My dad forbade me to play with any girl since I was a child, and I couldn't say a word or break my legs.

In 1994, when rock 'n' roll was all the rage and took the country by storm, my mom ran away with a rock guy with shoulder-length hair and singing "No Place to Shame", or to be precise, ran to the town's dance hall all day to fool around and never returned all night.

My dad is a son-in-law, he has no status, but he is also angry, and he rushed to the town with a stick overnight, cleaned up my mother and the rock man, and pulled my mother's hair, and said in front of everyone in the dance hall that he wanted to divorce her and go to the court to make a lawsuit.

My dad had several conflicts with my grandmother's uncles over this, and they almost got into trouble.

It didn't take long for some reason to spread the rumors about him and his aunt, who insisted that my dad sneaked into her room at night, peeked at her in the shower, and was about to molest her.

But my dad and I watched football that night, and he didn't go anywhere, I know, but what if they were determined to frame him?

My dad was not satisfied at the time, and went around asking for someone to complain, lying on crutches at the door of various organs, looking for death and life, but after all, this is a family matter, and our people are fierce, and it is common for several people to die when each village and household divide the land to build a house, and the official family can't manage it, and then my parents agreed to divorce, and my sister-in-law also lost a sum of money to my father, which is compensation, and we also moved to a village more than ten miles away to live, and this farce is over.

In short, during that time, my dad was quite decadent anyway, lost his soul, he liked to hide in the house and drink when he had nothing to do, and he would clean me up after drinking, and sometimes after cleaning me up, he would change his face and spit bitterness on me, saying that women are all fake, and there is no good thing, so that I will stay away from women in the future, otherwise I will be killed sooner or later, and I will break my legs if I dare to say a word.

Those years were not good, not long after, my dad squandered the compensation, no way, had to go to the town with a few people from the same village to wipe people's backs, all day early and late home, and no effort to care about me, the girls in the village my dad didn't let me play with them, the boys said I was a motherless child, and didn't play with me, so I often entertained myself, a person can talk to himself for a day, don't talk to anyone, autism is estimated to be formed at that time.

I remember climbing into a tree to dig a bird's nest, but my foot slipped and I fell off the tree, and my right wrist was comminuted and broken, and I was heavily strapped in a plaster.

Since then, my dad is afraid that something will happen to me again, and when I go out, he locks me in the house every time, and no longer lets me go out, there is no TV at home at that time, and I look at the little friends running around the window alone during the day, and at night I listen to my dad's drunken nonsense, while looking at the moon outside, hiding in the quilt and crying, sometimes thinking of my mother, sometimes hating her, and my aunt and sister-in-law. Anyway, I felt very lonely at that time, and I wanted someone to care for me.

There is a sister in the neighbor's house, I call her Sister Xiaotao, she is eight years older than me, during that time she happened to be on summer vacation, may think I am pitiful, she loves me very much, there are delicious and fun to me, and often teach me to read and write, she sees that my hand is injured, immobility, often come to my house to take a nap, we are lying on a bed, blowing the fan, although the weather is very hot, but she will hug me tightly, let me feel very down-to-earth, have a sense of security.

I have a plaster on my right hand, often can't take a bath, inconvenience, my dad has to work in the field, no time to care about me, so I can only use my left hand to barely take a towel to pour water on my body, over time, there is a bad smell on my body, very smelly, but Sister Tao did not dislike me, but led me to the bathroom to help me take a bath, and always let me wear a black eye patch, with me to do some mysterious games.

I also asked her what she was doing, and she smiled and told me that it was nothing, that she was helping her sister with her illness.

In short, this period of time with Sister Xiao Tao is a bright sunshine in the difficult days of my childhood, but the good times did not last long, when I was in the second grade of primary school, she went out to college after the college entrance examination, and her parents also moved away, I don't know where I went, so I was sad for a long time.

As soon as Sister Tao left, a bright ray of sunshine disappeared, and I became more withdrawn and autistic, and the boys in the class saw that I had no mother, and my father was still disabled, and always bullied me, and I was also stunned, and I picked up a stool to fight back with them, and then I saw anyone I was staring at, clenching my fists, and I didn't have any friends.

