Chapter 1209 Luo Ning's thoughts at the time

Who knows, the more cold she is, the more she wants to see Lin Hai. But I don't know if Lin Hai deliberately retaliated against her or what, he had already put the matter of marriage on the agenda. But he suddenly stopped, and made up a reason that was not like words, and it seemed that he wanted to regret the marriage.

Luo Ning, who had no confidence in himself, was of course going to die of sadness at that time. The man she really liked at first sight still didn't like her as much as she did. She is in a bad mood, but she has the heart to die. But Ronin's father only has one daughter, so she can't let herself have trouble.

But for this, she was in a bad mood. She doesn't like to be in her room when she's in a bad mood. It just so happened that there was a lotus pond that her father had built for her when she was very young. She had always liked the delicacy of that place, and because it belonged to her alone. If she was upset, or if she was tired of managing the entire Lin family, she would come here to relax.

I always feel that as soon as she comes here, she has an inexplicable peace of mind and familiarity. Even if something happens here, it will fall and die. She will feel at ease, and it is really good to feel that this is her home.

This kind of thought, every time she comes to this lotus pond, it always pops up inexplicably. At first, of course, she was flustered. She was only a teenager, and she had been living a comfortable and happy life, how could she suddenly come up with the idea of her fate after death. This kind of thinking really makes her feel magnificent.

However, it was only because this thought came out that she felt grandiose, but this thought made her feel that instead of being grandiose, it made her feel at ease. This unbelievably unique idea is also what makes her feel strange. But as the number of times increased, she didn't find it very strange.

And even many times, when she looks down at the lotus pond, she always thinks, "Ah, this is the place where I will be buried in the future." Looks pretty good. "This kind of similar thought always comes up. Therefore, she will always explain to people that she must clean up the lotus pond, and without anyone knowing, she is preparing for her own future.

Even, after meeting Lin Hai, she always likes to come here no matter whether she is in a good mood or not. The number of times she comes here, anyone can see that she is getting more and more frequent. Of course, she knows this herself. And she knew it as if she was in a hurry to die here. But she just couldn't help but come here.

Now that I'm sad, of course she's still here. I don't know why, on this day, the lotus pond she saw seemed to be cleaner than ever. She knew that someone had cleaned it up yesterday. She happened to see it when she was passing by. He also praised the new gardener for his serious work. Who knows, when I saw him today, it was cleaner than ever, and I really should reward that gardener.

It's just that she is really not in the mood to explain these things now. She just wanted to be alone, sitting here quietly, by the lotus pond. I don't want anyone to come and disturb her. And she did confess before she came here, don't come and bother her. And it's a stiff face, and the mood is unusually bad.

With such a look, even her father didn't dare to provoke, let alone the people in the house. Miss is fine at all times, and only when this happens rarely, no one can get close. At that time, she needed absolute silence, absolutely no one to disturb her.

So that was the time, no one dared to come and disturb her. Don't even dare to approach the neighborhood. Because they have also heard that Lin Hai came over, and there was a sense of regret before and after speaking. Although he didn't say it explicitly, the whole province felt the unhappiness. So, that time, they didn't come closer, they didn't even dare. I am afraid that their troubles will make my eldest lady feel even more embarrassed.

That time, Luo Ning looked at the lotus pond beside him, and his originally troubled heart, originally painful and sad, gradually settled down. I even feel that I am plunged into it like this, and then all the pain can be relieved, and even happiness.

It was also this time that in the "dream" where Wang Yuening and Luo Ning met, the person who Wang Yuening saw with his own eyes finally appeared. However, it is a pity that although Wang Yuening saw the man at that time, he did not see his face. I only know that he is a man, a man who makes her feel good.

As for these memories, Luo Ning was just showing them to Wang Yuening at that time, she knew that these things were happening, but she was not like Luo Ning, she was directly involved and had personal feelings. But this time it's different, what Wang Yuening sees and feels, all of which are Luo Ning's own feelings. It is equivalent to that she is the real Luo Ning.

This time, she really remembered her pain at that time. And her unusual reassurance at the sight of this lotus pond.

Of course, because it was her own feelings, she was in a daze at the lotus pond, so she could only feel that someone was pushing her. However, she didn't know who pushed it. I didn't even see or hear the man's footsteps.

Even even, the person who pushed him gave her the feeling that she could be trusted. It seems that even if that person kills her in person, she will feel that it doesn't matter, just kill her, it's not a big deal. It's a weird feeling. The hand that pushed her and gave her the feeling of peace of mind and trust that even her father had never given her.

Or rather, that feeling, as if she was the owner of those hands, and whatever she did to her, she could accept it. She felt that it didn't matter, and even accepted it with a smile. And the feeling she felt when she was pushed down can be explained by the word "finally". It seems that since she had her own idea, since this lotus pond was built, she has been waiting for this day to come.

At this time, she originally thought that she would think about a lot of things. But in reality, she didn't think about anything else. All the troubles, all the shame, all the pains are gone. She never thought that she could have such an easy time. She even felt that she should thank that person.

With a "plop" sound, Luo Ning fell into the lotus pond like this. She didn't even struggle for a moment and just accepted it. In the water, he closed his eyes peacefully.