"Still swollen?" I asked Tong Wangjun.

"Well, it's very uncomfortable, Xiaole is two years old, and it's still like this, and it occasionally seeps out when running. Tong Wangjun nodded, also very troubled by this matter.

My breathing was a little heavy, and my voice trembled: "Why don't I rub it for you?"

Tong Wangjun didn't look at me, nor did he answer my words, just nodded his head.

My hand snapped up.

The smell of the quilt suddenly became beautiful, and I smelled a faint smell of milk.

Tong Wangjun's breathing also became heavy, and she let out a soft snort, her legs stirring gently in the quilt, which seemed to give me a signal, and I pounced.

The sanity in my mind had been washed away by the hormones, and my head was low and searching.

Tong Wangjun gently pushed me twice and didn't struggle anymore, I wantonly snatched the food that originally belonged to Chen Le, Tang Wangjun snorted lightly, and his head was tilted up, revealing his white neck.

My hand slid down Tong Wangjun's waist, touched a piece of clothing that was in the way, and pulled it down hard.

Although it was the first time in the real sense, there were many things that I didn't need to learn at all, and under the control of hormones, I knew what I should do next.

Tong Wangjun did not resist, I successfully faded the last obstacle, and I was about to complete the final dream.

"Are you responsible?" Tong Wangjun said suddenly.

I was stunned, stopped moving, and looked at her, a little puzzled.

Tong Wangjun's face was very flat, his head was lowered, and he looked at me: "I'm in the ovulation period." ”

Ovulation means that pregnancy is possible.

My expression changed, and I immediately became weak, and my reason instantly returned to my mind: "I'm sorry. ”

"If you want to be responsible, you can continue, I won't stop you. Tong Wangjun said.

Tong Wangjun's eyes made me dare not look at her, and I got off her body in a hurry, and I didn't say anything for a while.

"Don't you dare?" Tong Wangjun seemed to be sneering, with resentment in his smile, "Are you reluctant to Tang Wan, or reluctant to Su Ran?"

"Don't say it, I'm sorry. "Tong Wangjun's resentment did not make me angry, but made me ashamed, I didn't know how to deal with it, I was ashamed.

"Why don't you say it? Don't you want to know why I divorced you, I said, not because you are not motivated, nor because you gamble and are willing to fall, but because you have another person in your heart, even if you marry me because of responsibility, but you still think about Tang Wan. Tong Wangjun cried.

I was a little overwhelmed, I didn't know how to comfort her, and I didn't expect that Tang Wangjun would divorce me because of this. I originally thought that she wouldn't care about my feelings for her, because my union with her was an accident, not a relationship, so how could she care if there was another woman in my heart?

"What you said is true, but I didn't force you, don't you mind at all, do you care if there are other women in my heart?" I said with some suspicion.

"I was indeed forced, but after all, we got a marriage certificate, I was pregnant with a child, and I gave birth to a child before I got pregnant before I was married and was not of the legal age of marriage, do you know how scared I was? For a long time, I didn't even dare to tell my family, I just silently endured the panic. Tong Wangjun sobbed in a low voice, and there seemed to be a lot of grievances in his heart, "Your parents are worried that you will be punished by the criminal law for you, knelt in front of me, and asked for my forgiveness, I agreed, saying that you are my boyfriend." But do you know how much pressure I was under, I went to school with a big belly, and I was looked at strangely, and you, who drank every day, ended up gambling on it. ”

"But you are not useless, at least you know how to care about me, when I vomit, you will ask for care, make breakfast for me, buy some fruit every two days, peel it and put it at the head of my bed, occasionally accompany me for a walk, you even go into the delivery room to accompany me when you give birth in the hospital, hold your daughter every day and refuse to let go, I am also a person, how can I not feel any of this?"

"But in the end, I found out that the reason why you did this was not because you liked me, but because of responsibility, what you thought about Tang Wan in your heart, I felt that I was forced to marry me, I was sorry for her, I failed Tang Wan, and because this incident affected your chances of going to college, so you gambled, you drank, and you were willing to degenerate, and punished yourself in such a way, it is useless for me to persuade you, and it is useless for your parents to persuade you. ”

"Seeing that you are depressed every day and drunk every day, you can't even find your way home, you haven't come home in the middle of winter, I'm at home with two children, and I'm worried about you, I'm really about to be crushed. After thinking about it, since you think of Tang Wan so much, then I will give you freedom and no longer bind you. ”

My heart is very heavy, I didn't expect Tong Wangjun to have such feelings for me, she divorced me for such reasons, she divorced me in order to fulfill me, I turned my head to look at her: "I'm sorry." ”

I don't know how to express the emotions in my heart other than those three words.

I can only tell her I'm sorry.

"I'm sorry? I know if you can say anything else when you say I'm sorry. divorced me, but you didn't go with Tang Wan, but got closer to Su Ran, you and Su Ran have only known each other for two months, so it seems that you don't love Tang Wan so much in your heart, drinking and smoking are just excuses, just an excuse not to want to be with me. Tong Wangjun said.

"I lost my memory, I don't remember a lot of things. I said.

"The memories you lost are just memories about me, what does it have to do with Tang Wan?" Tong Wangjun said disdainfully, "In the final analysis, you are just unwilling to bear the pressure and be responsible, so you want to run away from me, you are a scumbag, see one and love another." ”

My heart hurts, and Tong Wangjun's words hurt me deeply.

I'm wondering, is everything she said true? I'm really a scumbag, seeing one and loving another?

Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, and Su Ran are constantly changing in my mind, and I can't figure out who I like, or if I like all three, but this is against morality, and I may really be a scumbag.

"I'm sorry, I'm a scumbag. I didn't have the face to face Tong Wangjun again, I got out of bed and put on my coat and went out silently alone.

Walking to the fields outside the village, I took out a cigarette in my pocket and lit one for myself.

I put on a coat, but because there was smoke inside, the pungent smell spread in my lungs, and it relieved the discomfort in my head and the pain in my chest a little.

Sobbing and smoking, I suddenly cried and gave myself a mouthful.

I'm really not a person, I always feel that I don't accept gifts from friends, I don't call them easily when I am in trouble, I am righteous enough, as a friend I consciously do not add trouble to them, what pain I endure myself, this is a friend, I do well enough, I am a good person.

But in fact, as Tong Wangjun said, I'm just a scumbag.

I drank heavily, smoked, and gambled just to escape responsibility and pressure, maybe I didn't see myself clearly, but Tong Wangjun saw through me and knew myself better than myself.

I'm thinking about what to do in the future, how should I face Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, and Su Ran.

My head hurt a little, I didn't think of a way to deal with it, my head was a mess, I had no clue, the more I thought about it, the more I had a headache, and I just smoked in a sullen way.

When it was a little light, I quietly went home again, opened the door and put on my clothes.

"You ran out to smoke again?" Tong Wangjun asked me, she hadn't slept yet.

"Sleep for a while, I'll go down and make breakfast, and you'll get up and eat later." I said.

"You don't have to have so much pressure, since I divorced you, you don't have to be responsible for me, and you don't have to worry about your two daughters, I can take care of them myself. Tong Wangjun said suddenly.

I don't know if she cares about me or mocks me, and even the latter I can't be angry because my guilt and hurt for her pales in comparison to this taunt.

I really hope that Tong Wangjun will beat me hard, so that I may feel better.

"Let's go back early today, and I'll go back after a little rest after breakfast. I said, "You hurry up and get some more sleep, and you have to drive." ”

"What are you doing so early when you go back, what's the matter with you?" Tong Wangjun asked me.

"Go back early, let's go and buy a piano for Ake. I said.