It has been said that most people can see others clearly, but they can't see themselves.

It is also said that the person who knows himself best is himself, but the person who knows him least is also himself.

This seems to be a false proposition.

But whether it is a false proposition or a false proposition, for Li Zheng, it cannot solve the problem he is facing now.

As a person with a strong character and strong self-control since childhood, asking him to let go of everything, reveal his heart, and expose the truest part of his personality to others, this is like letting a stingy person generously give away money, and letting a person who is overflowing with love coldly see death and not save him, these things that violate the inner norms often make people confused, confused and confused.

However, the performance of experiential actors requires actors to learn how to expose their vulnerability in front of others, learn to dissect their hearts in front of outsiders, find similarities in their hearts that are different from the surface of the characters, and then substitute into them, become one with the characters, and reveal the most authentic side of their personalities.

This may not be difficult for other actors, but for Li Zheng, who has been strict with himself since he was a child and is not used to showing his emotions in front of others, it is an extremely difficult hurdle to overcome.

In the face of this obstacle, others may put it aside for the time being when it is difficult to make a choice, but Li Zheng has always faced problems head-on, will not evade, and will not deliberately delay, which also makes his current thoughts more confused.

It has been two days since the last conversation and in the two days of filming, director Chen Hyuk did not make any accusations against Li Zheng's performance method, and the shooting was as usual, but Li Zheng himself knew that his performance method had not changed and remained the same.

He wants to change, but he doesn't know how to change it, or rather, he doesn't know if the change is right for him.

At the end of the day's shooting, Li Zheng returned home, script in hand, but his mind was in chaos.

After sitting at home for a long time, he looked at the sky outside through the balcony, and saw that the night was deep and the city lights were fading, so he dressed up a little, walked out of the house, and wandered around the streets aimlessly.

I don't know how long I walked, I don't know where I went, Li Zheng's mood gradually calmed down, he looked up, and saw that there was a national park not far from him, he walked into the park, and sat down leaning on the pavilion pillar under a gazebo not far from the entrance of the park.

With his eyes closed, his thoughts were free, and he was quietly feeling the night breeze blowing, and a sound of footsteps disturbed Li Zheng's calm, and then a crisp girl sounded in his ears.

"Oppa, why are you here?"

Li Zheng opened his eyes, and through the light above the gazebo, he looked at the girl in front of him with a ponytail and about sixteen or seventeen years old, and couldn't help but show a puzzled look.

"Hello, may I ask who you are?"

"Oppa, I'm Zheng Xiujing. ”

The girl smiled heartily and continued, "We met when you were a trainee at S.M. before, and you forgot about me? I was about seven or eight years old at the time. ”

Listening to Zheng Xiujing's reminder, Li Zheng vaguely remembered that he often saw a very young girl when he was a trainee in S.M Company, but he didn't pay much attention to it at that time, and now the girl has grown up a lot and her appearance has changed a lot, so although he heard Zheng Xiujing's reminder, he still didn't have much impression.

Zheng Xiujing saw that Li Zheng didn't answer, and she didn't care, but sat beside him familiarly, and asked, "Oppa, what are you doing here alone?"

Although he didn't have much impression of Zheng Xiujing, the girl's hearty personality still made Li Zheng feel good, and he smiled and said, "It's okay, it's boring to sit down." What about you, why haven't you come home so late?"

"Today is my friend's birthday, and we just celebrated. There's a trail in the park, closer to the station, and I happened to pass by. ”

After Zheng Xiujing finished speaking, she looked at Li Zheng and suddenly said, "Oppa, since you are bored, then I will chat with you." ”

Li Zheng was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "Okay." ”

Zheng Xiujing said: "Oppa, do you know? I admired you when I was a child. ”

"Oh?" Li Zheng smiled.

"When I was a child, I thought you were very cool! As a trainee, you can let you enter the company earlier than you, and even the seniors of the trainees who are older than you will listen to your teaching, and whoever dares not listen to you will be punished for kneeling down directly......"

"Well, I don't think I've done that......"

"It's just an analogy, and I didn't say you actually did it. ”

Zheng Xiujing grinned, and said: "I mean to say that oppa, you are very prestigious among the trainees, unlike me Onie, who has a cold face every day and looks like she is very powerful, but in fact, there are few people who are really afraid of her at all." ”

"You Ernie?"

"It's Zheng Xiuyan. ”

"Zheng Xiuyan?"

"You don't know about me Ernie?"

"You only tell me one name, there are so many female trainees in S.M Company, how can I remember them all. ”

"Girlhood, you know, right?"

Li Zheng nodded.

"I, Ernie, is one of the members of Girls' Generation, and my English name is Jessica, and some people call her the iceberg princess, and I like the one with a cold face. ”

"Oh, it turned out to be her, I remembered, is that the proud female trainee of the mystery? ”

"Mystery of pride?"

