Although the confused teenager has become a young man, the confusion in his heart is released one by one with the growth of what he has seen and heard, and he is reborn one by one with the growth of what he has seen and heard. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Chu Feng knew that he was just an ordinary person, and he couldn't be as resolute and decisive as those so-called heroes, but Chu Feng really didn't have the slightest regret.

At least, I still live like a person, obsessively distinguishing between what is right and what is wrong, worrying and contradictory, struggling to feel life in pain, but never giving up hope to move forward.

At least I wasn't a blindfolded donkey, just happily circling around the stone mill, and still self-righteously thinking that I had walked thousands of miles.

"Time flies. Chu Feng sighed softly.

"Brother Xi Wu will ...... Do you resent me?" Xin Nangui looked directly into Chu Feng's eyes and asked softly.

Chu Feng shook his head slowly, with some pity in his expression, and said with some pain: "You have resented yourself enough......"

Chu Feng was halfway through speaking, but his voice gradually became smaller, so that there was nothing.

Because he felt like he was deceiving himself.

Do you really not resent Xin Nangui?

Even Chu Feng himself couldn't say this, but when he saw the pain in Xin Nangui's eyes, he really couldn't bear to use words to hurt a person who was already in pain.

After all, this child, he used to be extremely familiar, he used to watch this child grow up, even now this child has changed completely unexpectedly, he still unconsciously looks at them together.

"Brother Xi Wu, thank you. Xin Nangui took a slight sip of wine and continued, "After I did something like that once, I will no longer be able to live in peace. That's the way it works...... It's cruel, it's because I'm afraid, I'm really scared...... They killed the woman, gave the child into my hands, and I broke the child's neck with my own hands...... Only then will they believe me......"

Xin Nangui lowered his head, and the hands on his knees suddenly clenched the hem of the robe, and his body trembled violently, as if he remembered some nightmare, and he sank into it, and it was difficult to get relief.

Xin Nangui trembled for a long time before he raised his head, his expression revealed a trace of exhaustion, and he said weakly and haggardly: "So...... I will not use such cruel methods to kill other people later, I will never forget, every time after the victory, I can never forget that the girl was so lively and lovely one moment ago, and the next moment I just gently pushed her neck with my thumb, and I heard the sound of broken bones, and that life was like this...... Gone, life ...... It's so fragile, it's frighteningly fragile. ”

Xin Nangui lowered his head again and sobbed in a low voice: "I want to forget this damn nightmare...... But this nightmare lingered no matter what, and it resurfaced again and again in my dreams, and I could only paralyze myself by repeatedly using it on those who damned it. Gradually, I was really numb, and I was even determined to kill the next target, but at this time, the master died. ”

Xin Nangui wiped his tears and showed an embarrassing smile, the meaning of that smile was so much that Chu Feng could not understand, but he felt that the smile was really uncomfortable, he pursed his lips silently, and still did not speak, just like the meeting in Luoyang City two months ago, Xin Nangui said, Chu Feng listened.

"Brother Xi Wu should have guessed that night, one of the people on the mountain was my master. Xin Nangui smiled with difficulty, his right hand twitched slightly uncontrollably for a moment, but he immediately sighed softly before he said, "Brother Xi Wu, I really hated you at the beginning, hated your ruthlessness, hated your determination. I told the master what you told us, but I told him that you didn't threaten and didn't need to care, and I really didn't expect that you would kill the master. ”

"That night, I stood in the distance and watched you fight, watched you fight, and then watched the master die. The corners of Xin Nangui's mouth raised slightly, and his eyes were full of self-deprecation, "You don't know how remorseful I was at that time, how much I regretted that I didn't have a chance to kill you with a sword on the spot, but I still had to pretend to be a righteous person, pretend to be righteous, if I killed you with a sword, so many things wouldn't have happened, master...... He won't die either. ”

Chu Feng was silent, then he picked up the wine jug, poured a full glass, got up and walked to the pavilion, and silently spilled a cup, this cup, to Sun Miao under the nine springs.

Sun Miao has never been a person with an excessive sense of justice, but he has never been a person who has no concept of right and wrong, and the person who can make friends with his master Chen Han has always adhered to an obsession in his heart.

So he could realize that Sun Miao's heart was probably full of contradictions and pain from beginning to end, just like he is now.

Chu Feng returned to his seat, sat down, did not speak, and continued to listen to Xin Nangui's monologue.

