The doors and windows of the room were closed and pitch black, except for the glimmering light on the white screen opposite the projector.

In the screen, two children, three or four years old, a man and a woman, sit on a swing, and the boy's little feet are swaying back and forth, trying to make the swing swing swing up and down dramatically. Suddenly, the girl on the swing quickly leaned into the boy's right cheek and kissed him, and then she heard the boy cry out as if he had been bitten.

"Why are you kissing me?"

The girl blinked, "I like you." ”

"You kiss me, I kiss you!"

Saying that, the boy turned his head and kissed the girl as if he was retaliating, stuck out his tongue and grimaced, and said with a smile: "I kissed you because you like me......!" Oh Mom! Oh Mom! Tell you! Yun Xi and I kissed!Yeeaaaahh——"

"Oh, I didn't kiss you. The girl angrily grabbed the boy's arm and shouted in defense. However, the boy didn't pay attention to the girl's argument, and seemed to see his mother's gaze looking over, he rolled his eyes, naughtily hugged the girl's neck, and leaned over with his small mouth to the girl's lips, "Yun Xi, let's kiss again." ”

"Hey, you two ......" a sonorous female voice sounded in the picture at the right time. Then I saw the boy quickly kiss the girl's lips, cheering and waving his fist in the direction where the sonorous female voice came from, "Oh Mom, we kiss again!yes!WHooooooaaa......"

"You two are not allowed to kiss again!" the sonorous female voice said helplessly.

At the same time, a tactful and soft voice sounded in the picture, and he smiled softly: "Xiao Zheng, you kissed our family Yunxi, and I will hand her over to you in the future." ”

Hearing the gentle female voice, the boy smiled and nodded, and the little adult patted the top of the girl's head, puffing out his chest with some pride.

"Did you hear that? Yun Xi, my aunt said that she would hand you over to me in the future! I will protect you, you have to be obedient, obedient!"

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As the room darkened and brightened, the images on the screen suddenly changed, and the boy in the picture was already seven or eight years old, and the playfulness of his childhood was no longer visible on his handsome face, and a pair of charming and clear eyes stared solemnly in the direction of the camera, and his mouth began to recite aloud firmly and sonorously.

"I am the greatest miracle of nature.

Since God created the heavens and the earth, there has been no one like me, my head, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my lips.

No one who talks and behaves exactly like me has not had before, does not have now, and will never have it in the future.

I am a unique creation.

I didn't come to this world for the sake of failure, and the natural world doesn't know what defeat is, and it eventually appears as a winner, and I want to do the same.

There is a never-say-die flame burning in my heart, and it inspires me to surpass myself, to make this fire burn brighter, to declare to the world that I am exceptional.

I am not a lamb to be whipped, I am a lion, not with the flock. I don't want to listen to the cries of the losers, the whiners of the whiners, this is the plague in the flock, I can't be infected by it. The loser's slaughterhouse is not the destination of my fate.

There is no failed blood flow in my veins, and no thoughts of failure in my brain.

I was born to be successful!

I am a person who was born destined to succeed!!

I was born destined to succeed!!"

As the boy's loud recitation ended, the sonorous female voice that appeared in the previous picture sounded again: "Okay! Li Zheng, you have to remember that every day in the future, the first thing you do when you wake up is to recite this passage aloud." In the future, no matter where you are, no matter whether your mother is by your side or not, you must remember this passage. You have to remember that you are born destined to succeed! There is no failure in your life, and there can never be failure!"

"Yes, Mom!

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The image on the screen shifts again, showing a middle-aged woman with a pale face and a stern expression lying on the bed. The woman's body is weak and skinny, but her eyes are sharp and sharp. Her eyes were straight ahead, and her voice was firm and sonorous.

"What are you crying for! It's not like you're dying!

"Li Zheng, I want you to remember, even if your mother dies, no matter how difficult the future is, you have to persevere. Even if you crawl on your knees, you have to crawl forward. You must become a top singer and become the top superstar in Korea! When that day comes, I want you to stand on the podium and tell everyone, tell those who have looked down on me and abandoned me, tell them that you are my son of Lee Mi-kyung, and your success is made by me......"

"Li Zheng, I want you to remember that I have given you the right to give up, since you choose to persevere, then you are only allowed to succeed in your life, not to fail! When you are weak and lost and want to give up, you will show this video, and then look into my eyes and tell yourself: You are not a lamb! You are a lion! You are a person who was born destined to succeed!!

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The light in the screening room dimmed, the image ended, and the picture on the screen changed again, and the boy in the picture gradually grew up, tall and handsome, and inadvertently always revealed majestic cold eyes. The boy's appearance became more and more charming, but the smile on his face became less and less, and a look called perseverance appeared on it.

Most of the images are of boys sweating and practicing dances, with occasional differences or two, and they are also clips of boys practicing their smiles, but although this smile looks gentle and charming, it gives people a feeling that it is not real and slightly fake.

