032 Powerlessness in the face of death
The Queen Mother is really aggrieved by herself.
"Yu'er. ”
"Queen Mother, don't say anything, I understand, I really understand. Xiao Ziyu said directly.
"These days, let your mother be wronged, to take care of me, a half-dead person, and hide it from all of you, how much she has endured in her heart, in fact, I also know this old bone, but your mother is about to come out, and when my old bones go, your queen mother will be truly liberated. Emperor Taishang said.
"Father, don't say that. Xiao Ziyu listened, and felt a little unbearable.
Although the Emperor Taishang said the truth, it sounded really uncomfortable, and the discomfort was unbearable.
"Your Majesty, for so many years, I understand in my heart how you have treated me, don't say these words, we are husband and wife, besides, I am already very happy to be with you. The Queen Mother looked at the Emperor Taishang and said very seriously.
Of course, the Emperor Taishang knew what the Queen Mother was doing to him, and he had been by this woman's side for the past few years.
Looking back on the first half of their lives, there are really too many joys and sorrows.
Fortunately, in the past ten years, in the last ten years of his life, he has not missed it, which is really good.
The atmosphere is a little sad, in fact, the emperor is sick like this, and it is difficult not to be sad.
Xiao Jinghao and Yu Wentong wanted to say something, but before they could say it, they both felt very sad, maybe they felt very sad.
"Okay, you're tired all the way, let's go and rest first, let your queen mother let people clean the room, or live in their own rooms, I'm a little tired and want to rest." Emperor Taishang waved his hand and said.
Yu Wentong has been helping the Queen Mother serve the Emperor these days, so she knows everything very well.
couldn't help but say, "Queen Mother, you must have something to say to your brother and sister-in-law, so leave it to me here." ”
The queen mother did have something to say to Xiao Ziyu and Yu Wenmo, so she didn't shirk it, so she let Yu Wentong serve here, and she took Xiao Ziyu and Yu Wenmo and a few people to retreat.
When I returned to the room, the Queen Mother's eyes turned red.
"Queen Mother, what's wrong?" Xiao Ziyu asked comfortingly, to say that the relationship between Xiao Ziyu and the Queen Mother is really as good as ten years, as close as a mother and daughter, even Yu Wenmo is very envious.
But in envy, I can't envy it.
"I just feel sad in my heart, before I saw you, I have been holding on, although Allure, Tong'er is here, but after all, they are still young, and I can't show anything in front of them, but when I see you and Mo'er, my emotions are a little uncontrollable. The Queen Mother said with tears in her eyes.
"Queen Mother, I know that you are sad, after all, the way your father is now, who doesn't feel uncomfortable when you see it, but no matter how uncomfortable you are Queen Mother, you must also be strong, otherwise, your father will be even more discouraged. Xiao Ziyu persuaded.
"I know, I've always known, I know your father too well, your father has actually been smiling in front of us all the time, he hates this uncontrollable feeling in his heart, but he can't do anything about it, he has changed from a generation of emperors who call for wind and rain, and now he has become an old man who is helpless about anything, and it is actually difficult for him to accept it in his heart. ”
"Yes, we all know that what my father needs is not our sympathy, what he needs is our support, and he just treats him with a normal heart.
"But I still feel very uncomfortable in my heart, and I can't help but feel uncomfortable at the thought that your father and the emperor may leave me soon. The Queen Mother said that her eyes turned red again.
"Mother, I understand, but it is useless for you to do this, we are helpless about life and death, we can only choose to accept it. ”
"I know, I know in my heart, just let me be weak in front of you, I've been strong for too long. The Queen Mother said with a sigh.
"Queen Mother, no matter what happens, Ah Mo and I will stay with you, and Ah Mo and I will stay for a while longer. Xiao Ziyu comforted.
"Can you stay so long?" asked the Empress Dowager.
"It's okay, Feiyang is staying in the palace, with Feiyang here, you don't have to worry about anything. ”
"Feiyang, Feiyang is only eleven years old, you left him alone in the palace, and let Feiyang take care of state affairs?" asked the Queen Mother with some surprise.
"yes, what's wrong?"
"You are too relieved, Feiyang himself is still a child, are you so relieved?" The Queen Mother was obviously very worried about Yuwen Feiyang.
How can it be appropriate to leave Yuwen Feiyang alone in the palace?
"It's okay, Queen Mother, you don't know Feiyang too well, Feiyang can handle it. Xiao Ziyu said directly.
"Really?"
"Mother, don't you still believe me?"
Thinking of Xiao Ziyu's style of acting, the Queen Mother was also relieved, Xiao Ziyu generally does things very properly, and will not do anything that is not important.
"Since you're so sure, then I'm relieved. ”
"By the way, since you are here, the Xiao family must also know about Tong'er and Brother Hao'er, what did your family say? In fact, we have no way to let the two children get married in such a hurry, we also feel wronged by the two children, but the two children insist on getting married as soon as possible, I understand Tong'er, Tong'er just wants your father to see her get married. "The Queen Mother knows that Yu Wentong is a piece of filial piety.
"Well, I know, I also told my father and mother, and they both think that it is a very grand thing for you and your father to marry, so they have no opinion. Xiao Ziyu explained.
"Really?" the Queen Mother was still very happy when she heard this.
"Yes, it's a good thing, can you have any opinions?"