Xin Nangui looked at Chu Feng, laughed, and said, "Brother Xi Wu, I don't hate you now, really, I don't hate you at all." The reason why the master would get involved in this matter against his original intention was because of me. I wanted to become stronger, and I didn't want to put my life in the hands of anyone else, which is something I will never forget for the rest of my life, so I agreed to it, because the owner promised me that after the deed was done, he would pass on the true secret to me. When the master found out about this, I had already killed someone...... I was blinded by interests, the master couldn't change the reality, he couldn't change my stubborn thoughts, and the owner thought that he wanted to tell Lin Hui and Dong Nan about my secret, and they knew that it was coercion, and the master knew that I only had a few friends, and the master didn't want me to be isolated, so ...... He just joined the matter, for my ...... He had endured too much undeserved suffering. ”

Chu Feng was stunned for a moment, and he was immediately silent.

Sun Miao is not ignorant of right and wrong, but like coral, because of the relationship between relatives and distances, so life has a different value, even if Sun Miao once said that every life is average in his eyes, but Sun Miao is not a saint after all, he can do it to strangers, treat them equally, but he can't do it to the people around him.

Sun Miao once did not hesitate to humiliate himself in order to save people, and that was because he could bear such humiliation.

But Sun Miao loves Xin Nangui and loves this disciple of his, so even such a small threat can make Sun Miao conform - perhaps, Sun Miao probably has the idea that even if I don't do it, someone else will do it.

"In fact, the master never killed an innocent person from beginning to end, he couldn't do it...... He killed only some of the damned ones. Xin Nangui's voice was very soft, as light as the wind blowing.

Chu Feng sighed silently, powerless to stop the development of the situation, and had no choice but to be alone.

But...... But the situation at that time will not change because of this.

"But the master died after all, and he died on my behalf. Just like my mother, like my father, they all died because of my selfishness, because of my willfulness. Xin Nangui no longer faced Chu Feng, but stood up and stood on the edge of the cliff, half-leaning on the pavilion pillar, leaving only a lonely and sparse back for Chu Feng, looking extremely thin and desolate.

"Remember the story I told you?" said Sinnangui, "I swore to repay those who were kind to me with this life. But I really didn't expect that I would be the one who killed my master in the end. Obviously, such a long time has passed, and I have experienced so many things, but I haven't even grown at all, no matter how formal my mouth is, no matter how strict my words are, I am just deceiving others and deceiving myself. The people I really care about, in fact, from beginning to end, are just me, and I don't care about anyone but myself. ”

Chu Feng's throat squirmed slightly, he wanted to comfort Xin Nangui, but he didn't know how to comfort Xin Nangui.

Because he couldn't say "It's okay", because the people who were qualified to say something like it didn't matter were actually dead, whether it was Bao'er or Sun Miao, they couldn't say it.

Bao'er is innocent, so probably even if Bao'er can say it, she won't say it.

Just like Chu Feng would not say to a person who maliciously wants to kill him, it's okay, you can kill him casually.

But Sun Miao probably won't care, right?

Chu Feng laughed self-deprecatingly, dying, maybe it was a relief, at least he would not struggle in a dilemma again. However, no matter how hard it is, you still have to live, because there is always hope in life.

"So when I saw you in Luoyang City, I didn't hate you at all. Xin Nangui turned around slightly, looked at Chu Feng, and his expression was very sincere, "Brother Xi Wu, what you did is what we all think is right, so I don't hate you, I don't hate you at all." The person who really deserves to be resented is actually myself. ”

Chu Feng took a deep breath and looked at Xin Nangui.

Xin Nangui suddenly took out a sword, a very sharp sword, reflecting the layers of water outside the pavilion.

Xin Nangui handed the sword to Chu Feng, and then he grinned and said, "Actually, I've always wanted to do this, but I'm scared, and I can't be ruthless." So Brother Xi Wu, please, kill me, thank you. ”

The mountain wind was howling, and there was a dead silence in the pavilion.

Chu Feng looked at the tip of the sword, looking at the light circulating on the blade, he slowly took the sword and held it in his hand.

The hilt of the sword was warm, without a hint of chill, Chu Feng looked at the sword body, and two pairs of bright eyes were reflected in the sword body.

Chu Feng sighed slightly, and he closed his eyes.

Then there was a cold light, and the hot bright red liquid splashed all over the floor of the gazebo.

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