I never thought that I would finish this conversation with Mirinu on the rooftop, just as I never thought that I would use the phone to complete my first confession while being angry with someone. I regret it, I want to be the trembling mussel shell spirit again, sink to the bottom of the cold river, fall into the black oppressive aquatic plants, the yellow light on the surface of the water, the soft clouds in the sky, but a distant fairy tale.

The wind blew and swept between us a tiny cyclone.

When did you start to dare not let go of love? I faced the taste of the show, and suddenly realized that it was the moment when I understood that love was going to pull another person into your broken life, and my family life was not very harmonious, which made me look forward to marriage.

No matter how much I ignore it, no matter how much I try to cover it up, no matter how much I embellish it, I can't erase the imprint that my family has carved on me. Physically, or psychologically, I am just an ordinary but ordinary bean sprout that came out of a small citizen's house, not so beautiful, not so temperamental, not so rich, not so talented, unable to go to the kitchen, and unable to ascend to the elegant hall. I even sometimes scratch my ears and cheeks jealously because the person I like is close to another woman who is better than me, sulking and unreasonable with him, and sometimes I even have doubts because the person I like has snubbed me a little, and I feel that he doesn't like me anymore. Such sensitive, inferior, bad-tempered, and pretended high girls are like the aquatic plants at the bottom of the river, wet and cold, while those girls who are well-born and beautiful are as if they have been blessed by the sun goddess, smiling and smiling, and making every move, dry and full of vitality.

If I were a normal boy, I would not hesitate to choose a beautiful and sunny girl, like a moth pounced on the warm orange light, and I couldn't control myself.

At that time, I decisively broke up with my first love, hoping that he could find a girl who was lovelier and more sunny than me, to care for him and love him normally. Because I loved him enough at that time, I chose to leave a good memory before tearing each other's faces, say goodbye to him calmly, and wish him a promising future, a smooth future, find the rose that belongs to me, and join hands with white heads.

Having said that, for a long time, I couldn't get out of it, and it was the shadow of me who took the initiative to break up with my first love. I'm afraid that one day, I will pursue someone because I like him enough, and leave him because I love him enough, this kind of love is a deeper hurt, slashing at each other's hearts and bones, and blood is dripping.

But I am a living person, and if someone treats me well, I will like him, and I will want to catch up with his distant back in small steps, take his hand, and disappear with him on the horizon. This insignificant crush is a condiment in my ordinary life, and I can't show it to you as a laughing stock. My only mistake was to dig up my thoughts, which had been buried deep in the ground, and use them as weapons to attack another girl who liked him.

Two of us future white-collar workers in formal clothes stood on the rooftop, looking at each other speechlessly. I hung my head, like a newcomer in the workplace who had been caught and reprimanded by the leader.

"What are you going to say to me. I asked weakly.

"I wanted to call you back that day, but I still thought it would be more sincere to tell you in person. "He was about two meters away from me, and he put his hands in front of him for a while, put them back in his pants pockets, and then pulled them out and put them behind his back, so it turned out that I was not the only one nervous on this rooftop.

"Say it. ”

"I don't know how to say it. He scratched his head. He has always been a sharp-tongued person who dares to speak and do, but at this moment, he is cringing as if he is a different person.

"Then forget about it. "I turned around and wanted to leave.

"Suppose I tell you now that I accept your confession, will you be with me?"

I looked up, looked at him in surprise, and without hesitating for a second, blurted out, "No." ”

"You see," he smiled, spreading his hands, "the odds of me agreeing and rejecting you are fifty percent to fifty percent." You only thought about completing the confession, but you didn't think about what you would face after the confession. ”

"I was wrong. I replied blankly.

If it weren't for Perry who made me unable to step down in public, I wouldn't have done such a stupid thing that hurt each other's feelings. However, as a girl who also liked him, I also want to protect Perry, and the truth of the matter will rot in my stomach, let him think that I am the girl who is not sensible, after all, this is in line with my indecisive personality.

"No, you're not wrong, it's me who is wrong, I shouldn't have let you be wrong. He hurriedly said: "I told you that when I was a child, I raised a little golden retriever called Little Whirlwind, and I played with Little Whirlwind every day, ate together, and slept together. But one day, the little whirlwind suddenly left me, and I searched for a long, long time in the community garden, 'Little whirlwind-little whirlwind-where are you?' I called all afternoon, but I couldn't find him, ha, the neighbors probably thought I was crazy...... I searched until sunset, when I sat alone by the fountain and cried for a long, long time, and my little whirlwind was lost, and I never saw him again, and which bad guy had kidnapped my little whirlwind. ”

I looked at the brightly dressed flavor in front of me, and I actually felt a little distressed.

