After entering the house and saying hello to his mother, Chu Tianqi still went directly to the Westinghouse to see his father. My father is still the same, but he looks much thinner again. Chu Tianqi has been accompanying his father in the house, turning him over and massaging him. After dinner, I went to the Westinghouse.

At night, Chu Tianqi, his younger brother and father still slept in the West House. Just after nine o'clock, his younger brother Chu Lirui lay down, and after a short time, the sound of him snoring was heard.

Chu Tianqi turned over his father again and changed into a clean diaper. He sat on the edge of the kang and looked at his father in front of him. My father lost a lot of weight, with prominent cheekbones on his face and sunken eye sockets. When I lifted the quilt just now, I could see that my arms and legs had become skinny.

My father has been in a coma for more than 100 days, and he is completely dependent on the dilute nutrient solution to maintain his physical strength. In general, patients in this situation need to stay in the hospital all the time.

At that time, considering Chu Yuliang's actual situation, he didn't know when he would wake up, so Vice Dean Gao suggested that he be discharged from the hospital. And her mother You Chunmei also insisted on letting her wife return home, and no one could persuade her.

Later, Chu Tianqi learned from her mother that she was thinking that in case Chu Yuliang died, she must bury his whole body. If the patient dies in the hospital, the civil affairs department and the hospital are not allowed to transport the patient back for burial, and can only be cremated.

In the more than three months since he was discharged from the hospital, Chu Yuliang has not woken up. It is a miracle that the nutrient solution alone has been able to sustain it until now, because this is at home, not in the hospital. However, judging from Chu Yuliang's current physical condition, if he can't wake up in the near future, he doesn't dare to guarantee whether he can carry it for more than a hundred days.

Looking at the father in front of him, who may not be his biological father, Chu Tianqi's heart was full of guilt.

In the first few days when he was suspicious of his identity, Chu Tianqi thought more about his grievances. It wasn't until he was injured that he learned from Vice President Gao that it was the ointment he brought that kept him from losing too much blood. His aggrieved emotion turned into guilt. The reason for the guilt is not only because the ointment given by the father reduces the danger to him, but more importantly, if the father has the ointment on him, he will not lose too much blood and fall unconscious, which is a life for a life.

If it weren't for his own relationship, my father wouldn't have known Chang Wen, and he wouldn't have gone to Gangou, let alone the steep cliff to collect medicine, and he would definitely not be what he is now. And it was because of myself that it all happened. knew that it was not biological, but his father Chu Yuliang gave the hope of life to this son. Compared with his father's selflessness, he is so small, so small that he is still thinking about his mother-in-law and mother-in-law, and he is not biological. Then the guilt in my heart was even greater.

Can my father wake up? During the first time he was discharged from the hospital, Chu Tianqi was very confident, especially when his father began to talk in his sleep, his confidence was even stronger. Over time, however, his faith began to waver, and he became less and less confident.

If my father can't wake up, it means that most of his life has been lost because of himself. Although it was unintentional, the fact that the thing started because of himself could not be changed, it was equivalent to being unintentionally pushed by himself, and his father entered the ghost gate early.

"Dad, you've lost weight, you're so thin that you're out of shape. Chu Tianqi gently stroked his father's thin cheeks, tears fell down his eyes, and he said softly, "Dad, when will you wake up? I'm still waiting for you to check my kung fu, and I haven't honored you yet." You have raised me for more than 20 years, can't you let me do my filial piety to you? Dad, I know that you have placed a lot of hopes on me, hoping that I can go to a good university, hope that I can have a good job, hope that I will do more practical things for the people, and hope that I will bring you a daughter-in-law and give birth to a grandchild...... "He couldn't stop crying.

"Chief, Tianqi, rest assured, rush. Chu Yuliang "spoke" again.

Chu Tianqi hurriedly wiped away his tears, bowed down, and said, "Dad, Dad, did you hear me? I am Tianqi, I am your son." ”

Everything was calm again, calm and terrible. It's like seeing a light in the darkness, and when you get closer, the light suddenly disappears. People in the dark don't know where the light is, and they don't know if the light will appear or if it will ignite hope in people's hearts.

Chu Tianqi called in his father's ear many times, but Chu Yuliang still didn't react. In the silent darkness of the night, only the sound of my brother's snoring was the sound of the mountain.

Lying on the kang and looking at the roof, Chu Tianqi had a lot of thoughts and couldn't sleep for a long time.

……

In the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, it was almost eight o'clock when Chu Tianqi woke up. looked around, only his father was still quietly "asleep", and his younger brother Chu Lirui didn't know when he got up early.

Chu Tianqi hurriedly got up, got down to the ground and began to wash. As soon as I finished washing, Niu Niu came over.

"Uncle, I'm going to play with you, and my mother won't let me come over. "Niu Niu came in and complained.

My sister's voice came from outside the door: "At six o'clock, she woke up and clamored to find you, I was afraid that she would affect your rest, so I didn't agree, and she was still crying." ”

Niuniu said aggrievedly: "Uncle, my mother knows how to bully me." ”

"Okay, okay, I'll beat you mom. Chu Tianqi coaxed.

"You can't hit your mother. The teacher said that good children don't hit people. Niuniu said seriously, "However, you have to tell me stories and play with me." ”

"Good, good. Chu Tianqi said and picked up Niuniu and went to the outhouse.

Chu Tianqi followed the noisy Niuniu to set off firecrackers in the courtyard. Chu Lirui, who finished pasting the Spring Festival couplets, also played with Cheng Niuniu.

