The doors and windows of the room were closed and pitch black, except for the glimmering light on the white screen opposite the projector.

In the screen, two children, three or four years old, a man and a woman, sit on a swing, and the boy's little feet are swaying back and forth, trying to make the swing swing swing up and down dramatically. Suddenly, the girl on the swing quickly leaned into the boy's right cheek and kissed him, and then she heard the boy cry out as if he had been bitten.

"Why are you kissing me?!"

The girl blinked, "I like you." ”

"You kiss me, I kiss you!"

Saying that, the boy kissed the girl as if he was retaliating, stuck out his tongue and made a grimace, and said with a smile: "I kissed you because you like me......!" Oma!Oma!Tell you!Yeeaaaahh—"

"Oh, I didn't kiss you. The girl pulled the boy's arm in some shame and loudly argued. However, the boy didn't pay attention to the girl's argument, and seemed to see his mother's gaze looking over, he rolled his eyes, naughtily hugged the girl's neck, and leaned over with his small mouth to the girl's lips, "Yun Xi, let's kiss again." ”

"Ahh......h Then the boy quickly kissed the girl on the lips, cheering and waving his fist in the direction where the sonorous female voice came, "Oma, we kiss again!yes!WHooooooaaa......"

"Chris, you two are not allowed to kiss again!" said the sonorous female voice a little helplessly.

At the same time, a tactful and soft voice sounded in the picture, jokingly quipping: "Xiao Zheng, you kissed our family Yunxi, and my aunt will hand it over to you in the future." ”

Hearing the gentle female voice, the boy smiled and nodded, and the little adult patted the top of the girl's head, puffing out his chest with some pride.

"Did you hear that? My aunt said she would hand you over to me in the future. I will protect you, you have to be obedient and obedient!"

…………

After the voice was spoken, the light in the room dimmed and brightened, and the image on the screen suddenly changed, and the boy in the picture was already seven or eight years old, and his handsome face could no longer see the naughtiness of his childhood, and a pair of charming and clear eyes stared seriously in the direction of the camera, and began to recite aloud firmly and forcefully.

"I am the greatest miracle of nature.

Since God created the heavens and the earth, there has been no one like me, my head, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my lips.

No one who talks and behaves exactly like me has not had before, does not have now, and will never have it in the future.

I am a unique creation.

I didn't come to this world for the sake of failure, and the natural world doesn't know what defeat is, and it eventually appears as a winner, and I want to do the same.

There is a never-say-die flame burning in my heart, and it inspires me to surpass myself, to make this fire burn brighter, to declare to the world that I am exceptional.

I am not a lamb to be scourged, I am a lion, not with the flock. I don't want to listen to the cries of the losers, the whiners of the whiners, this is the plague in the flock, I can't be infected by it. The loser's slaughterhouse is not the destination of my fate.

There is no failed blood flow in my veins, and no thoughts of failure in my brain.

I was born to be successful!

I am a person who was born destined to succeed!!

I was born destined to succeed!!"

As the boy's loud cry ended, the sonorous female voice that appeared in the previous picture sounded again: "Okay! Li Zheng, you have to remember that every day in the future, the first thing you do when you wake up is to recite this passage aloud." In the future, no matter where you are, no matter whether your mother is by your side or not, you must remember this passage. You have to remember that you are born destined to succeed! There is no failure in your life, and there can never be failure!"

"Yes, Mom!

…………

The image on the screen shifts again, showing a middle-aged woman with a pale face and a stern expression lying on the bed. The woman's body is weak and skinny, but her eyes are sharp and sharp. Her eyes were straight ahead, and her voice was firm and sonorous.

"Cry for what! Hold the VCR steady!"

"Li Zheng, I want you to remember, even if your mother dies, no matter how difficult the future is, you have to persevere. Even if you crawl on your knees, you have to crawl forward. You must become a top singer and become the top star in Korea! When that day comes, I want you to stand on the podium and tell everyone, tell those who have looked down on me and slandered me, tell them that you are my Kang Mi-kyung's son......"

"Li Zheng, I want you to remember that you are not a lamb! You are a lion! You are only allowed to succeed in life, not to fail! You are a person who was born destined to succeed!!

