The two of them went back and forth in the group, arguing with each other, asking a few embarrassing questions back and forth, and I couldn't explain it clearly for a while. I hesitated for a moment, and finally couldn't bear it anymore, and replied: "I'll wait until I go back to school to check how much has been deducted from the terminal, and I'll let you transfer it, and none of us owe anyone." The rest, it has nothing to do with you, I will make it clear to him privately. ”

After speaking, I also learned from Comrade Babao and quit the group chat.

I stood up and wanted to say that I would go to the toilet and call the brakes to explain, but I didn't expect the manager to come out of the manager's room at this time and slapped a thick stack of contracts on my desk: "This expedited contract will be registered and distributed to various departments as soon as possible, so as not to delay the progress of the follow-up process." With that, she hurried to the toilet.

I was in such a dilemma that I didn't dare to go to the toilet with the manager, nor did I dare to put the brakes on the shelf, which made him angry. Thinking that the manager would come back later, it would be miserable to see that I was chatting on my mobile phone, so I simply said to the brake that I was busy now, so I turned the phone over and put it on the table, and didn't look at it anymore.

"I'm not stupid. In your heart, he and I, how do you think, think about it and tell me. Half an hour later, I looked at my phone again, and the brake replied to me alone, only this sentence. I was so distraught that I shoved my phone to the very bottom of the file, not wanting to look at it.

I never imagined that I would one day find myself in such an awkward position, not only for the choice between the two of them, but also between my past and my present.

I used to think that in my life, there was no way to truly love and trust, and I used to think that I would be inferior and sensitive all my life. I was surrounded by high walls, layer upon layer, enclosing me in them. The layers of walls are like a labyrinth, and I can't escape, I can't escape. A few years ago, I was so myself, because of my weakness, and she hid her heart in the depths of the labyrinth, setting up one corridor after another to protect those insignificant emotions, like protecting an unspeakable secret.

If that's the case, I'll probably say to the brakes, stop, if you have to make me choose, then I don't want any of them, no, it's not that I don't want you, but I want to set you free. When you still have a choice, please, give up on me, find a more lovely girl, find a more beautiful girl, find a more perfect girl to like, to love, just like the name I gave you, just put the brakes on it, and leave my world backwards, okay?

But......

I finished sorting out all the contracts, hugged them in my arms, straightened my waist, shuttled through the cubicles, smiled and distributed them to various departments, bent down and handed over the pen, and asked the handler to sign for it.

In the past and now, I am finally two people, and the things I want are completely different, and the choices I make are bound to be very different.

As the sun set, I finally finished my day's work, had a sore back, and staggered out of the company. I had headphones in my ears and my phone in my phone waiting for the next train in the subway station.

Don't think about you anymore, don't love you anymore/Let time pass quietly/Erase the memories of both of us/For your name will never be mentioned again/No longer let sadness occupy my heart/Let it go with the wind, let it be traceless/All happiness and sorrow, all the past are gone/The thoughts and hopes in my heart will no longer be you/I don't want to bear to forget you anymore/I will wipe away the tears I accidentally dropped/And I will pretend that everything doesn't matter/Break all the love between you and me/Drive it out of my wounded heart again

I bowed my head and cut off the sad love song for a light and joyful song.

Nowadays, I'm not afraid of the cold, I'm not afraid of being lonely, I'm not afraid of showing my weak side, no matter how big the maze is, no matter how cold the maze is, I don't care, I won't choose to go around the wall, I'm going to climb the wall and cross the obstacles, I don't want to stand still and watch you go away, I want to run to you, rush into your arms without hesitation. I want to face my true self, I want to be restless and uneasy to jump and accelerate, I want to love, hate, hatred, and ignorance, I want to have mixed joys and sorrows in an ordinary life, I don't want to be a perfect virtual image, I don't want a cold life. I want my morning, get up with you, brush your teeth together, in front of the mirror, two people foaming, I want my night, I want you to light a night light alone, you read a book, and I lean on your shoulder and read another book.

I didn't choose you because I needed you, I chose you because I wanted you.

I quickly removed this insensible sentence from the dialog box. Thinking that boys are born with a sense of self-confidence that comes from nowhere, I simply threw the question back to him and wrote, "What do I think of you, don't you have any points in your heart? ”

When this sentence was issued, I realized that it was more explicit and numb than the sentence I originally thought in my heart. I didn't even care, staring at the dialog box for a long time, not pressing that to withdraw. I have no regrets in my life, and I don't need to withdraw it.

"Then why did you confess to him a few months ago?" his dialog box showed that he was typing for a long time before this sentence popped up.

