I suddenly realized that Tang Xin's marriage values have some similarities with mine.

It scares me a little.

I thought I was a maverick. My marital values are different from the popular marital values, most of whom succumb to secular marital values and stick to obtaining a license and registering.

But I'm different, I think if there is love and affection between two people, even if they don't get a certificate, they don't have any relationship, and even I have longed for it, if Su Ran, Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan and a few of them agree, maybe we can live happily together without a certificate.

As long as there is love, no matter what others think, as long as you are happy and satisfied.

I only thought about this in my heart, and never said it, and I even felt that my view of love and my marriage values were very lofty.

The people next to me are all pedantic and stick to the status quo, only I can see through it, even if they oppose it, it doesn't matter, because they are pedantic, can't see through, and don't see the true essence of marriage.

But now, in Tang Xin's body, I found similar marital values to me, and her marital values behavior is actually disgusted by me.

I was struck by lightning, and suddenly I felt that my previous thoughts were very childish and selfish.

I hate Tang Xin's behavior, I think her behavior is very irresponsible, very disgusting, and I even want to slap her twice to show her anger.

But my ideas are somewhat similar to those of her in some respects, and I hate her behavior, doesn't it mean that my behavior should have been disgusted by me in the first place?

Contradiction.

In fact, from beginning to end, my marital values were a product of my self-congratulation.

I don't know how I got out of the villa or how I got to the classroom, I didn't listen to the lecture well all afternoon, and all I thought about was what Tang Xin said.

I don't know what to do anymore.

On the surface, I am stronger than Tang Xin, at least I didn't meddle in other people's marriages, but this is just the appearance, in fact, there are not many people I hurt, Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, and even Su Ran may be hurt by me.

I didn't go back to Eshi, so after the afternoon class, I drove the car to the riverside alone, found a place to squat, and smoked silently.

Looking at the turbid river, looking at the steamers and steam ferries passing slowly on the river, my heart was very chaotic.

The incident between Tang Xin and Zhou Kai had too much impact on me, which made my values change a little, and I was determined that something had been shaken.

The problem that I had always wanted to escape from and not want to face came back to me, but I didn't know how to choose, I didn't know how to face it.

I'm not ready.

Tong Wangjun, Su Ran, Tang Wan, who should I choose?

Is it still like this, oscillating between three people, swinging back and forth all the time, or stepping on several boats?

As long as there is love in the heart, regardless of other worldly concepts, follow your own heart?

But if I really do this, won't I become a person like Tang Xin?

Can I do it, can I do it?

I'm confused.

I really wish I hadn't met so many women, I really wish I had only met one woman, whether it was Tong Wangjun, Tang Wan, or Su Ran, all I needed was one.

But now there are three of them.

It was getting late, and I ran out of cigarettes, and I reluctantly stood up, although I still wanted to squat here, to hide here, not to face, not to choose, but I knew it was impossible.

I can't hide here all the time, I can't keep running away, no matter what the outcome, whether I choose or not, there will be a result.

My phone rang, and Tong Wangjun called me: "Aren't you coming back today?"

"I'm not going back, I'll be back in two days. I said, "How's your business, are you too busy to pick up the kids, just tell my mom and let my mom pick up the two kids." ”

"I'm busy, and opening a studio is not a company, just two or three people, and the procedure is much simpler than opening a company. Tong Wangjun said, "By the way, Mom came over today and brought chicken soup."

"You don't have a good appetite right now, so don't drink chicken soup if you can't drink it. I said.

"I drank more than half of it, not greasy at all, the taste of chicken soup is very good, before I was pregnant with Ake and Xiaole, my mother made chicken soup for me to drink, the taste is very good, than outside the hotel