"Since then, I haven't had a pet again, because every parting is fatal for me. In the same way, because of the departure of the little whirlwind, I cherish every moment with others more, and I am willing to make friends sincerely, whether it is a boy or a girl, it is the same for me. I just hope that every moment they spend with me can feel my real and warm emotions, even if we are scattered all over the world in the future, the memories I leave behind are all good, and that is enough. ”

From beginning to end, I knew very well that Wei Lin had never liked me, but when he told me the reason so openly, I felt guilty for my superficiality. He didn't realize that his rich feelings were extremely extravagant for someone who had not been cared for enough, and that person would treasure this kind of care in the depths of his heart as a treasure, and that he only knew how to care for others, but he didn't know how to love others, and he didn't find out what it was like to be loved—because he had always been bathed in love. Maybe one day in the future, he will find out that many girls have thrown olive branches to him, but I can guarantee that he is still confused.

"Won't you feel tired from doing this 'central air conditioning'?" I asked.

"I'll tell you the truth, I had a favorite in college, but I haven't been able to take the first step, and she doesn't think she's the special one anyway. Hehe, she doesn't know, it's good, so I'm relaxed. When I think that we might part ways and break up hastily after graduation, or that we are tired of each other and speak ill of each other, I can't breathe in my heart. I don't want to build my future on the beautiful love like bubbles in the ivory tower, I want to enter the real society, I want to go into the real life, find the person who is willing to grow old with me, and face the boring firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea together. At the last moment of my life, I wanted to hold her hand, just as we were in love, and say to her, I have you enough in my life. ”

"Wow, that's so touching, I'm going to cry. I smiled and took my palm to fan my eyelashes with three layers of mascara, for fear that my tears would make my eyelashes faint, and my eyes were black like a panda.

He took a pack of napkins from his briefcase and handed it to me, and I sneered, "Don't be so nice to me anymore." ”

"I'm graduating anyway. His sentence was strangely abrupt, and there was no second half.

"Anyway, I'm going to graduate, you just let me die, you say, haven't you liked me even for a minute or a second. ”

This fool actually repeated my words seriously: "I'm sorry, I didn't like you even for a minute or a second." ”

I'm sorry, I didn't like you even for a minute.

Haven't liked you.

Even if it's a minute or a second.

I'm sorry.

It doesn't matter. I already knew.

It's just that I was so stupid that I thought he would comfort me and say that he liked me for a second.

"Thank you. I covered my eyes with a tissue, "Ahhhh Then he rushed to the iron door and disappeared into the stairwell.

I returned to the dormitory in despair, and the soy sauce that was watching the video poked its head out of its position, and just as I wanted to speak, I saw that most of my makeup had been removed, so I shrank back. It was Babao, who rushed out, grabbed my hand, and his face was full of excitement: "How is it, what did he say?"

He said, I'm sorry, I didn't like you even for a minute.

I distinctly heard a whine in my throat, and quickly broke free of Babao's hand, returned to my place, picked up the cup and drank half a glass of water.

"I'm so hot in this dress, I'm so thirsty. I turned around, still with a smiling face, no flaws.

Hachipo seemed to want to ask something, but was frightened by the soy sauce's knife-like eyes and swallowed back into his stomach.

"Oh, it's rare for the three of us to be in the dormitory together, what should we do at night?" Soy sauce pretended to be happy, trying to liven up the atmosphere.

I glanced at Eight Treasures, and according to the lines that had been planned the other day, Eight Treasures proposed, "I want to go to the bar!

"Huh, bar?" Soy Sauce looked at me and nodded, "Okay, I've been here for four years, and I haven't been to a bar, and I want to go too." ”

"Actually, I want to go to gay more. Babao looked up to the sky and sighed.

"Where are you looking for gay?" I walked over to Babo and poked her with my arm, telling her not to get sidetracked.

"Didn't you say that mirind is gay?" Hakpo pouted and asked the soy sauce.

"He's not. My smile disappeared from my face, and Soy Sauce took my hand, only to find that my hand was cold, with obvious adrenal overproduction, and I wanted to flee.

"That's hooking up with so many women, scumbag!" Babao snorted.

I shook my head.

He's fine.

I hope that one day, he will be able to get his wish.

Wishing him happiness.