Regarding the update, it is necessary to explain

Two days ago, I posted a single chapter and said that it would be updated in two days.,But it's not updated.,It's not just to say empty words.,Lie to everyone.,It's really a blockage of ideas.,I don't know how to write.。

It's also strange to say, obviously the draft content has been written (I basically write the general content first and then improve the chapters every time), but every time I want to write it completely, I just don't know how to write the beginning, and I still can't write it down countless times.

It may be that I haven't written for a long time, or it may be for other reasons, I've always been stuck in the past two days, and the general content is almost written, but I just can't write it at the beginning of the chapter.

To be honest, it's not a lie, it's not a fool, I have a general picture in my head, but I really just don't know how to start, I always feel dissatisfied with it, I can't write it, and I don't know if you can understand this kind of entanglement?

Therefore, the update still has to be postponed for a while, and I will clear my mind and cross this small hurdle.

In addition, in order to prove that it is not empty words, and it is not a lie to everyone, I will upload the approximate chapter content written below, so that everyone can see it and prove it, which can be regarded as an advance preview of the 156th chapter to be updated next.

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Li Zheng asked the crew for leave, and then took Gao Yala, went to every place where he grew up as a child, and then went to his parents' cemetery to tell Gao Yala about the death of his parents and the reason for his insistence. Relive the emotions of a lifetime and awaken yourself.

The place where I lived as a child, the school, the cemetery of my parents on the hill. Tell about your past, let go of your heart, accept others, let Goyala understand him, and also expose your weaknesses and struggles, no longer resist and hide, and release your nature. Lee Yun-hee asked Gao Yala to meet and talk, implying that there was no result between the two.

Li Zheng was reborn.

People will never be persuaded by others, and only themselves can convince themselves. People will never be embarrassed by others, and only themselves can be embarrassed by themselves.

When my parents got married, except for my aunt, my family was against it, and my father left the United States and returned to South Korea to develop, and he never contacted his family again.

My mom is a person with a lot of self-esteem, a focus on face, and a very paranoid personality.

The perception of entertainers in Korean society

: In people's traditional thinking, artists are a group of uneducated actors who only use their bodies to please the public, and their status is very devalued.

Li's mother's father, a very respected senior in the music industry, is a very famous singer in South Korea, and basically everyone over the age of 40 in South Korea knows him. His wife died, and he only had one daughter, Li's mother, who fell in love with Li's father. When the two talked about marriage, Li's father's family sternly refused, on the grounds that Li's mother's father was Dangdangla.

Although modern civilization is well developed, the traditional values of the society as a whole are still preserved. The upper and lower ranks, the dignity and inferiority of social status, can not be crossed anytime and anywhere, and it is very strict.

Li's mother's father is a singer, and Li's mother is also a singer, but they are all discriminated against.

Discriminated against, insulted.

In a car accident, Li's father died, and Li's mother was slightly injured, but she was accidentally diagnosed with cancer in the hospital. But Li's mother was unwilling to be treated, and only spent very little money to maintain it (thinking that Li's father was responsible for her death and punished herself), but used all the money to hire the best teacher for Li Zheng to train him, take him to the United States, and train and teach.

Before he died, he grabbed Li Zheng's hand tightly and asked him to swear.

In their time, artists did not have agents, and the activities of artists were personal matters. My mother, how to say it, her talent for singing is not very good, but her personality is the kind of person who is very stubborn, she can't stand the unspoken rules, and she can't stand the contempt, because of various reasons, she naturally won't mix very well.

Those who act in movies discriminate against those who act in TV series, those who act in TV series discriminate against those who sing, and those who sing discriminate against those who are funny in variety shows......

We should first understand how Korean society perceives artists. Historically, in people's traditional thinking, entertainers are a group of actors who have no culture and only use their physical performances to please the public, and their status is very degraded.