The girls in the class, I still remembered my dad's words, don't play with them, don't contact with them, over time, even when I see them later, I'm a little scared, I often think they look like my aunt, as soon as I get close to them and say a word to them, they will frame me and break my legs!

Seriously, if it weren't for Sister Xiao Tao's appearance at that time, I might have felt that a woman was a demon and a flood beast for the rest of my life, and became a freak, so I am very grateful to her.

After going to junior high school, I also reached the age of the beginning of love, because I went to elementary school at the age of eight, so I was 14 years old at this time, one or two years older than everyone around me, and I naturally matured faster physiologically and psychologically, looking at my classmates who were younger than me had little girlfriends, holding hands and going to the woods after school, riding a bicycle to the mountains to play in the reservoir on weekends and swimming in the reservoir, but what about me, I'm a freak, I didn't say a word to my female classmates in elementary school, so I patronized and fought with boys and clenched my fists!

I don't just envy them, this feeling, I think it's a hormonal impulse from adolescence, I want to meet female classmates, yes, I don't go to school to study, I'm going to fall in love, make friends, I want to talk to other girls except Sister Tao!

Except for Sister Xiaotao, I have never spoken to girls, and after my father's accident, there are no female relatives at home, so when I see the female classmates I like, I am very nervous, and I don't know how to speak, so I will only follow her out of the classroom after school, through the corridor, and until the school gate.

Of course, there is another reason to follow her, she looks a bit like Sister Xiao Tao, her nose is a bit similar, her eyes smile like a smile, and she will squint into a crooked willow leaf slit, which is particularly beautiful.

As I walked, the beautiful classmate may have noticed me, so she turned her head to look at me, and I also looked at her, a little nervous, I didn't dare to look at her face, so I kept a pace with her. Later, she opened her mouth first and said: Classmate Cao, where is your home, ride a bicycle or take the bus back?

I was a little stunned when I asked this, I didn't expect her to suddenly take the initiative to ask me, and this should be the first time in my fourteen years that a girl of the same age has spoken to me, I was also very excited, and my mouth was a little trembling,

After about 10 seconds, I suddenly said to her: You are like Xiao Tao.

She was a little puzzled by my nonsensical words, and asked me with a smile who Xiao Tao was. Of course, I couldn't tell her the truth, I told her that Xiao Tao was my former object, and I ran away.

Thinking about it afterwards, I was very cowardly, not a gentleman at all, I almost blushed when I said a word, I was really ashamed to die, but the beautiful classmates didn't seem to care, and I didn't say anything, I still followed her out of the school gate as usual after school, although we haven't talked since then, but I think it feels good, especially when I see her so straight back, so round ass, some small jasper, and some people around, which makes me a little confused.

But the good times didn't last long, about two weeks later, our class spread the news that I don't have a mother, my dad is lame, at first it was nothing, after all, we are a small place with a big palm, and it is normal for a few people in the school to come out of the same elementary school, but a few days later, when my dad molested my sister-in-law, the rumor of peeking at my sister-in-law taking a bath was spread, and it was also said that my dad was broken because of this leg, and he really deserved it, and I am the son of a pervert, and it is not much better, and even some people are out of school, see me following behind beautiful classmates, pointing at the two of us and saying: Look, follow behind other girls, staring at other people's buttsSurely like his son, if he has a father, he must have a son, and sooner or later he will have to break a leg!

The beautiful classmate didn't say anything after hearing this, nor did she look at me, but when she was leaving, she seemed to glance in my direction, but when I looked at her, she immediately moved her face away. The next day, when I was walking after her again, she suddenly turned her head and said, "Don't follow me anymore!"

After saying that, she didn't care about me and continued to walk by herself, but I stood there for a long time, she said two sentences to me, this is the second sentence, I didn't expect it to be this kind of thing, let me stop following her.

