When I lived in the countryside, I had a sister next door who grew up playing from childhood to adulthood, she was very beautiful and loved to be clean, because of the good relationship, the parents of the two families also said that they wanted to order a baby kiss for us, our two families were very close, my sister and I liked to play chapel since childhood, and my sister would naively say that she must marry me when she grows up, and I also said that she would marry her.

I was a few months older than her, and when I was ten years old, my sister's parents divorced, and her mother went to the city, and her father married another woman in the village, and I heard that it was the butcher's daughter, who was very strong, and they soon had another boy.

My stepmother was not good to her, I could often hear my sister screaming in the dead of night, one day during the day, I saw her kicked out by my stepmother, my stepmother scolded and said something, holding a belt and constantly beating her, until she held her head and cried and didn't dare to speak, I was scared to cry, I saw my sister outside the window being tortured by my stepmother, I could only watch, and that's it......

About half a month later, I saw my sister again, at that time she was very hungry and very thin, her hair was very short and messy, her face was gray, as if she had been picked up from a garbage can, she was wearing dirty clothes, she seemed to be beaten and autistic, she was very scared when she saw everyone, once I saw her stepmother, her frightened body was trembling.

I saw my sister's miserable life with my own eyes, and every day she would sit in front of her house with a small bowl of rice and a few green vegetables to eat, and needless to say, her stepmother would not let her eat at the table. In winter, I often saw her washing clothes at the door of her house at six or seven o'clock in the morning, wearing a patched cotton jacket, her little face was dirty, and her hands were bruised from cold.

Once someone knocked on my door, I went to open the door, and found my sister coming, her hands were dirty, but she was holding a piece of peach cake, and then whispered, "Brother, .....".

After listening to it, I was surprised, it turned out that she could still speak, she used to love to laugh and be clean, but now it is different..... I took the peach crisp and took a bite of it, but I felt something salty in my mouth, as if it were tears......

At this time, in the house a few meters away, the stepmother suddenly rushed out with a stick: "Okay, Xiaoice, you actually dare to steal the peach cake I bought from the city!"

When my sister saw it, she screamed in fright and squatted on the ground with her head in her arms, but her stepmother didn't show any mercy and beat her until she was bruised all over her body.

And I was scared, and the peach cake in my frightened hand didn't hold it steady, and fell directly to the ground and shattered.

My sister's stepmother looked at me, and I quickly cried and said, "Auntie, my sister gave it to me..... Don't blame me".

After listening, my stepmother poured all her anger on my sister, who was curled up on the ground that day and couldn't move, and she didn't go back to the house until she was tired, and my parents just looked at it after returning from farming, bowed their heads and went back to the house, and I didn't dare to say anything, just watched.

Later, my sister's biological father came back, her biological father was patriarchal, holding the son he had with that woman in his hand, seeing his sister's tragic situation, the biological father sighed: "Hey, Bing, why do you always make your mother angry, I really don't want to raise you!"

My sister was finally carried back to the house, and she looked at me with tears in her eyes, and her mouth seemed to call her brother again......

Later, when I was in the first year of junior high school, my sister stopped going to school, and she used to study very well, but now she is autistic like a fool and doesn't talk all day.

When I was in my first year of junior high school, I was coming home from school with a few friends, but I saw her on the road, still dirty, she seemed to want to call me, and I quickly glared at her, for fear that people would know that we knew each other.

"Where did you get this to ask for food?" A friend of mine said with a laugh.

As soon as the words fell, my sister cautiously shouted: "Brother Chen An......"

It was quiet, but a few of my friends heard it and they all stopped.

A friend of mine couldn't help but laugh: "Haha! Chen An, you still have such a dirty sister! It's the same as asking for food."

When I had said that, everyone began to laugh at me, and then my vanity began to play awkward, and I was afraid that tomorrow they would tell me that I had such a sister.

I immediately glared at her fiercely and yelled at her, "Who are you? Why are you calling me?"

My sister looked at me blankly, not knowing why I was yelling at her, her mouth seemed to want to call me, but she didn't dare, and there was a trace of fear written in her eyes.

At this time, everyone was still laughing at me and telling me to stop pretending.

I blushed, I actually felt sorry for my sister who played since I was a child, but she embarrassed me in front of so many people, thinking of this, I walked over and kicked her, my sister ate less, and she couldn't help the wind, and fell directly to the ground after I kicked it, and cried out.

I felt my heart tremble, but I still gritted my teeth and said, "Don't let me see you on the road in the future, lose.... Shame on you, I don't know you at all, you still pretend to know me!"

