The atmosphere in the room was solemn, and Jin Jidong seemed to have finally found an outlet, and the words that had accumulated in his heart gushed out like a flood that opened the floodgates.

"Brother, in fact, I know that she never likes me at all, but I don't know why, I just like her.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and I hate myself, why am I so short and so ugly, if I were taller and more handsome, maybe I would have a chance...... However, I am not tall or handsome...... Even if I was willing to help her in any way as long as she spoke, I knew that Snow White, despite her gratitude to the dwarfs, did not really love them. She was always waiting for her prince. ”

Seeing Kim Jidong crying bitterly, Park Seung-deok sighed again: "Since you also know in your heart that others are already married, why can't you let it go?

Jin Jidong whimpered: "Brother, I, I know...... I know I love her, and I can't love her...... From the day I met her, I knew that it was impossible for us, but at that time she was not married, and I had the hope of what if.

But now she's married.

She called me today, she comforted me a lot, she said thank you for the bride price I gave her, thank me for helping her all the time, I said politely, but I hung up the phone, I felt uncomfortable, brother...... Brother, Brother Chengde, I don't have a chance, and I won't have a chance again...... What should I do? Brother? What do you say I should do?

I really regret that I didn't speak before, even if I was despised by her, even if she refused, it was better than just watching her leave from afar.

Brother, I love her, but I also hate her.

I hate why she can't love me as much as I love her.

Is it because I'm ugly? Is it because I like her?

If she didn't want to accept me, why did she let me come near in the first place?

I wish we had never known each other, and if I hadn't known her, I wouldn't have been so miserable. If I had never known her, I wouldn't have wanted to forget ......."

"Ah~~"

Park Seung-deok held Kim Jidong's hand, not knowing how to speak, so he could only sigh helplessly.

There was a heavy burst in the room, except for Kim Jidong's low cry.

I don't know how much time has passed, and I don't know when the room suddenly became quiet.

Li Zheng looked at Jin Jidong, who was leaning on Park Chengde and was sleeping deeply, he sighed in his heart and said in a low voice: "Uncle De, Brother Jidong is asleep, let's help him into the house." ”

After settling Kim Ji-dong, the two returned to the living room, looking at the messy wine bottles on the floor, Lee Jung and Park Seung-deok bent down and started to clean up.

After everything was cleaned up in the living room, Park Seung-deok glanced at Kim Ji-dong's bedroom, then looked back at Li Zheng, and nodded: "Xiao Zheng, you go back first." You're going to film tomorrow, just leave it to me here. I'll stay here tonight, and I'm not at ease when Jidong is home alone, so if you take a taxi back by yourself, I won't send you. ”

"Uncle De, I understand. Li Zheng nodded in understanding.

Park Seung-deok looked in the direction of Kim Ji-dong's bedroom and sighed again, and gently patted Lee Jung's shoulder.

"Okay, you go back first, I won't send you. ”

********

Walking out of the community where Jin Jidong lived, it suddenly rained in the sky.

The rain was very rapid, accompanied by the sound of the wind, and soon wet the shoulders.

The streets were deserted, and a street lamp seemed to be in poor contact, and the lights were on and off.

Standing in the wind and rain, standing on the lonely and uninhabited street, looking at the street lights that are bright and out, dark and unknown in the wind and rain, for some reason, Li Zheng suddenly remembered Kim Jidong's sad and inexplicable appearance just now, remembered Kim Jidong's heart-wrenching words, and remembered the girl who chased him back to South Korea...... Thinking of this, his heart suddenly seemed to be clenched by something, and memories hit his heart like a surging tide in the next moment.

************

"Li Zheng, I like you. Are we going to get along?"

"I'm a very selfish person, and with me, you're going to get hurt. ”

"Will you die?"

"Huh?"

"Hee-hee, if I don't die, I'm not worried. But how can you be sure that I'm going to get hurt, maybe it's you?

…………

"Li Zheng! I love you!"

"Thank you. ”

"Do you love me?"

"Do you love me and feel happy?"

"Happiness. ”

"Then why do you want to know if I love you or not, as long as you feel happy. ”

"But I still want to know if you love me, Li Zheng, do you love me?"

"I don't love you. ”

"Why are you so nice to me if you don't love me?"

"It's because I don't love you that's why I'm so nice to you. ”

"I don't believe you. ”

…………

"Li Zheng, who is that woman?"

"What answer would you like to hear?"

"I want you to tell me the truth. ”

"Telling the truth often hurts. ”

"It's better than being cheated all the time. ”

"I didn't lie to you. It's just that you don't want to believe it all the time. ”

"Are you making excuses for yourself?"

"I don't need to make excuses for myself, because I haven't hidden it from you from the beginning. ”

"If you don't hide it, you don't cheat, then I'll let you know that my so-called non-concealment will never be the only one who is hurt. ”

…………

"If you think writing a whistleblower letter to Yale scares me, I don't think you know me yet. ”

"Do you think that's all you have to say? Look at these pictures. ”

"That's all?!"

"If I send these photos to Yale University, or take them to the police department to report them, what do you think will happen to you?"

"I'm not the only one who ruined the photo. ”

"Do you think I care?"

"What do you want me to do?"

"Kneel down, beg me, and beg until I forgive you. ”

"Only this one is possible?"

"Yes. ”

"Okay, goodbye. It's good if you're happy. ”

…………

"Why didn't you answer my phone?"

"I don't think we have the need to talk anymore. ”

"You know I'm just trying to scare you, I'm not going to do that. ”

"Whether you do it or not, it's all your own freedom. Just like those photos you took secretly, you didn't ask for my permission. ”

"I just thought it was fun to take those photos, and I didn't even think to threaten you with them. ”

"But you've done it. ”

"Li Zheng, I'm sorry. …… Don't do this, I beg you, don't do that...... I forgive you, I forgive you...... We, we start over...... Shall we start over?...... You know I like you, I really like you......"

"I'm sorry. If you don't have anything else, I'm going to read the book. ”

"Li Zheng, you're a bastard!I hate you!!"

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Memories are flooding in.

In a trance, Li Zheng didn't know how he returned home, sitting in front of the desk, his thoughts were flying, and it was difficult to calm down for a long time.

There are many things that we thought we had forgotten for a long time, but we just haven't remembered them yet.

When the heart is touched by a certain event on a certain day and moment, those past that have been deliberately forgotten or deliberately ignored will be like a sudden heavy rain in summer, drenching the whole body in an instant, making you embarrassed and physically and mentally exhausted.

Li Zheng, some things, some pasts, you deliberately ignore them, can you really forget them?

Looking down at the desktop, thinking back to Jin Jidong and those pasts, there seemed to be a thousand words in my heart, but I didn't know how to express it.

Turning over the drawer, taking out paper and pen from the drawer, and sitting in front of the desk, Li Zheng was silent for a long time. Time passed quietly in silence, and the next moment, Li Zheng suddenly picked up the pen, and the pen was like the wind, and a long-meditative lyric appeared on the paper.

Let you go far later

It's like saying goodbye to an autumn bird

After letting you leave

Come back and sit alone in front of the glass

Shed tears

One day, the rain was like a memory

Scattered all over the streets

I became lonely and bowed my head

Your voice is heard

Too painful love, not love

……

One day, the wind blew through my wet shoulders

Those times when I was tired

Right by the window

Start resenting you

Too painful love, not love

Not love

……

Let's not do it all over again

Bury all the words you miss

And this unfinished love

Too painful love, not love

……