(PS: From the 1st, now is tomorrow, to transform into a diligent bamboo, to begin to restore fù fixed two changes a day, I hope you continue to support Ha! ）——

Slender fingers flick on the piano, with a faint melody of sadness, like a babbling stream flowing out from under the black and white keys, and then through the guò amplifier, filling the entire gymnasium.

This piece has long been played by Cheng Dù even if he can't read the score. Facing the face of the blurred reflection on the front baffle, Tang Xiaonan laughed self-deprecatingly, whoever repeats a song hundreds of times can do this.

The tangled churning in my heart, in this music, habitually slowly becomes calm. Because, in the end, this is the only thing she can have, and only this song belongs to her.

From the moment she got the score, she stayed alone in her room, and she couldn't help but play it over and over again, listening to every sad note as she went.

Whenever this happens, I wonder why that person is making such a tune and what kind of mood he is in. The more she thought about it, the more she wanted to know him better, and the more her heart became entangled, but even so, she was willing to indulge in it painfully.

With unspeakable selfishness, she quietly learned lyrics to make this piece complete, at least in her heart. But he never thought to take it out, and he didn't dare to imagine letting him know, let alone sing it in front of him like this.

All she thought about was to secretly bury it in her heart, and then when no one was around, when she was lonely, she would turn it out again, and let it crush the heart that had long been broken over and over again.

That should be the answer. The pedestrians in the streets and the rain were laughing at me. It must be ridiculous, as long as you accept the reality and move on, it's very simple, but it's very difficult. ”

The cold square, the gazebo blurred by the rain, and the two figures sitting inside, that day, shattered her world and wrote an answer that could not be changed.

I have watched a lot of TV series and movies before, and the love depicted is always so sweet and bright.

Occasionally, she will have a girl's reverie, firmly believing that she will wait for college. When I grow up, I will be like those girls, and I will gain such a feeling. However, she never thought that it could also be painful, painful and heartbreaking, painful and helpless.

See him, hear his voice. Eyes and his casual touch......

Knowing these bits and pieces will only make yourself more miserable. Even so, it was difficult to control the heart that wanted to get close, even if I went back, I could only hide in the room alone, crying silently again and again.

"In your mind, I must be just a clown! Turn to tiredness, to scarred bodies, to respiratory arrest. Only sadness is my end, and I will never be able to turn to you if I try hard. ”

The voice is low. Gradually, he couldn't hear the music he played, and he gradually couldn't hear the songs he sang unfamiliarly, and all that kept echoing in his ears were the words that he had said to him personally.

"I know you like it...... I. ”

"Lin An, can you not like me. I appreciate what you've done, but I, I really don't like you......! It's that I don't like anybody! We're just students, and we shouldn't think about it that much. I just want to study hard and play the piano well......"

"If you're willing to say yes, then we can be ordinary friends, like ...... A friend like a good classmate. ”

"Lin An, did you really agree? Don't go back! Otherwise, ...... Otherwise......"

……

Tang Xiaonan lowered his head, his vision was hazy, and he saw that in the reflection of the baffle, there was only a ridiculous face, "It was an accident, and it was also a fate, it was better to know that you didn't know anything, but if you touched your temperature, that smile, that kind of gaze, how to forget it." ”

I thought about how good it would have been if we hadn't met him for the first time last year, how nice it would have been if I had never known him, how good it would have been if I hadn't been friends with him, how good it would have been if I hadn't had those heartaches and heartaches......

However, the thought of not being present in his own life, the tearing pain in his heart became unbearable.

"Say goodbye to yourself, give up, and look at you again. I'm left alone, and the world is spinning, spinning as if nothing happened. Maybe in your heart, I'm just a clown. yes, I'm just a clown who expects you. ”

Tears rippled and kept dripping on the back of his hand, and he bowed his head deeply, suddenly wishing that she was the only one left in this world.

I remembered the first time I saw him in April.

I remembered the annoyance of seeing him at school, the secret gratitude for his help, the time spent together at the piano, and the ten fingers that struck a beat faster than a heartbeat when he taught himself the piano.

I will never forget the heartbreaking rainy day, the temperature when he hugged himself downstairs that night, the drunken anger of the Haisha Hotel, and the fact that he once held his hand and walked through the dark corridor......

If you can understand your heart earlier, if you can know him earlier, if, if you can fantasize selfishly, if that person is not Ruan Ruan, how good it would be!

The music disappeared into the distance, and she took her hand away from the piano and hung limply to her sides.

It's over, as long as you fly abroad, you can end it in one qiē. At that time, no matter how weak and sad he was, he didn't have to worry about being seen by him, and when Ruan Ruan saw it, he would eventually forget it little by little, along with that beating heart!

With a strong emotional rendering force, when Tang Xiaonan stopped for a long time, everyone woke up from the sound of the piano, and the sentimentality that held their hearts retreated, and in an instant, the scene erupted into extremely warm applause and roars.

Everyone knows that Tang Xiaonan plays the piano well, especially after two successive promotions in the second middle school, but no one has ever heard that the piano princess can sing. Well, the singing voice is not perfect, the voice is a little trembling, and a little hoarse, but the singing is not bad, as for the piano performance, it is needless to say.

First, the students who were close to the stage stood up and shouted, and the students behind them got up in a row, and the teachers and members of the student council on both sides hurriedly stopped it, but the scene was almost instantaneous, and it couldn't be stopped for a while.

In the midst of the crowd, I saw Tang Xiaonan get up from the piano from a distance, bend sideways to the audience and salute, and then turn around and leave in a hurry.

Lin An looked at the figure that quickly disappeared behind the curtain, turned around, and looked at Ruan Ruan in surprise.

Hearing that it was an unfamiliar song title, Lin An still thought about whose song it was, and when Tang Xiaonan played the prelude, he remembered that this was a song he had composed. I remember that the tune had just been revised that day, and she and Ruan Ruan inadvertently discovered it at her house, and when I saw that she liked it very much, I gave it to her.

During the Chinese New Year, I heard Ruan Ruan say that Tang Xiaonan began to learn lyrics, and then introduced her to several books on lyrics.

Unexpectedly, in such a short time, she was able to try to compose lyrics, and she did it very well.

Although the lyrics are a little sad, they fit this lyric song, and I thought that she would have to study for at least half a year before she could start to write lyrics. (To be continued......)