As I spoke, I felt a little guilty, and I was speechless, but I wanted to save face so much that I told a few friends that it was okay, let's go!

I didn't see her on the way out of school for two years, and I could only see my sister doing laundry in front of my house when I was at school, and then she would sneak a peek at me.

I regret it, I feel like I've gone too far, but I'm still too hypocritical, I thought to myself that it's okay if she doesn't look for me, save others from talking behind my back, I think so in my heart, and gradually forget about her.

When I was in the third year of junior high school, I went home with a female classmate every day after school, and the female classmate was very beautiful, and I liked her a little, and I felt that it was a pleasure to go home with her.

One day after school, it rained heavily and black clouds were everywhere, and my female classmates and I didn't bring umbrellas, so we had to wait at the school gate like most students for the rain to stop.

Who knew that in the midst of the rainstorm, I saw a petite figure, her body was drenched, but she seemed to be holding something in her arms.

I glanced at the beautiful female classmate, and then at the figure in the rain, and I had a shameful thought, if this figure in the rain could fall, then maybe I wouldn't be ashamed.

But there was no if, my sister rushed into the building, she didn't have an umbrella, she was shivering, barefoot, covered with mud, and walked towards me, dirty and smelly.

Everyone looked at her with disgust, and my sister walked over to me, and her voice was as small as a mosquito: "Brother Chen An......"

I saw her gradually loosen what she was holding, a pair of worn-out rubber boots with lots of mud spots, one of which had a hole in it.

I glanced at my sneakers, looking at her thin clothes and bare feet, and I was suddenly a little moved, she didn't want to wear them herself, she must have frozen.

But at this time, a beautiful female classmate suddenly asked me, "Chen An, is this your sister?"

After hearing this, I panicked all of a sudden, I didn't know how to answer, I quickly glared at her: "Why are you here again! Didn't I tell you not to come to me?"

My sister was stunned and took two steps back, but she still wanted to hand me the rubber boots.

At this time, a friend of mine said: "Chen An, are you poor and can only have rubber boots with holes, and you are not afraid of leakage?"

Hahaha! A lot of people started laughing at me.

I blushed, walked up and pushed my sister down: "You are stupid, which garbage can pick up rubber boots, can you still wear them if they are all leaky?"

My sister was the same as three years ago, thin as paper, and she sat down on the ground as soon as she pushed it, looking at me aggrieved and sluggish.

I trembled, so many people looked at me, I knew that I had lost my face, and at this time, the beautiful female classmate also came over: "Chen An, just now my friend told me that she brought an umbrella, and I left with her first."

Her eyes were already full of disgust, and she stood a few meters away from me, and began to deliberately keep her distance from me.

I hurriedly said, "Then let's go together tomorrow!"

"Forget it!" the pretty female student gave me a deep look, then turned and left.

Seeing this, I was dumbfounded, and for a moment, I felt like I had fallen to a low point, the ridicule of my classmates, and the dislike of the girls I liked.

"Back to ..... home". My sister stood up at this time, tremblingly holding the rubber boots, and wanted to hand them to me.

I was furious, I suddenly knocked over the rubber boots to the ground, and pushed my sister to the ground: "Go back to your home! Do you have an umbrella? Just a pair of broken rubber boots, how can you go back?"

I almost yelled at the top of my voice.

My sister seemed to see me roaring like this for the first time, and she was terrified, and her autism and humility were written on her face.

"Get out! Get out of here! I don't want to see you again! It's not a good thing to have you, how embarrassed you are?" I yelled, pointing outside the school building.

My expression was very hideous, my sister was frightened and cried when she saw this, and she fell to the ground before she could stand firmly, and only got up the second time, ran out crying, and then disappeared into the majestic rain......

And this time, I didn't know that I didn't see her again in the countryside, until I was left alone in the school building, and I still stood there and couldn't let go, I was angry that she had made me so embarrassed.

I saw the rubber boots on the ground, I thought to myself where this was picking up the garbage, when I walked over, I was dumbfounded, because it was black rubber boots, there was a lot of blood on them I didn't notice, I suddenly thought of the muddy field in the countryside that is difficult to walk, and thought of her dirty body, she doesn't know how many times she fell, right?

In order to send me rubber boots, she didn't have an umbrella, she was shivering from the heavy rain, I can imagine how many times she fell in the mud, even if she bled out, even if she had to face my cold eyes, even if she was afraid of me who cared about me the most......

Thinking of this, my nose was sore, I suddenly rushed out of the heavy rain with rubber boots, I didn't stop, I ran until I got home, I didn't see my sister, I was scared, I shouted into the air with a crying voice: "An Bing!!"

Sorry for not calling her name until now.......