"Do you believe in the past and present lives?" Seeing that Lu Liangren was deep in thought, the monk suddenly changed the topic.

Lu Liangren came back to his senses and nodded, "I believe it." ”

Monk Kewu smiled: "Even the basic beliefs are different, I really don't know how you get along on weekdays." ”

Lu Liangren knew who he was talking about, "What do you want to say?"

Monk Kewu said: "Let me tell you a story, there is a man and a woman, in the first life, the man poisoned the woman, in the second life, the man caused the woman to have her hands cut off, and in the third life, the man still wanted to pester the woman, and the woman killed him. ”

Lu Liangren's face was obviously pale, and she looked at Monk Kewu fixedly: "This is not a Buddhist story. ”

Monk Kewu nodded: "I don't know which miscellaneous book I saw it, just say it casually, you just listen to it with your ears, don't take it to heart." ”

At this time, the two little novices who were digging bamboo shoots outside ran in happily, if there were other guests, they would not be so rude, but in the face of Lu Liangren, they were still very relaxed.

"Lu Tanyue, we dug up a lot of bamboo shoots today, is it okay to fry fungus with bamboo shoots?"

Lu Liangren looked at their innocent smiling faces, and suddenly felt ashamed of herself, now she can no longer get along with these children on an equal footing.

"No, I still have something to do, I'll go first. ”

Flee.

The two little novices looked at each other, and shouted at the Kewu monk with some grievances, "Master." ”

Monk Kewu looked at the two of them, but his thoughts seemed to have drifted far away.

Once upon a time, the person sitting at this table was Bian Baixian, and it was Lu Liangren and the two little novices who dug bamboo shoots.

Monk Kewu's slender fingers picked up the teapot and filled the teacup in front of him again.

"So, what's good about growing up. ”

……

As soon as he got off Jiujing Mountain, Lu Liangren saw the car under the mountain and the man in the driver's seat, the shade of the trees poured on his face, shrouded in a layer of tranquility, like an angel walking in the backlight, holy and empty.

"Let's talk. Zhang Yixing said.

"Good. Lu Liangren nodded.

Got in the car and drove to a café in the city, the two went in and chose a window position, each ordered a cup of coffee, saying that they wanted to talk, but neither of them spoke first.

In the end, it was the waiter who brought the coffee to break the silence.

"When I was a child, I was not in good health, I didn't go to school, and I was very envious when I watched other children play outside, but I could only be locked up at home. Listening to them complain about how hard it is to go to school, how strict the teachers are, and how difficult it is to write homework, I think they are really excessive, and they don't know how to cherish things that others can't envy. ”

"For as long as I can remember, the role of dad has not appeared in my life, and my mom rarely mentions him to me. It wasn't until the year of the successful operation that my mother took me to Yunhai City to visit the prison that I learned that my father was a criminal and was sentenced to life imprisonment. On the way back, I asked my mom what he had sinned, and my mom said he wasn't guilty. I was young at the time, and I really thought it was a misjudgment by the court, so I wanted to read a good book, become a barrister, and overturn the case for him. ”

"My mother died when I was thirteen, I was adopted by my stepfather and left China at the age of fifteen, and I began to study law in the United States at the age of eighteen, the same year my father died. Zhang Yixing said this, paused, and then continued: "In the advanced stage of liver cancer, he gave up treatment by himself, maybe for him, life imprisonment is not as comfortable as death." ”

"I rushed back to see him one last time, and I learned the truth about that year. He said that he had dealt with so many children, and the one he hated the most when he was young was you, because if it weren't for you, he wouldn't have been caught. But the one who felt the most guilty when I was old was also you, and the day you ran away was the day I had a bone marrow transplant, and he was very upset and confused, and he couldn't suppress his anger for a while, so he would do that kind of thing. ”

Zhang Yixing raised his head and looked at Lu Liangren cautiously: "In the past, people often came to my house to smash things and beat people, and every time my mother would protect me in her arms, but she was beaten all over her body by those people. I asked her to call the police, but she refused, saying that they were all creditors and that she should have been beaten twice. My dad was in prison for more than ten years, and when he died, he was in his forties, but he looked like he was in his sixties. I found the accomplices who committed the crime with him back then, and used my strength to find the children who were not sent back to their biological parents, and gave each of them a large sum of money, so that they could have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of their lives. ”

Zhang Yixing pursed his mouth, and something seemed to be flashing in his eyes, "Beloved, our family has been punished for the mistakes of the year, and I have tried my best to make up for what I can, can you forgive them?"

Lu Liangren did not speak.

"You may not know, my mother went to see you before, she took me to Yunhai City to visit my father, left me alone in the hotel, went out by myself for several hours, and came back with red eyes. During that visit, she had a heated argument with my father, and I didn't contact my father for two years. Since then, she has often come to see you, but she doesn't dare to come closer, and every time she looks from afar, just to know if you're doing well. My dad too, at the last moment he muttered sorry until the end of his life. ”

"Whether it's my father or mother, they think about you before they die, they know they are sorry for you, but they don't dare to ask for your forgiveness, so only I, the son, do it for them. Zhang Yixing said and grabbed one of Lu Liangren's hands, his palm trembled slightly, and his expression was resolute and pious, "I know that you are not short of money, and the family of the person who adopted you is very rich." But you don't live happily, so I want you to be happy, I am older than Bian Baixian, older than Jin Zhong, and I want you to be happy more than anyone else in this world!"

Lu Liangren was overwhelmed by a strong emotion for a moment, the feeling was thick and complex, sweet and sour, and there was any taste.

It's been a long time, a long time.

Lu Liangren: "Zhang Yixing, what your mother said is right, your father is not guilty." ”

Zhang Yixing looked up in shock.

Lu Liangren said every word with difficulty, but he still tried to say: "No matter what he does, but to you, he is not guilty." ”

"You don't have to feel guilty, you don't have to blame yourself, you don't have to carry any psychological baggage. ”

"But I will never forgive your father in my life, he is my eternal nightmare, so I'm sorry I can't grant your request. ”

Lu Liangren felt that there were droplets of water, and they smashed on the back of her hand drop by drop.

"Love, I'm not reconciled, I'm really unwilling to ......"