B027: Self-made
If Fang Zixuan had rejected Deng Fei'er's invitation to share resources, then the two roles of her and her younger brother might have been replaced by someone else. It's a pity that these four words are very correct in many cases.
Even if there is no Fang Zixuan sister and brother, Deng Fei'er will enter another kind of "planning" and is destined to become a revenant chess piece in Uncle Tang's layout. Until she died, she didn't know that she and her former best friend had fallen into Uncle Tang's calculations, and she still firmly believed that Fang Zixuan asked her to go to the rooftop of the music building that day, and took revenge on herself for her brother's affairs, and pushed her down like crazy.
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Wu Xiaowu listened to these experiences that ruined the three views, and his heart became more entangled, which has risen from the emotional entanglement of the two people to the attitude and values of the world.
At first, Deng Fei'er planned to only tell him a general outline, but considering his current identity, he mistakenly thought that Wu Xiaowu was not only a soul refiner, but also probably had the ability to know a person's past. Moreover, all of her actions were after the breakup, and she could tell her ex-boyfriend and her discernment, and she could feel a lot easier.
"Why do you have to do this?" Wu Xiaowu sat cross-legged across from her.
Deng Fei'er sighed: "Xiao Wu, men and women are different. The best time for a girl is the ten years between the ages of 20 and 30, and it is not worth it for me to spend all this ten years on further study, job hunting, and part-time work. I think I have brains, I have the ability, and I have good personal conditions, which is enough for me to bridge the gap between my ideals and reality. ”
Wu Xiaowu's expression showed dejection, "You haven't told me these words before, I can't tell the difference now, which is the most real you, the happy you in the past, and the one who speaks so bluntly now." ”
"It's not important, people are inherently multifaceted, in this world, some things only look at the original intention, and some things only look at the result. I like that your original intention is true, but my desire to change material conditions is also true. What's more, the original intention that more workplace and social people say is just the result of weighing the pros and cons and comprehensively calculating the benefits that can maximize the benefits, which is a kind of whitewashing. ”
Wu Xiaowu was so blocked that he couldn't speak, his mind was scattered, he didn't want to refute her, but he didn't want her to still have this idea even if she became a "ghost". "And what are you going to do in the future?"
Dunfeel stood up, looked at the virtual universe above, turned his back to him and said, "It's me who is sorry for you, but I didn't think you could forgive, or we start over." After all, you are too simple, you should have your own step-by-step study, career, future life plan, what happened in school before, is the best memory, but only people who live well have time to remember good. ”
Wu Xiaowu also stood up and walked behind her, completely different from the state of mind when he first entered the space-time sphere just now. He felt that the familiar and unfamiliar girl in front of him needed him to get acquainted again, and behind this strangeness, there was something bottomless that made him feel panicked.
"We are now in two worlds, there is no meeting at all, I don't want to deceive you with these ethereal feelings, pretending to be reluctant to give up my old feelings for you, I show you the most real side, I hope you can take me in and not be captured by the soul envoy, but it does not mean that I want to exchange for something;
If we don't know, then maybe I will please you and pretend to love you in exchange for something, but I know you, understand you, fail you and hurt you, and even at this moment, it is more like I see your kindness and beg you to take me in unconditionally, but it's not like this, I just said the most frank and honest thoughts, like an old friend......"
Wu Xiaowu covered his ears, "Don't say it!"
Deng Feier turned around and saw his childish appearance, as if he had returned to his high school days. She pulled down his left hand, "I'm telling the truth, can't we get along like friends......?
Wu Xiaowu drooped his face and raised his hand to cover her mouth, "Don't tell you, it's time for me to say it." Anyway, you said a lot of things in a twist and turn, just to let me take you in unconditionally, and you don't want to reconcile with me? I never knew before, but that's what you actually thought in your heart. You can use whatever is good or bad as a bargaining chip, what else do I have to say?"
"That'...... Then what do you want me to do?" Deng Fei'er thought to herself, I haven't seen her for a month or two, and Wu Xiaowu has really changed a lot.
"What else can I do, I can't help it. Before you split legs with Sun Zhi, I really found a hundred excuses for you, I think Sun Zhi is the culprit, relying on him Lao Tzu is a bit of a broken money, most of the responsibility for this matter is him, I can't help it before, I can't fight and fight, and I don't have his kind of fox friends and dogs to bully people, equipment and team problems, I don't have anything to do;
As soon as something happened, you blocked me directly, and finally asked about your new number, but I didn't say much, I just cared about you, and what happened to the result? Am I not angry that you give me the whole official set? I'm also very angry! Blame myself for my own pocket, blame myself for being angry and cheap, but I still want to see you, who knows that you will suddenly have an accident, who can blame you? You didn't do it yourself?"
Deng Fei'er turned her gaze away, "Yes, I did it myself, you are now a soul refiner, heh, it's really different." ”
"Don't be yin and yang, I'm different because of my special psionic ability, what about you? When you used to be in high school, you were actually better than other girls in all aspects, but you yourself are not satisfied, so many people take the normal route, what should you do, you just want to marry directly into a wealthy family for the rest of your life, to be honest, do you think this kind of life is really interesting?"
"It doesn't matter whether it's interesting or not, how much love and marriage are improvised, it's because there is no ideal life for people, so everyone will pursue and look forward to it, and only use all kinds of works of art to eulogize, in fact, it is anesthetic, it is self-deception. Only by living well can we talk about ideals, meaning, and value, and if you wake up every day and worry about rent, water and electricity, you will have no time to think about meaning!"
Wu Xiaowu sneered: "Isn't this how most people live? go to school, graduate, work, receive a salary, and then support their families, unless they have a special background, special money and special rights, otherwise they will do some bad things to make profits." Otherwise, how can you get rich? Is the life of an ordinary person so unbearable for you? You are not a descendant of a royal family or a declining nobleman, and you are drunk if you have to force yourself into the play. ”