I smiled, he was willing to ignore me in time, he was not angry, very good.

"Have you ever played a story game, even if you know that the end is badending, even if you haven't played it for a long time, and after a few years, thinking that the ending has not yet appeared, you are ready to sit in front of the game console, determined to finish the game. In fact, the final ending, for the player, is no longer important, the important thing is that it is over, everything is over. ”

He thought for a long time before he returned: "I haven't played games for a long time. ”

I was so angry that I almost vomited a mouthful of blood on the subway. I let go of my left hand holding the handrail, and if this is the case, I have already learned the magic of the subway, even if I brake suddenly, I may not be able to shake it.

So I grabbed my phone and pressed down the keyboard heavily, even though it was just a poor virtual keyboard: "Do you know that for girls, it is more important than the person you like to like yourself, and to let the person you like know that you once liked him? I've paid for this, at least before I graduate, let him know, right?" Originally, I didn't like to explain the original character, so I would probably turn around and leave directly, waving my hand without taking away a cloud, but when I encountered the brakes, it was like a chatterbox, and I had to pour beans into all the original situations and put them on the bright side. Probably, those who are close to Zhu are red and those who are close to ink are black, and I have been with Comrade Soy Sauce for a long time, and my ability to write WeChat essays has become stronger and stronger. One day, I will come to my door to thank her for the skill she has added to me.

"Then he knows, how it feels. ”

The simple text actually felt full of vinegar, and I raised the corners of my mouth and continued typing.

"I don't think it's better to not know, it's just a blatant execution, and it's not worth it at all. Have you ever looked back and seen a picture of yourself when you killed Matt in the mainstream way? your face is flushed, life is worse than death, that's how you feel. "I casually found a photo of myself sticking a burgundy wig and sent it to the brakes, in fact, it is not a non-mainstream, at most it is a local washing, cutting and blowing. I took a few looks, my little face was bulging, and I felt that it looked a little cute, otherwise I wouldn't have exposed myself and sent it to him.

"I've never been non-mainstream. "We have a generation gap. By the way, why didn't you call me senior recently, I miss it so much. ”

"You're a year older than me, okay, can you not rely on the old and sell the old?" I clenched my fist on the subway, trying to hit someone.

"I don't. He changed the subject and tirelessly asked me, "Then why are you lying to me?"

"I didn't lie to you," I explained with a sweaty palm, "I lost my phone, and I really didn't see any news about the paper. The matter of mirin is still soy sauce and a lot of mouths, and I was told afterwards. After that, how Wei Lin got Babao's WeChat was all obtained by himself, and it had nothing to do with me. ”

"You know, what are the key elements of information. If timeliness is removed, the information loses its quality. You say, 'Are you sorry for me?'" He replied to me immediately.

He was angry with me and hid it from him, and I was dissatisfied with him because of the summer vacation and deliberately snubbed him for a few hours. It's just that now it's a loss, and it hasn't happened yet, and when he makes any mistakes, I'll take it out and get angry with him.

"Yes, yes, I'm sorry for you, I don't know how to make up for it? If you have anything to say, just say it, I've lost my hair recently, don't make me think of baldness, then you have to fall in love with a nun." ”

"Hahaha. Finally pushing aside the dark clouds and seeing the bright moon, he replied to me with a few laughing expressions, "You really don't have anything else?"

"No, no, of course not, a thousand percent of the none. You also saw it, he said that he hadn't even changed my WeChat notes, and he didn't know where I fell for a long time, and the two of us were out of reach, impossible. ”

"What about us?"

"It's out of reach with others, but it's natural to be with you. I don't want anyone else, just because I really like it, I try to fall in love with you. I typed the last word wrong, but I didn't notice it, and it just swished out.

"I haven't seen you for a few days, have you become bolder?" he immediately replied to my child's fierce expression, "Wait for me to come back and clean you up." ”

"Come on, come on, I'm still afraid that you won't make it, it's a big deal, pull Benny and me to block the gun's eye together. I replied with a tongue-sticking expression. When the subway arrived, I got off the train with the crowd, swiped the card to leave the station, and it was really inconvenient to walk and type, so I simply initiated a voice with him.

"Don't make a fuss, stay safe. He replied to me, softly, softly, "Goodbye, goodbye." ”

"Goodbye never again, broken heart floating on the seashore. I sang, it was a love song I had heard when I was a freshman.

"I don't care if you're from the abyss, and I don't care about the scales on your body. He also sang.

I clutched my new phone to my chest, stood at the exit of the station, and laughed silly.

- In reality, I have my attachment to you.