In short, this incident hit me very hard, just like when Sister Xiao Tao moved away, I felt so uncomfortable, I felt a kind of pain of loss, and I couldn't see it again, but I wanted to cry but couldn't cry, so I kept holding it back, and the torment of being blocked in the trachea.

Later, I inquired in many ways, only to know that my father was a pervert This matter was spread by a little sister in our class, and her surname is Wang or Li, I have no impression, I remember that others call her little sister, or call her Yaoyao, Sister Yao. She likes to wear a black sun hat, crooked on her head, and especially likes to wear a pair of jeans with a dog chain on it, it was the beginning of the 21st century, it should be very fashionable, it is not called a dog chain, in fact, it is called a trouser chain, more than ten yuan a piece, it is made of alloy, hung on it and decorated, although it is very earthy now, but at that time, it was the favorite of fashionable men and women.

I heard that the little sister came from my mother's village, and hers

The family is also a little related to my sister-in-law's family, yes, that's right, it's the little brother-in-law who abolished my father's leg, so this matter has become more hateful, I will definitely not let her go so easily!

I've been withdrawn and autistic since I was a child.,I have no friends.,When I'm fine, I watch those bloody movies.,The true colors of the heroes of the old boys.,From the bottom of my heart, I'm particularly eager for those happy grudges.,Brotherly life.,Gradually, my character began to become retribution.,No matter who you are.,Provoke me.,Even if I can't clean you up now.,Lao Tzu will hate you for a lifetime.,When I have the ability to come back and clean you up later.。

I'm also relatively straight, I followed the little sister after school that day, and went home with her, in fact, there were two purposes for following her, one was that I suspected that she might have something to do with my mother and the rock man, because I thought the little sister's eyes were very similar to the rock man, and there was no news over the years, in case my mother was really with the rock man, would the little sister be their daughter? The other purpose was that I wanted to take revenge on her and give her a little bit of power.

When I was about to arrive at her house, there was a corn field that was very lush, it was the season when the corn was ripe, the corn stalks grew particularly tall, and they walked a road in front of them to reach their village, so this is the best choice to start, if you don't do something, there will be no chance.

On or not, it may be ruined!

Just when I hesitated, I raised my eyes and was surprised to find that the little sister actually took the initiative to walk into the cornfield!

After I went in, I found that there was a masked head wearing a white mask, a small flat head, only a pair of eyes were exposed, and a dagger was holding a dagger against the neck of the little sister, he held the little sister hostage from behind, while molesting her and telling her not to move, while touching her with all kinds of hands, and preparing to pull the little sister deeper.

It wasn't until this time that I understood what was going on, and my heart said I was fucking, it turned out that I met a peer, fuck my peers, I'm a decent gentleman, I just want to take revenge on the little sister, where is there this little flat head in front of me This dirty idea?

And under my observation, I think this little flat head should be the same age as us, and the size is about the same as me, although the strength is great, but a guy with a thief's heart and no thief's guts, the little sister desperately broke free twice, and then bit on his right wrist, shouting help, help, and immediately scared this guy to death, and didn't care that no one came, threw the dagger to the side, turned around and went into the depths of the cornfield, and disappeared without a trace.

But the little sister is really good, her shout is terrible, there are farmers working in the fields in the distance and pedestrians passing by the roadside, everyone heard the movement and rushed to this side.

I looked into the distance, and there was a person I knew, it was my uncle, when my sister-in-law was looking for someone to beat my father, he beat him the hardest, and he also came over, and the dagger on the small flat head just now happened to be thrown at my feet, I was afraid of arousing suspicion, don't repeat the mistakes of my dad back then, give me a good fight, and I also turned around and ran inside.

But I don't know what's going on, maybe it's that my side is running a little bigger, and they all chase me in this direction, and I feel more and more tired the more I run, and the more I run, the more I have no strength, and then I tripped under my feet, and when I got up and was about to continue running, I was grabbed by a strong hand from behind.

At that time, I was confused, my brain was blank, and my heart was finished, this time it was all over!