Things went as smoothly as Situ Zi predicted, Sun Weifeng had been with her during the days of her competition, he was a little puzzled, with her strength, she could debut in the C position, why did she have to go from the primary selection to the semi-finals, and then to the finals, why did she have to go around so many laps?

When Li Yan got the information, the whole person was trembling, Xiaozi, is this the path you want to choose? I desperately pushed you away and put you out of the circle, why do you have to come in, you are always willful, what can I do with you?

Shangguan Yang has already seen the master behind the crew, it is her, how could he forget such a face, that time on the stage, she cooperated perfectly with him, if it weren't for her, then he wouldn't have entered the Sacred Heart Academy, and he wouldn't have met Li Yan, let alone guarding him, she came back, was she going to snatch Li Yan from him? Just kidding, how could this be?

"Yan, I don't want to participate in your past, but you see, she has chased you around, do you want to deal with it. Shangguan Yang said lightly.

"Yang, you can't move only her, if anything happens to her, I can't live. ”

"Do you really love her so much? Why did you let her into this circle? Don't you know the rules of this circle?"

"Don't worry, she has the ability to protect herself, you don't have to worry. ”

"Where do you get your confidence? What can a girl do to protect herself? Shangguan Yang said this disapprerovingly.

"She's my brother himself*, you can wait and watch the show. Li Yan smiled lightly.

"Yan, you like your brother very much, don't you?" I didn't plan to ask, but I couldn't help but open my mouth.

"He's the best brother in the world, but it's a pity he's gone. He closed his eyes and hid his sadness.

"I'm sorry, Yan, I didn't mean to make you unhappy. Shangguan Yang didn't know what to say for a while.

"It's okay, I don't blame you, my brother has entered the countdown to life since he was born, and I won't blame anyone. ”

"If you don't blame anyone, then why, you still refuse to let go of yourself and let yourself live in the memories of the past. ”

Li Yan looked at the camellia outside the window, and suddenly realized that he hadn't been home for a long time.

"Yang, is the schedule for these two days empty?"

"yes, what do you want to do?" Shangguan Yang suddenly turned his head and stared at him, afraid that he would do something bad.

"No, it's just that I haven't been home for a long time, and I want to go home and see. ”

"Isn't there no one in your house?" He has been spending the New Year in his own house all these years, and once he thought that Li Yan was an orphan.

"I'm going back to another home. He thought for a moment and spoke.

"Then I'll go back with you. ”

"No need, I want to be alone and quiet, I'm about to join the group, I want to calm my emotions, and you don't want you to spend money to be messed up by me. ”

"Yan, I don't lack that little money. ”

"But my conscience is troubled. ”

"Yan, I'm willing. He said helplessly.

Li Yan fell on the bed, and she was smiling like a flower on the wall.

"Na, it's been a long time, Xiao Zi, are you okay in that house? I asked my uncle, and he said that before you left, you gave me your house, and the Xingxi restaurant is very good, after all, it was built by my brother himself, how can it be bad?"

Xiaozi, do you know? "SHADOW" Chinese transliteration is "shadow", when I saw the time of this word, I thought, maybe I am just a shadow, a shadow living in the past, a place that can only have light, there is a world that belongs to it.

You never knew that sunlight was to the shadows, just as you didn't know how important you were to me.

This time, I returned to this home, looking at the photos of you growing up day by day, and I can only use this method to talk about your past, just like my brother was involved in your past in this way.

I remember with my heart how you grew up, I have never looked at my past so attentively, and your past, page by page, I inadvertently saw my shadow.

I saw my heart clearly, and saw whose name was engraved on my heart, it was no longer Li Heng, but you, the name that only belonged to you, I knew that your heart was engraved with my name Li Yan, which only belonged to me, and I was happy from the bottom of my heart.

So, this time, I want to live well for myself, no longer live for you, I remember every word my brother said to me, according to his every request, let myself strive for perfection, but this time, I don't want to live under my brother's shadow.

I don't want to rely on the faint light he gives anymore, I feel warm, love him more than myself, I think he is no longer my sunshine, but another person, but that person, once did not belong to myself, when I found that one day, that person also belongs to me, I will be happy for your happiness, will be sad for your sadness, I don't know when it started, when my name appeared on her heart, I have a sweet feeling, maybe you were not me in your heart, it can't be me, I thought I chose to retreat to a dark corner, my miss Wusheng placed。

No matter how sweet the candy is, there is sadness, and no matter how beautiful love is, you need to know how to look at it to be the most beautiful.

