it.

I didn't make a single phone call all night, and it seems that she still doesn't care too much about me...

In fact, it's ridiculous to think about it carefully, people, that's it, the more you care, the easier it is to think cranky, to say that someone is a director-level person, and there are a lot of things to deal with behind him, and it's not around one person all day long, I'm a salesman at the bottom, why should I have this special care?

Isn't it too much, or is it not going to be okay with yourself?