Chapter 5: Old Love Letters
In the morning class, Bei Changan still didn't follow the teacher's train of thought.
He still reviewed at his own pace, and had already made standard answers to all the known exam questions, leaving only one Chinese composition.
The main reason is that the question of composition is too variable and not easy to grasp.
Sometimes, even if you write well, you may not get a perfect score of 100%, because the grading teacher usually brings in some of his own subjective opinions when grading.
So, even if you speak amazingly and write very well, but it doesn't match the teacher's taste, it's in vain.
After thinking about it again and again, Don't Chang'an finally decided to put his mind on science and mathematics first, and put other subjects aside for now.
A morning is not a long time, but it is not a short time.
Soon, at 11:45, school ended at noon.
The students walked out of the classroom one after another, ready to go to lunch, and only a few were still studying.
Don't Chang'an left in a hurry, he looked at the time and felt that it was enough.
So, I decided to sort out these mechanical formulas at hand first, and then go home for dinner.
βF=KXβ¦β¦ X is the elongation ......"
Bei Chang'an involuntarily read out the voice as he wrote.
Probably because of his concentration so much, he didn't even notice that there was already a person standing next to him at this time, until she spoke.
"Don't Chang'an, when will you hand in your three-mold rolls?"
Don't Chang'an stopped writing, was stunned for a moment, and then looked up at her.
It's a girl.
Is it Tang Wan?!
The girl's name is Tang Wan, and she is the representative of the English class in the class, and she is also the girl who Bei Chang'an has had a crush on for three years.
When Bei Changan was a freshman in high school, he once wrote a love letter of 10,000 words for her.
But sadly, until the end of the college entrance examination, Bei Chang'an did not give it to Tang Wan.
There are two reasons for this.
First, at that time, due to the failure of the college entrance examination, no matter what he did, he was not decisive and confident enough, especially when facing the girl he had been secretly in love with for a long time.
He always felt that he was not qualified for this.
Second, at that time, there were too many boys who pursued Tang Wan, both in the class and in the school, and among them, Chen Zhenchuan in their class was the most crazy.
Chen Zhenchuan's family is very rich and is in the building materials business.
He gives people the impression of being a cynical playboy at school, and he is not bad-looking, so he always feels good about himself.
At that time, Bei Chang'an was very self-aware, and at that time, he couldn't compare to others in terms of any conditions.
So in the end, this crush ended with Bei Chang'an's unilateral abandonment.
In the following years, Bei Changan and Tang Wan never had anything to do with each other, at most they just chatted a few innocuous words in the QQ group of the class.
For Tang Wan, Don't Chang'an can be said to understand quite well.
In his impression, after Tang Wan finished the college entrance examination, she went to Renmin University in Yenching to study information management.
This major is a rare science major in the People's Republic of China, which is specially approved by the Ministry of Education, and it is very good in terms of teaching quality and employment prospects after graduation.
In the four years of the National People's Congress, Tang Wan's life was also smooth, and her grades were among the best, so on the eve of graduation, she easily won the opportunity to go to the United States for graduate school.
In the two years in the United States, Tang Wan successfully graduated with the first place in her major and directly chose to stay abroad.
At this point, Bei Chang'an's contact with her has become less and less, until today.
Regarding Tang Wan's emotional affairs, Bei Changan asked her tentatively a few times, but the answers she got every time were the same.
It's just four words, and it's not suitable.
Don't Chang'an always believe this answer.
β¦β¦
Right now, this girl who used to have a crush on her has appeared in front of her again, even if she is calm, her heart will inevitably move.
He looked at her and found that she was still so beautiful, as her name suggests, gentle and moving, and beautiful.
No matter what era you put in, you are all beautiful.
Especially her ponytail, which is tied low, is very in line with her temperament.
"What are you looking at? Is there something on my face?" Tang Wan held a stack of English test papers and looked at Bei Changan like a monster.
"Oh no, I'm thinking...... What kind of volume?" Don't Chang'an reacted, realized his presumptuousness, and after retracting his gaze, he made up a reason.
"Three-mode English papers, in class the day before yesterday, didn't the teacher say to do it again?"
"Oh......" Don't nod her head, looked at the test papers in her hand, and asked, "Just one of me, right?"
"Yes, I'm waiting for you, when can you give it to me?"
Tang Wan smiled, revealing two shallow dimples, and stood in place waiting for Bei Chang'an's reply.
"To you in the afternoon. β
"Well, before the second self-study class in the afternoon. β
"Okay. β
After arriving home, Bei Changan hurriedly ate lunch, and then returned to his room.
He easily found the love letter he wrote to Tang Wan back then.
This courtship letter was written by Bei Chang'an as early as his first year of high school, but he couldn't send it out until his junior year of high school, and was finally burned by Bei Chang'an before going to college.
Time has passed, and when Don't Chang'an saw it again, I felt infinite emotion in my heart, and I couldn't calm down for a long time.
But at the same time, he was also aware of a problem.
That is, it was really wise that he didn't give this letter to Tang Wan back then.
Looking at the entire love letter, the number of words is more than 10,000 words, and it takes about 20 pages of manuscript paper.
But almost two-thirds of them were not written by Bei Chang'an himself.
Most of them come from popular songs and ancient poems, and it is not uncommon for words to be unmeaningful.
Don't Changan looked at it, he couldn't help but laugh secretly, he suddenly felt that he was so naΓ―ve in high school, and after reading what he wrote, he didn't even understand what it meant.
But there is a sentence that he quotes very well, and even now, it should be considered the finishing touch.
"Once the sea was difficult to water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud. β
The meaning of this poem, with the literary level of Bei Chang'an at that time, he didn't know what it contained, he just thought the poem was good, and there was a sense of vicissitudes and desolation when he read it, so he added the poem to the end.
Today, he finally understands the meaning of this poem, and how much it fits his mood at that time.
"I have seen the sea, and the water on the other side is not worth mentioning, but apart from Wushan, the clouds on the other side are dwarfed. β
And when I meet you, other people, I have no intention of falling in love again.
Three years of youth, a soft spot.
The passage of time has precipitated the best memories of his life.
Word by word, page by page.
Seeing the end, Bei Changan smiled bitterly, and the long-dormant thoughts and love in his heart finally burst out in an instant.
Bei Changan suddenly realized that the past ten years have not erased his love for Tang Wan.
Back then, he didn't get his wish, and he didn't even have the opportunity to say his love.
So this time, again, he was willing to tell her all this, even if she refused.