"Then let Tong'er and Brother Hao get married as soon as possible. ”
"Well, okay, plus we are also here, this ceremony is also very grand, how can it be regarded as wronging the two of them?" Yu Wenmo asked with a smile.
"It's not aggrieved, but why don't I look at my father and don't seem to want to see us?" Yu Wenmo couldn't help but ask.
In fact, Fang Cai Yuwenmo wanted to chat with Emperor Taihe more, but Emperor Taihe directly said that he was tired and asked them to step down, Yuwenmo definitely didn't want Emperor Taihe to feel uncomfortable, so he naturally obeyed Emperor Taihe's deployment.
"It's not that your father doesn't want to see you, but he's afraid that you'll be worried, in fact, he's basically holding on now, and he can't bear it anymore, so he hurriedly let you leave, Tong'er has been serving in front of him these days, and he definitely can't hide it from Tong'er, so he still wants to hide it from you. The Queen Mother explained.
"I see. Yu Wenmo looked at the Empress Dowager very worriedly, and then asked, "Has the body of my father really reached the point of no return?"
The Queen Mother nodded, "Yes, it will only be a few months." ”
"How so?"
"Your father's body, don't you know, the first two poisonings have already hurt the vitality, Dr. Li has said a long time ago, I am afraid that it will affect the life expectancy, because over the years, we have paid more attention to recuperating the body, so your father has delayed it for a few more years, otherwise, a few years earlier, it will not work. ”
"I know all of them, but I just didn't expect this day to come so soon. Yu Wenmo lowered his head and said.
"Forget it, birth, old age, sickness and death, we can't force it, have we experienced less over the years?" Xiao Ziyu asked with a sigh.
Yes, in the past ten years, many relatives have left.
But it's all the end of life, think about it, and you should face it with a smile.
"Okay, let's not talk about these sad things, let's talk about you, I haven't seen you for more than a year, but looking at the two of you, it should be pretty good. The Queen Mother looked at Xiao Ziyu and Yu Wenmo, and said with great relief, in fact, whether they are doing well or not can be seen at a glance, Xiao Ziyu and Yu Wenmo look happy, and they must be living a very smooth life.
"It's good, we're still the same. Xiao Ziyu replied.
"It's good to be the same, and I'm relieved to see that your life is good. The Queen Mother naturally hopes that her children will have a good life, and in her heart, Xiao Ziyu is heavier than Yu Wenmo.
Over the years, although they have not seen each other often, they are really as close as mother and daughter, and this will never change.
"Queen Mother, I look at your face but it's really not very good, it's dark and green right now, haven't you slept well in the past few days?" Xiao Ziyu asked.
Although the spirit is good, the face is really not as good as before.
It can be seen that the Queen Mother is really hard working.
"Your father has not slept very well these nights, but I myself am a little afraid, and I dare not fall asleep every night, always looking at your father. The Queen Mother said with a wry smile.
Xiao Ziyu immediately understood that the Empress Dowager was very anxious, because the Empress Dowager's health was deteriorating, and there were no more months left.
said that it has not been a few months, this is actually a very conservative scruple, to put it mildly, at this time, maybe when, the emperor will lose his breath.
The queen mother's heart is naturally up and down, during the day is fine, many people are waiting in front of her, but at night, the emperor himself does not sleep well, and he will definitely not let superfluous people disturb him, so the queen mother guards alone.
The queen mother is not sure, to put it bluntly, she is also worried that if the emperor falls asleep and never opens his eyes again, what will happen?
This is indeed a very worrying issue.
"Queen Mother, you're too nervous, it's not good. ”
"I also know that I am too nervous, but I can't relax, to be honest, it's okay during the day, there are many people during the day, I can let others do it for me for a while, but every night, I am alone to guard your father, I don't dare to sleep, I really don't care, I'm afraid that if I fall asleep, I will never see your father again, this feeling, you can't experience it. The Queen Mother said very distressedly.
"However, it won't help you like this, if you can't do it, you can't let the girl give the father the night to the emperor, you can't toss yourself like this, if you go on like this, your body will collapse in a few days. Xiao Ziyu reminded.
"No, if I don't stay by your father's side, your father won't be able to sleep, your father's sleep is not good, if you don't sleep well at night, then what can I do?" the queen mother vetoed in one bite.
"Then what if the queen mother goes on like this and you fall yourself? Father is so dependent on you now, have you ever thought about what your father will do if you fall?" Xiao Ziyu asked rhetorically.
The Queen Mother stopped talking, and of course the Queen Mother knew that she couldn't do this, but she didn't know what to do?
"So, Queen Mother, you really have to relax, you really can't do this. Xiao Ziyu continued to persuade.
"Yu'er, I understand, but I just can't do it, I thought I was ready, in fact, do you know, in the past two months, your father's body, as if he has aged all of a sudden, just so fast, in the past, he could still go to the garden to sit, I can still accompany him to walk, but he is really declining day by day, I think I can accept it very well, but I actually can't accept it in my heart, I just keep pretending to be strong. The Queen Mother said with a sob.
"I understand, the feeling of watching a loved one leave, but unable to do anything, helpless, I really want to strangle myself, but it is useless, I can only watch him leave, the queen mother, but we really have no other way than to accept, because death is so cruel, so cruel that you are particularly resistant, but you have to face it. When Xiao Ziyu said this, his heart was also like a knife, as if his heart was roasting on the fire, and that kind of tearing pain should be something that people who have never experienced it can't understand.
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