…………

The light in the room dimmed again, the image ended, and the picture on the screen changed again, and the boy in the picture gradually grew up, tall and handsome, and inadvertently always showed serious cold eyes.

The boy's appearance became more and more charming, yet the smile on his face became less and less.

Most of the images are of boys sweating and practicing dances, with occasional differences or two, and they are also scenes of boys contemplating their eyebrows.

The video was shown for another half an hour, and after the camera turned, after a dark and a bright, a warm scene finally appeared in the image.

…………

In a neat and elegant apartment, on a low and old square table, the boy puts a candle on the cake and smiles warmly in the direction of the camera.

"Yun Xi, stop fiddling with the VCR, you go turn off the lights, you are going to blow out the candles. ”

The light in the apartment dimmed, and then the candlelight lit, and the faces of the boy and girl gradually appeared in the halo, and then the boy was heard saying to the girl: "Yun Xi, this is your 15th birthday, I wish you a happy birthday." Alright, let's start making wishes. ”

A moment later, the candles went out and the lights in the apartment came back on.

"Alright, the wish has been made, now you can say your first wish. ”

The girl secretly glanced at the boy: "I hope you can make your debut as soon as possible and realize your dream of becoming a singer as soon as possible." ”

"Me? Thank you. When the voice change period is over, I will definitely appear on the stage, and I will definitely fulfill my mother's dream and become the brightest and most top star in Korea. The boy subconsciously clenched his fists and said firmly, "I believe that this day will not be far away, and I will definitely become the top singer in Korea." I will definitely not disappoint my mother, and I will definitely succeed. ”

……

After this video, the light on the curtain changes again, and the boy's tall and straight figure appears in the picture again, only this time there is a bitter smile on the corner of the boy's mouth that seems to be strong but faintly fragile. There was also a deep tiredness in his voice that could not be concealed as if he had gone through vicissitudes.

"Yun Xi, I'm leaving.

By the time you see this video, I have already left Seoul.

I know you've always loved this VCR left by my mom and have always wanted it, and I've left both of these things to you as a parting gift, hoping you'll forgive me for saying goodbye.

Becoming a top singer is a dream that my mother has pinned on me since I was a child, and it is also a goal that I have been trying to achieve since I was a child. When the doctor diagnosed that I could no longer sing, and when the dream of trying so hard was shattered, I confessed that I was lost and didn't know where I was going next.

As my best friend since I was a child, since my mother left, you have always been by my side, helping me, supporting me, although I have never said it to you, but in my heart, you have long been like my family.

When I was leaving, I wanted to say a lot to you, but I didn't know what to say when it came to my lips.

After thinking about it, I still didn't say goodbye to my face.

I'll be back when I find my way, and we'll see you again then. ”

……

On the curtain, the projected image came to an abrupt end, and everything in the room was soaked in darkness.

After a long time, the lights of the screening room came back on, and a beautiful and tall girl sat up from the sofa, flipped through the purple hardcover notes on her knees, picked up the pen, and a slight rustle of writing gradually sounded in the silent room.

September 25, 2008, fine.

Another day has passed, and this is already the 1863rd day of your absence.

I don't know why, but from the day you left, I started to write a diary, which I used to hate writing in a long time. When I think about it, it's been more than five years now, and I haven't even broken a day. Now that I think about it, it's a bit of an incredible thing, isn't it?

I know you can't see what I'm writing, but I want to record it anyway.

Remember you once asked me, "If you don't look back, you won't be in pain?" I didn't know how to answer, so I had to be silent. In retrospect, maybe you didn't need me to answer at all, and the moment you asked, the answer was already in your heart.

Because, I know, the Li Zheng I know, the dazzling boy who covers the light of everyone around him like the sun, the proud figure who moves forward bravely and never knows what it means to give up, the fearless partner that I have admired since childhood and relied on like a big tree, will never be easily defeated by the slightest setback.

I know that before, he wouldn't, now, he won't, and in the future, he won't.

I know he'll be back.

It's just that...... When will you be back?

……

At this point, the round nib of the pen suddenly stagnated on the paper, and teardrops slipped from the air as if broken threads, smudging circles of gray marks on the elegant rice paper. The room was dimly lit and silent, and it was not until a long time later that a sobbing female voice with deep longing sounded lowly.

"Come back, Li Zheng, I miss you so much. ”