Chapter 194: Picking Ming (4)
Ran Ruoye's eyes had returned to their usual clarity at this moment, and after Aunt Fan left, she looked at Zuo Ziyi, and her tone became more and more alienated: "I'm sorry!"
The poked Zuo Ziyi's heart hurt fiercely!
"You can also see that no matter what the situation was at the time, it will always be an indelible wound in my heart, and I actually want not to care about this thing, when I was in the hospital, I made up my mind that as long as I could stand up, I would try to stand by your side bravely. You are good to me. I am not a person who suffers from gains and losses, but in fact your behavior has made me such a person, I will guess where you have been, what you are doing, whether you are in danger! You always leave so unexpectedly, and come back unexpectedly, and all I can do is wait in the same place! You have been so kind to me in front of me, but when I have just adjusted to your number, you leave again, and there is no news, I ......" Ran Ruoye originally just wanted to calmly explain what she thought in her heart, but the more she talked about it, the more excited she became, she suddenly choked in her throat, and two lines of clear tears slid down her cheeks and into the corners of her mouth.
She raised her right hand and wiped it casually, "I'm not clean anymore, I shouldn't have wanted to be with you who exist like a god." But every time I tell myself, when I leave, those words of you, the things you do for me, are repeated over and over again in my mind like a movie!"
Ran Ruoye's words, which had become higher because of excitement, gradually became smaller because of tears. Zuo Ziyi wanted to wipe away her tears, she stretched out her hand to block him, took out the tissue on the table, wiped it vigorously a few times, and continued: "I believe you also know that I haven't received much love since I was a child, so your kindness to me makes me unable to extricate myself." Even though I always tell myself that I don't deserve you, but you always tell me with your actions that you don't care, and then you disappear, and since you can't give me security, why do you want to provoke me, why?
Ran Ruoye's voice became louder again, "I'm not a crying person, but since I met you, I have become unaware of myself." I hate me like this, why?why?????," Ran Ruoye said more and more tears flowed unstoppably, and gradually seemed to be vented, and her voice also lowered.
Zuo Ziyi wrapped his long arms and pressed her in his arms, and his voice was hoarse: "I'm sorry! Ruoruo! I'm sorry!"
Ran Ruoye wanted to struggle to sit up straight, but Zuo Ziyi didn't let go, and with the repeated excuse of sorry, Ran Ruoye cried even more.
Zuo Ziyi just stood and hugged Ran Ruoye, who was sitting, and let her cry, I don't know how long it took, she finally turned from crying to sobbing.
After a long time, the sobbing sound became smaller and smaller, Ran Ruoye straightened up, this time Zuo Ziyi did not let go, looking at her red and swollen eyes, he squatted down, his gaze was parallel to her, and he stared for a long time, he stretched out his hands, held her red cheeks, and gently kissed her eyelids, he could clearly feel that her eyelashes were shaking abnormally because of his touch, and it took him a few seconds before he left.
"Ruoruo!" his palms were still on her face, and the thumbs of both hands rubbed his eyes again: "I'm distressed!"