The morning sun shines through the window, and the bright light shines on the face, and a warm feeling arises.

Stella subconsciously hugged her to her side, and the empty touch under her arm made her sober up at once.

When she opened her eyes, Li Zheng was no longer visible on the bed, only the breakfast on the bedside table that had been placed there at some point, quietly waiting for her to wake up.

Looking at the sandwiches and fries on the plate, Stella chuckled at the corners of her mouth, and a faint sense of long-lost warmth slowly rippled in her heart.

Sitting lazily out of bed, stretching her arms outstretched, Stella was about to pick up the sandwich on her plate, when a card next to the plate jumped into her eyes.

She picked up the card and opened it gently.

On the card is a message written to her by Li Zheng before leaving.

"I don't know when you will wake up, so breakfast is according to your usual habits, only sandwiches and fries are prepared, in addition, there is cooked millet porridge in the kitchen, which strengthens the spleen and stomach, don't forget to drink it." ”

Looking at Li Zheng's familiar message on the card, the smile on Stella's face became a little brighter.

Gently rubbing the card, recalling the past times with Li Zheng, Stella suddenly remembered yesterday's conversation with Li Zheng in her heart.

"Maybe it's true that not every question needs an answer. As long as I feel happy and happy with him, does it really matter whether he loves me or not? As he said, life is like a journey, the beginning and the end are not the key, but every scenery experienced along the way.

Moreover, in addition to being relatively indifferent and open in his view of love, he lacks nothing in any other aspect, appearance, height, temperament, knowledge, carefulness, and thoughtfulness. In the past, when you were in a relationship with me, you took care of me carefully and considerately, what more could I ask for for such a man?

Why do you have to do things that annoy both parties by ignoring what you already have and forcing what you don't get?

Perhaps, as he once said, it would be nice not to care about the result, just enjoy the process, and be simply happy. ”

As these thoughts became clearer in her mind, Stella felt as if she had suddenly let go of some burden, and her whole body and mind felt a sense of lightness and happiness.

After eating breakfast and washing up, Stella thoroughly cleaned Li Zheng's room from the inside out.

Looking at the renovated apartment, which has become brighter and cleaner, Stella raised the corners of her mouth and smiled with satisfaction on her face.

When everything was cleaned up and she was about to leave, thinking of Li Zheng's hospitality last night and this morning, Stella felt that she should leave a message to express her gratitude.

Remembering that when I went to Li Zheng's apartment in the United States, Li Zheng would always habitually put paper and pen in the desk, and Stella walked to the desk, opened the drawer, and rummaged through it for the items he needed.

…………

At the end of the day, it was late.

Pushing open the door of the apartment, walking into the living room, looking at the room that was a little cleaner than usual, Li Zheng thought about it for a while, and couldn't help but chuckle and shook his head.

Usually he is a person who pays attention to personal hygiene, and he will clean his room whenever he has time, but he has been busy filming recently, and it is very late when he comes back, so the apartment is inevitably messy compared to usual. Although Li Yunxi usually comes over, she is a little lazy herself, not the kind of girl who loves to clean, everything in the room, you don't have to think too much, you can guess that Stella did it.

After changing into loungewear, Li Zheng first went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when the fatigue of the day was slightly relieved, he walked to the writing desk, ready to make the final refinement of the score of the lyrics that had just been written two days earlier.

Sitting at the desk, I opened the drawer, and a letter suddenly came into my eyes.

Seeing the somewhat familiar font on the envelope, an idea flashed through Li Zheng's mind instantly, he was silent for a moment, picked up the letter, and gently opened the envelope.

"Li Zheng, you are hypocritical, you are shameless, you are selfish, you are despicable, you are cheap, you are lewd, you are a playboy, you are a bastard!"

Looking at the first paragraph on the letterhead, Stella's disdainful expression seemed to appear in front of him, and Li Zhengyang raised the corners of his mouth and couldn't help but show a helpless wry smile.

