Why did it collapse a little bit in an instant?

When Wu Yan swept his left hand in the afterglow, the emotion of inferiority just now suddenly swept in even more turbulently, strong and overflowing.

...... What the hell is this, and why did you meet them?

...... Why was my determination to change so easily destroyed by convincing myself to be confident?

...... This time, I obviously have the capital and power to choose, don't I?

...... So why am I so?

...... I'm not reconciled!

It's just that at that moment, Wu Yan also understood how ridiculous the so-called "capital and power that he could choose" was.

The kind of self-confidence and indifference in the "children of other people's families" that Wu Yan envies, how can he have it by relying on materials alone?

Those things must be hidden behind a certain vision and experience.

These are some abstract things, she has never touched, how can she understand? How can she have them if she says she wants to have them?!

No matter how rebellious Goldfinger is, he can't give her these things.

Be. The wine is hers, and there is a good chance that no one will be able to take it. But all the wine lord can give her is a way to make her strong. Instead of letting her have a strong real confidence all of a sudden.

...... So, what is the real confidence to make yourself strong?

...... Self-confidence, ability, money, or position?

Wu Yan didn't know, she only knew that now she was not qualified to be unwilling. What's more, if you are unwilling, what will you do?

But when she understood it, she was angry, and she couldn't help but be angry. When the anger exceeds a certain threshold, it is irrational, and after being irrational, Wu Yan simply lies down without doing anything and buries himself in the quilt.

At this time, she didn't want to see them very, very much.

In Wu Yan's definition, they are beautiful, good-looking on the outside, and open on the inside. In the same way, she doesn't want to expose herself, such a bad self, a wreck of inferiority.

As soon as the darkness was hidden, she was so angry in the quilt that her teeth trembled, and she couldn't help but whisper to herself: "I'm so angry! You stupid fool, you're a dead man!"

Wu Yan felt sad in his heart, the kind of sadness that was close to collapse. No one will ever know that she is sad at this time, not because she can't say it, nor because she was defeated by that person. It's not because I am secretly jealous of their beauty.

She was saddened only by herself.

It's sad that after all, I can only "have low self-esteem and a bad nest".

...... I'm such a person. Sure enough, even if you change your identity, even if you hold a mysterious thing, there is still no difference between that essential self.

...... After all, he is a person with low self-esteem and bad self-esteem, and he can beat himself all over the ground with a small thing.

When a person has to understand such a thing about his true self, it is really a very bad and cruel thing.

Wu Yan watched his false self-confidence in this way, crushed to pieces, and there was no wreckage to be seen. Tears rolled down the corners of his eyes.

Wu Yan, who has only turned 18 years old, doesn't know, she really can't know: how can a person who has had low self-esteem since he was a child lose those low self-esteem, how to build self-confidence?

The only thing she could think of was ...... It's clumsy to the west and east, clumsy to be high-spirited.

Now, she finally understood how ridiculous and false this method was.

It's not going to work.

But...... But what do you have to do to make it work?

She couldn't find an answer.

So sometimes she always secretly hopes, can someone tell her the answer?

......

Seeing that the little lady who was still talking and laughing freely just now suddenly buried in the quilt in fright, and seeing that the quilt was trembling slightly, Yan Huan suddenly lost her mind. Ask yourself, is it too much?

Yan Huan hesitated, gently pulled the quilt and said, "Little lady." Yan Huan stopped joking. ”

Wu Yan subconsciously tucked the quilt tighter, and after a while, a sullen and dumb sentence came from the quilt: "Who am I?"

After Wu Yan couldn't help but say this, he couldn't figure out whether he was asking them who the owner of this body was, or who could he be in this body?

Or, who can she be?

Yan Huan didn't know what to do for a while, and looked up at Ruan Jian behind him. Ruan Jian shook his head at her.

"Yan Huan, I don't embarrass you. You call your family Langjun to answer me.

"He must know...... He knows. ”

Wu Yan began to be unrelenting, because she couldn't answer herself when she asked herself at this time. Then, you can only throw the problem at them.

She wants answers! now. It must be right away!

After a while, Wu Yan, who was stuffed in the quilt, heard the man reply, "Okay." I answer you. But I'll only answer this question as well. ”

Wu Yan is not a person who has no desires, not to mention that she has already experienced such a growth process as "from a small town to a city", and she knows very well how important a person's initial identity is.

It is self-evident how important a good background is to have the chips that are invisibly given away behind its fate. What's more, this is an era of "no poor family in the upper grade, and no gentleman in the lower grade".

As long as you are born in a big family, you can be a prince for generations and nobles for generations. It doesn't take much effort to occupy an absolutely special position politically, economically, and culturally. What's more, the immeasurable connections behind it, protégés and former officials are all over the world, and it is easy to have absolute priority in the inspection and requisition......

These temptations are too great.

Wu Yan couldn't help but silently recite a sentence he had read before in his heart, "The world occupies a high position, and the Han Shi is subservient." ”

Who doesn't want to be in a high position?

Who is willing to succumb?

......

Wu Yan subconsciously shook his hands into fists, but he didn't have a good impression of that person in his heart after all, and he couldn't help but wonder: Is he really willing to tell me who it is?

But at this time, even if he questioned that person again, at the moment when his life experience was about to be revealed, Wu Yan still couldn't hold back his somewhat excited and nervous mood for a while, and suddenly sniffed his nose too hard, and suddenly blocked his chest with a breath. As a result, his voice is even weaker and more pitiful when he speaks.

"Quick, quick. Wu Yan's nervous mood at this time was really no less than when the college entrance examination results came out.

In that world, the college entrance examination changes fate. Here, if nothing else, it is definitely the origin that determines the fate.

Life may be regarded as one exam after another. And it is very certain that no matter when, the connections and resources behind the family will always be the "big hand" that must exist by default.

These ubiquitous "big hands" can easily stir the lever of victory and defeat and determine the direction of a person's fate.

Some people say that it is not fair or not, it is a resource that people have worked hard to accumulate for generations. Don't complain, you can't be a "rich second generation", shouldn't you beat yourself up and aspire to be a "rich generation"!

...... It's too hard!

Wu Yan prayed very hard in his heart at this time: Let me be a "rich second generation" with no ambitions!

On the other side, Ruan Jian suppressed the corners of her mouth full of malice, and when she thought of what she would do after listening to her answer, her mood was so good that her eyebrows instantly rose.

...... What about that scoundrel just now? So, you were wronged?!

...... This official is rarely interested, and he feels sorry for himself without adding fuel to the fire.