The scene in front of him and Sinan's voice dragged vaguely like a video that had slowed down, making Su Mo feel dizzy. She held the corner of the table with her right hand, barely holding herself on her feet, while her left hand pressed hard against her sore temple, trying to sober herself.

However, this action did not help, and soon she felt her head feel like it was about to explode. She really couldn't support her body, and sat down on the chair that Ah Shu had prepared for her a long time ago. And at the moment when she sat down, countless strange and terrifying images suddenly appeared in front of her eyes.

It is strange because in her memory, she has never experienced the scenes recorded in these pictures, and it is terrifying because in every picture, there is a her, from the perspective of a bystander, to feel everything in this picture.

She was terrified of what had happened as her hallucination, screaming as she closed her eyes and waved her arms in an attempt to sweep the images away from her eyes. But the more she moved, the more images there were in front of her, until all the black in her sight was filled, and she suddenly felt something shoot at her heart.

It was as if the blood was constantly draining, and her body became cold and stiff little by little. But she slowly opened her eyes and looked at Sinan seriously and painfully.

"My original intention was to write everything about him, I obviously wanted to write his story, how did it become like this, what am I doing, what have I done......"

After saying this sentence without a head, she curled up in her chair, hid her face and cried again, crying until she almost collapsed. The other three couldn't stand the cry for a long time, and they only heard it all over their bodies, and there was no pity for them. And Sinan looked at her expressionlessly, and said to her very calmly word by word:

"You were born with the feelings of all things, and you should have done everything in the world with the most objective and fair heart. If the emperor has your help, he will be clear and clear, not disturbed by traitorous ministers, and work hard to make the country prosperous. If the historian has your help, then the things written are all historical facts, and there is no slightest falsehood, and the historical facts can be passed down for generations to come, for future generations to read and study. It's a pity that you were neither reused by the emperor nor used by historians, but were selected by a scholar to use it, which changed your original fate. It's just that even though fate has changed, you shouldn't be like this. The reason is that your heart is not strong, and you have been influenced by scholars to end up like this. If the obsession is too much, it will be a disaster, and the scholar will experience ups and downs because of his deep obsession, and he will lose half his life. And his lifelong obsession is imposed on you, so that you forget your responsibilities and forget yourself. Now, as I said, do you remember who you really are?"

It stands to reason that there is nothing wrong with Sinan's unspoken narration of a fact. It's just that in front of such a woman who cried so miserably, breaking her identity so much can't help but make people feel a little ruthless. Bonghyo on the side really couldn't stand such a scene, and reached out and handed a box of tissues to the woman, trying to say something to comfort her. But after the woman turned out to be a tissue, she didn't give him a chance to speak, and after smoking a few sassafras tears, she sobbed and revealed her identity in person.

"I was originally a pen made by a craftsman for a historian to write historical facts, but because of the greed of the craftsman, I was sold to a rich merchant at a high price, and the rich merchant transferred it to the master as a reward for the portrait painted by the master. The owner loves pen and ink, because I have a special background, so he loves me for ten minutes. I followed my master all my life, and his love and hate, his persistence and pursuit, and his cowardice were almost all written on paper through me. I can relate to the owner's emotions. And after the death of my master, I could not bear this huge blow and turned into a human form. I forgot my original identity and thought that I was the master, so I walked a lot of places from the perspective of the master, to feel the various situations of the world, and to write about the world. But while forgetting myself, I also lost my fairness and objectivity, and deviated more and more from the original appearance of the facts, always looking at right and wrong with my own emotions. Later I realized my abnormality, but I don't know why I became the way I did. I forgot a lot of things, I just remember that I wanted to find a meaning, but I didn't know what that meaning was for. I was very confused, so I continued to walk, walking all over the country, seeing all kinds of scenery, and listening to all kinds of people tell their stories. I recorded all the stories I heard, but when I looked back, I realized that what I had written didn't make a story at all. They don't have souls, they're just words, they're dead. I couldn't believe that this could be what I had written, I thought it was just that the story I had experienced was not deep enough, so I continued to search, and I continued to write, and I continued to be disappointed and frightened. Now it seems that the original stories are all wonderful, but I am stuck in an endless cycle of my own design, and I can't see their essence. In the end, I did something wrong, and these seven emotions and six desires are really harmful. ”

At the end, Su Mo looked at the tissue full of tears in his hand and smiled self-deprecatingly. Si Nanben felt a little sympathy for her, but after he heard this last sentence, his eyebrows were sharpened, and his face became more serious.

"I wanted to help you, but you didn't remember anything you should, so there's nothing I can do, and we'll talk about it until you've thought it through, and there's no need for us to talk until then. If you want to leave, you can leave at any time, and if you don't want to, you are welcome to stay here. Ah Shu, I'll leave it to you here, I'm tired and want to take a break, so you don't have to call me for dinner. ”

No one expected Sinan's attitude to change so quickly, and by the time they confirmed that Sinan was really angry, Sinan's figure had already been reported at the end of the stairs. Ah Shu and the three of them looked at each other for a long time, and they were a little confused, and they didn't know why Sinan suddenly had such a big temper. In desperation, Ah Shu had no choice but to follow Sinan's arrangement and ask Su Mo's opinion.

Although Su Mo was also a little dazed, somehow, what Sinan said made her heart tremble. She seemed to remember something very important to her, but the feeling faded so quickly that before she could catch it, it was gone. She wanted to know what she had forgotten and what she had missed, so when Ah Shu asked her how to choose, she chose to live without hesitation.