I'm a person without happiness because I don't know what happiness really is.

Asagami Fujino thought so until he was twelve.

This seems to outsiders to be a very ridiculous thing.

The Asagami family is a well-known family member of the Nagano generation, and being able to have this surname is a blessing in itself, and being born into such a family means that her starting point is naturally much higher than that of ordinary people. Isn't this moaning without disease?

The reality is quite the opposite.

Moaning without illness is hypocritical, and moaning when there is illness is a matter of course.

Fujino has a disease, "painless". I can't feel pain, I don't know what pain is. And without this contrast, we don't know the happiness and pleasure that is relative to it.

Since she was a child, she was inadvertently cut by a knife, but she didn't feel anything, she has become such an anomaly.

She didn't know why the people around her were afraid, obviously there was nothing to be afraid of.

She didn't know why they were laughing, obviously not happy at all.

No crying, no laughing, no joy or sadness.

Without the most vivid and important feelings in these two lives, the other emotions will also become very light.

Doll dolls.

Cold beauty.

She had heard people say that about her more than once, but she didn't feel it at all.

To be precise, she has never had a real sense of her existence.

Sleep is to complete a task, getting up is to complete a task, going to school is to complete a task, writing homework is also a task, and even being alive itself is a task to complete, just like a walking corpse.

It's not surprising when I'll die, maybe I'll be freed then.

Fujino thought so, more than once.

If you don't have a real sense of life, you naturally don't have any fear of death.

Even if her family was on the verge of bankruptcy, she was forced to come to the door by splitting up and asking her mother to remarry, and she didn't feel it at all when she changed her surname.

Isn't it just a mission? Is there a difference between completing a mission in Nagano and completing a mission in Kanbuko City?

Looking back now, I really have some lingering palpitations.

If you die like this, you will never meet that person for the rest of your life, and you will never understand what happiness is.

Yes, at the moment when fate was about to reach the end of the abyss, and at the moment before the fragile sensibility was worn out by time, she met a person, a man who changed her life and changed her destiny - Shinji Makiri, who was a child under ten years old at the time.

This amazing child met her at a drinking party. It's the first time they met, but they saw through the truth they tried to hide - the "painlessness" that her father didn't allow her to expose in front of outsiders.

Obviously, there was no intersection before, but for the first time, I understood what pain is.

It was he who helped him get his pain back.

It was he who made himself feel joyful.

It was he who got all the feelings back for himself.

He is the second person to admit that he is human, the first is a mother, and the only person in the family who doesn't call himself a monster.

He said, since he doesn't feel that home, he might as well come with me.

He said that you are the only being in this world.

He said, I want your strength.

He said, "Be my family."

This is the first time I have been needed.

This is the first time I have understood the difference in the weight of "family" and other people.

There is nothing to hesitate about, and there is nothing to be nostalgic about. Since he was able to give himself pain/pleasure, since he needed himself, he should go to her.

The reason for the strange is the purest idea.

A rash decision is the most sincere hope.

Even if hell lies ahead, she doesn't hesitate in the slightest - it's better to feel hell than not to feel it. Even if you regret it, it's a matter for the future.

With such emotions in her arms, she followed the man she had only met a few times and went to a strange city, a strange residence.

But there were two things she was wrong, and she was very wrong.

First of all, it is not hell that awaits her, but heaven.

No one here will call her a monster, everyone is very nice to her.

His father, Tsuru, would always ask if there was anything wrong with him, and his sister would help him with all kinds of chores.

And the one who cares the most about him, thoroughly implemented his declaration, that is, "need", ran around with himself, and found a teacher for himself to better learn to control his own strength.

"Grow up quickly, and then you will be our trump card. He said this to her the day after his formal apprenticeship.

At that moment she cried, laughing and crying.

If it was a dream, she hoped she would never wake up for the rest of her life.

If this is not a dream, then she will do everything to protect this "happiness".

That's right, that's what "happiness" tasted for the first time in her life.

How empty it was in the past, how strong the reality was now, so strong that it easily overwhelmed all her past lives.

Sounds ridiculous?

However, if you have not experienced the kind of life in which you have no real sense of what you do or how you do it, you will never be able to understand the preciousness of sound senses.

The girl's heart easily fell.

Every word he said, she remembered by heart.

Everything he wants him to do, she will do her best to do well.

He wanted her to grow up quickly, so she frantically absorbed knowledge from her teacher.

He asked her to transfer to the Liyuan Girls' School, and she went to school there.

He said that girls should cherish themselves more, and she dressed herself up every day.

He said that your mother loves you and goes to see her more, so she goes to spend time with her every weekend.

He said that to be healthy and happy, this does not need to work hard.

Because I have always been happy, even if I encounter pain, it is worth being happy.

Passive? Not assertive?

Fujino won't deny it, because she was originally such a person. But there's nothing wrong with that, who says it's not good if you don't have opinions? Aren't you doing well?

Of course, there are still wishes, which have been made on the day of the fall, and gradually increase with age-

Twelve years old - listen to him and be his assistant.

Fifteen years old - always by his side, no matter what capacity.

Eighteen years old - if one day I lose all my memory, remember his name too.

Twenty years old - give him a pair of lovely sons and daughters, the daughter should be more beautiful than himself, and the son will be like him.

Twenty-two years old – if the Holy Grail can really grant wishes, listen to my heart and let his wish come true.

She had never said these words to him, and had been silently hiding them.

But she will do it with her own actions, five, ten, twenty years, or even a lifetime.

Just like the woman she admires the most, the philosophy of life of Elsa.

Companionship is the most affectionate confession, even if everyone in the world leaves you, I will be by your side.

Forever with the king's side.

PS: Sending dog food is addictive, continue to send it.

PS2: As a digression, the characters who appeared in the month were divided into three levels of the pyramid, but now the fourth floor of the household has appeared, and the XX of the swimsuit activity, that is, the appearance of X hair after growth, is different from the ambiguous (clam) setting of X hair BX. This one clearly picks out the combat effectiveness - the star explosion, and the full output can blow up the planet. And at the end of the setting, it was clearly stated that if she came to Earth again, the problem on Earth (the alien god whitewashed the earth) had not been solved, and she would solve it herself - in other words, our Miss XX Artoria didn't take the alien god in her eyes at all, and the alien god was greatly weakened.