She's dead, dead for years.

I received the news of her death on a blazing summer day, and the blazing sun was blazing on people who were doing nothing, forcing them to do something.

That day, when I was in class, my mobile phone rang, and a prompt text message came, I opened it to see, and I was silent for five minutes. I got on the train back to the province, without contacting anyone or with anyone's permission, and embarked on a long and long journey by myself. I don't know where my destination is, but the only thing I know for sure is that I'm going to step on it wherever she has footprints. No one forced me to do it, and I didn't have to, and I don't know why I had that thought, maybe it was to satisfy my rebellious heart, maybe it was to be idle, or maybe it was like the crappy ninth-rate poet said: escapism, obsession with old people and things, and extravagant hope to go back to the old days......

When I woke up, the chandelier was dangling in front of me, the windows were unfastened, they were hanging straight up, and the wind blew the curtains against my hair. The room was filled with the smell of disinfectant water, and I gradually got used to the pungent feeling. I was supposed to be lying in a hospital bed as an injured person, but I was sitting on a small bench where the patient could rest.

The facilities in this room are extremely simple, a bucket of pure water, a water dispenser, two small benches, a wired landline, a medicine cabinet, and an unknown herb stacked in the corner, plus a man who is about to fade into a "strange man", ready-made things immediately create a rural clinic.

The villagers call this man - Ale (I know him, but I don't bother to ask what his real name is).

Ale was very famous when he was young, his father was a local village official, he was well-read from an early age, he was young and talented, and he could write well. At that time, he was the object that all girls from all over the country wanted to marry.

But only "then", in 99 his father was removed from his post for taking bribes - his day has changed since then. Later, some people talked about his father, and those three aunts and six mothers-in-law were happy to put up a dragon gate array to add fuel and vinegar to the trivial affairs of his family and cultivate neighborly relations.

His mother was a beautiful woman, and she was frail and sickly, so of course she couldn't listen to those words. Within half a month of her husband's accident, she died. Ale's father is an only son, and after the accident, there is no one, and his mother's family has been implicated in the accident of her husband's family, and the lawsuits have continued, and they can't take care of Ale at all. However, relatives advised Ale to leave, go anywhere, and wait for the turmoil to subside for a while, and then settle down.

Ale's choice was to stay, when he was 25 years old.

After his family fell into the middle of the road, he was forced to live in various helplessness, and followed the villagers into the mountains to open up the wasteland the next year. The young and promising young men in the village basically went to work in other places, but he was obsessed and stayed in the village and followed the wasteland team to eat. After three or five years, the village is still the same as before, the difference is that there are more rich people. The migrant worker who made a windfall returned to the village to show off, but he was still destitute.

Autumn was a season of joy, and he was so busy sweating that he ignored the heat of the sun, and buried his head in the barren fields, just to lay the grain before dark. Those of his generation, even much younger than him, all gathered together to eat big fish and meat, and Hu Tianhai ate them......

The reason why I know about his past is because a man told me. That person was very important to Ale, and that man had been in a relationship with Ale for seven years, so why did he stay, I think it was probably because that person was here.

I think it was because of that person – the woman I never saw again in my life – that I would never see again in my life.

Why he started the clinic, I don't know anymore. Although my reason for coming is simple, it is not voluntary. Reminiscing was necessary, but I was really hurt. The shuttle bus into the village had an accident halfway, the body hit the mountain wall, the glass was broken, and several passengers on the bus were thrown out and turned directly into the ravine.

According to Ale, we were found in the river at the edge of the village, and my condition was nothing serious, except for a large cut in my chest. Of the people who were thrown out together, I was the least injured, while the rest of the seriously injured passengers were transported to the county hospital for rescue after a simple bandage.

Ale brought me a bowl of medicinal soup and told me to leave when I was done, followed by men in police uniforms, who had come to investigate the wreckage. I said vaguely as Lao Le told me, they comforted me a few words and left, and finally told me not to move around and wait for the medical car of the county hospital, and they also opened my mobile phone without authorization to contact my father to explain the situation here. It turned out that there were many wounded, and because the time of discovery of the victims was not concentrated, there were not enough medical vehicles! I was the last to be left behind -- the wounded.

Disadvantage was the word that came to mind at the time, and I was really unwilling to have to go home before the first stop was settled. But what can be done about this, why skipping school, traveling?

I didn't care about the accident, I cared about it. Looking back, I was surprisingly calm and clear-minded, which would not have been possible at that time. The feeling of the aftermath of the catastrophe did not exist at all, and it seemed that a thought was instantly formed in my mind, and I did not even think about whether this idea was reasonable or not—jumping out of the broken window of the clinic.