The video was shown for another half an hour, and after the camera turned, after a dark and a bright, a warm scene finally appeared in the image.

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In a neat and elegant apartment, on a low and old square table, the boy put a candle on the cake and shouted orders to the other two people in the room.

"Zunya, stop fiddling with the VCR, you go turn off the lights. Yun Xi, come here, you're going to blow out the candles. ”

As soon as the lights in the apartment dimmed, the faces of the three boys and girls gradually appeared in the candlelight, and then the boy was heard smiling softly at the girl with a beautiful face on the left: "Yun Xi, this is your 15th birthday, I wish you a happy birthday! Of course, I also wish me a happy 16th birthday! Okay, let's start making a wish!"

The two of them were just about to blow out the candles, when the girl named Honya on the right side of the boy suddenly covered the boy's mouth, shook his arm and complained to the boy dissatisfiedly: "Oh! No, no, no! The two of you are only a week away from your birthday, and only my birthday is two months away from yours, so I can't celebrate with you, so you two have to share one wish with me, so that each of us has two wishes." ”

The boy shook his head helplessly and smiled: "Okay, okay, I'll just give it to you." ”

After a few moments, the candles went out and the lights came on in the apartment.

"Alright, the wish has been made, and now each of us has to say our first wish. ”

The girl named Honya clapped her hands and laughed happily, "I'll say it first." My first wish is that I hope that in the coming year, my development in Japan will go smoothly, and that my albums and singles will sell well and achieve even better results...... Okay, I'm done. What is your wish?"

The beautiful girl secretly looked at the boy: "I hope to be able to debut as soon as possible and realize my dream of becoming an actor as soon as possible." ”

"What about you, Li Zheng, what is your wish?"

"I hope to end the voice change period as soon as possible, get on the stage, fulfill my mother's dream as soon as possible, and become the best and top singer in Korea. The boy subconsciously clenched his fists and said firmly, "I believe that this day will not be far away, and I will definitely become the top singer in Korea." I will definitely not disappoint my mother, and I will definitely succeed. ”

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After this video, the light on the curtain changes again, and the boy's tall and straight figure appears in the picture again, only this time there is a strong but faintly bitter smile on the corner of the boy's mouth. There was also a deep exhaustion in his voice that seemed to be impossible to hide after the vicissitudes of life.

"Yun Xi, I'm leaving.

By the time you see this video, I have already left Seoul.

I know you've always loved this VCR left by my mom and have always wanted it, and I've left both of these things to you as a parting gift, hoping you'll forgive me for saying goodbye.

Becoming a top singer has been a dream that my mom has pinned on me since I was a child, and it is also a goal that I have been trying to achieve since I was a child. When the doctor diagnosed that I could no longer sing, and when the dream of trying so hard was shattered, I confessed that I was lost and didn't know where I was going next.

As my best friend since I was a child, except for the two years when I went to the United States with my mother, you have always been by my side, helping me and encouraging me, although I have never said it to you, but in my heart, you have long been like my family.

When I was leaving, I wanted to say a lot to you, but I didn't know what to say when it came to my lips.

After thinking about it, I still didn't say goodbye to my face.

I'll be back when I find my way, and we'll see you again then. ”

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On the curtain, the projected image came to an abrupt end, and everything in the room was soaked in darkness.

After a long time, the lights of the screening room came back on, and a beautiful and tall girl sat up from the sofa, flipped through the purple hardcover notes on her knees, picked up the pen, and a slight rustle of writing gradually sounded in the silent room.

September 25, 2008, fine.

Another day has passed, and this is already the 1863rd day of your absence.

I don't know why, from the day you left, I started to write a diary, which I used to hate writing in the past. When you think about it, it's been more than five years now, and I haven't even broken a day, and now that I think about it, it's a really amazing thing, isn't it?

I know you can't see what I'm writing, but I want to record it anyway.

Remember when you asked me, "If you don't look back, you won't be in pain?" I didn't know how to answer, so I had to be silent. Now that you think about it, maybe you don't need my answer at all, and the moment you ask, the answer is already in your heart.

Because, I know, the Li Zheng I know, the dazzling boy who covers the light of everyone around him like the sun, the proud figure who moves forward bravely and never knows what it means to give up, the fearless partner who I have admired since childhood and has deep inferiority, will never be easily defeated by a small setback.

I know that before, he wouldn't, and now, he won't.

I know he'll be back.

It's just that...... When will you be back?

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At this point, the round tip of the pen suddenly stopped on the rice paper, and the tears slipped silently from the air like pearls with broken threads, imprinting one after another deep and shallow gray marks on the white paper. It wasn't until a long time later that a low, sobbing female voice sounded in the room.

"Come back, Li Zheng, I miss you so much. ”