Today I went to a person's future home, which is also his future place of work, there are large fields of camellia downstairs of him, which bloom beautifully, burning the memory in my heart, I passed by that road, I think the camellia in our yard must be blooming beautifully, very beautiful.

I'll miss the place I can't go back to.

The man who fell asleep peacefully under the cherry blossoms in your heart never waited for the girl's return, he once thought so, as long as she was happy, even if as long as you returned to him, he would be able to keep her, she still left after all, and from that day on, the young man's clear smile was no more.

We are dancing to the wrong beat, and we can never dance the most beautiful.

I think that what I fell in love with was also wrong, so I thought, now that my attachment to you has not become a habit, I would rather be in that corner, gradually becoming a haze wound, before the injury is formed, I want to learn to love myself in the heart of another person.

Many years ago, about your sudden appearance of the years, some memory fragments, dangling in my head, it was the rainy season, you under the delicate umbrella are so dazzling, my eyes follow the gently rotating raindrops on the surface of the umbrella, the raindrops like countless elves bounce open, beautiful and transparent, like my heart, transparent like a lily in the dark night, silently exuding a faint fragrance.

Spring is coming, with that brisk footsteps, such as my heart can not be said to like, the original cold North Pole, there is also spring, but the equator stretches out the posture, is untouchable distant, like the bauhinia flowers in the branches, the fragrance of the flowers, like a dream that can not be touched, the bright and dark fragrance in the heart, you can only pass by, smell the fragrance, I can't stop the feet are living in the bright light flowing cool, the palm can not hold the fragrance of the branches, I can only look up at the time you have passed.

In the spring, I had a long dream, with that bright wound, I don't know how it ended, whenever the shadows fell, blocking my view, in front of you, I had to learn to hide.

Everyone has their own fairy tales, in those fairy tales, life after life, immortal, some just to prove that we are more and more lacking in love, more and more in need of love, and I can't live in a fairy tale without you after all.

There are always some dreams that suddenly go away on the journey to realize it, as if nothing has happened, but everyone knows that everything is over, and in the long journey of my life, or lost, or painful, or sad, or inferior, or happy, or moved...... All of them were relieved by their own sentences, it turned out that liking was not a dream, so, everything ended here, as long as the word was not spoken, all likes, it's just that it was a storm, they could lose the reason for the pain, but before, those ended in the best form, the so-called I always thought that you have a way of liking you, and when I see the hustle and bustle hidden behind me, you will always stay in my heart.

If I knew that I wanted to be in this corner full of your taste, I would have been able to learn how to love, how to let go, how to let go of you, I learned to be silent, if this is the best place I can give you, after losing him, I am glad that I met you, and I am glad that I met you, I saw my past self.

I used to think that one day, you would forget me, sometimes I would wonder, will you wait for me when you came, maybe on the road, I walked with you when I came, but we passed by, and when I stood under the redbud tree, I decided to remember with the memory of my life that I had been to this place, under the redbud tree, I wanted to forget the fragrance that emanated.

Maybe the shadow is the shadow, and my appearance can only be in the night, silent, bland, lonely, but cold. Sometimes, the distance between the shadow and the person is only the distance between the feet, that is, that distance, which they cannot cross no matter how hard they try.

Sometimes, we can cross all those distances, but we are afraid of this and that, and in the end, everything we have is lost.

Tonight, I walked quietly alone in the dark, my whole heart was very low, and before I knew it, my eyes were red......

Heaven is cruel, I am only a few steps away from you, I look away, turn away, and no one can see my heartbreak when I leave.

If this is the wrong person, why bother to meet each other, we are always one step late, so, in this city, I think I can bless you in the best way.

It's not that I don't love, I just don't dare, I don't know how you will look at our encounter.

Maybe no matter how much perfection there is, when it is lost, it will become imperfect.

And in my eyes, what you carry is only a cripple, after all, I dare not keep up with you, I have tried to change the relationship between us, but, in the end, I still hold back, because the distance between us makes us prohibitive.

I obviously like it, but I am separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, and I am obviously in love, but I am far from the Chu River and Han Realm.

I used to be so convinced of love, looking at one divorce after another, I didn't know how to write down my feelings, maybe I shouldn't say anyone, just for such an unbearable love, it's not worth it.

I like the word shadow, so inexplicably, maybe because of his stillness, in the source of light, far away, and with some unreality, that unreality, you are almost delusional obsession, want to get closer.

Just like between us, we are obviously so close, but we choose to be separated, my little purple, how can I love you, and how can you love me with the courage to betray the whole world, the two of us are destined to only be in the realm of Chu He and Han in this life, looking at each other from afar.