"Uh, sorry I accidentally said it. ”

Actually, if you think about it carefully, I'm a little bit like that, I don't know anything but I just act very well, uh, I'm not a good guy when I say this. ”

Li Zheng blinked and smiled: "It's okay, anyway, it's just the two of us here." I promise not to say. You can go on. ”

"Cut~~"

Zheng Xiujing pursed her lips before she asked again, "However, oppa, how did you think of giving her such a nickname?"

"Hehe, don't get me wrong, I didn't take it, someone else called her that, I just have some impressions. ”

"That said, I don't think OPPA will be that boring. Then why do they call her the pride of the fan?"

"You can just ask me, I just heard people call her that, and as for why she is called that, you need to ask them to know. ”

Zheng Xiujing listened, pursed her lips, as if she remembered something, she suddenly said: "Actually, I told you a secret, it is about me Ernie, and it has something to do with you." ”

Li Zheng shook his head and smiled: "Then I still don't want to listen." ”

"Why?"

"There are only two kinds of secrets related to me. ”

"Oh, which two?"

"One is nothing more than liking me, and the other is hating me. But whether I like it or hate it, it doesn't make sense to me. ”

"Oppa, why do you say that?"

"Because whether you like it or hate it, it's a thing of the past, and besides, nothing will happen between me and you Ernie. ”

"How can you be so sure, no one knows what the future holds, maybe you like me Ernie. ”

Li Zheng laughed silently: "Then how tall are you Ernie?"

"Why do you ask her how tall she is? about 1.63 meters. ”

"Then we can't do it. ”

"Why?"

"Because the height standard for my girlfriend is 1.68 meters, and the minimum cannot be lower than 1.65 meters. ”

"I didn't expect you to be such a superficial man. ”

Li Zheng nodded: "I am indeed very superficial. ”

Zheng Xiujing was speechless for a moment, she was speechless for a long time, and then asked, "Why do you require your girlfriend's height to be no less than 1.65 meters?"

"Would you believe me if I said I just felt too tired to bend over and kiss?"

"......" Zheng Xiujing's face instantly condensed into a big "embarrassment".

After half a ring, she said, "I suddenly feel like I'm so stupid, really." After finishing speaking, seeing that Li Zheng didn't respond for a long time, he couldn't help asking, "Why don't you ask me why I said that?"

"If I asked you, you would have said something I didn't like to hear. ”

"You didn't ask, how do you know?"

"I decided not to ask. ”

"It's boring to talk to you. ”

"Thank you. ”

"You didn't ask, but I decided to say it. ”

"Then why do you say that?"

Zheng Xiujing was depressed again, "Why did you suddenly ask again?"

"Since you have to say it, I thought about it, so I'd better ask it. After all, the two of us are sitting together, so you don't look like you're talking to yourself. ”

Zheng Xiujing opened her mouth weakly: "I'd rather you didn't ask." ”

Li Zheng laughed loudly: "Okay." I take it back. You say. ”

"I'm so stupid, really. ”

"I know, you've just said that. ”

"I'm glad I repeat it, can't I?"

"Well, you're stupid, really. Please continue. ”

Zheng Xiujing: "......"

"I'll wait to hear from you. ”

"I suddenly didn't want to say anything. ”

Looking at the girl's speechless expression, Li Zhengqiang couldn't help but laugh and said deliberately: "Okay." Then if you are hungry or not, I will invite you to eat at a roadside stall. ”

Zheng Xiujing: "...... I'm stupid, really. ”

"Okay. You're so stupid, really. Are you going to go?"

Zheng Xiujing bared her teeth, waved her fists with both hands and said, "Of course I want to go." I've been crushed by you in terms of IQ, and I'm going to beat you in terms of food. ”

After supper, the two walked along the street, walked to the crossroads, and said goodbye to each other, Zheng Xiujing walked a few steps, looked back, but saw Li Zheng standing still at the intersection.

She couldn't help asking, "Oppa, what's wrong with you? Why don't you leave?"

"I don't know where to go?"

"Home, of course. ”

"Home?"

"You don't know where your house is, you know where your house is, you don't know how to get there?"

"Know where your home is, know how to get there?"

“…… Oppa, are you sure you're not kidding me? You know where your home is, you know where you're going, and you know how to get there. I really don't know, if you call one, report the address, and the driver will pull you there. oppa, are you a road idiot, or are you deliberately pretending to be stupid to tease me?"

Hearing Zheng Xiujing's words, Li Zheng's heart was shocked, as if a flash of inspiration flashed, looking at the crossroads in front of him, his mind fluctuated.

In fact, it doesn't matter which path you choose, what matters is whether you can achieve your goal at the end of the road.

As long as the goal is clear, which road to take and what means to use is only a matter of distance and difficulty, and what is there to be confused and confused?

Thinking of this, he looked at Zheng Xiujing and nodded solemnly at her.

"Thank you. ”

After finishing speaking, Li Zheng smiled silently, waved his hand at Zheng Xiujing, and walked forward along the street, leaving only Zheng Xiujing, who looked confused, standing at the intersection, looking at Li Zheng's back a little stunned.