At nine o'clock, I had breakfast. Breakfast was a little easier, because I had to make a lot of dishes in the evening of the thirtieth night.

The things that should be prepared for the New Year have been prepared, and the New Year's goods that should be purchased have also been purchased. Today during the day is the work of preparing the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, and my mother and sister do not let Chu Tianqi help, and Chu Tianqi cannot help. In addition to coaxing Niuniu to play, it is to chat with the people who come to the door about family life and smoke a cigarette with them.

For the New Year, I should have been happy. And Chu Tianqi was really happy to see his mother, sister, younger brother, and Niuniu, but he always felt empty in his heart.

Everyone in the family was busy, and the meal was open for a while, so Chu Tianqi took Niuniu out of the house and began to go around the street.

Niuniu had already gotten off Chu Tianqi's body, bouncing and walking in front, and Chu Tianqi followed closely behind. From time to time, when he met the villagers in the village, Chu Tianqi greeted each other warmly, and when he met someone who could smoke, he had to give a cigarette. The villagers are relatively simple, and they don't talk much, and when they meet, they generally say "come back" or "stay for a few days".

Next to the stage in the village, there is a small store, which is opened by Liu Sanye's grandson. People usually come here to play mahjong or poker, and the door is a place where people stand or sit and chat.

As soon as Chu Tianqi passed by the door, he saw a few people he knew very well, all of whom were his classmates, some from elementary school and some from junior high school. Everyone was standing at the entrance of the commissary, with their arms folded in front of their chests, chatting nonsense. Seeing Chu Tianqi coming towards them, they stopped chatting and looked at Chu Tianqi with a sincere smile on their faces.

Chu Tianqi hurriedly walked over, took out a cigarette, and handed one to everyone.

"Erzhuzi, when did you come back, and where are you doing?" Chu Tianqi said to a man in a leather coat with a parted head.

"Dog...... Chu Tianqi. I've been back, and I've been back for a few days, in Yanping Lane, getting tractors, pulling miscellaneous soil. Erzhu said with a slight stammer.

Chu Tianqi was very strange, so he asked, "Xiao Laigen, when did the second pillar stutter?

Xiao Laigen gritted his teeth and smiled: "Chu, Township Chief Chu." He doesn't stutter, he stutters when he looks at the official. Xiao Laigen's words were not very neat, which caused a burst of laughter from everyone next to him.

Chu Tianqi wanted to chat with them for a while, but almost all of them were when he asked, and the other party replied, which was not the feeling of chatting at all. So, Chu Tianqi simply said goodbye to them and walked home with Niuniu.

On the way home, Chu Tianqi was thinking about a question. He didn't understand why the little friend who used to sleep on a kang had nothing to say now.

As soon as he entered the house, his younger brother Chu Lirui asked, "Brother, why did you just go out and come back?"

"It's boring, it's boring to meet a few people and talk for a while. People don't want to talk, and Erzhuzi and Xiaolaigen are still stuttering when they speak. Why are they?" Chu Tianqi asked his younger brother.

"Brother, it's very simple. This is all due to the changes brought about by different identities, statuses, and environments. Chu Lirui explained: "When I was young, everyone wrestled together, fought dirt fights, and sometimes slept in a quilt. At that time, the main reason was that everyone had the same identity and environment, they were all children of ordinary people, and they all lived in rural areas, and people felt that they were equal. Now it's different, they all regard you as an 'official', and they are a 'people', and they naturally become two types of people in people's consciousness. ”

Chu Tianqi interjected: "But I didn't feel anything, when I saw them, I felt quite kind from the bottom of my heart." ”

Chu Lirui smiled: "That's different, for example, you can still call 'their two pillars' and 'Xiaolaigen' from the title, you think it's so kind." And they don't call you well, call you 'dog', it's obviously inappropriate, call you the township chief, it seems too raw. This one alone is awkward. For example, there are topics to talk about......"

"Don't talk about it, let's eat. My sister shouted from inside the house.

Chu Tianqi and his younger brother entered the house and began to put liquor and drinks on the table. When placing the wine glass, Chu Tianqi hesitated, but still placed his father's commonly used wine glass on the front position. The two brothers glanced at each other, and they both found a trace of sadness in each other's eyes.

"Uncle, come and tell me a story. Niu Niu shouted in the Westinghouse.

Chu Lijuan stopped and said, "Niuniu, don't make trouble, we'll eat in a while." ”

"No, no, I was watching TV just now, and you told me to rest for a while, and you drove me out of this house. Now let my uncle tell the story, and if you don't let me, you will know that you are bullying me. Niuniu said dissatisfiedly, with a crying voice in her voice.

"Niuniu, uncle will tell you. Chu Tianqi said and went to the Westinghouse.

As soon as she entered the West House, Niuniu handed a newspaper to Chu Tianqi and said, "Uncle, read this story to me, you see that there is a picture of an old grandfather on it." ”

Chu Tianqi took the newspaper, and a smell of medicinal herbs came to his face. He remembered that this was the newspaper that Liu Wentao wrapped in Cistanche.

According to the position pointed out by Niu Niu, Chu Tianqi read: "Dedication to the country with a good youth, passing on the torch and giving full play to the residual heat to repay the society - Comrade Xu Dazhuang, a special hero of the hidden front and deputy director of the Working Committee for the Care of the Next Generation." Comrade Xu Dazhuang is the ...... of our country's hidden front"

"Uncle, grandpa is awake. Niu Niu, who was sitting next to Chu Tianqi, shouted.

Children love to talk nonsense, Chu Tianqi thought in his heart, but he still looked at the place where his father was lying. When his eyes touched his father, he was stunned.