After a wry smile, he lowered his head and continued to look.

"Okay, I'm done scolding, and then I can write the following words calmly.

Li Zheng, you know what?

Before seeing the lyrics you put on your desk, I had just convinced myself that I was no longer forcing you to love me, but that I would let go of my self-esteem, not care about the outcome, and just enjoy the process.

But fate always likes to play tricks on people, and when you want to let go of everything, it another thorn in your heart.

Remind you that some pain can be forgotten for a while, but it hasn't gone away, it's always been there.

I know you're a careful and cautious person, and you usually put away the songs you write properly, but when I opened your desk drawer today, the lyrics were so unobstructed.

To be honest, I don't know if you really forgot or deliberately left that part of the lyrics there, but I don't want to dwell on it anymore.

It doesn't matter if you really forget or leave it on purpose, because neither one can change the fact that you'll never fall in love with me.

Sometimes I feel that I am really stupid, knowing that I am pursuing a hopeless love, but I deliberately turn a blind eye and deceive myself, always thinking that as long as I don't let go easily, as long as I work hard, one day you will open your heart to me.

Although I often imagine that a person like you, who is cold, arrogant, and selfish, may never open the door of his heart.

But today I know that you are not ruthless, nor are you unfeeling, you are also touched, you will also be sentimental, but these feelings are tightly locked behind the door of your heart by yourself, I hope I am the one who can open the door of your heart, but I know that I will never get the key that can open the door of your heart, because the key is not elsewhere, but in yourself, but you will never give me this key.

I know that if I persevere, maybe one day I can see you back to your true self, and you will open the door of your heart to me, but I can't see when that day is, although I hope that I can keep going, but I'm sorry, I'm not a person who is good at waiting.

The other day you said I didn't love you, I only loved myself. I was angry when I heard it, and I thought you were insulting my seriousness about feelings.

But today, seeing the lyrics you wrote, all the pictures of our past interactions flashed in my mind in an instant, I thought I had always loved you, but thinking back on everything in the past, I realized that I don't want to say that I love you, but that I love the feeling of being spoiled by you, cherished by you, and held in the palm of your hand, and the beautiful dream that makes me deeply obsessed and unwilling to wake up.

But as long as it is a dream, there is always a moment to wake up, but my dream wakes up too quickly and too suddenly, so at that moment, I don't want to admit it, forcing myself to close my eyes, thinking that as long as I close my eyes, I won't wake up, and the dream can go on forever.

Ridiculous!

Li Zheng, you said that I don't love you, I only love myself. I don't love you, I love myself, that's why I love you. This sentence, you are right, but it is also not true. Because I know I love you, and this feeling is not false, it is real. But you're right, I do love myself.

God put two feelings on the scales, and between loving and being loved, I chose to be loved.

Yes, I love you, but I love myself more.

So, please forgive me for not being able to keep an eye on you any longer.

Like the parting letter that Dumas wrote to his lover Alphonsina: I am not selfless enough to love you as I wish for nothing in return, I am not selfish enough to be loved as you wish to be loved without results, let us forget each other—you are a woman who always causes trouble for you, I am forgetting a happiness that I have so deeply desired but can never have.

Goodbye, Li Zheng.

I once loved the boy who would always have a place in my heart for him, the most perfect boy in my memory.

By the time you received this letter, I had already left Korea.

There is no formal goodbye, and there is no need for a formal goodbye.

The book says that it is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.

Since we can't get along with each other, let's forget about each other.

Thank you so much for being in my life, and I will always cherish the beauty that we once had.

Stella, 16 June 2009.

After reading the letter, Li Zheng fell silent.

After a long time, he got up, walked to the kitchen, and came back with a box of matches.

Picking up the letter and reading it again, Li Zheng closed his eyes and slowly opened them again.

With a pop, a match was lit.

The letter paper burned slowly in the flames, and Li Zheng kept watching until the letter burned into ashes, and he didn't look away for a second.