By the time I came to my senses, I was at the gate of an elementary school, and the smell of earth told me that this was the place I had been obsessed with. The sun was at its best at five o'clock in the afternoon, and the sunset shone on my face, warm, and although it had been abandoned for a while, I felt that this place was full of life, as if I had returned to my childhood, and all I saw in my eyes were the figures of children playing.

I wandered in front of each classroom one by one, searching my mind for bits and pieces about her, but things were not everything.

I think I will not come back again after visiting the old place again......

Obviously, it was pursued so passionately before, but it was so ruthlessly cooled when it was around. With a deep sigh in my heart, I got back on the road and set out on my way home. Some people are like that, they get what they want, they lose their passion, I didn't think I was like that, but I found that I really am.

I can't guarantee that I remember the way to the clinic, so I can only walk with vague memory, and I later realized that I went wrong, because in my memory, there is not a gazebo in this vicinity. But the weather suddenly became overcast, and a summer rainstorm came on the horizon, without giving people time to prepare.

I was not the only one who went into the pavilion to take shelter from the rain, there were also two outsiders, listening to the accent, it seemed that they were from Hunan. I thought to myself, I guess it's some people who have money and don't know where to spend it, so they come to the mountain village to find the meaning of life. Because a lot of their bags are tourist equipment, they have a mountain pickaxe with them.

They took out two bottles of mountain city beer and drank to enjoy the scenery of the mountain rain, the leaves of the trees came in waves with the wind, like endless waves, undulating and rustling, and there was such a natural scenery that could not be seen in the big city. I believe that everyone who is accustomed to car exhaust will be conquered by the beauty of nature when they come here.

I found a clean place to sit down, patted the raindrops off my body, sorted out my messy hair, and waited for the rain to stop. A Cantonese man gulped down half a bottle of beer, burped and said, "The spicy locals said that this girl has been dead for several years and has nothing left, I think it's still the same, have a good time and go back." ”

The other person shook his head, put down the bottle and said, "This person is very special, he is not abducted, but he is missing." Her family didn't call the police, but they were looking for our private detective alone, and she had been missing for several years, so her family thought of finding someone, which is problematic in itself......"

"Alright, you stop. We're only responsible for finding people, and if we can't find anyone, forget it, what kind of does the employer think about us?"

"I just think it's a bit of a weird task. Forget it, since everyone is dead, I don't want to stay here any longer, I'll leave tomorrow, I've been running to death for the past few months, how can I be in the mood to play, if you want to stay, stay. ”

"I'm enjoying life, and the company is short of money? You stupid pig won't understand. ”

“……”

I thought to myself, these two have a bit of a background (but I just don't ask). At this time, I looked outside, the rain seemed to be much lighter, and I was about to leave, when a yellowed photo suddenly fell out of the backpack of the two men, and the photo floated onto the road and washed into the dark hole with the rain. When one of them saw this, he was anxious and shouted: "Photos, photos, why don't you put them better?! We have one, and we have to take it back to the employer!" The other person was also a little at a loss, and he couldn't let go of his face, and retorted: "How did I know it would fall out? ”

I looked a little helpless, and the two men made a fuss about this......

I spoke, "I can get it back for you if you want, but for a fee!"

"Yes! Yes, thank you very much, young man, we are too big to get into that hole! If you can get it back, we will pay you three hundred dollars, do you think it will be okay?" said one of them excitedly as he pulled out the money.

I swallowed, looked at the thickly propped purse, and unwittingly took off my clothes......

I'm not petite, but I don't have any good things in society. But in this place, this advantage is perfectly exploited. I slowly burrowed into the dark hole, but fortunately I took off my clothes, and I was not afraid of getting dirty against the wall. With a flashlight in my mouth, I put my hands on the ground, and walked slowly, the dark hole was a little long, I looked at it for a while and still didn't see the yellowed photo, and the more I went in, the smaller the hole became, until I couldn't enter, and then I had the idea of giving up.

While sighing for the three hundred bills that I was about to get in my hand, I withdrew from the hole, my hand was still holding on to the bottom of the water, but after touching it for a while, I suddenly found a thin thing scratching my finger, I was immediately excited, and I picked it up and saw that it was indeed a yellowed photo, but it was stained with mud, and I put it in the water to wash it for a while, and took it out to see the appearance of the person in the photo.

It's okay not to look at it, but it really almost scared me out of heart disease.

It turned out to be her!