Li's mother's father is a well-known singer, Li's mother admired her father since she was a child, so she dreamed of becoming a singer when she grew up, but her talent was not enough, and she had nothing to achieve. Later, although due to Li's father's insistence, Li's mother and Li's father got married, but the premise was that Li's mother and father could no longer be singers, Li's father's family did not want to tell others that they were dangdangla when introducing their in-laws, Li's mother's father quit the song world for Li's mother, but Li's mother has always been obsessed, after entering the house, because of the previous singer's identity, Li's mother has been discriminated against, the family and the surroundings, so it has always been remembered, and later in the hotel bathroom and overheard other people's ridicule, so it was stimulated to run out, had a car accident, and Li's father died to save Li's mother, therefore, Li's mother thinks that the crux of all is because she is not famous enough, if she is a top star, things will be completely different, her father will not give up his favorite singer career for her, and finally end up depressed, she will not be discriminated against, and leave in conflict with Li's father, which finally led to the death of Li's father in a car accident, so he got into the horns and put all his hopes on Li Zheng.

In order for Li Zheng to have an excellent educational environment, Li's mother gave up treatment and spent all the money on Li Zheng, taking him to training, letting him go to the best school, hiring the best dance and music teachers for him, and training him. Before he died, he asked Li Yunxi's mother to take care of him.

Li Zheng took Gao Yala to the mountain where his parents were buried, but he did not go up, only at the foot of the mountain.

Everyone wants others to tell the truth to themselves, and everyone wants to hear the truth they want to hear, but the truth is that what you want to hear is often not true, and what is true is not what you want to hear.

Before my mother died, lying on the bed, she grabbed my hand tightly, her nails were embedded in my palm, she stared at my eyes, looked at me fiercely, and she made me swear: If I can't become the top star in Korea, if I can't fulfill her dream, I can't do this, I won't go to her grave for the rest of my life. Because, even if she dies, she will never forgive me.

I've never said these things to anyone, not even Yun Xi, she doesn't know......

I'm telling you this just to make you understand that in order to fulfill my mother's dream, everything I have is only for this one goal, and on the road ahead, I will give everything, by any means, and will not let anything hold me back, stay with me, I can't guarantee that you will not be hurt.

Are you still willing to accept me like this?

When both men and women fall in love, lovers want the other party to hide nothing from them, but when a person really decides to be unreserved to you and be honest with you about everything, this honesty becomes heavy, because you don't know whether you can be as real and flawless as the other person on the balance of this relationship.

Love has a different definition in everyone's heart, there is one-sided like, and there is no regret to give, but like only needs one person, love is a matter of two people. Love begins with beauty, but for most people, the meaning of "love" is equivalent to "being loved", and "fairness" is always an eternal topic hidden in people's hearts.

My father once said to me when I was a child: he said that when a person gives a lot for something and the reward is lower than expected, then the pain will follow like a shadow. He said that my mother gave up a lot for him, but he gave very little, so he wanted me to protect her forever instead of him.

Separated from Li Zheng, Gao Yala returned to her residence, and Li Yunxi asked her to meet.

The two talked, and Li Yunxi hinted that Gao Yala left Li Zheng, and there was no result between the two.

I don't know what other people think of him, in my eyes, all I saw was a confused, silently crying child in the crowd, huddled in a ball, dodging everywhere, vigilant to everyone who came to him, he was scared, even though he knew that he could get help if he reached out, but preferred to run away in order to avoid the harm he might encounter.

When all the truth becomes naked, although we see it clearly, we only have a sense of powerlessness. Sometimes, the one who knows the most is not the happiest. If you let me choose, I'd rather not know.

Gao Yala remembered the first time she met Li Zheng and replied to Li Yunxi with Li Zheng's answer.

"There is such a test, which says: If you are given a bunch of grapes, do you eat the big one first, or do you eat the small one first? Someone chooses the big one, which shows that he is an optimistic pessimist, an overdraft of life, although each one he eats is the largest, but the grapes themselves are getting smaller and smaller, and some people choose the small one, which means that he is a pessimistic optimist, who always has hope but can never reach the ......"

I picked up grapes because I wanted to taste them, and I wanted to have a taste experience, which is why I picked up grapes. If a person only focuses on the size of the grapes and forgets why he picked up the bunch in the first place, he will not be happy whether he chooses the big or the small. Because he only paid attention to the size of the grapes, he fell into the comparison of gains and losses, but forgot why he picked up this bunch of grapes in the first place.

I believe in fate, so I cherish fate. I didn't want to miss it, so I was obsessed.

I don't care what the future holds for me and him, time will tell, but I care if he and I have had it.

In this world, there is always more sorrow and less joy, but perhaps it is precisely because of the lack that happiness is more precious.

I like Li Zheng and be with him is something that makes me very happy.

So, whether you're bullish or not, I'm not going to give up.